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Chapter 2
Yahiro
"Meg…"
"hmmnn…"
"I love you…."
Megumi, lying opposite to me while her back rested on my chest, gazed behind me with her beaming eyes, "I know. And I love you too"
That moment. On that night. On that place.
It was just right. Everything seemed to be so right. All things suddenly fell in to their right places. And it was all because of Megumi. She made everything in my life completely right.
She gently turned to me and caressed my face again. Her stare was telling me that I was made just for her. As I looked intently back at her, I knew she was right. Because this girl is the only one who can melt my ice-cold heart and make me feel summer no matter how strong a snow storm is.
"I love you," I declared it again. I guessed I have said that a hundred times however my feelings for her couldn't just be uttered by three words. It is beyond describable. The best thing that ever happened to my life.
Yes
She was the best thing that ever happened to my life.
I stared at her for a while then suddenly pulled her closer to me again, making her feel how much I want us to stay like this forever. Surprise suddenly was written in her eyes as she looked at me. However what enticed me more was how cute she was when she nodded to me. It was adorable the way she blushed.
"I am absolutely in love with her." I wanted to scream as I rolled over to place her underneath me again.
"MEGUMI!" I shouted. I opened my eyes and looked around me and she was gone.
Of course. She is not here anymore. This is not the time anymore.
It has been 10 years ago.
For ten years, all I wanted was that moment to happen again. I am now on my late 20s. I have accomplished a lot of things for my age. Yet at the end of the day, all I needed is still her. How many times have I wished that whenever I go home, she and Lindsay will welcome me? That she will cook dinner for the three of us. And that I would not want to wake up to go work because it was her besides me on the bed.
I sat on my big empty bed as I stared blankly on the ceiling. What happened to my life? Why do I have to dream that moment again? I asked myself with deep sigh.
It was weird. I felt like a boy waiting for Christmas to come even if it was only summer. I kept on dreaming about her since I have heard the news that she will be back in town this Sunday. When have I become so perverted? Dreaming of her was making me sweat hard.
I got up and went straight to have a cold shower. As cold water run down my body, I felt awkwardness seeing myself react on her with just a mere dream. I shivered again thinking of how terrible I might respond once I see her again.
I turned the temperature of the water even lower. I need to restrain myself or I might end up in jail. No matter how I long for her, I need to control my emotions. Today is not the same like before. It is now different. She is now different. I am now different.
The day I went to states, was probably the worst day of my life. I wanted to explain to her my situation but I guessed it was no use. How could I tell her, "I'm getting married but it is all for business convenience. I love you but I have to this for my family blah blah blah"
One of the classy excuses of rich kids for arrange-marriages. Sure it could waver her however I cannot deny the fact that I was a coward. I had a choice and I choose to hurt her. How I could I be a monster to the only girl I have fallen in love. I choose money and power over her.
How sick can I be?
And no matter how several excuses I used, those can no longer cover up those messes I did. I tried my best to forget her however it was a complete failure. Six months later I decided to go back Japan only to figure out that she was not here anymore. I was an idiot. What made me think that she would still wait for me? That she would still forgive me because of her love for me. That she would accept my proposition to be my mistress until I get divorce. I knew how selfish it is but I could not help myself.
I still love her. I still need her.
I searched her all around Japan yet I could not find her. Though I knew how dangerous it was, I went to see SA just to ask where she could be. Of course I got badly hurt especially Akira and Hikari but if that was the price I have to take then I'm willing to do it in order to see her again. I was in a deep melancholy and I was near to self destruction.
And that was when Kei told me, "Do you think she will be happy seeing you like this? No matter how much you have hurt her, she would never wish to see you destroying yourself?"
He was right. Megumi is the kind of person who will think of others first before her happiness. She is willing to sacrifice just like what she did for me and Akira. She is the most selfless person I have ever met. The only person who had known my true inner self.
After that conversation, I decided to pick up myself. I wanted to be a better person when she sees me again. It was not a problem with my wife since she knew from the start that we were married out of wrong reasons and we would soon have a divorce.
A year had passed and I was appointed to be the president of our companies. It was a huge responsibility yet I decided to take anyways. For my age, I wanted to prove my father that having me married my wife was not necessary because I am better than him. I also needed that to prevent myself from thinking about Megumi for a while.
A couple more years I was dominating the industry next to Kei. I was able to save our dying companies and expand them into greater heights within 4 years time. Because of that I have become one of the most in demand businessman in the entire world. Another good thing about it was my wife and I have decided to push through our annulment next year. It was not because of our indifferences but she said she wanted to release me from the chain I had since the day we got married. I felt terrible because I was not even able to love her in our four and a half year marriage. Nonetheless, I have never hurt her because she has my utmost gratitude for understanding me.
And then that happened. I was in an event at LA when I saw her, Megumi. Indeed she looked a lot different yet she was even more divine than ever. She was wearing a very alluring red shimmering dress making her silky milk skin illuminate. I could still remember the way her hair was. Her waves were one of my favorite but straight layered cut made her looked sophisticated yet delicious at the same time. I knew it was awkward but I could not help myself to gape. My jaw simply dropped. After all this years, my heart still beats the same way every time I see her.
I felt my feet walking towards her when out of no where a Caucasian American guy went beside her and pull her towards him. I felt my ears steamed with fury seeing him hold my Megumi. Who the hell is this guy? How dare he is! I was only 2 feet away and that's when I saw it.
Megumi stared up to the man with those eyes. It was the same look whenever she stares at me. Then she slowly reached for him and traced his face. "This is the man. The man who is responsible for my happiness." She smiled as she gently put her hand on his nape to lower his face as her lips touched softly his.
I felt my eyes burned. I cannot take this anymore. It was too painful to see the woman you cherish has finally fallen in love with some other guy. And it was not a simply gesture. It was the exact look she had for me.
I ran out of the place and went straight to the hotel bar. I had to drink. That was the only way I could handle what I just saw. I was on my forth round of whisky when I felt like going back. Alcohol gave me the courage to confront her. I needed to know why she changed from the little girl I knew to this seductive lady. I dizzily got up from my stool. I was almost at the entrance door when her words bluntly hit me.
This is the man. The man who is responsible for my happiness.
Happiness.
She was happy. Finally.
I felt my head hit the wall. How could I be unfair again with her? There I go again, ruining her life. After what I have done 5 years ago, here I am now planning to take a way the person who helped her to get happiness again.
But...I love her.
Yes. I am in love with her but isn't there a saying that if you love someone else, you should learn to set them free. Their happiness should always come first. How could I be self-centered again? All I think was myself just like before. I felt my body went numb. Reality does hit so hard.
I knew it was not manly but I felt tears rolled down my face. Learning the reality that she no longer needs me as much as I need her was piercing my heart. But if that was really the end for us, I have to accept it. She had always put my name on top of her list. I guess it is time for me to return the favor.
I went back to the bar and hit a couple more shots before I went back to the penthouse. It must be the mixture of the alcohol and the sober I had that I did something I should not. I could not even remember all the details but when I got into my room and saw my wife lying on her bed, I felt something really strange. To be honest I have never touched anyone for the past years. I know it is hard to believe but that is the truth. Every time I try to kiss another girl, all I could think of was Megumi. I felt dreadful like I was cheating on her. And probably the suppression of my desire pushed me to do it.
Unexpectedly something happened between me and my wife. When I woke up in the morning, I felt ashamed of myself for using her for my carnal release. It was unjust for her because she got nothing to do with my problems.
She did not say a word until we got back to Japan. Then she started acting like nothing happened. Maybe she figured out that it was an accident. But one morning when we were having breakfast another shocking thing happened. The maids were serving the food, when all of a sudden she just ran to the nearest wash room to throw up.
I immediately went after to know what was going on. "Are you okay? Do you want me to bring you to doctor?" I asked as I rubbed her back.
She stopped and washed her face before turning to me. She stared at me then looked down the floor before getting a deep long breath. I observed how her fingers trembled like she was going to tell something outrageous.
What's with all the suspense?
"Yahiro, I don't think it is necessary anymore. I know exactly what is going on to me since last week" She sighed. "I am 5 weeks pregnant."
I went completely staggered. Pregnant! Baby! How could that happen? We only did it once! How could that be possible?
"Are you sure?" I asked anxiously. I knew it wasn't the normal reaction of a soon to be father. I noted how disappointed she was but I was totally surprise I did not know how to respond.
She gazed at me and nodded. "Yes. I already saw a doctor last week and she confirmed my pregnancy," she continued. "I knew it is not in the plan. And I knew you would not want it anyway but…" she stopped.
"What is it?" I curiously asked.
"I want to keep the baby. I will still sign the divorce papers. Don't worry I wont ask for child support. After the case you could go on to your original plans." She uttered with shaky voice. "Just let me keep the baby."
She was shivering. Probably because she was afraid of reaction. Well, it was after all very surprising. She was staring at the floor but I knew she was crying. I could see the glistening tears in the corners of her eyes.
I leaned to the wall and closed my eyes. Was this a sign that I should also start searching my happiness just like Megumi? A baby? A family? I looked back on my crying wife. How could I be so blind? Yes we probably started on a bad reason but she was always there for me. She never left me. She understands me. How can I be so damn blind not to see how lucky I am? And here she is crying because she is frightened that I would to get rid of the baby. I know I was a monster but I would never ask her to do that.
I stepped towards her and seized both her shoulders. She speedily wiped her tears before she looked up to me. "Well this is not the perfect place to tell that good news right?" I smiled. "A bathroom."
"I'm sorry…" she murmured.
I held her chin up. "Please don't say that. Why would you apologize about something amazing? Mikuro, I should be the one apologizing. I have been a total jerk for the past years of this marriage. I knew I have hurt you a couple of times but you never fail to support me. Please don't think of this like I am using you but… I want to turn a new life with you and our child. I know my feelings for you is not enough for a good foundation but why not give it a try." I said as I gazed on her surprised eyes.
Right after that she just jumped onto me and squeezed me tightly as though she could hardly believe what I said. "Thank you Yahiro. I thought you would never ask that" she cried.
Months passed by and we grew even closer. I decided to take a leave for a year because I want to be there beside her through out the whole period. I never thought I could feel this enormous excitement to see my child's birth. I was anticipating even more than her. She would simply just laugh at me whenever I lay down on her tummy to feel our child.
I made it sure that I accompany her in all her check ups and exercise class. I wanted to make sure that she and our baby was alright. What I did not notice was I started to become more concern about her than our child lately.
On her 5th month, she had her ultrasound to know the gender. She felt a bit sad because it is a girl not a son.
"Are you disappointed because it is a daughter?" she asked right after we got back on the manor. We were on the veranda having our snacks. "I am sorry. I knew it would be great if it is a son."
"Lheanne Sapphire" I said as I glance to her. "What do you think about it? Nice name isn't it? Fits her because she is going to be my little princess." I beamed.
She looked at me for a while. "Why do you have to be so nice to me?" she cried. "Don't you know how tormenting it is? How I wish everything will last but I knew one day I might wake up and everything will go back to how it used to be?"
I know I should tell her to stop crying but I could not help it. Seeing her like that was a
delight. She was so adorable. I stood up and embraced her from behind. "Then why don't we just continue this from now on? Wouldn't it be nice to be like this forever? I want Lindsay to have a great family." I squeezed her even more.
"But Yahiro, are you sure? I know you're doing this for her but…"she worried. "I know you are in love with someone else."
"I like you Mikuro." There I said it finally. "Can we go on a clean slate with out nothing from my crazy past and start a family. I want this to work. Will you help me?"
She turned to me and simply nodded. "Certainly." She blushed.
Since then, I have decided to embrace my new life. A life with Mikuro and our soon to be born child. It was not even difficult for me to do love Mikuro because she was such an adorable person. Childish, funny, a cry-baby but a very loving person. I bet she will be a great mother.
"Mikuro" I stood behind her while she was brushing her hair one evening.
"Yes" she responded.
I simply embraced her and rested my head on her neck. "Thank you," slowly I trailed kisses on her neck up to her jawline then her ear. I noticed how she dropped the brush she was holding and gradually closed her eyes.
Then I turned her over me to eventually meet her soft enviable lips. I heard her moan the moment I touched hers. "Mikuro…" I whispered between our gasps.
She opened her eyes showing her equal desires as well. "Yahiro…"
I held her up and tenderly placed her on top of the bed. "I will be gentle. I promise." I kissed her again but this time it was softer then eventually went deeper. While my lips were busy kissing hers, I smoothly glided my hands to do wonders over her body. First I caressed her breast which is now even fuller because of the milk. She already had full caps but pregnancy even made her more seductive. I ran my hands underneath her night clothes and brush slightly the tips of her breast which was responding obediently to me.
She twitched when I squeezed it. I decided to rub it a little more before going to the other one. I repeated it until I knew she was moaning a bit harder. After her lips I trailed down her soft neck then even went down on the peak of her bosoms while my hands went to the hemline of her dress to remove what was blocking my way. After taking her clothes off, I stared at her goddess- like body. I was not able to see her on our first night because it was dark.
She immediately covered herself with her arms as I noticed her feeling a bit embarrassed.
"Please don't stare at me like that. I am fat…"
I held both her arms and kissed her hands. "No. You are beautiful" Then I lowered my self to kiss the baby bump on her tummy. "You look divine" I murmured as I went even lower.
She twitched even more when I reached my destination. I guess the rumors about pregnant woman being more sensitive are true. She was very much ready but I still want to please her after all that was something I failed to do before. I decided to nestle there for a while when I felt her pulling me up.
"Yahiro please…"she moaned.
I kissed her lips again "I thought you would never ask." I teased before entering her. It was a bit difficult but more enticing knowing that she is very much pregnant and very much ready for me at the same time.
I took off a bit slow on the start since I still have to adjust myself for the baby. Gradually when everything was set I started to move a little faster. Then I got more heat up when she started calling my name. Damn! I was completely out of control. I move even faster and faster until we both reached the peak.
We slept together tired yet satisfied after that. Since then we started to be more comfortable with each other. I felt weird because I have never felt so much happy like this for a while. At times we still do it but I had to be more careful because she was near her due date. She usually laughs whenever I try to give her a hint. I could not help myself but to want her even more. Was this because I haven't done that for so long or maybe because I have actually started to like her as well? Either way it was a good feeling though.
A week before her due date, I was on the nursery room pulling of some final details. That was when I started hearing her scream.
"YAHIRO! YAHIRO!" She shouted.
I went straight at our room to see her soaking wet. I couldn't think twice, I immediately carried her and ran down to our garage.
"PREPARE THE CAR!" I ordered. I could feel the tension of my nerves as I placed her inside the car.
"YAHIRO! URGH! IT HURTS!" She screamed. I could feel how painful it is for her but all I could do was held her hands and make hem feel that I will be here besides her.
"Mikuro." I pulled her close to me. "Every thing is going to be fine. I promise" I whispered as I kissed the top of her head.
She was still trembling the moment we got in the hospital. When she got in the delivery room, I could feel my cold sweats dripped all my face. I was shivering and I did know what to do. At times I could here her scream. If only I could share her pain, I would certainly do that.
After nine hours the doctor went out. "Are you her husband?"
I abruptly stood and went to the doctor. "Yes I am. How are they?" I nervously asked.
He intently looked at me, "You're baby is beautiful. She is perfectly healthy."
I felt relief right after I heard the news. "That's great! Can I see them now?"
"Sir, I need to tell you something," the doctor continued. "Will it be alright if we sit first?" he asked. His long deep breath made me shivered but tried my best to calm myself.
"We need you to clear your mind and hear me first. Up until your wife gave birth, she was completely fine. However right after that…."
"What are you trying to tell me? Where is Mikuro?" I rapidly snapped.
"She is a critical situation. Her vitals suddenly went down. It was difficult to explain that as well because she was perfectly alright," the doctor explained. "Please sir. You need to calm down."
I vehemently grabbed his gown, "You want me to calm down after hearing that! Where is she? I need to see her."
"Sir, we are so sorry. We are doing the best that we can. Please wait for her. We are transferring her to ICU. Please sir, you are strangling me." He coughed.
I let go of him but that did not change how furious I was. "I need to see my wife!" I ordered.
As I run towards that white door, it seemed like déjà vu. Somewhere in my past I knew I had experienced that feeling. The feeling like I was running for my life. I could not even rejoice the birth of my daughter because I was afraid that I might loose one of the most beautiful things I have ever had in my life.
"MIKURU!"
One month later
It was a fine spring morning. The sun was high up but the breeze was cold enough to protect us from heat. It was a perfect day to have fun but for me it was one of the worst days of my life. I could not even believe how this all happened. All my plans shattered with just a snap.
I took Lyndsay from her stroller then walked slowly towards the crowd. I did not want to loose sight of her after this. She is the only one left in my life. I could not bear anymore if something terrible happen to her.
After Megumi, now it is Mikuru. How can life be so unfair for me? When I decided to finally move on to work out my family, unexpectedly he took Mikuru. She died three days after she gave birth to Lindsay. I did not even get the chance to say that I have begun to love her because she was in comatose the whole time.
Yes, gradually I fell in love with her. It was not precisely similar to what I felt for Megumi but it was enough for me to stick with her and to faithfully accept her as my present and future. I had it all laid in a plan after she gave birth. I wanted for us to redo our vows. I wanted to repeat it because the first one was a disaster. I knew I hurt her so much with the way I said I do. And besides the first one was all for media purposes. This time I wanted to sincerely rectify what I have done wrong. But again it was too late. She is gone. And this time, it is forever.
The ceremony went on but all I could feel was the part in my heart she deserted. Then, Lindsay started crying. I could not make her stop. I guess she knew she would no longer see her mother. I feel so sad for her, because I wanted to offer her the best family she could have but now it is impossible.
"Lindsay, I will do the best that I can to give you everything. I promise. Mikuru, I will take care our child. I will protect and love her. Don't worry about it anymore. You can move forward to see the light. I love you and thank you."
Los Angeles, USA
Friday 6 pm
"Hey Meg, are you ready? We need to go now." Jun knocked on my door. "I'll wait for you at the porch. Sakura is already at the car so hurry up."
"I'll be there in a second." I uttered. I took my Hermes bag and LV luggage. Before I shut the door, I stared back on my mirror to check how I looked.
My hair was up on a sleek pony leaving my bangs on the side. I had my Versace coat over my DKNY dress. "Perfect" I said. Who would have thought that in ten years time, I will be one of the most in demand Broadway Artist?
"It's time" I smirked. I could not wait to see their stunned faces. I bet they will be in to the surprise of their lives.
Particularly that person.
"Yahiro"
Hi guys! sorry for the late update. i'm currently having difficulties in getting motivations because i have been through rough roads for the past months. please spare my grammar since this is just a raw draft of my work. anyways i sort of borrowed Mikuru of haruhi suzumiya because i simply adore her in the series. btw, thanks for the comments. hope to read more.
