AN: So if you follow me and are wonder what happened with jumper it's not dead, just on hiatus because i'm simply not in a good place to write it. This story is quite literally my way of dealing with some issues i'm working out. Of course I do not own twilight Stephenie Meyer does If I owned twilight then the world would be more fleshed out with more supernatural creatures showing up and the characters not as for me incorporating music it is an experiment by me to add a bit of personality to the writing that is unique to me. I am of course protected under fair use since my use of the music is not 100% of the product and it is transformative.
PS. I re read chapter 1 which I posted last night late at night and I did notice a lot of misspellings and missing letters. I will get around to fixing that. Chapter 1 was written over the course of the day and I didn't bother going over it after it was done so it was very much a rough draft.
"Talking"
"Thinking"
"Demonic talking"
"Demonic thinking"
"Music"
The drive was uneventful. I opted to take my car since I didn't want to even entertain the thought of all 5 of us trying to fit in the tiny Vulvo. Edward seemed to be happy with that and drove with Bella while I drove Alice and Jasper. Jasper didn't talk the whole trip which was a little weird but Alice seemed to talk enough for the both of them. I tried to keep up with her in the conversation as I followed Edward but soon found myself faking my way through the conversation. I felt a little bad but I couldn't get my mind off the voice that I had recently began to hear. It didn't make sense, I had never heard it before entering Forks and now it wouldn't go away. It sounded so animalistic and wrong. Like it wasn't meant to speak but did. If it got worse I'd have to tell Charlie and I didn't want to do that. I didn't want to be taken to a therapist that would want me to talk about the accident, that would want me to talk about my parents. I wouldn't, I couldn't.
Another thing that weighed on my mind was Seth. He was also in my head, like an itch that won't go away. I wondered where he was, how he was feeling, if he was sad or happy. I wanted to know. It made me whine out pitifully as I thought about how upset he seemed when I left. I didn't even say goodbye. I wonder if Jacob would give me his phone number. I did feel a little weird for being so focused on a kid that was younger than me. I didn't catch his age but he was young and thats what was weird. Then again if I was 30 and he was in his mid 20's it wouldn't be that weird, the age gap difference stops mattering as you get older so maybe it wasnt that weird. It's not like our age difference is all that big to begin with, so its okay right? Wait Alice has stopped talking, What was the last thing she said? She looking at me funny, shit.
Snapping out of my trance I looked over at her and she seemed to be giving me a cheshire grin. "I'm sorry I got lost in my own head, it happens sometimes." I said nervously as her grin got wider.
"It's fine you looked like you needed to work stuff out in your head." She said waving off my apology. "Though tell me more about this Seth guy. He sounds cute."
"Shit." I thought in panic. "How long have I been thinking out loud?" I ask nervously hoping to at least avoid the voices in my head part.
"You started at Seth and just went off into a tangent about his age and wanting his phone number. It was adorable." The pixie seemed to preen like a cat that got milk. It was odd how invested she was into my problem.
Rubbing the back of my head in embarrassment I felt my face flush hot. "Yeah the problem is that I don't know much about him, we met like and hour ago. Like I said it made me feel weird to have this much focus on someone I don't know." I said getting a nod of understanding from the pixie.
"Yeah I get that but I'm a firm believer in love at first sight so I say get his number and just start talking to him." She said waving off my concerns just like she waved off my apology.
After her comment we lapsed into silence for the rest of the drive. One thing I noticed is that Edward drives like a lunatic, the good thing is that I drive just as crazy and didn't lose him as he sped well above the speed limit. I think at some point he caught on that I was keeping up with him with no issue. That's when he upped his game for the last few minutes that made me sweat bullets as I began to struggle with his expertise of his car. We pulled up to his house as I began to realize that I really had no appreciation for the law of the road. Speed limits seemed to be suggestions around here. I was fine with that.
Edward and Bella got out of Edwards car with Bella looking like she had seen a ghost as her pale complexion was even worse. She looked like a sheet of paper. I couldn't help but laugh as my trio got out of my car. Edward was sporting his own grin which seemed to be the first genuine smile he had given me since we met. " You're a good driver Tyson, I really had to pull out all the stops to start losing you."
I just grinned back at him. " Please I was just giving you slack so your Volvo didn't burn out its engine." I said lamely getting a snort of laughter from Edward who seemed to find the idea of his Volvo burning out ridiculous.
"I can already tell that Rosalie is going to like you, she's a total motorhead." He replied as we walked up to the house. A sense of foreboding accompanying it and I couldn't fathom why.
"BLOOD"
The voice again, what does it mean by blood? What does that have to do with anything? I shook the thought out of my head not noticing the weird look Edward gave me as we entered their house, mansion was more appropriate but I wasn't about to correct them in their own home/mansion. The walls were high and made of a stunning dark oak, the living room had a fireplace and tv with a stone mantle. It was stunning. What really caught my eye though was the piano they had placed right next to the kitchen entryway in the corner of the room. It was gorgeous and thoughts of my mother immediately came to the surface because of it. She loved the piano.
"Do you want to play?" the question startled me out of my thoughts looking at Edward who gestured to the piano. "It would be nice to hear someone else play it for a change." He said trying to reassure me that it was okay.
"I'm not that great at it, it was more my mother's thing then me. I'm better at guitar." I said trying to discourage him, however that only seemed to encourage Alice.
"Then we definitely want to hear you play! Come on play us something even if its short. Please!" she said practically dragging me to the piano and making me sit on the bench.
"I guess I don't really have a choice now do I?" I said sweat dropping at their enthusiasm to see me play. " I don't really know what to play so give me a second." I said as I settled my hand on the keys and began to fiddle with the keys.
My mom was playing the piano again, she always played in the afternoon while dad was gone at work. She always said it helped her think, that playing was her way of setting things straight in her mind. To bring the world into focus if only for a moment.
"Lover when you don't lay with me, I'm a huntress for a husband lost at sea."
"Mommy what are you playing?" I asked at the young age of seven. She stopped playing for a moment before she gestured for me to sit in her lap on the bench.
"It's a song called Moon and Moon." She answered softly her long curly brown hair touching the top of my head as her emerald eyes peered down at me with pure adoration resonating in them. Her hands began to ghost over the keys again, playing the tune softer than she had before.
"If I had you here, we were here together. I'd be boy and you'd be girl, beautiful."
"What's it about?" I asked watching her finger glide over the board easily.
"It's a song about love baby, though it's also about remembering those who aren't around anymore." She said placing a kiss on the top of my head.
"Calling moon and moon. Shoot that big bad hand."
"Who are you trying to remember?" I asked in confusion. I couldn't understand not remembering someone.
"Grandma sweetie, I'm remembering grandma." She whispered her voice wavering slightly as her face became much sadder than it had been. I leaned into her, not really able to hug her but I didn't like it when my mommy was sad.
"It'll drag me to your door. Now I wont see you no more."
"Here sweetie give me your hands I'll help you play." She said placing my hands on the keyboard as she guided me through the song. " You know baby I think this song has another meaning."
"Like what?" I questioned as she started to guide me less and less as I repeated the tune. Soon I was doing it all on my own as she ran her hand through my hair.
"When this wild world is a big bad hand. Pushing me on my back do you understand?"
"I think it's a song about being lost." She whispered above me.
"Being lost? Are you lost mommy?" I asked in confusion, how could she be lost? She was right here with me.
"When I get home being in the jungle. Where's my bear to lick me clean?"
"I think we're all a little lost sweetie, it's what makes us human." She said giggling kissing the top of my head as I stopped playing so I could look at her. "Even you're a little lost baby. You don't know where you're going do you?" she asked making me furrow my eyebrows in further confusion.
"But I'm right here mom." I say no longer 7 years old, no longer sitting in her lap but sitting next to her. I was 17 again. Looking at my mom with longing. "Why cant you be here too?" I asked tears soaking my cheek.
"Feed my soul milk and honey. Calling moon and moon. Shoot that big bad hand."
She smiled sadly as she wiped the tears from my face. "Oh baby, I'll always be here." She said touching where my heart was. "And here." she said tapping my forehead.
"I love you mom I miss you and dad so much." I whisper as I wrap her up into a big hug, not wanting to let go.
"Oh baby I love you too. My little Tyson, My little light." She said back as everything faded away.
"And I wont see you no more. I wont see you no more."
My fingers stopped on the piano as I was brought back to reality. I looked over and everyone was giving me sad smiles. I wiped my face clean finding that I had started crying. "I'm sorry I just, I feel closer to my mom when I play piano." I said softly as I got up from the bench noticing that there was 4 more people added to my audience, two girls and two guys.
The oldest guy just waved me off as he shook my hand. " It's fine young man, My name is Carlisle it's a pleasure to meet you, these two are Emmett and Rosalie as well as my beautiful wife Esme." He said finally gesturing to the eldest woman in the room. She was beautiful, they were all beautiful now that I thought about it. They all shared the same golden amber eyes that was hypnotic in a way. "Tell me young man where did you learn to play?"
"Yeah cause you're way better than edward. He always plays classical crap, nothing modern." The guy aptly named Emmett said with a grin getting a glare from edward.
"Oh i'm not that good. I learned from my mom though, she was way better at the piano then I am." I said earning a curt nod from Carlisle and a warm motherly smile from Esme.
"Well it was beautiful Tyson Now I hope that you're ready to eat, I kind of went overboard with the food." The mother hen of the group explained earning small chuckles from most of the family who seemed to be in on a joke.
"Well I can put it away, My mom always told me that I ate like a wolf." I said earning a mix of expressions. Alice, Emmett, Carlisle and Esme seemed to find the comment hilarious while Edward, Rosalie, and Jasper seemed to blanch at my comment. Huh weird.
We all moved into the kitchen, Emmet seemed to be making light conversation with Bella while Esme showed off all the food she laid out. She wasn't kidding, she could feed a small army with this much food. There was a lot of us but damn, I didn't think we could make a dent in what she made. She had everything ranging from the letter A to Z. Pies, steaks, ham, muffins, soups, lasagna, mashed potatoes, baked potatoes. Edward gave an amused smile at my shocked face. " Esme always makes too much when she finds out that we will have company." he said making me nod dumbly at his reasoning.
"Wait how did she know I would be coming? It wasn't like me coming over was planned." I said, everyone freezing at the comment. Wow everyone seems to be walking on pins and needles around me.
"Well we just had a feeling that you wouldnt turn down free food." Carlisle supplied making me shrug sheepishly.
"I mean you're not wrong. Free food is free food." I said embarrassed as Esme began to stack my plate with a little of everything. When it was sat in front of me I noticed that only me and Bella even had food. "Umm are you guys not hungry?" I asked feeling guilty being one of the only two people eating.
"Oh no, we all ate before you got here, Esme was a little mad but we will probably all have a midnight snack later from the leftovers." Alice said making the guilt wash away.I began to dig in at that and by god I thought I was in heaven. Esme was an amazing cook. I wanted to take her home with me. Charlie would love to have a good cook in the house besides Bella. My expressions seemed to draw amusement from the group as I began to grab for more food because I already cleared my plate. I ate like a champ and cleared off a few more plates before I felt too stuffed to eat anymore. I shocked Bella a bit with how much I put away but she refrained from commenting on it. I think she was just glad that I ate since she now thought I wasn't eating properly.
"So what did you and Bella do today? we saw Jacob Black leave when we pulled up." Alice asked as I finished off my final plate.
"Oh um we went to the beach and met the other lost boys." I said making Rosalie raise an eyebrow at my verbiage.
"Lost boys?" she seemingly questioned.
"Heh oh yeah. Embry called the group a pack which I thought was funny so I teased them by calling the group the lost boys." I said getting chuckles out of Emmett and Edward. Though Carlisle and Esme seemed a tad concerned at my comment.
"Tyson did they say anything about our family?" Asked Carlisle.
"What? no , I mean I can tell you guys that Jacob Black isn't a fan but I don't judge people on hearsay. So far I like you guys better since none of you are dicks like Paul." I said my face showing my utter hatred towards the guy cluing them in on something I didn't really want to talk about.
"Crass language aside why do you dislike Paul?" Esme asked scolding me slightly for my foul mouth. Too bad she didn't know that it would be a common occurrence. My mouth was worse than a sailors.
"He called me a faggot behind my back, and he did it infront of this young kid who has a crush on me. I wanted to break his nose but he left before I could do it." I mumbled angrily.
Everyone seemed to be slightly angry at my news except for Bella and Rosalie who didn't show how they felt. " Well that young man isn't worth your time. Don't listen to him and just be okay with who you are." Esme said trying to comfort me. While I didn't exactly need it it was appreciated.
"I'm more mad about him doing it infront of a young kid still discovering himself. It can't be easy being gay on a reservation with less than 200 people. Especially if the reservation holds conservative values." I said earning a nod from everybody who seemed to share my viewpoint.
"So that's why you smell like wet dog." Rosalie joked making me bark out a laugh missing the glares the entire family sent her way.
"Yeah I definitely smell like the lake. Can't wait to go home and shower all the dirt and grime off." I said missing what she truly meant.
"Well you are always welcome here Tyson." Esme said as we wrapped up dinner and made our way back to the living room.
"Ha thanks Esme your family is awesome and I will definitely be over again soon. You ready to go Bella?" I asked.
"Oh um I'm going to stay a bit longer you go on without me. I'll have Edward drive me home." I just shrugged thinking she'll be fine, she's a big girl anyway.
"Alright, thanks guy I'll see you again soon." I said before leaving and getting into my car.
The drive back wasn't too bad. I was a little nervous about having another episode since I was alone in the car but I worried over nothing as I made it back to Charlie's house without an attack. Breathing a sigh of relief as I got out of my car I locked it up and headed inside. Greeted by the sight of Charlie sitting in his recliner with a beer in one hand and the remote in the other. "Oh hey Tyson where's Bella?" he asked as I sat down on the couch.
"Oh she's still hanging out with Edward and his family." I answered making him pull a face. "Oh come on Charlie they're nice people." I said exasperated at the fact that everyone seemed to dislike the Cullens.
Charlie just sighed "I know that Tyson and his family are picture perfect, but their son is still dating my daughter and I don't like it. Bellas too young to be dating."
My only response was to laugh at the absurdity of his protectiveness. "Shes 17 Charlie not 12. Pray tell how old should she be before she starts dating?"
Without missing a beat "30." Charlie replied dead serious which only made me laugh harder. "I know that she's a young woman now Tyson it doesn't mean I have to like it." He groaned as I finally calmed down enough to speak properly.
"Look I get it. Kind of, not really but i'm trying. You just need to trust that Bella will make good choices." I said getting a tired nod from Charlie who seemed to have already had this conversation before.
"Yeah yeah kid. How was La Push?" he asked making my mood go sour again. I really wanted people to stop talking to me about it. Though that would only make Charlie dig for information elsewhere.
"Damnit." I curse getting Charlie to raise an eyebrow in question. "Charlie did you know I'm Bi?" I asked. Charlie seemed morph into a fish out of water from the question though because he looked like he'd rather be anywhere but in this conversation right now.
"Oh, umm uh... No I didn't Tyson. Are you sure?" He asked
I chuckled at the reaction. "Yes Charlie I'm sure. Would you like to hear me recount the tale of how I found out?" I said making Charlie lose all the blood in his face.
"NO! Errr I mean no, I don't need to know those details kid. Though what does that have to do with La Push?" I couldn't help but feel sympathy for Charlie, he just wanted to hear that I made friends not talk about my orientation.
"Well one of the kids there Seth." "Clearwater?" "Yes I think hes was young and named Seth. Well Seth seemed to have a crush on me from the moment we met. As soon as I figured that out I thought its was adorable and began to flirt with the kid a little bit. To let him know that it was okay to feel that way I guess." I explained getting a nod of understanding from Charlie as he began to Piece together what happened.
"I'm guessing someone didn't like it." He said hitting the nail on the head.
"Yeah this dick named Paul. he said some bad shit about me in front of Seth to hurt him. I wanted to beat his ass but the group stopped me and said that the tribe would deal with his actions. I'm still not happy about it though." I finished the story my mood further spiralling down at my lack of redemption.
"Kid you can't let him get to you. I'd hate to have to arrest you because you put Lahote in a hospital. While in my eyes he may deserve it for picking on my nephew, the law will see it differently. The others were right, let the tribe sort him out and just be there for Seth if you're so worried about the kid." I nodded in understanding, Charlie may not be the greatest at the whole fathering thing but he was still pretty damn good when it counted.
"Thanks Charlie."
"Anytime kid." He said us sitting in silence for a bit just watching the tv. "You sure?" He asked getting a grin out me.
"It all started at summer camp when I was 14. I walked in on my camp counselor Keith with his hand around his-"
"NO! Nonononono, I don't want to hear it Tyson. Go upstairs it's getting late anyway." He grumbled his face flushed red at my story as I cackled like a hyena as I ran upstairs to leave the old man to his tv.
I grabbed a few towels and took a shower to get my body nice and clean and went to my room where I just layed on my bed staring at the ceiling. I was a little worried on going to sleep but I oddly pushed that worry aside feeling like I was being watched over. Sleep found me quickly.
I woke with a startle as I noticed my room was filled with that same unbearable fog from my felt heavy like it was suffocating me. I don't know why but something in my gut told me to look out the window of my room and I was met with the same pair of glowing red eyes off in the forest. It wanted me to follow it. Why? I get dressed quickly and sneak out of the house seeing Charlie passed out In the recliner with a blanket over him. Bella must have put that on him when she got home. As I make my way outside I notice that the eyes seemed to be farther away then they were before. Its leading me somewhere. I noticed that the fog had changed the way the entire area looked. Everything had a blue tint to it from the moonlight reflecting on the fog. It was eery.
I ran into the forest only to stop short as I spotted a huge wolf just laying right behind the treeline. It was hard to tell the color of the wolf but I instinctively knew that it was a sandy colored wolf for reasons unknown to me. He didn't seem to notice me but I was not to keen on getting the big guy to notice me. I felt like I sat there for minutes as I watched the wolf seemingly stare at Charlie's house. Specifically my window. It was weird, this whole situation was weird and terrifying. Could he not see me? I took a step closer, no change from the wolf. I took step after step closer to the wolf that could snap me like a toothpick if it wanted and soon I was standing right infront of it. He was staring right through me. Like I didn't even exist.
I was snapped out of my confusion as another wolf who seemed to be twice as big as the sandy wolf appeared from the forest. My wolf turned to look at the midnight black wolf and seemed to talk to it for a few moment before he seemed to whine at the thought of leaving where he was. Eventually my wolf got up and ran back into the forest with the bigger wolf who I assumed was the alpha of the pack. "What the fuck is going on?" I muttered as I began to continue into the forest looking for the red eyes that had been haunting me for the past couple of days.
I kept venturing further and deeper into the forest unable to find the eyes. Like the wolves scared them off. Wait did they? Why would it be scared by those wolves… why did it say 'wolf' when I met Jacob? I was just getting more confused as I became more and more lost in the thickening fog. My mind was swirling as I soon found that I couldn't find my way out. "Hello! I know you're watching me, what do you want?" I called into the grey blanket of the world.
"Rebirth."
"What does that mean?" I ask in confusion trying to locate where the voice came from.
"Rebirth."
"Tell me what that means!" I scream in frustration as the voice seemed to get louder but I still couldn't find it.
"Rebirth."
"WHO ARE YOU!" I yelled fed up as the fog seemed to grow even heavier. I couldn't see 2 feet in front of me anymore. The forest was gone, replaced with a void of grey. I felt like I couldn't breath, I was scared I wanted to wake up. This was a nightmare, it had to be a nightmare.
"Rebirth."
The Voice was behind me, it was whispering in my ear now. I froze in fear I couldn't turn around to confront it. That's when I felt it. The pain was excruciating as something tore through my back and out my stomach. I forced myself to look down and screamed as I saw a tendril of darkness sticking out of me covered in my blood. It hurt, it hurt so bad, like I was on fire. Everything seemed to become dark as my vision blurred , the world disappeared replaced with darkness as I was consumed. I was gone.
"GUAH!." I yelped as I jumped from my bed. I felt my stomach and there was nothing there. No hole, no tendril of darkness. The fog was gone, the sun shining through my window showing that it was morning. I was safe… I didn't feel safe.
Over the next few days I tried to put the dream out of my head and instead focused on settling didn't work. Every night Id have the same dream, every morning Id wake up seeing if I had a hole in my gut. The dreams were debilitating. I tried to convince Charlie to let me just get my GED but he straight up noped right out of that option. He wanted me to go and make friends, insisting that it would do me good. I think he just didn't like how I holed myself up in my room for the past few days not talking to anyone. Bella tried to talk to me but I just hid in my room till she stopped trying. I felt awful about it but I couldn't bring myself to talk. The dreams were getting to me. I didn't know what they meant or what the wolf was about but I was scared. Jacob tried calling me, apparently Bella gave him my phone number and so did Seth. that only made me feel worse because I could hear the desperation in the kids voice to hear from me. I just couldn't.
Charlie and Bella changed tactics soon after that. Cornering me everytime I left my room to get food or something to drink. I avoided saying too much but the worry in their voices was starting to be too much for me. That was a three days ago, I haven't left my room since. That's when they changed tactics one final time on the fourth day of me not leaving my room. The fourth day of me not eating or drinking. They brought Seth over. I don't know why they did maybe they thought I liked him more than I did, they were right. I felt him before I heard him. Like I knew he was there in my heart before my ears knew. It was weird. I could hear Jacob, Embry, and Quill as well speaking to Bella. Charlie wasn't at the house he still had to work, though I could tell from the last time that he talked through my door to me that he was at his wits end at my sudden regression.
*KNOCK KNOCK* "Hey Tyson, can I come in?" Seth's voice called through the door. My mind ached with indecision. I wanted to let him in but I didn't want anybody to see me like this. "Please Tyson everyone's getting scared for you." Slowly I got out of my bed and unlocked the door letting the young guy in. As soon as I saw his face the sandy wolf flashed across my eyes for a moment but I put the thought out of my head. I quickly shut the door behind him.
"Hey." I said offering a pitiful smile, I knew I looked awful right now, my clothes were wrinkled and I needed a shower, my hair sticking up at odd angles. My face was sunken in from my lack of food and water. Seth didn't look to good either he had heavy bags under his eyes like he hadn't slept for a week.
"Hey." he replied the concern evident in his voice. "Tyson why did you lock yourself up here? What happened, everyone's worried?" He said making me feel guilty at the thought of everyone I was worrying. Charlie, Bella, Jacob, the Cullens, the Lost boys, and Seth. I was hurting others by walling myself off. The guilt was a lot to carry.
"I um…. I'm scared Seth. I've been having these dreams and they're getting to me. Ever since my parents died I keep seeing it, and now the dreams aren't even about the accident anymore." I choked out making Seth pull me into a hug I wasn't prepared for. I didn't really know what to do so I just returned the hug, though with a bit of hesitation. I felt better, way better in fact. The weight in my heart wasn't there as much anymore. It was like Seth was sharing my pain with me, making it bearable.
"Tyson why didn't you tell anyone." Seth mumbled into my ear both of us seemingly refusing to break the hug.
"I don't like putting my problems on others. It makes me feel weak. Like i'm not strong enough to deal with it on my own." I said getting a shake of the head from seth who broke the hug much to my dismay.
"Tyson you're so strong, stronger than you know. When my dad died me and Leah were inconsolable. We had to rely on the entire reservation to get us through that time in our lives. You have been on your own till only a few days ago. You're so strong, dont think differently." He said looking at me like I was the only thing that mattered. It made me blush, he must have realized how close we were and pulled away himself also adorning a scarlet mask. He scratched the back of his head nervously as he seemed to want to say something but couldn't, it was adorable. "Tyson?"
"Yeah?"
"You smell."
I couldn't help but break out into laughter at his comment. I did, I knew I did but he seemed so nervous to let me know. "Yeah I know. Let me go take a shower and I'll come downstairs okay." I said feeling like I was finally not afraid of the world for the first time in days.
Seth could only grin like a wolf as he had accomplished his mission of getting me downstairs. Something nobody else had done. "Ok see you downstairs." he moved to leave but I stopped him by grabbing his his wrist, it was unnaturally warm.
"Seth why do you have a crush on me?" I ask making the kid freeze in fear.
It took him a few moment for him to speak, I guess debating on whether or not to tell me. "Not now, but soon I'll tell you Tyson." he said promising me before he left me alone once more in my room. I took a few moment to myself as I gathered some clean clothes into my arm and went o go take a shower in the joint bathroom between me and Bella's room.
20 minutes later I was downstairs fit in clean cloths and was greeted by smiling faces all around. Bella looked like she was going to cry and all four boys looked ready to pounce me with questions. "Hey look I-" I cut myself off as my nose smelled something that I hadn't had since I walled myself off. Something that I needed to function. Something that I needed to live. I followed my nose to the kitchen where I spotted "STARBUCKS!" I cried out in utter joy as I snatched the drink labeled with my name on it and began to guzzle down the iced drink with love and adoration.
"See I told you he would like it." Quill muttered to Seth who only watched me with a grin. I was so happy. These boys understood me. They really did. They knew that coffee was the most important meal of the day. They even had the forethought to buy me 2 drinks I noticed as I finished off the first cup in record time.
"Thank you guys, I needed this. I'm so sorry for scaring you guys. It's just been hard for me for the past few day." I said lamely not thinking my excuses were good enough for the worry I put them through. "I'm so sorry Bella." I said wrapping her up in a hug.
"Just don't do it again me and Charlie were so scared." she mumbled into my neck.
"Awe how come we don't get hugs like that?" Embry joked making me flip him the bird with a smile as I let Bella go.
"Seth already got his hug. You losers don't get jack shit." I said grinning while the boys faked hurt expressions.
"Fine we see how it is, you just want your boyfriend and Bella. We're unwanted." Jacob said in a fake pained wail. Both me and Seth flushed red with his comment.
"Shut up Jacob." Seth whined
"Oh Tyson you should have seen Seth after you left the beach. He wouldn't stop talking about you and asking about you. It was pitiful." Embry broke in teasing the young Quileute who seemed like he wanted to disappear at the moment.
"How romantic." I teased as well making Seth whine at my comment. He looked like a puppy. "My sweet wolf couldn't bear being without me." I said not realizing how much I hit the nail on the head.
The others guys began to laugh at the poor kids expense. "More like a puppy." Jacob said adding on the insult to injury.
Seth pouted as everyone laughed at his expense. "You guys suck." He mumbled getting even more laughs.
After we stopped laughing at Seth we spent the rest of the day watching tv and eating food. Nobody commented on how by the end of the night I was holding Seth in my lap on the couch . I think they wanted to just give us both a break from the teasing. I didn't know what to think about what was happening between me and Seth but I didn't think to hard on it. It brought me comfort and that's what mattered. It didn't take long before the boys declared that they were sleeping over which to the dismay of Charlie got approved by all their parents. He didn't bother mentioning me and Seth on the couch. Just warned me to not do something stupid. Heh yeah right. Charlie doesnt realize yet that doing stupid shit was in my nature. We all soon fell asleep in the living room. Bella at some point moving up to her bedroom with Jacob, Embry, and Quill sprawled out on the floor and for the first time in a week I didn't have that nightmare.
I woke up the next morning to find that the fog did not descended on my house, the eyes weren't watching me, the wolf wasn't watching. I was really awake. I felt Seth still sleeping on my chest. Guess I fell asleep still holding the kid. I slowly rolled him over so I was on top of Seth and detached myself from him letting him sleep while I went and made coffee and breakfast for everyone. Catching the time from the clock on the wall I learned that it 7:30 AM. to my surprise Charlie was already up and in uniform. I could of sworn it was his day off. Shouldn't he be sleeping in?
"Morning kid, how do you feel?" He asked gruffly passing me a cup of coffee that had creamer in it thankfully.
Taking the cup I sipped it slowly not wanting to hog the coffee all to myself. I mean I wanted to but refrained from doing so. "Like shit, but way better than I have been since mom and dad died." I answered honestly. I was good at hiding pain but even I had to admit that I had been miserable since their deaths.
"You know that you really scared me and Bella right? You scared everyone kid. We thought we were going to have to force you to go to the hospital." Charlie grunted as he sipped his own coffee.
I nodded the guilt returning to the forefront of my mind. "I know I feel awful, truly awful. I'm so sorry I put you guys through that Uncle Charlie. I can't promise that it won't happen again but I can promise that I'll let you know if it's going to happen." I said making the old man smile at me.
"Good. I know that what you went through was rough. No kid should have to go through that but you need to tell someone if you feel like its getting too much for you. I won't be offended if its not me or Bella, hell you can talk to the Clearwater kid for all I care just talk to someone." He begged making me nod before I hugged the old man.
"I know Uncle Charlie, I promise." I said before I let him go. We sat there for a bit drinking our coffee in silence before Charlie decided that he had to parent me on another subject.
"So, I see that you and Seth were awfully close last night, care to explain." he said making me blush feeling like I was the kid caught taking a cookie out of the cookie jar.
"Umm no." I said earning a scolding look.
"Spill kid." Charlie grunted.
"Ugh fine. Um I don't really know what's happening between me and Seth. it's hard to explain but I don't want it to stop. He grounds me, keeps me from losing grasp on reality. Like when I'm around him the weight in my chest is less. The anxiety and stress is still there but it's manageable instead of unbearable." I said getting a sigh out of the old man.
"Just don't break the kids heart Tyson, hes only 15. You're also going to have to tell his mom about your guys relationship." My expression at that must have been one of horror as Charlie chuckled and clapped me on the shoulder. "And don't think you can get away with not telling her, I will call her in a week to check and see if you did."
I whined at the horrifying thought of telling Seth's mother that I was sort of kind of in a relationship with her son. Pushing the thought from my mind I thought of the other question I wanted to ask Charlie since last night. "Hey charlie about school."
"You're going kid we already discussed this." He grunted before I waved him off.
"No that's not what I meant. I was wanting to ask If I could go to school with Seth, Jacob, Embry, and Quill. It would make having to go a lot easier. I would be surrounded by friends instead of strangers." I said making Charlie look at me with an unreadable expression.
"You do know you won't be in the same classes as Seth right?" He questioned.
I nodded, I knew that but I'd be closer to him. "I know, but I would be surrounded by friends. I'd be alot more comfortable. Can I? Please Uncle Charlie." I practically beg making him groan.
"I'll talk to Billy Black. He has a lot of pull over there and see what we can do. It's not a guarantee but we will see. You do know that the kids will talk. you ll be one of the few white kids there." He said warning me but I couldn't pull my smile off my face at the fact that he would try.
"I know and I don't care, let the kids talk I could care less." I said happily, the day couldn't get any better. Uncle Charlie seemed to smile at how happy I was. I guess this was the first time he smiled for real. Genuine joy. It felt good.
"Alright kid ima get going make sure you get those lazy freeloaders out of my house by the time I get home tonight." He said pointing in the direction of the snoring living room. I snickered and nodded in understanding at him not wanting his house to become a hotel. "Alright later kid." he said with a wave as he left the house to us once more.
I entered the living room seeing all 4 boys still conked out. I gently nudge Seth trying to wake him up gently. "Psss, hey Seth wake up." I whisper making the boy open his eyes groggily.
"Uh what? Tyson?" He groaned as he slowly woke up only to realize I was staring at him 2 inches from his face. "Uhhhh morning Tyson." He said softly his face red from my proximity.
"Get up I have good news." I said quietly before running off to the kitchen leaving the 15 year old wondering what I meant.
It took him a few minutes but he eventually made it to the kitchen looking groggy but awake. The light from the kitchen window making his caramel skin look amazing….dammit he's hotter than me! Pushing aside the insecurity I grinned wide as a cheshire at what I was about to tell him. "So what's the good news?" He asked softly with a yawn accompany the question.
"Oh not much, Charlie just going to see If I can go to school with you guys instead of going to forks high." I said smugly watching as the wheels turned in his little head processing what I just said. Wait for it, wait for it, and…
"WHAT!" He yelled in shock, his voice practically shaking the house. His exclamation also woke up everyone in said house.
"Seth shut up were trying to sleep." Groaned Jacob from the living room.
"Jacob, Tyson says he might being going to school with us on the rez instead of the pale face school." Seth called out, wait for it….
"WHAT!" Jacob cried as the rest of the boys poured into the kitchen with shocked looks of their own. "Really?" Jacob said with a massive smile on his face.
"Yeah I talked to Uncle Charlie this morning about it. He said he'd talk to your dad about it and try and get me in there." I said sporting my own smile as they all let out cheers of their own.
"Dude this will be great. School sucks but at least you'll be there with us suffering. " Quill joked making us all laugh.
"Yep another fox in the foxhole." I said agreeing with him noticing that Seth at some point started holding my hand. I flushed in realization but my little discover went unnoticed by the others. Seth offering me a small smile. All of our cheering and hollering woke up Bella, she wasn't to enthusiastic at being woken up so early but had the same reaction as the others when they told her my big news. Everybody hung around for a little while longer but eventually Seth, Jacob, Embry, and Quill all had to leave for tribe stuff. They wouldn't give more of an explanation then that saying that they would see me later, though Seth did give me an long hug making the others cat call us to our embarrassment. After they left it didn't take long for Edward to show up asking if me and Bella wanted to go hang out at the Cullen house. I declined and told them to go have fun. Bella didn't seem to want to leave me alone so soon after my episode but I reassured her that I just wanted to go practice my guitar and laze about for the day. Saying that I would hang out with them tomorrow. Soon I was left alone. I was worried that the voice would come back now that I was alone but it didn't, everything seemed to be getting better.
An: another chapter down and super quick. Pretty happy with the pace I've set. While future chapter releases will slow down I want to get the story above a certain word threshold so its not lost in the shuffle with everybody else's stuff. I checked and there was over 15 stories released or updated since yesterday that had around the same word count as my first chapter. Being realistic that means fewer people are going to check out my story. By getting above 20 k words relatively quick I can separate myself from the pack and gather more attention for my own book. That's my thought process on the whole thing anyway.
The song in this chapter was
Moon and Moon By: Bat for Lashes
