Chapter 3

Jane finished scribbling the last of her notes into her notebook and closed it slowly. She tried not to think about Maura or anything that happened between them a few hours ago, but it was impossible. Being this close to her made it extremely difficult to concentrate but she knew she had to, because she couldn't afford to slip on the job.

"So, I'm guessing," she said thoughtfully as she examined the dead guy lying on his stomach in front of her, "The killer surprised this poor guy from behind. He probably never saw it coming." She sighed heavily as she bit down on her bottom lip and looked over at Maura. "What's your guess, Maur?"

Maura frowned slightly and Jane knew exactly why she did it. Everyone knew that Maura was not the guessing type. Maura cut her eyes over towards Jane and narrowed them at her. "I'm not certain yet." She said blankly.

"Come on, Maur. It's obvious to me that this guy got clubbed in the head. What do you think the murder weapon was?"

Maura sighed and continued to examine the body. "I'll know more when I get him to the lab, Jane."

Jane laughed a bit, "Not even one guess?"

"No, not even one." Maura looked over at her and a slight smile creased the side of her mouth.

Jane nodded and smiled back. If she wasn't careful, their exchange would be caught by Frankie and Korsak. Who was she kidding? This playful flirting was the usual thing between them. It was harmless and fun.

Maura looked up and gazed longingly into Jane's eyes and immediately the events of earlier this morning began to dance around in Jane's head. She remembered the taste of Maura's breasts and how much she desired her after the first sampling of her love.

Chills raced up Jane's spine, which she shook off inconspicuously. "Man, it's getting cold out here." She said, playing off her body's reaction to her thoughts.

"We got this. Go on back to the precinct and get some coffee." Korsak said.

Jane nodded and sighed. "Alright. I should have dressed better for the weather." She said as she checked her watch one more time before stepping back towards the car.

"Hey I'll catch you in the morgue later, Maura." She said tipping her head towards Maura and turning towards the car.

"Okay," Maura called out after her.

Their exchange was short and sweet. Any more would definitely cause problems between the two of them. Jane glanced out of the driver's side window and watched her for a moment. After a few minutes, Maura looked up and met her gaze. Jane wanted to know what was on her mind, if she regretted what happened, or if she'd want to talk about it later.

They both knew how close they came to making love and Jane was okay with it. She turned the ignition and sighed heavily. A burden laid on her shoulders. She wanted Maura so much, more than anyone she'd ever wanted before, but she just didn't know what to do with these new feelings. What would happen after they made love, if they made love? Would they stay friends? Or would their decade long friendship crumble into a million little pieces?

"Man, I gotta talk to her." Jane groaned and switched the car into drive. She knew that she had to get Maura alone and talk about what had happened. Somehow some way she needed to find the time to discuss it with her.

Later that evening

Maura hadn't responded much to Jane's texts all day. She had meant to, but she was just extremely busy trying to process this case that the time simply slipped by her. It wasn't until she looked up and saw Jane standing at her door that she realized she had forgotten to respond to Jane's last text. Jane had asked her if she wanted some Chinese food to eat.

Maura smiled when Jane held a bag of food out towards her like a peace offering. She couldn't help but to laugh at Jane's adorableness.

"I know when you don't respond, you're either ticked off or you're extremely busy." She said approaching Maura's desk, "and when you left me this morning, you seemed very… Um, content."

Maura chuckled as Jane placed the food on her desk. "I got your favorite." Jane said softly.

"Mmm, yum." Maura said closing her laptop and giving Jane her full attention. "It smells delicious."

"Are you hungry?" Jane asked plopping down in the seat across from Maura's desk.

"Famished, but I haven't had a chance all day to pull myself away from this case."

"I know," Jane sighed. "I've been trying to reach you."

Maura reached into the bag and grabbed a plastic fork, opened her container, and started stabbing at the meal. She cooed lightly, her palate obviously very pleased with her meal.

"I like the sound of that," Jane said softly, her eyes caressed Maura's body as she watched her carefully.

Maura glanced over, her cheeks blushing lightly from Jane's suggestive tone. Maura rolled her eyes playfully and continued to eat her meal.

Jane watched her as she ate. Maura hadn't noticed before how intense the scrutiny of Jane's eyes were. It was no wonder she could always get her suspects to crack. There was something about the way she stared at her that made Maura's insides quiver.

"What is it?" Maura asked.

Jane shrugged and played with the chopsticks sitting in front of her. "Can we talk about this morning?"

Maura swallowed the remaining of the food and took a sip of her water. "Sure. What would you like to discuss?"

"Really, Maur?"

"What?"

Jane sat back in her chair and shook her head, "You know damn well what I would like to discuss."

Maura sighed and frowned slightly. Jane couldn't read her expression, and it freaked her out at first, but she pressed on.

Jane leaned forward smiling at her. "The only thing we need to discuss is when we are going to finish where we left off?"

Maura's eyes widened. Jane's bluntness must have shocked her. "I don't know, Jane, maybe there was a reason why we were interrupted when we were?"

"What?"

Maura sighed and pushed away from her desk. She got up and smoothed her clothing out. "I mean, what if that was a sign for us?"

"A sign? What are you talking about?"

"Perhaps what happened between us wasn't supposed to happen at all. I was clearly taking advantage of your inebriated state."

Jane hopped out of her seat. This conversation was not going at all like she had imagined it would go. "What? Maur, I was not drunk!"

"Maybe this was a mistake."

"A mistake?" Jane gasped.

"Yes."

Jane just stood there staring at her. She wasn't sure if she really felt this way or if she was just being chicken. Either way, it wasn't a good feeling that she was now feeling. She tried hard not to let it get to her, but first her date, now Maura. There was only so much rejection a heart could take.

The hurt that she felt was so unreal and unfamiliar, she couldn't bring herself to speak for some time. She didn't have to speak either. Her face painted a very vivid picture of how personally she had taken Maura's statement.

"So you feel it was a mistake being with me like that?"

"No, I didn't mean it like that." Maura attempted to recapture her words and place a band aid over her friend's wounded heart.

"Yes, you did." Jane said reaching down and grabbing her keys. "A mistake is a mistake, right Maur?"

"Jane, I didn't mean that you were a mistake."

"Actually you did."

"I just meant the act… Not you."

Jane turned and walked towards the door. "It's the same thing, Maura. You know it too."

Maura sighed heavily and shook her head.

"I'm sorry to have caused so much trouble by needing you last night." Jane's voice quivered with an emotion that she hadn't felt up until this day. It surprised even her that she felt the sting so deep down that it felt like it had pierced the very core of her soul.

"Jane, please." Maura whispered as she crossed the room and took Jane by the arms, "I'm sorry, I didn't say the right thing, but I'm trying to understand all of this too."

"I was not drunk this morning. I knew exactly what I was doing." Jane said sternly. "And I thought you wanted the same thing I wanted."

Maura sighed and looked down, her hands squeezed Jane's arms tighter, and pulled her closer. "I did." She said looking back up at her, "I do want the same thing."

"Then what's the problem, Maur?"

Maura released her and started pacing the floor. "I don't know, fear maybe?"

"Fear of what?"

"Things changing between us."

"Newsflash, Doc. They've already changed." Jane said as she reached over and caught her by the arm. "They changed the moment we started cuddling in bed at night."

Maura just nodded in agreement.

"I mean, geez what did you think was going to happen when you kept holding me like that naked?

"You said it didn't bother you."

Jane laughed, "Well duh, obviously it doesn't bother me, I was just stating facts as I know them. It was only a matter of time before something happened between us."

"I'm not a lesbian."

Jane laughed. "I'm not one either, but I'll surely be one if it means being with you."

"I don't know, Jane."

Jane pulled her closer to her. "What are you afraid of Maura?"

Maura sighed deeply and allowed her thoughts and fears to play out in her mind. Jane could see the apprehension, the fear, the love, and the uncertainty all in her eyes.

"I'm uncertain of whether its fear or something else.

Jane pulled her even closer, gently caressing her forearms with her thumbs. "I never want to do anything to hurt you or make you feel uncomfortable, Maur. God, don't you know that?"

She nodded, "Yes, I do."

"Tell me what I need to do?"

You don't need to do anything, Jane. This is all new to me."

Jane strummed her fingers through Maura's hair and smiled, "It's new to me too. But I swear, I don't want anything to change between us."

"Neither do I."

Jane caressed her face gently with her palm. She searched her eyes for a reflection of the feelings that she felt inside for her. Maura reached and covered her hand with her own, took it and then kissed the scarred flesh of her palm.

Jane's lips trembled as she held back tears that had snuck up on her. Feeling Maura's lips pressed against hers this morning was amazing, but feeling her soft lips kiss her memories, touched her deeper than anyone had ever.

Maura's eyes remained closed as she tenderly kissed Jane's hand. From this tender moment being shared between the two of them, there was no doubt in Jane's mind of whether or not Maura cared for her. Finally, Maura opened her eyes and gazed into Jane's.

Jane saw the mirror image of her feelings in Maura's eyes. "I don't want to lose you, Jane." Maura said quietly.

Jane shook her head. "I'm not going anywhere." Jane whispered as she leaned in and touched her lips softly against Maura's.

Maura whimpered slightly and took her in deeper for a kiss. She pulled away and rested her forehead against Jane's. "I'm not either."

Maura pulled away from her when she heard a couple of her crime techs chattering loudly in the other room. Their private moment was over, but before it was over, Jane got the answers she was looking for. She sighed deeply and kissed Maura lightly on the forehead.

She and Maura had the same fears. Of messing up their friendship with sex. But suddenly Jane remembered something that her mother had told her. She remembered being told that she spent all her time worrying about stuff that hadn't even happened yet.

"I'm going to go okay?" Jane said.

Maura nodded briskly and detached completely from Jane. "Alright. I'll be working late tonight."

"Okay."

Maura sat back down at her desk and started playing with her food. It was no surprise that she didn't have an appetite anymore. She glanced up at Jane as Jane was backing out of the door.

"I guess I'll see you tomorrow?" Jane asked.

Maura nodded, "Alright."

Jane smiled half-heartedly and left Maura's office. She was determined not to allow the awkwardness of this new situation to pull them apart.

Even Later That Evening

Maura was almost certain that she felt something move in the bed with her. She wasn't sure however, and as her eyes opened slowly, she squinted to see the clock. It read 3 a.m. She'd come home hours ago, dragged herself into the shower, thought about Jane the entire time, and then crashed into the bed. She was tired and she needed rest.

She had texted Jane around 11pm with no response, so she just assumed that she was upset or sleeping. She yawned lightly and stretched out her back a little bit only to be surprised to feel a hand reach around her waist and pull her gently back.

Instantly, goosebumps rose over her skin as she next felt the undeniable softness of Jane's lips kissing her lightly on the shoulder and back of her neck.

Jane's lips traveled along the edges of Maura's shoulder, down around the top of her back, and up to the back of her neck. Slight trembles began to shake Maura's body as she leaned back against Jane.

"Hi," she whispered turning her face towards Jane's, and nuzzling it against her lips.

"Hey." Jane greeted her with a gentle kiss on the lips. Her hand reached up and glided over Maura's hardened nipples, her fingers closed around one of them, pinching it lightly.

Maura let out a deep sigh and reached back, sliding her fingers through Jane's hair. "Are you sure this is what you want?" She asked, her voice shaking with arousal.

"Yes. I want you." Jane whispered into her ear. "Let me make love to you."

Just hearing those words come out of Jane's mouth turned her on tremendously. Maura gasped when Jane grabbed her and pulled her back against her own naked body. Maura swallowed hard. She felt like her heart was about to come out of her throat. She wondered if she was dreaming this entire thing. No, she couldn't be dreaming because Jane had just pinched her and she didn't wake up.

She felt Jane's hair fall across her arms as she continued to kiss her softly. Her tongue appeared and traced the edges of her ears traveling down to the lobe. Maura nearly melted in her arms.

"Oh Jane." Maura cooed and pulled her closer.

"Please…" Jane sighed as she pulled Maura's ass against her and started grinding herself against her. "Don't you want me?"

"Yes. I do." Maura admitted.

Jane reached and pulled Maura onto her back. She gazed at her again like she had done earlier this morning. She looked at her like she was the only available partner left on the planet. And Maura loved the way she looked at her.

Maura's mind began to wonder how and what had happened to change their relationship. She couldn't figure out a time or a place when the change happened… It just did. She forced herself to stop thinking so much and just enjoy the experience.

Jane leaned in and took Maura's lips passionately. It was more passionate and heated than their first kiss earlier. Maybe because they both were sure and certain that they wanted to make love to each other. And there wouldn't be anything stopping them this time.

Maura pulled Jane until she was securely on top of her and then she adjusted her legs so she could slip comfortably between them. She felt the heat of Jane's pussy rubbing against hers. Jane didn't ask what to do, she just did what felt natural.

She slowly began to grind their bodies together while she dipped in and kissed Maura's neck. Goosebumps flashed over both of their bodies as they found a rhythm that was good for them.

"Oh god, this feels so good." Jane whispered into Maura's ear.

Their bodies trembled, and passion led their souls to a place where they were inevitably going to end up.

Jane kissed Maura lightly before she started descending down her body, kissing every inch until she reached her belly button.

By now, Maura was moaning lightly as each kiss felt like electricity shooting up her body. She couldn't speak, she could only make soft whimpers of need and want. She couldn't figure out if her body needed Jane's love as much as it wanted it. It really didn't matter, because Jane was ready and willing to give it to her.

Jane found her way to the outer edges of her delicate folds. Jane paused briefly before snaking her tongue down and around the edge of Maura's trembling pussy. When Maura felt Jane's tongue and lips on her for the first time, her body immediately seized up, temporarily paralyzed from the onslaught of sensations shooting through her body.

"Oh Jane." She moaned and pulled her face against her. "Yes." She sighed and slowly began to move her hips, circling Jane's lips around her.

"Mmm," Jane cooed from below her. This moment was something that Jane feared but it turned out to be not as bad as she thought it would be. She took Maura's legs and spread them gently, giving her better access to her.

Maura started throwing her head from side to side and caressing her own breasts. She was really getting into what Jane was doing and she was happy to let Jane know.

"That's it." Maura encouraged her.

Jane could tell Maura was getting extremely close to climaxing. Her body shook uncontrollably like hers did when she was getting ready to come. Maura became more audible as well. But she didn't really care about people hearing her, because she felt pretty proud that she was the one who was making Maura feel this good.

Jane felt so good pleasing her that she wished she could continue doing it all night. After a minute or two, Maura reached and clenched a handful of Jane' hair and cried out as her orgasm took control. She bucked and wiggled underneath Jane until finally she collapsed in a heap on the bed.

Jane crawled up beside her and spooned her into her arms. She kissed her lightly on the cheek.

"How was that?"

Maura chuckled and sighed contently. "That was just perfect."

Jane smiled. That was by far the best compliment anyone could have given her. Her first experience with a woman was amazing. The fact that it was Maura, made it even better. It wasn't even as difficult as she thought it would be to please her either. She just did what she knew she herself would like and just felt everything else. She was happy that she chose not to think too much and just go with her heart because from the looks of it, she did a good job pleasing Maura.

As Jane laid there cuddling her, she began to wonder what it would be like to have this every single night. It was such a new and unfamiliar desire. But it was one that Jane wanted to explore more.

She sighed contently and leaned over and kissed Maura softly. "Sleep well, Maur."

But Maura didn't answer. She'd fallen asleep in her arms. Jane smiled and snuggled closer to her and fell fast asleep too.