A/N Alrighty here's a slightly different kind of chapter. Please Review! Enjoy!
"Hey Liv?"
"Yea?"
"If I ask you something will you promise not to get mad?" She sat up a bit to look into his eyes.
"Sure El, what is it?"
"Have you ever done anal?"
Olivia sat up from her position on his chest. Elliot just as quickly realized his mistake and lunged after her grasping her upper arm gently, "Liv- I'm sorry- I didn't mean to offend you I just- it's just- I don't know." His hands fell limply away from her arms in a manner of defeat.
"El." Olivia said turning back towards him only to find his body slumped and eyes down, ashamed of even broaching the subject with her. "El- Look at me." Her fingers found the underside of his chin coaxing him to look up and into her mocha eyes.
"I'm sorry I pulled away, I was just shocked when you asked me that." Olivia assured him.
"It's fine- I shouldn't have even suggested that- I'm sorry I said anything, I wont bring it up again." Elliot was quickly trying to make up for his apparent mistake.
"Elliot, stop." He looked back up into her eyes, she sighed and began, "To answer your question, no I have never done anal. I've never really seen the appeal in it-" Elliot again looked ashamed- "-BUT if you want to, then I want to. I want to experience everything with you and if that appeals to you then I'm all in."
"Liv- you really don't have to. I was just suggesting it because I've never done it but I don't want to make you feel like you have to just because I suggested it… I mean yes I'd love to and I want to experience everything with you as well but I am more than happy with our sex life like it is now."
"Elliot I know I don't have to- I want to. I've never done anything like that before and like you I am curious as to what all the hype is about. I say that we give it a go and if we don't like it we stop." Elliot's face lit up and a smile graced his features, "I'm not going to lie though, I am nervous, I've heard it hurts sometimes, but I trust you Elliot- with my life- and I know you'd never hurt me."
"God I love you, Liv." His lips crashed over hers again in a trusting, loving, heartfelt kiss.
Climbing back onto his lap, Olivia slowly circled her hips while lightly brushing her lips against his, her breath tickling his five o'clock shadow, "Now we have to just pick a time and a place… oh and go get the lube."
Grasping her hips again, Elliot thrust up into her and they slowly made love again in the wakes of the promise of new love to come.
Making their way back to the boat seemed to be a lot larger of a task than they had originally imagined. They also hadn't really given much thought to the swim back when they were just trying to ravage each other the whole way there. Both stated and exhausted from both their consecutive lovemaking and the swim back, they boarded the boat and collapsed on the bench.
"We should have a plan B next time we decide to swim that far away and have draining sex." Olivia panted trying to gasp in as much oxygen as she could.
Elliot, while exhausted, was enjoying his view with her snuggled into his chest and her chest heaving with the much-needed oxygen.
"I agree but it was worth it right?"
"Oh yea, SO worth it." They both smiled at the memory and cuddled further into the other.
Elliot reached over Olivia grabbing a handful of towels and covered their wet bodies with them, pushing them both to lie down on the padded bench. Almost as quickly as their heads hit the bench they were asleep.
"Aren't they so cute!" whispered Casey to Fin. They had just gotten back from their third boat party and were about ready to call it a night when they happened upon the sleeping couple.
"Yea I guess… I don't know about it though- If Stabler ever hurts Liv, I swear to God I'll-"
"I won't Fin but thank your for your concern." Fin quickly turned around in the captain seat to see a not-so-happy Elliot standing behind him.
"I know you're just looking out for her and I appreciate that, but the 'Stabler is always the bad guy' routine is really getting old." Elliot walked over to the hidden cooler under the sink and grabbed a beer; popping the tab. "Incase you haven't noticed I'm totally and completely in love with her and nothing and no one will ever change that." His gaze drifted over to Olivia's sleeping form under the piles of now dry towels, her hair slightly frizzy but all pushed back from her face, all the looks of worry she used to have drained from her features and she looked totally at peace with the world.
"Man, I know that." Fin said drawing Elliot's attention away from Olivia's sleeping form, "I just have to worry about her, she's like the little sister I've always wanted and I don't plan on letting that ever change. You have already hurt her more than you know and I know that it's none of my business but I have to make sure you understand something: She was a wreck after you left. She wouldn't work with anyone, including Munch or me; I found her one-day sobbing on the floor of one of the interrogation rooms. When Cap told her to pack up your desk, it may as well have been your funeral if you asked her. And you know the worst part Stabler?" Fin leaned forward in his chair, "You didn't even care."
"That's ENOUGH." A firm voice spoke up from behind them.
"Liv-" Fin started.
"Save it. I understand you want to protect me but I can handle myself. If Elliot were to ever break my heart I know you'd have my back but I know he won't. Even if you are worrying about me, you have to trust me, I know who and what I am and Elliot does too and that's why I still to this day trust him with my life. We've also worked through the hard stuff as friends, which is even better because we rebuilt our friendship BEFORE jumping into bed. So I appreciate your concern Fin and I love you for it, but don't ever speak to my boyfriend like that again."
Fin sunk back into the bench with Casey who hadn't spoken a word during the whole ordeal.
"Fine Liv. Sorry Stabler." He stuck out his hand, which Elliot accepted, and they shook over Olivia's red-hot glare.
Casey cleared her throat making her presence known again, "So um does anyone know where Alex and Munch are?"
"I don't WANT to know" Elliot joked lightening the mood of the group and making earlier events forgotten.
Once everyone was on the boat the mood became cheerful and fun as everyone discussed what they had done- Munch and Alex said they found a small inlet with a waterfall and that they could not reveal the rest, this was followed by "Ew" and "Gross". Casey and Fin who seemed to have only partied so far and Olivia and
Elliot gave away only that they went to a party. The girls knew something big was up though the way Olivia kept nervously playing with her necklace and tapping her foot.
The trip back to the big boathouse was fast due to the fact that they all were looking forward to dinner having been at parties through the day.
"El," Olivia shouted over the engine, "Can you get ready to help me tie up?" Elliot got up; removing his shoes and ran to the front of the speedboat as they approached their floating home. Olivia expertly maneuvered the speedboat next to the houseboat as Elliot grabbed on to the railing pulling the boat closer. As they pulled up Fin held out a hand for Alex and Casey to board the larger boat while jokingly picked up Munch and carried him onto the deck.
"There ya go old man." He said as Munch huffed.
"Yea yea just wait, once computers take over the world you'll wish I was there to protect you."
"HA! If that happens then I'll owe you a nice fat apology but until then get your boney ass inside."
The screen door slid closed behind them and Olivia and Elliot were alone again.
"God I missed them." Laughed Elliot.
"Yea they missed you… we all missed you El." Olivia was still gathering her stuff together while hiding the tear that had slipped down her cheek.
"Hey, Liv what's wrong baby?" Elliot said wrapping his arms around her waist and gently turning her around to face him. The pad of his thumb lightly pushed away the tear that had made it down her chin.
"It- it's just… I missed you so much El… I thought I'd never see you again and then out of the blue you called and it was like you'd never left… but if that ever happens I don't think I'd be able to take it. I almost didn't make it this time."
"Liv? What do you mean?" Elliot's concerned expression drew her attention to his eyes.
"I mean think about it El, what have I got to live for besides you and this job… After you left I was a mess and just when I was starting to get my life slightly back in order the Pena case came along and I began questioning my abilities as a cop but also as a judge of character. I mean I never thought you would leave me and you did then I thought he was guilty and he wasn't. Plus I didn't have you to stop me from thinking like that. So losing both of the things I love in one fell swoop was a lot for me. And…" She trailed off not knowing if she should say the next sentence or not.
"And what Liv?" Elliot probed trying to gauge her thoughts.
"And for a while I thought about eating my gun." Elliot felt as though he'd been punched in the gut. His hands dropped from her waist and he sank down into the bench. Olivia's eyes widened in fear, her mind quickly racing as to how to take back her previous statement.
"I mean no I didn't I didn't think that I just mean the thought crossed—I mean—El please—I'm sorry I know you're catholic and think that's a sin—El please I'm sorry!" Her eyes welled up thinking she'd yet again screwed up her relationship with him.
Elliot then looked up, tears streaming down his face, surprising Olivia having thought he'd be mad at her.
"Liv, how- how could you think that? I mean- I just—if that had—if you had—Liv please please never think that ever again. Oh my God please promise me that thought will never cross your mind and you'll never leave me like that." He pulled her down into his lap burying his head in her chest as he sobbed. He sobbed for her, for him, for how close he came to losing her forever and how he hadn't even noticed it.
"El- El I'm sorry-"
"No. Don't say sorry, you have nothing to be sorry for Olivia." His eyes came up to meet hers, "Just promise me that you will never do that. Ever. I am so sorry for leaving you. I swear I never meant it to be that long but I wanted everything to be okay with my life before I involved you in it like this. Liv I love you so much, if I had lost you forever I don't know what I'd do."
"I promise you El. I'm sorry I even brought it up, I didn't mean to make you upset."
"Liv you can talk to me about anything. You know that right?" she nodded her head, "And while I'm upset that those thoughts even crossed your mind I am just glad that you told me. Now we work past this and we promise to never, ever, leave each other in ANY aspect of the word. Is that understood?"
Olivia smiled for the first time since the discussion, "Understood." She leaned in and kissed him gently with all the love she could muster. Soon the kiss turned into a bear hug, they enjoyed the other's embrace for what seemed like forever.
The sound of Casey's voice broke them apart, "Liv?"
She quickly turned around, "Still out here Case!"
"Oh okay well Alex and I want to go to the store, we need more cocktail mix, will you take us?"
Olivia laughed, "Yea sure of course go get ready and we'll go." She looked back at Elliot with a large grin, "I have to pick up a few things too."
A wicked grin crossed his features as well, "Oh yea? And what's that?"
"It's what we need for tonight," She leaned closer to his ear while rotating her hips, "Losing a different virginity to the only man I've ever loved."
She removed herself from his lap with one last kiss and a groan from him in protest of her warmth being removed.
"Now how about you go grill and when I come back we can eat, drink, then go fuck. Sound like a plan?" She winked at him.
"Hell yea." He whispered while grabbing her ass, "But Liv?" she turned around,
"Never forget how much I love you okay?"
"I never will El, I love you too."
UP NEXT: Casey and Alex find out the plan and they give advice and… you can imagine what else will happen;)
A/N This chapter was a bit different, I hope everyone enjoyed it. I tried hard to make it flow but I needed a little seriousness in there as well. Please review and if you have ANY advice for the next chapter please either comment or PM me. It's greatly appreciated! Also a HUGE thanks to svulover96, Thanks for the advice! I hope I didn't disappoint;)
I love y'all!
-Roe 99
