My apologies for the delay, my lovely readers. Hold on to something! This chapter is full of angst.


"My God. Oh my God. What did you tell him?!" Dean was currently in a panic. After Dean dropped Roman off at the hotel and went home, Sami was there waiting for him. He explained what happened at dinner with Kevin.

Sami sighed. "I lied. I told him Grace was my niece. Don't worry, he believed me." Dean took a deep breath and collapsed on the couch. "I'm sorry about the photo. I should have thought about it and changed it."

Dean shook his head. It's not you're fault. It's mine. You shouldn't have to lie for me. I should have told Roman the truth from the beginning." He turned to look at Sami. "I'm sorry I made you lie to Kevin."

Sami shook his head. "It's fine. You do need to tell Roman though, and quick."

Ambrose nodded. "I know. He came all the way here to meet me, I need to be honest with him. I just...hope he understands. He's taking me to dinner tomorrow night. I'll tell him then." The two best friends grew quiet when they heard someone fumbling with the lock on the front door. A petite blonde with short hair walked in, her high heels clicking against the wooden floor. She raised an eyebrow when she noticed how quiet Sami and Dean were. It was unusual and it usually meant they were up to something. "What are you guys doing?"

Dean rolled his eyes in annoyance. "Nothing. Where is Grace?"

Renee adjusted the shopping bags she had hanging from her arm. "With my mom. She begged to sleep over. She's probably tired of hearing you yell at me."

Dean laughed and looked at his daughter's mother like she was insane. "Me yelling at you?! Please Renee" Not wanting to start another argument, Renee walked away and went to the bedroom. "Can you believe her?" He said to Sami.

"You guys are still fighting in front of Grace?" Sami asked with disappointment in his voice.

"I try not to yell when Grace is around, I really do Sami but Renee just makes me lose it! She's the absolute worst!"

"Which brings me to my next question...why the fuck are you still living here with her?!"

"Because of Grace, Sami. Grace deserves a stable home and her parents together. I do it for her." Dean answered sadly.

"Grace seeing and hearing her parents fighting all the time isn't stable, Dean." Sami stood up and walked to the door. "I know you don't want Grace to suffer but she is. Hearing you and Renee fighting all the time will destroy her in the long run. Think about it."


Dean was nervous. He was on his way to meet Roman for dinner. The past three years, Dean has been wanting to tell Roman the truth but could never bring himself to do it. He was petrified that Roman would never talk to him again. Now, he really had no choice. Ambrose arrived at the restaurant and noticed Roman standing in the parking lot, leaning against his rental car. Dean parked and got out, immediately heading towards Roman.

"Hi." Roman smiled.

"Hi." Dean rested his body against Roman's as they kissed sweetly; Roman cupping his face softly. The couple stayed in that position for a while, kissing each other deeply. They could definitely get used to this. When they finally pulled away, Dean noticed just how handsome Roman looked. He was wearing a black button down shirt and nice jeans, his hair in a low bun. He was perfect. "You look nice."

"Thank you. So do you." Roman pecked Dean's cheek. "You could've given me your address and I would have picked you up."

Ambrose shook his head. "Nah, I didn't want you to bother driving all the way to my house. Umm, shall we go inside?"

"Yeah, let's go." Roman laced his fingers with Dean's and lead them to the front door of the restaurant.


They were in Sami's apartment. On Sami's bed.

"Oh fuck...Kevin... wait um...fuck. I think we're moving way too fast."

Kevin lifted his head from Sami's neck, where was placing open hot kisses. "You do?" Sami nodded. Kevin sighed, he was right. It hasn't even been 24 hours since they met. They should slow down. "You're right." Owens moved to get off of Sami but Sami stopped him.

"Wait..." Sami suddenly felt vulnerable without Kevin's lips on him. He pulled Kevin down by the neck and kissed him passionately. Sami completely forgot about moving too fast.

Meanwhile, Dean and Roman were sharing a laugh as they took sips from their drinks. "Remember when I asked you if you had boyfriend?" Dean chuckled.

Roman smiled. "I lied and said yes just to see your reaction. You replied that you choked on your food."

Dean grinned as he thought back to that memory. He and Roman could laugh at the stupidest things. "What about that time you tricked me into thinking you cut your hair bald."

"That was funny." Roman laughed.

"Was not." Dean pouted. "I love your hair. You made me upset."

Roman reached across the table to grab Dean's hand. "I'm sorry baby. I just love messing with you." He smiled affectionately.

After a while of continuous laughs, and looking back to their conversations, they decided to go. They had no room for dessert. Roman offered to pay the check; despite Dean's protest. Dinner was amazing. The chemistry they shared and felt throughout their online relationship was still there. Now that they were together physically, everything was just heightened in a good way. Both men could get used to it.

Once they stepped outside, Roman became nervous. He grew quiet as he held Dean's hand; the couple walking to their cars. They stopped by Roman's rental and he leaned against it, pulling Dean against him.

"Everything okay? You got quiet." Dean asked nervously. The sudden shift in mood made him nervous.

"I'm fine I just..." Roman blew out a breath before locking eyes with Dean. "I wanted to ask you if...you want to um, come back with me...to the um, my hotel room." Roman shuddered nervously. He had been thinking about it all day. He was torn between going for it or waiting. He didn't want Dean to feel like he was pressuring him in anyway. A last minute thing made him just go ahead and go for it. When he saw the look of surprise and hesitation on Dean's face, he knew he overstepped. It was way too soon. "I'm sorry, forget I asked. It's too soon."

Dean bit his lip. As much as Dean wanted to accept that invitation so they could be intimate, he unfortunately had to accept it so he can confess all his lies. Roman's hotel room was better than other place he guessed. "Umm, no no. Let's go." He finally said.

Roman's face lit up. "Really?" As soon as Dean nodded, he kissed him on the lips with a smile on his face. "I'll see you there, then."

"Yeah," Dean agreed. They went their separate ways and made their way to the hotel in their respective cars. Dean was grateful that Roman didn't suggest they go to his house. That would have been bad.

Ambrose was literally shaking as he followed Roman into the hotel room. This was the moment he would probably lose Roman forever. Would he ever regain his trust after this? Dean couldn't help but to feel like it was impossible. He was honestly scared to see what Roman's reaction would be to all of this. As soon as they entered the hotel room, Roman closed and locked the door. As he lead them to the bed, he felt Dean shaking.

They stopped at the foot of the bed and Roman turned to Dean. "You're nervous. We don't have to do this, Dean. I don't want to pressure you into anything." Roman cupped Dean's cheek and pecked his lips.

Roman was being so damn sweet. It was making Dean feel even more guilty for all that he's kept from Roman. He looked deeply into Roman's eyes. ''It's not that Ro. I would love nothing more than to be with you." Roman smiled happily. Dean could feel Roman begin to guide him on to the bed. He immediately stopped the motion. "Ro, wait...before we do anything, I want to talk to you."

Roman's eyebrows furrowed. The look Dean had on his face was starting to scare him a bit. He was turning pale and his hands were still shaking. It concerned Roman immediately. "What's wrong Dean? You're scaring me.''

Dean whimpered and motioned for Roman to sit on the bed. He did the same and turned so he was facing Roman. "I have to tell you something, Roman. Actually, I have a couple things to tell you. I just hope, that you don't hate me after I tell you."

"I could never hate you Dean." Roman had absolutely no idea what Dean was about to tell him but he was sure that it wouldn't cause him to hate Dean. He could never hate Dean. He would never bring himself to feel hatred towards Dean. He loved him too much and was too important to him. "Tell me," he encouraged his boyfriend.

Dean took a deep breath. Here goes nothing. "Well, you know how I told you I was attending UCLA?" Roman nodded. "It's not true." his voice became really shaky. He careful studied Roman's face to see the reaction. There wasn't one, which made him even more nervous. He continued to speak though, just wanting to get it over with. "Sami isn't my roommate, obviously. I work in a medical billing company. I do the simplest tasks there. Data entry, file back, etc. I don't earn as much as I would like, but it's enough." he shrugged. He decided to pause. He pursed his lips, as he waited for Roman to say something. The silence was killing him.

Roman sighed and looked away momentarily. "You lied to me." Roman finally said in a disappointing tone. He thought Dean was 100% honest with him. He couldn't help but to feel disappointed. He thought about it some more, the silence growing. "Why did you lie to me?" he finally asked. He still wasn't looking at Dean.

"I didn't want you to feel like you were talking to a nobody that has no real career ahead of him." Dean answered sadly. "You deserve someone better. Someone that knows what they want to do in life." He knew that excuse couldn't justify lying. He knew it wasn't enough for Roman at least. Dean watched as Roman shook his head and continued to not look at him. That wasn't even the tip of the ice berg though and now Dean was even more petrified to tell Roman the rest.

"Do you honest think I care about that stuff Dean?" Roman asked out of the nowhere. The question kind of took Dean off guard. He didn't really get a chance to answer the question though. "Because I don't. What you do is not the most important. Who you are on the inside is what matters to me. The Samoan finally turned to look Dean in the eye. "You're the sweetest, most unselfish person I've ever met in my life, Dean. That's what I cherish most about you and that's what drew me to you. The good looks was a bonus" Roman winked at him. Dean gave him a small smile. Roman seemed to be coming around rather quickly. Then again, that wasn't the biggest secret Dean had. Dean went back to that petrified state as he prepared to tell Roman the rest. Some things he knew Roman would not get over so quickly. Before he could open his mouth though, Roman continued to talk. "I do have to admit that I'm disappointed that you thought you had to lie to me, Dean. Honesty, trust, and communication are the most important." Roman grabbed Dean's hand laced their fingers together.

Dean bit his lip. His heart was pounding and he didn't think his heart would go back to it's regular heartbeat anytime soon. "Roman...there's more." Roman cocked his head and gave him a a questionable look. Dean let go of Roman's hand and reached into his pocket to pull out his phone. He unlocked it and clicked on his photos. He selected a photo and handed the phone to Roman, who took it hesitantly.

It was an adorable photo of Dean and a little girl. She was giving him a kiss on the cheek. She was an adorable little girl. Roman realized that Dean never sent him photos of her. He sent him photos of all his family but not this little girl. "She's adorable, who is she?" There was silence and then it suddenly hit Roman. Dean had no siblings so she couldn't be his sister or niece. He turned to look at Dean with wide eyes.

"No." Roman shook his head. He suddenly stood up from the bed, startling Dean. "No, please tell me that you wouldn't lie to me about something like that! Tell me you wouldn't keep something like this from me Dean!" Roman raised his voice in anger. Dean sniffled as the tears began to roll down his cheeks. That's all Roman really needed. "I can't believe this."

"I'm so sorry Roman." Dean sobbed as he stood up from the bed. He attempted to grab Roman's hand but Roman backed away.

Roman tossed the phone on the bed. He wasn't one to cry much but right now, it was all too much. His eyes became bloodshot as the tears formed. There he was thinking Dean was completely honest. Defending him against Kevin and other family members that had doubts about his online relationship. He was such an idiot for letting someone in again. "What else are you lying about? Huh?" Roman's voice was dripping with heartbreak and sadness. Dean felt worthless. How could he have allowed himself to hurt Roman so much? After all the personal things Roman has told him, he still managed to hurt him like this. Dean was startled again when Roman raised his voice again. "There's more isn't there?"

Dean wiped the tears from his face. He already felt Roman slipping away from him and he felt like this would be the part where Roman breaks up with him. He was so sure of it and honestly, he wouldn't blame him. Dean sniffled and wiped his hands on his jeans. "Her mother...I'm married to her. We're in the process of the divorce but legally...she' still my wife."

That was another huge blow to the gut. Roman couldn't believe it. Dean had a daughter and was married. He was married. Roman squeezed his eyes shut and took short breaths. "How could you do this?" Roman said, his eyes still completely shut. "I told you things, Dean. Things my own family doesn't know about. I put all my trust in you and you do this? This entire time you were living a double life?" his voice was calm but it was a bad type of calm. "How am I supposed to trust you with anything ever again? How do I know you're not lying about everything else you've told me for the past three years?" Roman slowly opened his eyes and moved to stand in front of Dean. "Can you explain to me, how I'm supposed to trust you again after this? Explain it to me. How can I ever believe another word that comes out of your mouth?" Dean's lips trembled as Roman spoke to him. He could literally see and feel how broken Roman was. He knew that at this point, no matter what he said, it would not be enough. Before he could even attempt to speak, Roman beat him to it. "I can't believe I traveled across the country just to hear everything that you have kept from me." He felt so stupid. Roman shook his head and pulled at his hair that was now loose. "You need to leave."

Dean's eyes widened. "Roman no! You need to let me explain. Please!"

"Right now, you need to leave." Roman walked over to the door and opened it. "Leave." He watched as Dean refused and shook his head. "You need to leave. I don't want to see you right now. Go before I say something I'll regret."

Ambrose reluctantly walked slowly to the opened door. He would give Roman the space he wanted. All he could do was hope that this wasn't the end of him and Roman. He didn't want it to be the end. He loved him, like he's never loved anyone before. "I'm sorry...I love you." Dean whispered before he finally stepped out of the room. The door immediately closed. Dean didn't even make it to the elevator. He leaned against the wall in the hallway and slid all the way down to the ground, the tears once again filling his eyes. He was feeling a lot at once but the one he was feeling the most was guilt. Guilt for lying to Roman, for keeping things from him. Guilty for keeping his daughter a secret like that. He loved Grace and he was doing a shitty job at showing it. He couldn't stand himself right now.


Kevin groaned as the sound of his cellphone going off woke him up. He turned his head to the right and saw that Sami was sleeping soundless. They were under the covers, completely naked. Kevin couldn't believe he did that. He didn't know anything about Sami but still managed to sleep with him. That wasn't like him at all. This was the first time he's slept with a stranger. Owens couldn't help it though, there wasn't something so appealing about Sami. Something no one Kevin has ever crossed paths with has had. He smiled as he picked up his cellphone and saw that it was Roman calling him. It was past midnight. He figured Roman would be sleeping or still with Dean. He figured Roman went over to his hotel room and was concerned when no one answered. "Hey bro, sorry I forgot to text you. I'm with umm, Sami, at his apartment." he glanced over at Sami who was still in deep sleep.

"You need to get back here."

Kevin and Roman have been best friends for years. Kevin has been there for the most difficult times in Roman's life. He knew what Roman sounded like when he was broken and destroyed. Owens always prayed with everything he had that he would never hear that certain tone in his voice ever again. The Canadian slowly stood up from the bed. He attempted to now awaken Sami but failed. Sami shifted a bit and opened his eyes slowly as he barely heard his cellphone vibrating on the bed side table. As he reached for it, he heard Kevin speaking to who he assumed was Roman over the phone.

"Roman, what's going on?" Kevin asked carefully.

"We're going back to Florida. Right now. Get back here," And with that, Roman hung up.

Sami saw that Dean was calling him and immediately answered. "Dean?" He heard a whimper and a series of short breaths. This was not good. "Dean? What happened?"

"I told...him, Sami. I told him everything...and now he...he hates me!" Dean sobbed over the phone.

Kevin and Sami looked at each other. Both set of eyes full of concern.


A/N: You think Roman is overreacting?

More background story on Roman's past in the next chapter to explain his reaction and why trust is so important to him!

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