Chapter 16
Kerry had had this dream before, so many times now that she had learned to be able to manipulate the outcome whenever she felt her psyche pushing it into dangerous territory. But this...well, this wasn't one of those times. Kerry was beginning to suspect this wasn't a dream at all, and that the little electrical sensations she was currently experiencing were more fact than fiction.
"Mmmmm, whatever you're doing please don't stop" she moaned
"Oh, I have no intentions of stopping Kerry" she heard Kim mumble clearly not ready to dislodge from the turgid nipple she had in her mouth
Kim continued to tease her with her tongue and eventually decided to check in with her lover before moving on to the other already aroused nipple. Kim rolled on top of Kerry and raised herself up on her elbows allowing her to look down on Kerry.
"Hi, did I wake you?" Kim asked with mock innocence
"You did, but that's ok, I was starting to miss you anyway" Kerry said.
"Oh well, we can't have that now can we" the blonde said as she leaned down to reestablish contact with Kerry, kissing down her chin and finally nuzzling into her neck "God, I love the way you smell" She said as she took a gentle bite out of her lovers collar bone, making Kerry wonder if she had just actually literally tasted her. "I use to become so turned on just catching a whiff of your perfume in the hallways at the hospital" Kim felt Kerry's body tense up as she made the admission.
Kim looked back down at Kerry with worry in her eyes "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to bring back bad memories"
Kerry refocused her shifting eyes on Kim and reached up to push back a swath of hair that had fallen over her eye back behind her ear.
"Those aren't bad memories Kim, those are some of the best memories I have. The times when I would catch you walking the floors, or hanging around the desk pretending to read the board, were life sustaining for me. I craved those moments.
Kerry paused for a second before continuing, "It took me months after you left to stop looking for you, wishing you were still present. If the elevator dinged I would automatically turn to look at it, hoping...Waiting for your ghost to walk out from behind the closed doors."
Kim could see the pain behind Kerry's eyes as she made her confession.
"I'm sorry Kerry, for the way I left things. I had convinced myself that you never cared for me as much as I had for you so therefore my leaving would be of no consequence to you. But I see now that I was wrong."
Kerry could see a well of tears pooling behind Kim's eyes.
"Kerry...I don't want to be just a ghost in your life anymore."
A muffled sob escaped from Kerry, startling Kim and causing her to move off of the redhead and sit up on her knees, she reached for Kerry and pulled her up into a similar position so they were face to face, allowing Kim to cup Kerry's face with her hands, she wiped away the tears Kerry could no longer hold back, with her thumbs, trying to smooth out the lines she found there. Kerry looked up at her lover with such a vulnerable look.
"What are you saying Kim?" she asked
"I'm saying that there's no way I can go back to a life where you're not a part of it."
Kim closed the miniscule distance that was between them and kissed Kerry roughly. Finally breaking the kiss so both could catch their breath.
"I love you Kerry." Kim's words made Kerry gasp. Hearing the admission startled her into silence, making Kim smile sheepishly. "It's ok. It surprised me too, not that I love you, but that I told you, I was hoping you would say it fir..."
Before she could finish what she was saying, Kerry's mouth was back on Kim's, Kerry had wrapped her arms so tightly around Kim that the blonde was finding it difficult to breath. The intensity in Kerry's grip set fire to Kim's skin and she could feel her legs begin to tremble, not sure if it was from a ignited passion or because of the way she was sitting on them.
Kerry's hands were processed, reaching and spanning her entire back pulling her so deeply into her that Kim felt as if she were being consumed. Kerry's lips left hers and began trailing down her neck, passing her collar bone and stopping to suck the skin below her clavicle leaving a mark there.
As they were still in a sitting-up position Kim decided to take advantage of her easy access to Kerry breast and began suckling them, alternating between the two. Her hand trailed down to find Kerry ready and wanting, drenched in her own lubricant. She dipped one finger, then two and then three fingers into her sopping core and curled them slightly, searching for the spongy spot that she knew would make Kerry squirm and search for more contact.
As Kim suspected, Kerry did try and make more contact by lowering her arms that where currently clutching Kim's back to grab purchase of her ass, pulling Kim onto her lap so she was now able to straddle her. The new angle allowed Kim to grind into her, creating maddening friction that was bringing both women very close to their climax.
Kim could feel how hard Kerry's clit had become and knew hers matched it. Kim removed the hand that was buried deep inside Kerry and placed both her hands on Kerry's hips, gripping them tightly so she could rub Kerry's center against her own. Kerry, understanding what she was trying to accomplish, moved her arms behind her, enabling her to tilt herself up so they had even more contact.
"Oh God, baby, yes. That perfect." Kim encouraged. She had forced herself to keep her eyes open even as she began to feel herself falling over the edge, wanting to see Kerry's face as they fell together.
"Kerry? Baby? I need you to look at me ok?" Kim told her as she started to move her hips faster to create even more friction.
"Kerry, I know you are trying to show me, but I need to hear you say it"
Kim was now starring at Kerry, holding her attention, "I need to hear you say it" she repeated.
Kerry was so engrossed in their love making, and she was so close to her release but she understood what Kim was asking for, and she was ready to give it to her.
As the wave crashed so did Kerry's resolve "Ah, ah..." Kerry felt the release wash over her at the same time she felt Kim explode, she could hear her own voice finally baring truth to her inner thoughts.
"I love you Kim, I love you so fucking much" repeating herself over and over again "I love you, I love you, I love you"
She grabbed Kim and dragged her with her as she fell back into the bed. Spent both physically and mentally.
The two laid there in silence for several minutes recovering. Finally Kerry moved to her side and looked over at Kim, "I'm sorry I never told you that. I don't know why I never said it because the truth is, I've always loved you...I always tried to show you."
Kim moved into the same position and faced Kerry, "I know, but sometimes a girl need to hear it." Kim bent down and kissed her softly.
"So what happens now?" Kerry asked
"I'm not sure" Kim answered honestly. "This whole 'making me realize I need you' was your plan."
"I suppose you can go home, get back to your life and take some time to figure out what you want to come from all this." Kerry said in her best 'ER Chief of staff' voice
"Or?" Kim asked
"Or, we can get out of bed, take a shower, get something to eat. Take a swim later"
"And then..."Kim pushed
"We go home." Kerry finished
"Your Home?" Kim asked
"Or Yours, I'm flexible. Look Kim, I want this, and I'm willing to do whatever it takes this time to make it work." Kerry said
"Really?" Kim asked
"Really, my income doesn't come from my TV Job, I make my living with my lap top, and I can write anywhere. My home is paid for and I'm sure Flora wouldn't mind house sitting." Kerry explained
"But what about Henry?" Kim asked
"Henry... well, he's a lot like I was growing up. We're nomads. My parents moved me all around the planet, it wasn't until high school when we finally stopped and settled down believing those where the years when staying put mattered."
Kerry could tell Kim was thinking about everything she was telling her, but could also see she was feeling a little overwhelmed by how quickly things seemed to be escalating.
"Kimberly?" Kerry rarely used her full name but she needed to bring Kim back to the here and now and not let her get to caught up in the future.
"Hey, look at me, we don't have to make any decisions now. Tomorrow you fly home, I think it would be good if you took some time to get settled in, get back to your routine and figure out what you want."
Kerry had taken to rubbing Kim's forehead, trying to relax the worry line that had appeared.
"The truth is, being with me will be a big change for you, I am a Mom Kim, Me and Henry, were a package deal. I want you to be sure that's something you want in your life." Kerry held her gaze hoping Kim understood the enormity of what she was saying.
"It's ok if you don't. No one loses here, we are back in each other's lives, that's what counts. Even if it's just as friends, to be honest, thats more than I ever thought possible." Kerry said, leaning in to kiss the top of her nose.
"It's ok, WE'RE ok. I promise." She said.
Kerry pulled back and stretched her entire length of her body, making a few cracking sounds as she did so, "I think you may have broke me" she joked as she made her way out of bed.
"Care to join me in the shower?" she said, looking over her shoulder at Kim "I'll show you my new scar, it's a doozy" she said with a wink before she disappeared into the bathroom.
Kim stayed in bed for a few more minutes digesting the new information, listening to Kerry start the shower and move around the bathroom. She finally came to the conclusion that Kerry was right, she didn't have to make any decisions right now...after all, she still had 24 hours before she had to catch a plane.
"You coming in blondie?" Kerry shouted from the shower
"Right behind you Red" Kim yelled back.
