The Firsts, Lasts & In-Betweens
by herheartbeat
Summary: A look into the love life of Mimi Tachikawa. All Dialogues.
Chapter II - Sora
I know, I can't believe him either.
Mimi, I'm so sorry. I'm just so surprised he'd do this to you. It isn't like him.
Have you even seen him drunk?
Of course I have, Mimi. But he has morals.
I know.. God, I don't even know what to think anymore!
Mimi, don't cry..
I'm trying! I'm trying but I can't just choke it down anymore, Sora. I care about him so much.
I know, Mimi, I know.
It's just.. I mean, sure, he's only had these feelings for me sometime before we got together. But ever since the beginning, Sora. Ever since the beginning of our friendship I've wanted him and care about him. And now that I do, I just.. I don't know.. I don't know what I'd do if he did it.
What do you want to do now?
I don't know! That's the thing! How am I supposed to take all this?
Well, you can be very... optimistic about this, which would be really, really dumb, but maybe he's only asking for a break to make it easier for you.
But don't you think it's just an excuse? I mean, for all we now, it's just a plan B for him. What is a damn break, anyways? Is it like, a pause in a relationship so one can go and do single things? And then when all is said and done, you just get back together in the end?
I guess a break is just... breaking up with the intention of getting back together in the end.
I mean, honestly, Sora! He's leaving for Tokyo tomorrow morning! What the hell do I do?
Do you want this break?
I do, but.. Wouldn't it be like I'm just cheating myself? I don't want to do this to myself! Because I know that when we're on the break, all I'll do is think about him. And I won't even look at another boy. But Yamato.. God knows what the hell he'll do. He'll take advantage of the break and go kiss girls by the handful.
So what do you think is best? It's either break up, or stay with him.
I don't know.. Sora, you should've heard me last night. When he said it, I just.. Froze. I couldn't speak, I couldn't even breathe. I was in such shock. All the thoughts and feelings I felt just collided at once and it numbed me, almost. I just.. I don't know what to do. I don't want it to end. That's the last thing I want. But I don't want to just set myself up for disaster. I'll almost be hurting myself if I stay with him..
Mimi.. I know it's hard but, you just really have to ask yourself; Do you want him enough to get hurt? Do you care about him so much that you're willing to harm yourself?
I don't know.. God, he's such an asshole.
I know, I know.
I mean, it's one thing to cheat on me when it's unexpected but this.. It's like he's been planning this in advance! I mean it's like he wants it to happen at the same time.. What do you think I should do?
Honestly? Just ask him. I mean, if he seriously cared about you enough, and wanted you enough, he wouldn't do it. It isn't as hard as people say, to not cheat.
But you don't understand, Sora. When it comes to these kind of things, I'm mute. I freeze up. Whenever I try to tell him how much I care about him, I just.. Stop.
Why is that?
I don't know. Maybe it's because I don't want to scare him off..
Mimi, you can't think that way. I mean, if he really liked you, he'll stick with you no matter what you say. And a relationship without communication is just a doomed relationship, really.
Maybe.. Maybe I should just present him with an ultimatum. I should just tell him, "If you want to be with me, and if you care about me, just don't do it. Just say you won't and I'll trust you because I care about you. But if you still feel in the slightest way that you'll do it, the break up with me. I don't want to go through this sure of myself but with you second guessing yourself."
It's a good idea, Mimi.
Care to share an easier route?
Haha. That's as easy as it's going to get, really.
I know, I kn-
Was that your cell?
Yeah I got a text message.
Who's it from?
Yamato..
What's it say?
"You know what? Screw what I said. I'm not going to do anything in Tokyo. I don't want to lose you. And when push comes to shove, nothing will happen. Sorry for causing unnecessary drama. See me after school, if you want."
Is that it?
Yeah...
So what are you going to do?
I don't know.
Well, isn't this a good thing?
No.
Why?
Because honestly.. He made my whole night hell just so he can take it back. It doesn't erase how hurt I am.
That's true. But at least go see him. Tell him how you feel.
I guess.
So you going to see him after school?
Yeah. Come with me though?
You sure?
Yeah. Just to keep me company. Just so I know you'll be there no matter what happens.
Okay. I will.
Thanks, Sora.
Anytime, Mimi.
Yay! Another chapter. Did you know that the text message Mimi received in the story is the exact same on I received when it happened to me. I just replaced Montreal with Tokyo. Haha.
Anyways, R&R!
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