Guess who bribed there mother into letting them write this. So I have a small announcement. I like this little universe so much I'm going to write as much stories in it as I can. I might even write up until the boys adult lives. I understand if you guys want to stop after awhile but I'm just going to keep going because I love writing and these characters. I've already got more idea's for when this stories over so I can't wait until I get there. Not that I'm going to rush through this one or anything.


The first thing I notice is pain, a drumming inside my head. Then the cool air, the smell of hay. It took me a second to realize I was in Danny's barn. Opening my eyes I was happy to see It was pretty dark in here, still early probably. I rolled over and winced and the movement, felt like there was a jackhammer in my head.

Taking a few minuets I let my eyes adjust to the darkness and made out a shape of someone laying across from me, Cas. What the heck was he doing here?

Memories came flooding back to me, the bleachers. I groaned and bit my lip. I was so screwed very, very screwed.

"Cas, wake up," I mumble shaking his shoulder. He murmured something unintelligible before opening one eye and glaring at me. "Morning."

He raised up and wiped the sleep from his eyes before sighing. "Time to explain," He said firmly.

I groaned again and plopped back down into my sleeping bag, "Can we please wait until my head stops hurting," I said muffled by the blanket.

"No. Dean tell me the heck you were doing," He demanded. I cursed under my breath as I raised up to glare at him.

"You know what I was doing I was getting drunk," I snapped.

"And this," He said loudly grabbing my wrist and jerking it up in front of my face. Red angry cuts.

Him grabbing it made it sting, making it all the more real. How screwed up was I?

"I'm sorry," I whispered before dropping my head in my hands.

We were quiet a moment before he spoke, "Do you remember anything you said last night," He asked carefully.

I shook my head, wincing at the movement. I barely remembered anything, I remember the bleachers and Danny's house but that's it.

"How often do you do that," He asked gesturing to my arm. I shrugged, almost every time I get mad or scared or something. I've been doing it since I was 8 but nobody ever really noticed. Sammy would believe whatever lie I came up with and when he got older I'd just hide it. The staff or foster parents just thought it was normal for there charity case to act out.

"So I'll take that as a lot," He sighed. Shrugged, again.

"Why are we in the barn," I asked changing the subject. Cas was my brother, I didn't want to dump this crap on him. We stayed out all night and Mary and John were going to explode when we got home.

"Danny, said she'd bring us something to eat before she left for school," He explained wrapping the blanket around himself tighter, I followed his movements myself. It was freaking cold in here.

"You got Danny to help you look for me," I asked. He nodded, biting his thumb nail.

I sighed at the boredom that time. "How how much trouble you think were in," I asked slowly.

"Maybe we'll get to come out side for graduation," He said sarcastically. I laughed and thought of poor Sammy who'd have to walk himself to school from now on. Maybe he could tell his class mates about the legend of the brothers locked in his basement.

"Boys I'm coming in", Danny announced before climbing the ladder into the loft. It was warmer in here, they hay made good insulation. She was carrying a plastic grocery bag. "I told my mom I was taking some trash out so I have only a little bit," She said more to Cas than me. In fact she was avoiding all eye contact with me.

"Thanks," Cas said taking the bag from her, then he started to split it up between us.

"Any idea what your story is," She asked, taking the sandwich Cas offered her.

"The truth", He said regretfully. My head started to drum again.

"Looks like you can hold your alcohol pretty good," She said pointedly to me.

I sighed, "I've had plenty of practice."

"So how long 'have' you been doing this," Cas asked handing me a sandwich.

"Whenever something sucked, I drank. Simple," I explained. I was just sick of having to deal with everything. School, people, foster parents, brothers and the fact I was going insane.

"Find a new way to cope," Danny said bitterly. She had a right to be mad at me, I wouldn't be surprised if she dumped me. God though I hope she doesn't, losing her would definitely send me off the edge, that I seemed to be standing right next to.

"We better get home, we'll see you when the sky falls," Cas sighed standing up and zipping up the jacket, Mary had insisted he started giving the trench coat a break. He reluctantly agreed and started dressing a bit more normally. In my opinion he's only doing it so the kids at school will get off his back.

I mentally punched myself and stood up on shaky legs. I still felt like my head was gonna burst and that I was gonna puke any second.

"Bye Dan," I said quietly as we passed her, climbing down the latter. I'd talk to her soon, explain everything. If she dumped me I deserved it, I just hope she doesn't


Me and Cas stood on the porch. Both cars were parked in the driveway. Both parents were home. We were double dead.

I had hoped only one would be home. So by the time the other got home they could make sure they don't kill us.

"Do it, just open the door," Cas pushed.

"You do it," I hissed back at him. He glared at me but made to effort to move. So we both stood there looking stupid.


My word count ran out, part two will probably be posted a few minuets after this.