A/N: kk 6th chapter, In this Chapter Ron and Draco are going to go through some, fluffy and some very squee moments w/ Hermione Enjoy.
the bold italics are for the Past
Italics are still for Ron
regular is for people who are still alive speaking, this Chapter is also in Draco's POV and quite possibly the next one is the final four memories from both Ron and Draco.
PLEASE R+R!!! thanx :
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Ok, hi again, well at least I'm not freaking out about Ron anymore, The kids have gone to bed, they are cute, I wish Luca was here too I barely see that kid enough as it is and the worst of it is I'm his godfather… but I guess in a way Kaylee's kind of my daughter…
If Hermione heard that she'd probably kill me… No she wouldn't… Yes she would… No… Yes… No… Anyway
Melfie, that's Millie's and Blaise only daughter reminds of Kaylee she's a year younger, and Marco there second son is two years younger… I know this will sound weird especially coming from a bloke, but I wish I had kids, actually more specifically I wish that Kaylee would consider me a father figure, I know that seems wrong, I'm not her father and I'm not Hermione's husband far from it. But sometimes, I wonder what it would have been like if---
"If you just go out with Hermione and then marry her? That's not so bad you know, I like the idea but I especially like that fact that Kaylee loves you and trusts you, also she wants some siblings…"
I froze, he's not here is he?
I must have gone pale or something because Millie looked worried, "Draco are you alright? You looked as if you were a million miles away…"
"No, sorry Mil, just thinking about you're little ones and Kaylee." I replied, I really don't want to see the Ghost of Ron, as much as I miss the guy, it's kind of unnerving to hear him say he knew about my well I guess crush would be the best word, my crush on Hermione.
"You're a real father to her mate." Blaise sighed
"Don't say that I'm not. Ron was—"
"You know that's not what I meant, look it's just you were a bachelor and despite everything you had a reputation to fool around. And you gave it all up for those two."
"Well it's not like anyone one else was in a position to, everyone was married or dead, and I--"
"You are still in love with Hermione?" Millie said coyly
"Ok really where is everyone getting this from? And I was never in love with --, let's drop it." I responded defensively, how come everyone knows, no one is supposed to know, that's why I feel so guilty, I was ok, it wasn't just some stupid crush, I was in love with her, I was, up until she told me, me before Ron that she was pregnant.
When she told me I knew it was over, not that we even had a beginning I just meant me, I had to stop, all the fantasies, all the dreams, everything I had to stop, she wasn't for me, I knew that. I knew that before she dated Ron, I knew that while she was dating him, after the pregnancy thing I had to stop. So I did, I stopped I'm not saying that I don't love her, well at least not the way I used to, I love her and I love Kaylee they're like the family I always wanted. What? It's true I had to do something, and I did because I---------- anyway Blaise is talking…
"Mate you know it's true."
"Ok, I'll humor you it was true once upon a time but not anymore, that doesn't mean I don't like her I do Hermione's lovely, and Kaylee's great but I just I can't." there, ok there's my confession we can move on now
"Draco, it's us. It's Blaise and it's me." Millie took my hand, what's the big deal I GOT OVER IT ALREADY 11 years ago damnit! " You can say it even though it hurts a little, but you can't say you don't love her anymore, that's just simply ridiculous it's written all over your face that you still do."
"She's right you can admit it now, it's not betraying anyone anymore, it's not complicated you can say you love her. Unless you're still broken." Blaise sighed
"What is all this nonsense? I'm not broken I stopped loving her that's it end of story!"
"Why haven't you dated anyone for four years? And don't you dare say two I know that's a lie. Face it a part of you died when she picked Ron over you, and then a bigger part died when she confided in you that she was pregnant and you desperately wanted to tell her how much you loved her, but you knew you'd be hurting a lot of people so you kept it to yourself." Blaise said this calmly and rationally, and I had no idea on how to retaliate to that. I thought I hid it well, obviously not well enough and now there's no point in hiding.
"So what? Ok so what if I—it doesn't matter because after all this time after all these years she still doesn't see me, if this is the only thing I can do for her then I'm going to do it, I'm through with--- I kissed her and she still doesn't see me."
"You what?" Blaise looked at me in shock, Millie looked at me in a way that said 'Oh now I get it. Then she proceeded to comment as well, "Oh, so that's why you're here for so long, why didn't she like it? Or are you that out-of-practice?"
I raised my eye brows a little, Mille can scare me sometimes, " Ok I didn't kiss her on the lips I kissed her on the cheek, but I lingered, and no I'm not that out of practice."
Blaise looked normal again, "Kissing on the cheek doesn't count you did that when you found out she was pregnant."
I am exasperated, " Why are you to making this into, this huge thing?"
"Because you never talked about it, ever. You didn't have a journal to write about and you've kept this for a secret more than 11 years my friend you've been keeping it a secret since our second year that adds on another 5 years Draco, this isn't healthy."
"Alright well I'm talking about it now, what more do you want?" Can't they just let it go? Please can they just let it go?
"Their not letting go for a reason…"
NO! I can't deal with you now Ron get out of my head please!
Blaise sighed, "I just wish that you'd get it off your chest that's all, why do you still feel like your betraying Ron?"
" There was a look, a certain look she gave to him and not me, and that is why I feel guilty. I can't help but feel guilty, because no one has ever looked at me the way she looked at him, and I always feel that I'm taking his place or something, when I know that's not what I wanted to do." I sighed, "This, this is getting to be to much, this is why I never stayed in a relationship for more than six months. Hermione needed more than six months, and so did Kaylee, they didn't register what was going on, so I stayed another six, so that's ok but then, then I started to stay, I went more often and for longer and maybe I shouldn't have been doing that. Maybe that's why things have gotten so screwed up."
" Do you really believe that? Draco, the only reason you haven't stayed in a relationship for longer than six months was because it was you thought it was pointless. You stayed because you were needed and because you were wanted, it would be wrong to leave them now." Millie sighed as she held my hand again.
" Draco, why don't you even want to try? Do you really think Hermione's the type of person to hurt intentionally, after finding out something like that?"
"No, but that's not what I'm worried about, I'm worried about her being disgusted by me, it's sick when you think about it."
"No it's odd, but romantic." Millie smiled, " So since it's around midnight, I'm going to bed."
"Are you serious?" Blaise looked in shock
"Yeah, and since, you can never wake up before nine in the morning I thought I'd make sure our children don't eat every type of sweet on the planet." She giggled, "Good night Draco, and please look after yourself." She walked over and gave me a hug, like I was her brother or something and then she proceeded to leave Blaise and myself to our own devices.
Blaise yawned, "You're not mad are you? We're just trying to look after you."
I yawned back, " Yeah I know I should go to sleep anyway, I'm leaving tomorrow."
"I thought you had another two weeks here, no?"
"No,
we finished early…"
"Well good then, you finally confess
your undying love for Hermione…" he smirked and shifted his
eyebrows
"Ha-ha, very funny well I guess I'll leave you then."
"Don't slit your wrists please."
"Thanks a lot."
"Mate I'm being absolutely serious I don't want to find out from the Daily Prophet or Witch Weekly that the 'Stud of the year' committed suicide."
"Do you worry about me that much?"
"Well when you don't respond to at least 17 letters, and when you see 'Ron's Ghost' yeah."
"Relax, I'm fine and I haven't seen him in a while." I laughed, it was good enough to convince Blaise so I was free to go.
And when I got back to my room in Venice, I had Ron's ghost stare me down.
"You are such a liar, you saw me."
"No I didn't I heard you I just didn't see you that wasn't lying."
"You know what I mean."
"Yeah sure, so what do you want exactly?"
"Admit you love Hermione."
"Uh yeah weren't you listening?"
"I was, and I'm not impressed, you denied it but once Millie and Blaise called you out then you decided to go along, and you said you 'did' love her implying that you don't anymore, so no I'm not really impressed…"
"I'm not doing this tonight I'm going to bed." I grabbed what remained from the sleeping draft and skulled it down.
I woke up and found myself on boat and it was really sunny.
"oh, you didn't think it was going to be that easy did you?"
He chuckled, he's actually chuckling at me.
" Can't you just----"
"Drop it? No, not at all. Now, we could have done this the easy way, which was just to have a conversation, like the little chat Hermione and I had. But since you're being so difficult we're doing this the hard way."
" What? No, I'm not going to let you search through my memories."
"Mate you don't have a choice."
All of a sudden everything turned pitch black and we weren't sitting in a boat anymore, we were sitting in those muggle things, Kaylee and Hermione have taken me to this thing more than once but I can never remember it's bloody name.
"Movie theater, Draco this place resembles a movie theater. I can't believe those two actually got you into one."
"Yeah, well it's hard saying no to you and your family."
"Oh come on don't be spoiled sport."
"We're really watching all of these aren't we?" I spoke calmly, there's no point in trying to do anything otherwise
"Just the important ones, don't be so down, it's like I'm going to make fun of you or anything."
"Yeah well it's not like I'm shifting through your memories, Ron."
" Look, if it will make you feel better, I will show you my most embarrassing moments with Miss Hermione Granger. Ok?"
"Sure can we just get this over with?"
"Why is this bothering you so much?"
" I dunno ok it just is."
"ok then, tell me later once you've figured it out, well let's get this movie started!"
"Someone, kill me." I mumbled but then a very familiar scene was taking place in front of me, it was during a Magical History class with that boring ghost Professor Binns, this must have been our 2nd year.
"That's enough about the Chamber!!! It's just a legend and I will not have my students fussing and fretting over a silly legend."
"She's really scared." I whispered to Blaise, who was really the only other smart Slytherin boy, and the only smart Slytherin girl in our house was Millie.
"Yeah, but what can we do? If anything they'll all think of something ridiculous like you opened the chamber er whatever." He whispered back
"I hate faking that I hate muggleborns, it's just not rational to hate something like that, they were born it's not like they can change it." I whispered again, the last thing I want is detention. Father would be furious.
"I know mate I know but it's not like we have a choice do we? And at least you don't have a sister in Italy who may suffer for it."
"He'd really do that?" I asked in shock
"Without a doubt." Blaise grimaced
"Once we graduate we're out, in retrospect it's only 5 more years right?" I tried to reassure him
"Yeah I guess so…"
After that Professor Binns started talking again, and I couldn't take my eyes off of her, I knew that look of fear, and although it's from a different source I knew what it was. I mentally kicked myself for that thought, I can't do it, I can't even think about her in a good way, besides she has those idiots four eyes and the man with the never ending family.
I can't help but look at her, I don't even know why… I mean it's not like, I fancy her or anything, I just can't help but look at her, and that's what's so stupid! The only time I ever talked to her and treated her like a human being was on the train to Hogwarts in our first year. I liked having that as an excuse to talk to her, she was really nice and she trying to help that poor kid Longbottom find his toad Trevor. I can't help but feel guilty whenever I'm mean to those two, but especially Hermione. I meant what I said to Blaise hating her for something that's not even her fault is stupid. That's what my mum says anyway, she said that Father used to be different, that he wasn't so full of it, I can't even imagine that.
You know she's kind of pretty. I like her eyes… I can't think about it :deep sigh: I've got to get out of here. We have to get our Mum's out of danger's way and Blaise has to get his little sister Stella out. How the hell are we going to pull that off? She could probably think of something… I've got to stop staring at her for crying out loud! At least sneer or smirk at her SHEESH!
The story fast-forwarded a bit to when Hermione got Petrified.
"How is Hermione? She's not dead right?" Millie asked concerned
"No," I could barely speak, "She's not but—it's not good." I shuttered seeing her like that it shouldn't have happened. I'd never seen anyone's eyes look like that ever, and what's worst it was her eyes.
"I heard she went looking for it in the library, that's why she had the mirror." Blaise whispered.
"WHY?" I yelled, "Was she out of her mind?! Why would she do something as stupid as that she's the smart one of our entire year!"
"Draco keep it down will you? You 'hate her' remember?" Millie sighed she looked at me with sympathy
"She's right we're screwed if anyone finds out we're skipping town after graduation." Blaise sighed
This was our golden trio, except we weren't golden we were misfits, we all could have gone into Gryffindor or Ravenclaw but we begged that Hat to stick us into this house because of our parents more specifically our dads.
" I just—we could have done something sent an anonymous message or something."
"Saying what exactly Draco? Oh hi by the way Voldemort is the real heir to Slytherin, yeah that would have been a big help." Blaise sneered
"I just feel so guilty, do you remember when Potter and Weasley were pretending to be Crabbe and Goyle?"
"Yeah what about it?" asked Millie
Ron interrupted, " You knew that was us?"
"Yeah, Crabbe and Goyle were limited to two-syllable words and you were easy to pick and so was Potter. Reading glasses honestly."
We laughed and we continued watching.
" I just--, I said something horrible I said to them, 'I hope Granger gets it.'"
They froze, I could tell even for me I stepped over the line.
" I needed them to leave they were changing back, and I dunno… Do you think I put the evil eye on it?"
"No," Millie started, " She'll be ok Draco, she'll be ok."
The feeling of guilt never left me, Why did I always have to pick on her? There were other muggleborns… Why her? I guess it's cause I like looking at her eyes…
The memory ended.
" So that's when you knew you had something for her?"
" Yeah, I checked on her when you two weren't there… Why am I telling this to you?"
"Because." Ron shrugged
"Ok what's your memory then?"
" It took place after she de-Petrified. Here just watch."
"Sorry about being awkward in the Great Hall…" Hermione blushed
"That's ok, it's good to have you back, Harry and I---"
"Couldn't do your homework?" Hermione laughed
"That too, we were really worried about you…"
"I'm just glad nothing happened to you guys, especially Ginny and yeah, I'm going to go to bed."
"Thanks and ok, Night Hermione."
"Night I'll see you over the summer right?"
"Right."
Hermione walked up into the Girls dormitory.
"Hey that's not fair yours was shorter!"
"I think you'll survive."
"Fine but the next one better be longer…"
"ok, ok sheesh Draco."
"You talk to Kaylee too, right?"
"Draco she's my daughter, of course I do, more than Ginny, or Hermione. Actually I've only started talking to Hermione recently, because, well I thought if she saw me it would take her longer to recover… guess it didn't matter did it?"
"What am I supposed to say to that?"
"Dunno. Shall we continue?"
"I guess… why? What if after all this I still don't---" Ron interrupted again, "Mate don't be stupid, especially since I was the dumb one."
"Ro--" Before I could say anything else we were in my next memory…
