Chapter 6:
Us…maybe
The beeping is constant. I think it gets louder, but that just might be me. Who am I exactly? I could be Beatrice, the shy one, Tris, a leader…rebellious, or Trice easy-going mother.
I remember almost everything now. I wish I wouldn't remember some. Tobias, my brother both betrayed me. Hopefully I won't see my brother again or I'll beat him up. Tobias just accepted the fact that I was "dead" and let me and Uriah who he almost killed be lost. Yeah, we found people, but we are still and will always be lost.
Now that I remember Will and that he was my best friend's boyfriend. I can't stomach the fact, that I killed him. What if he killed me that day, would everything be better? Would Throne be happier without me? My kids not even become that?
I breathe in then let it out, continuously to not cry. It just hurts too much not to. It is slow at first, then the tears become a current rushing down my face. It isn't that I survived. It's for all the pain I bring to everyone.
I hear a door open, maybe it is just a nurse and she will leave me to my sorrows. My body shakes with desperation, my eyes the source of a waterfall everything broken inside. Trying to hold it all but comes out in bursts of water.
I feel a hand on my back. Then somebody saying, "It is all right", "We will survive this", "I love you Trice, nothing or anyone can take me away from you."
The voice is soothing like a bird with a deep voice. That didn't sound right.
Now he is humming I fall asleep in my husband's arms. Sound asleep.
A/N Ok, this was a catchup chapter I didn't feel like doing a really long one, but I promise the next one will be really long. I might do at least 25 chapters or 35 chapters, it depends on the weeks ahead.
