Note: Sadness and depression occurs. *gives you tissues.*

Author note: Hate to ruin the ending, but everything is going to be okay... I promise.

Note 2: I don't know anymore.. I didn't know how to word this.

Note 3: Eren's pov.


Hyperion.

"Eren, ignore what I said a few minutes ago about all the love - I hate you. I don't know or when I got the idea of love from... but ever since we first met. You struck me as a person I should avoid."

I see you in your room sometimes, I see you crying. And I do wonder if it's my fault, is it my fault you're crying. Until I look closely - your eyes - they're crying, the tears are transparent. And they don't fall onto a desk... no. They fall onto a picture the picture of you and our friends, which died... Mike, Orulo, Petra and Gunther. You watched as they got killed by the female titan and you didn't do a thing - you probably couldn't, you probably couldn't believe what was happening right in front of your eyes.

Right, Heichou?

But I bet every time you cry at the photo, you blame yourself. and I can promise you, it wasn't your fault. It was my fault. I had the option to transform into the titan but... I didn't take it. It's my fault they died.

So why do you blame yourself?

You don't need to.

If you wanna blame someone.

Please... blame me.

Except, I can see you probably don't give a damn - you have them deep dark eye bags under your eyes every time I see you. You look tired. What happened to the old Levi? The smart clean freak one... which I feel like he has left. But he hasn't, he just cries and looks awful.

Oh, I wish you would talk to me about this. So, why don't you? Please do. I want to hug you and hold you.

I walked into Levi's room knocking on the door, his hands clutching very hard onto the picture - looking like he was about to rip it. You turn around, put the picture down and run up to me and hug me. We don't talk or say anything to each other. I didn't know why you was crying for a few weeks, until Hanji told me - It became clear.

I pretend it's none of my business, but I do know inside that it is.

I feel like I don't get told because I'm probably not important to you. Why? Why am I not important to you? I'm just a shitty brat towards you right?

You've been living alone in this whole twisted world, coming every night to your room and crying your whole eyes out. I just sit outside the door hear you cry; and honestly it breaks my heart.

I wish I could go back in the past and fix it.- that I would've killed the titan. And our comrades/friends would've lived. I bet you'd be happy then, right Heichou?

But when I think deep into that. I bet I'd be to scared to - as much, as it'd make you happy. I just feel like it wouldn't work.

"You saved me, Jaéger."

end.

Note 4: ... i don't know. It's depressing i'm sorry.