p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanNow I was the one blushing. It wasn't my intent to say it like Did I mean it like that?/em Sure Shoyo had a cute bubbly personality, but was he cute in a romantic way? I looked over his face, finding a vulnerable expression as the question at hand still had not been answered. Big round eyes, fluffy wild hair, normally cheerful expression. I blushed a bit more, realizing that yeah, maybe Shoyo was cuter than I originally thought. "Yeah… You're kind of cute." I finally answered, my voice wavering. Could anyone blame me for being unsure? With everything that happened with Kuroo, I can't expect things to end the same./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"span"Oh…" Hinata bit his lip, eyes not moving away from mine. I could tell he had more he wanted to say. Whether he was holding back, or that he just didn't have the words yet, I couldn't figure it out. He appeared to be worried though. Normally Shoyo was so easy to read, but right now, my brain was fuzzy and my heart was pounding. I couldn't seem to pinpoint how he felt./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"span"Shoyo…?" I whispered without realizing. He finally looked away, like I had snapped him out of a daze. I began to worry even more. What did I just do? This was a mistake. The same mistake. I'm an idiot! Why can't I learn? It was bad enough with Kuroo, but I thought I was finally doing good! Uhhg./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanThe inner frustration must have shown, either in my face, or my body language. Something tipped Hinata off about how I was feeling, "Sorry I… I don't think I have been called cute before… besides when I was little that is. This is a different kind of cute though… right?" He glanced over at me, brow still furrowed in confusion./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanI wasn't off the hook yet. Years by Kuroo's side taught me hiding and lying wasn't the answer. That it hurt and that it would be so much easier to talk about it. With Shoyo, it was completely different. Different in the sense that I would most likely have to teach him how I felt. "Yeah, you're right. It's different. When you look at a cute girl, how do you feel?"/span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanHinata turned his head and looked up at the ceiling, "Uh… Well… I don't know. I just feel that they are cute! Is there something else I should be feeling?"/span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanThis was going to be difficult. I asked, "Do you feel butterflies? Do you think maybe that you would like to get to know her? Maybe be her friend?"/span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"span"I guess? Why wouldn't I want to be friends with her." He asked back, clearly not getting it./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"span"If she were sad, would you want to be there for her, and dry her tears? Hold her hand and be her rock during the hard times?" I was beating around the bush yes. More like assessing the situation, but maybe also really beating around the bush./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"span"Well of course! I was there for Yachi during her trouble with her mom!" He looked at me and smiled. This struck a cord of jealousy in me. I am not trying to get him to confess to having feelings for Yachi. New plan./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"span"So if you felt like you were close with someone, and they made you happy and feeling butterflies, wouldn't you think they were cute in the romantic way?" I asked more directly, hoping this didn't shift back towards his team manager./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanHe stared at me for a moment before raising an eyebrow, "I don't get it… Are you trying to say I feel that about Yachi? Or….?"/span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanThis is hopeless. No more beating around the bush. I need to be so direct that I basically bash his skull in with the truth, "No Shoyo, I am talking about how I feel about emyou./em" Everything clicked then, I could almost literally see the light bulb./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"span"emOh…/em" He said softly, his face starting to flush again. He rubbed the back of his neck nervously and looked at the sheets. I didn't want to try to rush him into saying anything. This wasn't exactly a proposal for a relationship, just a confession of feelings. This has to be the first time Shoyo was confessed too, so it probably seemed like way more./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanI felt bad for making him worry like this. We were both quiet for so long it was suffocating. I parted my lips to speak. I was going to hopefully say something that would ease his anxiety, tell him it's okay to not feel the same way, to just want to be friends, or to not want to be friends at all. However, I didn't get the chance. Hinata's eyes returned to me with a more determined expression, "Okay!"/span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanWhat. emWhat does that mean?/em emShoyo./em I stared at him oddly, "What do you mean by okay?" That kind of comment just doesn't make sense in this context. Does he mean okay, yes I look like a Pomeranian? Or okay, I have feelings for Yachi? Or okay, I understand how you feel? God damn it, stop being so confusing. I feel like I am playing with a puzzle./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanHinata broke into a goofy grin upon realizing his mistake, "Oh right! Haha, I mean, okay I'll try dating you." Now I am even more confused. I cringed and hid my face under the pillow. I didn't ask that Hinata! What are you doing? Uhg. I guess I am more flustered than anything. Did Shoyo like me that way? He poked my shoulder and nuzzled under the pillow with me, "Why'd you do that for?"/span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanOkay first off, he is way too close. I feel like I can't breath. Secondly, that was absolutely adorable and I think my heart stopped. Thirdly, he looks so genuinely concerned. God what am I going to do with him. I'm so overwhelmed. "Are you sure you feel that way about me? You shouldn't say you are going to date just anybody. You have to date people you actually like!" I said in a rushed tone. Maybe I seemed mad, maybe I am a little. What if some stranger came up and confessed to Shoyo like this? Would he just blindly agree?/span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"span"You aren't just anybody! You're Kozume, right?" He smiled so brightly. Shoyo is basically sunshine, and you can't change my mind./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"span"Oh…" Hinata bit his lip, eyes not moving away from mine. I could tell he had more he wanted to say. Whether he was holding back, or that he just didn't have the words yet, I couldn't figure it out. He appeared to be worried though. Normally Shoyo was so easy to read, but right now, my brain was fuzzy and my heart was pounding. I couldn't seem to pinpoint how he felt./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"span"Shoyo…?" I whispered without realizing. He finally looked away, like I had snapped him out of a daze. I began to worry even more. What did I just do? This was a mistake. The same mistake. I'm an idiot! Why can't I learn? It was bad enough with Kuroo, but I thought I was finally doing good! Uhhg./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanThe inner frustration must have shown, either in my face, or my body language. Something tipped Hinata off about how I was feeling, "Sorry I… I don't think I have been called cute before… besides when I was little that is. This is a different kind of cute though… right?" He glanced over at me, brow still furrowed in confusion./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanI wasn't off the hook yet. Years by Kuroo's side taught me hiding and lying wasn't the answer. That it hurt and that it would be so much easier to talk about it. With Shoyo, it was completely different. Different in the sense that I would most likely have to teach him how I felt. "Yeah, you're right. It's different. When you look at a cute girl, how do you feel?"/span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanHinata turned his head and looked up at the ceiling, "Uh… Well… I don't know. I just feel that they are cute! Is there something else I should be feeling?"/span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanThis was going to be difficult. I asked, "Do you feel butterflies? Do you think maybe that you would like to get to know her? Maybe be her friend?"/span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"span"I guess? Why wouldn't I want to be friends with her." He asked back, clearly not getting it./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"span"If she were sad, would you want to be there for her, and dry her tears? Hold her hand and be her rock during the hard times?" I was beating around the bush yes. More like assessing the situation, but maybe also really beating around the bush./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"span"Well of course! I was there for Yachi during her trouble with her mom!" He looked at me and smiled. This struck a cord of jealousy in me. I am not trying to get him to confess to having feelings for Yachi. New plan./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"span"So if you felt like you were close with someone, and they made you happy and feeling butterflies, wouldn't you think they were cute in the romantic way?" I asked more directly, hoping this didn't shift back towards his team manager./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanHe stared at me for a moment before raising an eyebrow, "I don't get it… Are you trying to say I feel that about Yachi? Or….?"/span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanThis is hopeless. No more beating around the bush. I need to be so direct that I basically bash his skull in with the truth, "No Shoyo, I am talking about how I feel about emyou./em" Everything clicked then, I could almost literally see the light bulb./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"span"emOh…/em" He said softly, his face starting to flush again. He rubbed the back of his neck nervously and looked at the sheets. I didn't want to try to rush him into saying anything. This wasn't exactly a proposal for a relationship, just a confession of feelings. This has to be the first time Shoyo was confessed too, so it probably seemed like way more./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanI felt bad for making him worry like this. We were both quiet for so long it was suffocating. I parted my lips to speak. I was going to hopefully say something that would ease his anxiety, tell him it's okay to not feel the same way, to just want to be friends, or to not want to be friends at all. However, I didn't get the chance. Hinata's eyes returned to me with a more determined expression, "Okay!"/span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanWhat. emWhat does that mean?/em emShoyo./em I stared at him oddly, "What do you mean by okay?" That kind of comment just doesn't make sense in this context. Does he mean okay, yes I look like a Pomeranian? Or okay, I have feelings for Yachi? Or okay, I understand how you feel? God damn it, stop being so confusing. I feel like I am playing with a puzzle./span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanHinata broke into a goofy grin upon realizing his mistake, "Oh right! Haha, I mean, okay I'll try dating you." Now I am even more confused. I cringed and hid my face under the pillow. I didn't ask that Hinata! What are you doing? Uhg. I guess I am more flustered than anything. Did Shoyo like me that way? He poked my shoulder and nuzzled under the pillow with me, "Why'd you do that for?"/span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"spanOkay first off, he is way too close. I feel like I can't breath. Secondly, that was absolutely adorable and I think my heart stopped. Thirdly, he looks so genuinely concerned. God what am I going to do with him. I'm so overwhelmed. "Are you sure you feel that way about me? You shouldn't say you are going to date just anybody. You have to date people you actually like!" I said in a rushed tone. Maybe I seemed mad, maybe I am a little. What if some stranger came up and confessed to Shoyo like this? Would he just blindly agree?/span/p
p style="font-family: 'Lucida Grande', 'Lucida Sans Unicode', 'GNU Unifont', Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 14px;"span"You aren't just anybody! You're Kozume, right?" He smiled so brightly. Shoyo is basically sunshine, and you can't change my mind./span/p
