Good evening my friends. How's life? Sorry this took so long- but we got there! Ican't tell you the amount of times I wanted to put derogatory references to Erwin's eyebrows in this chapter- I had to forcibly restrain myself. I also had to write it three times, but I am happy with it now. Anyway- bye! Don't forget to review!

Disclaimer- Obv it's not mime, or Levi would have kissed Eren longgggg ago.

Warnings- bad language, gore, hugs, character death, threats, and whatever else is here.

CHAPTER6

ERENS POINT OF VIEW.

Eren peered down at Levi and Armin with fascination and worry. They looked so peaceful, almost like they were in the middle of a happy dream. Armin had golden hair falling over his eyes and Levi's lips were slightly parted.

They were both lying on a large wooden table, and Erwin was currently cleaning some of the knives he had found in the kitchen. Eren could only assume they were to be used for the surgery. It had started raining while Erwin had moved them all inside, and now the rain was washing away all the blood that had smeared on the cobbled streets below. Eren walked over to the window, and stared. He hated rain he decided. It was too- too depressing.

"Eren?" The Commander asked. Eren spun round and looked up at his superior.

"Yes Sir?" He cocked his head.

"I am going to start now. I want you to wait in the room next door, and not come in." Erwin stated. Eren gasped, and shook his head violently.

"What? No way! I want to be here! They're my friends just as much as yours!"

Erwin sighed and put his head in his hands.

"And that's why I'm telling you to wait outside." He started.

"But-"

"No. Listen. It's not going to be nice Eren, and I don't want you to see them listen that. You're too young, and I can try and save you from seeing some things. They will be fine, I promise! They mean as much to me as they do to you." Erwin pleaded. Eren considered talking back, but he knew that he couldn't get out of this. With regret he trudged next door, stealing one last look at the people who mattered so much to him.

"Good lad." Erwin smiled. "It's gunna be fine, I promise."

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LEVIS POINT OF VIEW

Levi woke with a start, chest heaving and mind spinning. His foot and leg hurt like they had been ripped out of their sockets and tossed under a carriage before being clued back onto him. His hand stung like hell, and Levi wondered why he had even woken up. Slowly and carefully he raised his hand up to his face so he could take a look at it- but to his dismay, (or was it relief?) it was all bandaged up and out of view.

How did he get like this- it was hard to remember he had to admit. All he remembered was thinking about Eren, flashes of Erwin and two titans. Then a pain like no other and darkness. He rubbed his forehead with his good hand.

He looked to his side and saw Armin shirtless with a large white bandage wrapped around his torso lying on the table next to him. The young boy was unconscious and laying flat, like someone on a coffin. It was worrying to see such a lively and excited boy rendered to deathly silence. He looked to the other side and felt a sigh of relief to see Eren laying down with his mouth open wide in a snore and hair falling over his closed eyes. He quickly scanned the boy for injuries, but couldn't see any. Thank god.

As he woke up more, and blinked the sleep from his eyes, he became aware that Eren's arm was flopped over Levi's body, and someone had used their cape to make a makeshift blanket for him. He shuffled closer to Eren, wincing as he did so, and buried his head into the boys chest and closed his eyes.

His small hands found their way snaking around Eren's waist so he was hugging Eren back, and he bathed in the warmth radiating off his body. Although the pain was still there, Eren seemed to override it, so it was like white noise in the background. He made it bearable. He was just dropping off again, not really caring about all the unanswered questions, and just glad that he seemed okay, when a chuckle was heard from the corner of the room.

Levi jumped about eight feet in the air, but kept his arms around Eren, refusing to let this rare moment end.

"Erwin." He hissed. "What's so funny?"

Erwin giggled again, (Levi didn't really have Erwin down as a giggler, but he was doing it more and more recently) and he pointed at Levi.

"You, you sod."

"Got a problem Blondie?" Levi muttered darkly from the table.

"No, not at all. Just remembering, what was it you said? Hmmmm, oh yes! Something about only lust wasn't it?" He toyed playfully.

Levi cursed. Damn- he was busted.

"Fuck off." He whispered, and turned away from his friend.

"Whatever you say Levi, whatever you say. I'm just glad your ok. We will however, be chatting about this later." He smiled, and paced out of the room quietly. Levi groaned and went back to cuddling Eren. He soon dropped back off, but his sleep was filled with pain, screams and dark smiling faces towering over him.

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Three hours later he woke up again, feeling a lot better than he had a while ago. The pain had subsided a bit, and he was actually able to move his toes an inch. He opened his eyes a crack, and was shocked to see Eren staring back at him. He blinked in surprise and instantly made to move away from the brunette, but Eren just smiled at him and nuzzled Levi's shoulder.

"How ya feelin' Levi?" Eren asked, innocently.

"Better thank you Eren. How about you?" He whispered back.

"Glad you are ok, I thought you and Armin were going to- you know." He looked uneasy, and Levi understood.

"Yeah- I do." He replied.

"I remembered something Levi!" Eren whispered, and Levi was suddenly awake.

"What?" He asked.

"It came to me in a dream. It was in training for the Survey Corps, but I remember mastering my 3DMG gear for the first time. It hadn't worked before because it was broken, but I got a new one and made it work. I can see it as clearly as I can see you." Eren whispered excitedly. Levi gave a small smile.

"That's good." He replied.

"Can I ask something weird?" Eren asked. Levi swallowed, this couldn't be good. He nodded anyway.

"Why don't you ever smile? Like, I've know you for about three days, and I have seen you smile about once, and even that was a small one."

"Well Eren, I just don't want to anymore. I just don't see much reason to, the situation we're in." He shrugged. Eren considered this and looked at him sadly.

"Oh. Ok. I think you should. Even your little smile looked nice. It's going to waste."

Levi was taken back, but he thanked Eren none the less. What an odd thing to say.

"Your a good hugger." Eren breathed, and he wrapped his long leg around Levi's.

"I assume we did this before my accident."

Levi stiffened, how should he answer this? Say yes, and when Eren got his memories back he would know Levi had lied, but say no, and Eren may stop. He didn't want to be seen as a lier, so he mustered up the courage to tell the truth.

"Um- no Eren. This, this is the first time." He replied. To his relief and shock, Eren just grinned at him, and buried himself deeper in the smaller man.

"The old me was missing out then." He said. Levi didn't answer, he was too busy thinking about how close Eren was to him. How if he only moved about three inches he would be kissing Eren. Oh how he wanted too, three inches would be all he would have to move, three inches. But he stopped himself. Eren was fifteen- fifteen. He must keep that in mind.

Eren looked at Levi with curiosity, and cocked his head.

"You ok Levi- you look deep in thought."

Levi hummed in response, and averted his eyes from Eren's beautiful face before things got worse.

"Have I annoyed you with too many questions?" Eren asked.

"What! No! Of course not Eren." Levi turned back to the boy, wanting to assure him he was fine.

"Ah- ok. Tell me if I do." He said. "Why does Mikasa hate you Levi?"

"Ah, well, I don't think hate is the word. Just more jealous. It was to do with before you had your accident." Levi replied.

"Can you tell me what happened?"

"Well, this may seem weird, but I may as well tell you I guess. Before your accident, you claimed to have romantic feelings for me, while Mikasa had feelings for you. Now, I guess that she is trying to steer you away from me so you can be with her now. She's a good girl really Eren, and an excellent soldier. You should consider her." Levi said, wanting to play fair. Eren's face lit up in shocked surprise, and he suddenly looked at

Levi in a new way. His eyes grew in awe, and he seemed to trace the outlines of the older mans face.

"What? I liked you?" Levi shifted uncomfortably.

"Well you said so."

"Hm. Well that explains why Mikasa isn't keen on you. Were we together?" Eren pondered.

"Well, um, no. In fact I didn't even know till the day of your accident." Levi responded.

"Oh." Eren said, with no real clue as to what he was thinking in his answer. Levi averted his gaze, and stared intently at the table beneath them as if it were suddenly the most interesting thing in the world.

"Did you like me back?" Eren whispered after a delay. Levi, still keeping his eyes averted, shook his head.

"Not in the way you wanted me to." He breathed, barely heard. Eren gave no answer to this, but instead and much to Levi's distress, let go of the man and shuffled backwards from him.

Levi, wanting to avoid any more questions and awkwardness decided to try and get up.

He sat up, without looking at the titan shifter. His hand and leg burnt like nothing, but he ignored it and closed his eyes in determination.

He could do this.

He was the strongest human alive.

He was going to do this.

He swallowed and carefully swung his legs over the table. With all of his courage that Eren had given him, and all of his determination he slowly lowered himself onto the ground. He hissed loudly, and cursed. It hurt- it bloody well hurt. But he stayed standing up. That was good. He locked his eyes onto an old vase set on a shelf on the Opposite side of the room, only about two meters away. He was going to walk to there and back.

The first step was horrible, but he kept going, feeling Eren's gaze on his back. By the forth he was nearly there, and starting to find a way to push the pain aside. He made it to the vase, and using the shelf to steady himself, turned around. Eren was sitting on the bed with his legs draped over, watching him with a blanc face.

"Your doing well." He stated. Was that- resentment lingering in his voice?

Levi got a clear look at Armin lying on the table, his bandages a bit bloodier then they had been earlier. He was still dead straight, with his arms and legs stiff beside him. Levi hoped for Eren's sake he would make it.

He had just walked back when he heard footsteps echoing from the next room, and the door opened to reveal Erwin. He was fully kitted up in his gear and his cape was bloodied quite badly. Had he been out?

"Commander?" Eren cocked his head in confusement.

"I'm sorry Levi, but I just went and sent everyone else home. No point them waiting and dying here for us." He sighed. "Were on our own."

"WHAT!" Eren yelled, and sprung off the table.

"Good call Erwin." Levi stated, ignoring Eren's reaction. Erwin nodded his thanks.

"Good call? Are you out of your mind Levi? You, you can hardly walk, Armin is nearly dead and I am practically usless! What were you thinking Commander?" He rasped.

"No need to get his memory back, same old Eren." Erwin groaned, and he went to start taking off his gear.

"What the Hell is that meant to mean?" Eren spat, taking a step foreword. Levi put out his hand to grab Eren back before he did anything stupid, but Eren, seeing his move, and knowing he had the upper hand, dodged it.

"Calm down Eren. Its no big deal. Just sit down. It's been a hard enough day as it is, don't make it worse." Erwin said, emphasising the command. God this boy was mental.

"No. I don't want to. I know you all know what your doing, but in my mind, I have only existed for two days, and I don't want to die not knowing who I was!" He retorted. Levi supposed that Eren was telling the truth, he hadn't even known his name two days ago, let alone anything else.

Erwin's eyebrows rose, and he stood up, suddenly towering over Eren. Eren looked like he may back down, any sane person looking at the Commander now would. Instead he did the predictable Eren thing and took a step closer. Levi, bearing the pain and not wanting his friends to fight, also stood up, and took Eren's arm. Eren shook him off, sending Levi into a wobbling mess. He let out another hiss as he fell to the floor and screamed as he landed on his hand.

Erwin, actually engaged and paying attention now that his friend was hurt, walked over to Eren, picked him up and dumped him on the table. Before the boy could get away, he quickly tied his hands behind his back with a strap from his gear. He then, ignoring the look Eren gave him walked over to the wimpering Levi and lifted him up, cradleing him close to his chest. He carefully placed him in a chair near the vase.

He faced Eren again.

"What the Hell do you think you are doing young man? Levi could have lost his ability to walk had you undone all the hard work I had done. You are lucky he fell on his hands." He barked. Eren did not show any emotion apart from anger.

"Well maybe it has something do do with what he said to me before the mission all went wrong. Maybe I had simply had enough of him thinking he could just do what he wanted and say what he wanted to me. Maybe- I didn't like it."

Levi, clearly pushing the pain aside, stood up, and was suddenly not the slightly happy man Eren had seen so far. He may have been the shortest in the room, but he looked the biggest, and his eyes were fixed on Eren alone. Erwin couldn't help but smirk. Levi may like Eren, but god help the boy. He was in trouble now.

Eren, realising this, whimpered.

"And what did I say to upset you so much?" He sarcastically asked.

"That I was disgusting and for me never to speak to you again." Eren said, looking to Erwin for help. None came.

"That's a lie and you know it." Levi snarled, confused. He had never said that!

"Not this mission, the last one. I remember you know." Eren retorted. Levi's and Erwin's eyes grew alike, and suddenly the atmosphere in the room changed a lot. Erwin looked at Levi, and Levi looked at Eren. Levi felt guilt at first, but then the dawning realisation of what Eren had said kicked in, and he started to feel his blood boil.

"Have you been lying this whole time? You fucking, lying Brat! All I did for you, all I went through? For nothing? You remembered everything?" Levi viciously threatened. If he looked scary before, he looked hideous now. "How dare you."

Erwin had only seen him this angry before, when Isabelle and Furlan had died. He took a step back, this was going to be bad. He did not however, help Eren. He deserved whatever he was going to get.

Eren shook his head in fear, and his eyes pleaded for a chance.

"No, no, no. Only that one bit. Only the bit where you turned me down, the rest I can't remember- I swear!" He begged. If his arms hadn't have been tied he would have been waving them frantically.

"Bull shit. I will give you one last time to tell the truth, you coward." Levi took another step foreword, picking up a sword from Erwin's canister lying on the floor as he did so. It's sharp metal gleamed in the light as much as his eyes.

Eren started to sob, and inched closer to Armin who was still lying almost dead on the table.

"I am! Please believe me Levi! I woke up, and I didn't even know my own name! All I knew was that a man I had loved called Levi had hurt me, and I can remember the whole conversation! Nothing else! Armin told me, he told me that my mother was eaten in front of me! And I can't even remember her name or what she looked like! All I could remember was you! But I couldn't say anything- people might have found out about what had happened! So I pretended I couldn't remember it- like everything else." He chocked out, between tears. He was clearly fearing for his life, and he had every right to.

Erwin, believing the boy, stepped foreword, and carefully took the sword from Levi.

"Let's just put that here, hmm Levi?" He calmly said, before chucking his sword and all the others out the window. They clattered on the ground below. Eren looked at Erwin with thankful eyes, but back to Levi with fearful ones.

"Please..." he Begged.

Levi squinted his eyes, and looked at Erwin for help. What should he do? Trust Eren, or his gut? Erwin looked to Eren and nodded his head, saying that he believed the boy. Levi considered this, and after a moment padded back to his chair and sat down, back to Eren. Had he really just done that? He loved Eren, so, so much, and a moment ago, he had been threatening to kill him?

He wanted to cry, so much. But he couldn't. No wonder Eren had seemed so different and closer to Armin lately. Who would want to be with someone after they had said that to you? It had clearly hurt him so much that it was the only thing that stuck with him after all that he had been through. Hurt him more than his mother dying.

Eren let out an audible sigh of relief beside him, but kept up his sobbing. Levi heard the rain start to quicken up outside, and in that moment he wished he didn't exist.

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ERWINS POINT OF VIEW- cuz why not?

They were both going mad, Erwin reasoned. Raving, stark mad. Levi, after years of bottling up his emotions was starting to release them all at once, and knowing there was nothing he could do about it, had decided to bring down as many people down as he could with him. It was clear he liked Eren a lot though, anyone else he would have slaughtered on the spot and shown no mercy. And Eren- Eren had clearly lost the will to live.

Erwin had seen it before. Whenever someone, someone smart, had reached their emotional capacity, their consciousness would go into a type of lockdown, almost like a deep sleep, and leave the body behind to sort everything out. It rarely came back, and died along with the person not long after, not able to function properly. It was clear now, he had generally believed it to be amnesia, but now he realised what it really was.

To be honest, he was shocked that Levi hadn't slipped into it yet. But it wasn't uncommon in the Survey Corps.

He walked over to Eren, and untied him, certain that the boy wasn't going to do anything stupid. His hands went straight to his mouth as he let out a muffled silent scream, before flopping down onto the hard, scratched wood and hugged the almost lifeless body of Armin. Erwin was surprised the blonde had lasted this long. When he had been operating on him, he had realised that he had internal bleeding from a large artery. He had attempted to stitch it up, but he neither had the skill, nor nerves to attempt after the stitching broke the first time. He had hoped to get him to the doctor, but that clearly wasn't going to work now.

It seemed Armin Arlert may never see daylight again, and instead die a slow and painful death on an old table in a cold, abandoned house. He did not have the guts to tell Eren, who only hours ago had been holding his hand and laughing with him.

And all of this was Erwin's fault. He had been playing this game for too long, and for too hard, and it had caught up with him. Levi, his only real friend still alive had been seriously injured. Many, if not all of his squad from yesterday were dead. And he didn't even want to think about how many people had died before he managed to go out and tell them to return to the safety of home.

Not being able to watch Eren and Armin without resisting the urge to throw up, he went over to Levi.

"We better get moving Levi, it is titan territory here, we need to try and get home and get you to a real doctor. Arlert is beyond saving, he has an hour at most. I say we leave him here, and go now, while the rain weakens the titans senses." Levi looked up at him, then at Armin, and nodded.

"Eren, come over here please." Erwin asked, kindly and softly. Eren obeyed silently, and shuffled over to Erwin.

"Now, this is going to be hard to hear, but Armin isn't going to make it Eren. He-" he stopped, looking at the distress in Eren's face. He sighed, and put his head in his hands, before breathing out deeply.

"He's nearly dead. And if we want to survive we have to leave now. We can't bring him, he will slow us down. I- I'm so sorry Eren." He whispered, close to crying.

"What?" Eren said.

"We have to go now Eren, I will give you ten minutes to say goodbye." Erwin smiled sadly.

"But you said he would be ok. You promised!" He cried.

"I- there was nothing I could do! I tried, believe me Eren I tried so hard!" He pleaded.

"But- why? Why him?" Eren was talking more to himself now than anyone. Erwin let him. Eren stood up, and walked back over to the bed. He peered down at Armin, and reached for his hand.

"He never did anything. Not to anyone. And, and he was going to take me to the ocean. It was going to end happily." Eren let go of his hand and reached into Armin's trouser pocket, and pulled out a long gold chain with a blue crystal hanging on the end of it. Erwin had seen it under Armin's top earlier, and had put it there to keep it safe. Eren hung it over his neck, and it made a clunk as it banged against his key.

"I will remember you Armin." Eren smiled down. "With this, and your beautiful smile, I will remember you. I will keep our promise Armin. I will get to the ocean, and I will kill very single titan remaining in your, and your honour alone. You shall not die in vain my dear friend. I will keep you alive in my memories." Erwin bit his tongue. He would not cry.

He placed a kiss on his forehead, and unbuttoned his cloak and placed it over his friend. With that, he turned around- and that's when Erwin saw it.

The same anger from before- the same unconditional blood lust was festering in his eyes. It sent shivers down his spine. No fifteen year old should look like that. Even Levi must have noticed it from his corner- because he gave a small smirk, and stood up- knowing Eren was now changed.

"Alright Commander." Eren's eyes glinted. "Let's get going. We have a job to do."