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hi! i know it has been ages since i updated and i'm so sorry for that. i've been through a lot and honestly i lost my inspiration to even write. this chapter is short and something i just wrote abruptly as lightning suddenly struck me out of nowhere. i wrote this on my phone so i apologize about the format and the grammar since i didn't even proofread it at all. thanks for the support and i promise to be active again.

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chapter 5. megumi

You only live once.

That has been my belief since I was a child. You have to live your life to the fullest because you only have one shot. One shot to give everything. Then when your time is up, you will blow up.

Yes. Blow up into ashes.

I never believe in second chances.

However, here I am now. Standing on my two feet. Kissing the person who killed me.

Yes. I was brought back to life.

Only to be killed twice.

Is it worth it?

Is he worth it?

That I have no idea.

The only thing running in my mind is that I am totally stubborn. Goodness! It did not even lasted a night. To think that I have prepared myself, mentally and physically, before returning here. I bet all my strength that I will disregard him like an animal that he was. And yet without a day, I was completely swoon again by his devilish smile and mysterious eyes.

Oh for the love of music! Why am I so in love with this person who just threw me out in the ocean causing my death in the first place.

I can here my brother's voice inside my head. Screaming at my face. Telling me to stop.

But why couldnt I?

I should hate him.

I should definitely hate him.

For all the pain he caused me.

For the sufferings that I have been through.

Yet here I am. With him.

"Megumi" he whispered my name as he delicately tugged my hair behind my ears. His eyes beaming with happiness and lust combined equally.

I felt my eyes started to warm. I knew my heart wanted to cry. This felt so nostalgic. As though we were back in the academy again. Like we used to be.

Madly in love with each other.

He smiled and kissed me lightly in my forehead like I am the most beautiful person in the world. And darn it! That sent shivers in my entire body. The current he was sending me was burning all the insanity left in me.

Then I heard it.

"I love you"

Sweet. Delicate. Like a dream.

A tender look and a gentle caress on my flushed cheeks before I shut my eyes to sleep.

Tomorrow.

I will surely regret this.

But for now.

Just let me live in this fantasy.

Just for now.