A.N. Hello guys! I am sorry for not being able to put up this chapter for so long, but honestly I was disappointed after Lex`s death on the show, I know it may sound lame, but it was just stupid. Anyhow, that said, I hope you like this final (for now) chapter, if you guys like it please comment or like and let me know that you want me to continue scribbling. I am working on continuing the story in Polis and see what happens with the Azgeda`s advancing war campaign. Also I will put some more things from Lexa`s past and we`ll also learn something new and important about Hope. Enjoy!
P.S. Once again, sorry in advance if there are some grammar errors.

It became customary for me to wake up facing two of the most beautiful people in the whole world, the skaiprisa that was contently sleeping on the other side of the furs and the little bundle snuggled between us. My nightmares were becoming less and less violent and slowly thoughts of Clarke engulfed my dreams. Just like every morning I was greeted by bright brown eyes and a soft giggle, the rain outside had almost stopped and I decided to take the little bug for some fresh air and give Clarke a few more minutes of undisturbed sleep. I learned the hard way that a cranky Clarke was worse than fighting a Pauna. But, just as I made my way to the cave`s entrance, I heard a tiny whimper escape Clarke`s lips. The unexpected noise made me stop immediately and turn towards her, I saw Clarke turning around and whining for a moment before hot tears started coming from her eyes and she muttered something that turned into angry and panicking shouting "No, please… NO… Don`t you dare Lexa!"

My heart shuddered into a million tiny pieces again, she must be dreaming of the mountain once more, with all the intimate moments that we had shared over the course of the past weeks I wanted to believe so desperately that she had begun heeling, but perhaps I had been too foolish to realize how impossible that would be. A wound like that didn`t heal, it only scarred, but the dullest of aches was always there, no matter how much time had passed, no matter how many words of love and devotion were exchanged. "I want you! No, no…" Okay, enough was enough, I know that dreams are something very important for us to cope with the decisions we make, but I couldn`t handle seeing Clarke like that anymore, not even a moment longer. I rushed back to the now twisted furs and let the little bug sit on the ground beside them while I gently squeezed Clarke`s shoulder, but that didn`t seem to help a lot. The girl in front of me was still mumbling stuff and crying hard, her whole body was covered in a sheen of sweat mixed with the endless tears that were falling from her shut eyes. I put my hands on both of her shoulders and shook her more forcefully and finally I saw those once clear and sparkly blue eyes that were now red and puffy open up. It took her a moment to realize where she was and what had happened, nobody talked, the baby was sitting on the ground looking around her, but didn`t make a sound. Before I know what was happening I was knocked out on my butt and felt strong, hot arms engulfing me and hugging me so hard that I almost fainted from the inability to breathe. Strangely enough, I didn`t want the oxygen if that meant those hands around me would leave my body, I couldn`t care less about breathing while I was feeling Clarke`s erratic hearth beat so close to me.

- It`s okay Clarke, breathe. – I said as calmly as I could, but my vice was laced with worry and I could only return the hug she was giving me, not knowing how to actually calm her.

- Please Klark, it was just a dream relax. – My hand was painting senseless circles on her back and I whispered softly sweet nothings into her ear, but she was still crying, I could feel her hot tears ran down my neck. After what seemed like an eternity, her breathing finally started to slow down and she had stopped crying, but we were still holding each other impossibly close.

I started to pull away wanting to look at her, tell her again that everything was okay and kiss her worries away. I wanted her to know that I was still there and I wasn`t going anywhere, I needed her to know that she can trust me, I wanted her to feel safe once again with me or maybe even for the first time. But the moment I loosened my grip on her she tightened hers, making me understand that she wasn`t ready to let go, having each other close was everything I ever wanted, but I didn`t want to make her feel uncomfortable either. After all, she still wasn`t ready and I would wait for her for as long as it takes for her to trust me again.

- Clarke – I whispered softly.

- Talk to me prisa… please.

A moment later and Clarke was still silent, my mind was running wild with all the possible solutions for this moment, but suddenly I felt her head tilt up a little and she lowered one of her hands from around my neck to the hem of my t-shirt.

- Come here. – I continued whispering and adjusted our position to a more comfortable one.

I said softly, dragging us to the near rock so that I`d be able to support my back without falling on the ground and making the current situation even more awkward. With my back pressed against the cold stone I felt how Clarke shifted her position and was currently lying between my legs, head pressed softly on my chest and her right hand was still playing with the hem of my shirt. Before I could stop myself I caressed the top of her head and gave her a little kiss. We stayed like that for a while and the baby girl that was only a few steps away from us was still playing quietly with some stones around her.

- I lost you. – It was the softest of whispers that left Clarke`s lips, but fresh tears streamed down her face. At first I thought I had heard her wrong.

- I lost you and I couldn`t do anything about it. – I tried hugging her tighter. She hadn`t dreamed of the mountain, the realization struck me like a lightning from a clear sky that made my head spin and my heart pound like crazy.

- I lost you Lexa. I cannot lose you, not so soon after we just found each other again… not ever.

- You haven`t lost anything Klark, I am right here, with you. And I`ll stay as long as you need and want me to. – I said softly, renewing my drawings of random patterns up and down her forearm with my right hand. She was crying softly again and I knew that I just had to let it get out of her system.

- Then stay… stay forever. – her blue eyes were now looking at me for the first time this morning, but her voice was still a raspy whisper and the words.

- I`m not ready Lex and I don`t think I`ll ever be. – confusion quickly washed over me and I was beginning to panic and think that I had misinterpreted the whole situation. Maybe she was talking to me as her friend not as… well, not as something more, but the blonde in my arms quickly realized my fears when my body tensed suddenly thus betraying my mind and she elaborated quickly.

- I am not ready to lose you. Not you, nor Heda. You are one and the same, two faces of the same coin, and I know that Heda will define most of your decisions, but she is Wanheda`s problem. You Lexa, are the only one that I trust with my heart. We both made mistakes and we will be paying for them for the rest of our lives, but I want to spend that time by your side. I don`t want to continue fighting this. I can`t continue raging war on two fronts. – hearing those words made a single tear slip from my eyes and I had to remind myself how to breathe again. Having Clarke so closely pressed to me and knowing what she was feeling at this very moment made me think again of how lucky I actually was.

- I am yours Klark, never doubt that. I will always be yours. – I was always preferred actions than words and she seemed to understand it when she said:

- You are mine as I am yours. – and then looked from my eyes to my lips and back to my eyes, not asking for permission, but instead announcing a decision.

And that was it, that was the last thing that left her lips before I lifted her chin with my fingers and kissed her softly. A kiss as gentle as the rain that was falling quietly from the sky again. Soon hands began to roam and explore, we only parted for a moment to catch our breath and I could feel her soft palms mapping out my body like it was a sculpture she wanted to memorize. I lost all track of time and only became aware of our surroundings when the little bug beside us began crying loudly once again.

- I would love to stay here like that with you ai prisa, but I think that this little one is going to turn me permanently deaf if we don`t see what she wants.

- She must be hungry. I`ll see what I can get her from the bags…

- No! – I said too quickly to be considered polite and put a hand on Clarke`s waist, not letting her move.

- I can take care of her, you can go for a swim and relax a little more. I don`t want to see the dried tears on your beautiful face, I can`t handle seeing you like that more than I have to.

And just like that the biggest smile I had ever seen appeared on the Skaiprisa`s face and she gave me a slight nod with her head, but before she pulled away completely from me she asked again.

- Are you sure you know what to do with her? – and gestured to the baby with her head.

- I have been watching you these days you know. I am more than capable of taking care of that little bug for a while.

- As you wish Heda, but remember to change her first.

Change her? I did not think about that. Oh well, if I could unify the 12 clans and prevent a war with the 13th I could certainly change a baby…or at least that`s what I thought. Our morning went on like always, only this time I took some berries from the bags we had gathered earlier and after my third attempt at changing the baby I finally managed to wrap her up somehow and take her outside where now the sun was shining from between the clouds. She was a very curious little one and I decided to let her explore the world on her own. I took her by the hands and let her stand on her own, the muddy soil was dirtying her small feet but she giggled, she made a few small steps swaying all the time, but I didn`t let her fall. With each little step she was getting more and more confident, but soon she had mud all over her tiny legs. We were on a clearing near the cave that was filled with flowers of different colors and the little bug alternated between half-walking, half- wobbling around the field and picking flowers when she felt like it. I felt eyes looking at us and I knew that Clarke was standing right behind… and I was right. Dressed in new clothes and a damp hair hanging loosely around her shoulders, the Skaiprisa was watching us from afar. I let the girl I previously held by the arms to crawl around on her own and went up to Clarke`s left side.

- Clarke, I was thinking… - but before I had the chance to finish she interrupted. No wonder we had so many miscommunications in the past, we never listened to each other.

- If you suggest we stay behind and let you walk alone in an armed, war- prepared enemy camp you are seriously mistaken Lex.

The thought of even suggesting that made me chuckle, but I could understand why she was saying it and she wasn`t far from the truth, but after this morning I couldn't bring myself to ask that of her. She was a leader and just like me, she needed to be on the front lines. It was just something we owed to our people. After all who would follow a leader that cowered behind an army?

- No hodnes, I wouldn`t dare to suggest you that. – and the softening look on her face gave me the permission I needed to fully express my thoughts.

- Actually, I was wondering, if maybe… perhaps you`d like to sort of keep the little bug with us maybe... once we get back to Polis and all? – I said it so blurry that I had to scold myself mentally for making such a horrific sentence structure that was spiraling out of control.

Clarke was looking at me with her azure eyes and only a smile graced her angelic features. She remained smiling and I couldn`t help but babble out my panicking thoughts.

- I know what you must think, how could we of all people dare to even dream of keeping her? How could Heda, the heartless leader and Wanheda the conqueror of death herself, even think of keeping this new and untainted life to ourselves? How could we even contemplate, raising life when our own lives are filled with so much death and suffering and pain? And I know we`ve just admitted how we feel, but the future isn`t certain and I don`t know if I`ll be lucky enough to have a day or a year by your side and I want it all with you. She – I gestured to the little girl – She has no one and yes I think that we can find her some marvelous people to look after her, but why should she grow with the tales of the courageous Klark kom Skaikru instead of her actual persona? She adores us and I have never felt so complete as I have these last few days with you. Both of you. I want to wake up and see your beautiful faces every day until my fight ends. – I said taking her hands in mine.

- But… what happened to Hodnes laik kwelnes Commander? – she asked with a little uncertainty in her voice.

- Someone showed me that it was a weakness worth fighting for… ai hodnes. – I said with a gentle smile on her face and felt her arms pulling me closer to her. She cupped my cheek and pressed her lips on mine again, in a gentle but also very demanding rhythm.

- Okay Commander so apart from trik prisa, how can we call her?

- Hmm… I think I have the perfect name in mind. It`s one we both discovered in each other and more importantly in our hearts.

- … Hope. – Clarke said huskily and the name sounded like the sweetest music coming from her lips. We were lucky enough to survive until the day we found Hope (yes, hope in every sense of the word) and now it was time to begin living.