A.N: Okay so this took me a while to think of. And so you're warned this chapter contains the dreaded "s" word so you have been warned! This is "Mature" remember that!
Moday at school was difficult. First period I saw Ryan sitting by himself and I invited him over to sit with me. Troy gave me a quizzical look. I was worried about Ryan being around Troy because of what happened yesterday when I mentioned Troy's name. I tried to bring Ryan into our conversation but no matter what I did to get him to participate one of Troy's friends would shoot him down. I kept shooting Ryan reassuring looks but no matter what he would continue to look either nervous or scared. At one point I put my hand on Ryan's hand to comfort him and that's when I felt Troy pick me up by the arm and pull me outside the class.
"What the hell are you doing, Gabbs?" He questioned. I stepped back nervously and grabbed my arm.
"What do you mean?" I said naively. He glared at me.
"Oh don't even try that! I saw you. I'm not blind. What is with this whole 'let's be friends with Ryan the fag Evans' little thing you've got going on?" he said viciously. I didn't know how to respond but I was angry at what Troy had called Ryan. I knew that Troy had never liked Ryan and had always assumed he was gay but I had never heard him use the term 'fag'.
"Nothing is going on Troy. I just want Ryan to feel more comfortable because he's a great guy and he doesn't deserve all the torment he gets because of you and your stupid friends!" I shouted. Troy looked shocked. I never raised my voice around him.
"Are you cheating on me with him?" He asked quietly. I swallowed hard but I had a little bit of acting experience so I could pull this off.
"Cheat on you? With Ryan? Please tell me you're joking! You are unbelievable, Troy! Just because I'm not paying as much attention to you today you automatically assume I'm cheating on you!?" I shouted and walked back into the class. I looked around the class and realized that everyone had heard our little argument… Including Ryan. I could see the fury in his eyes as Troy walked back into the room. As soon as he sat down the bell for next period rang. Ryan collected his things and left the room before anyone had even gotten up. I debated following him but I knew it was too risky. As I was leaving the room I was grabbed from behind by Troy.
"Gabi… I am so sorry," He said sincerely. He grabbed my hand and looked deep into my eyes, "I was just a little jealous, okay? I'll admit it. I'm just not used to you giving Ryan so much attention and I promise I won't get mad about it anymore. Ryan seems like an okay guy."
"Thank you Troy." I said and hugged him tightly. He kissed the top of my head. "Let's get going we don't want to be late for class."
At lunch when we got to the cafeteria I noticed that Ryan was nowhere to be seen. I decided to go look for him.
"Hey, Troy, I forgot I have to go give something to one of my teachers, okay?"
"Oh sure, babe. Do you want me to go with you?" he was so sweet sometimes.
"No it's okay. You stay here and chill with the gang." I patted his arm and walked away. I wandered the hallways trying to find Ryan. I wandered around for almost ten minutes until I heard music coming from the music room. As I drew closer I could hear someone playing the piano. It was a soft and sad melody. I looked through the window and saw Ryan seated at the piano. I opened the door and walked in.
"Go away," Ryan said coldly without even looking to see who it was. I walked closer to him and pulled up a nearby seat.
"Ryan, look, I'm sorry for what happened this morning. I didn't want you to hear any of that," I said honestly. He turned around to look at me. His face was a mixture of hurt and anger.
"Oh so you didn't want me to hear you telling Troy that there is no way you would ever cheat on him with me aka Ryan the fag Evans" He said bitterly. I realized that it mustn't have been a very good thing to hear. I sighed.
"I had to tell him that, Ry. If I didn't he would break up with me."
"Well, what's so wrong with that?" He asked harshly. I bit my lip. "Oh, I get it now," He laughed bitterly, "You're in love with him so you don't want to leave him but you also want to be with me. But of course I'm not good enough to compare with Troy the golden boy."
"No, that's not it at all!" I cried touching his arm. He pulled away from me.
"Yes it is. Don't lie to me." He said quietly and grabbed my arm and shoved me away violently. I fell backwards off of my chair. I stared up at him in horror. For a moment he stood there looking proud of himself for what he had done but after a few seconds he slowly realized what happened. He rushed over to me.
"Oh my god, Gabriella. I can't believe I did that" He cried trying to help me up. I knocked his hand away and pulled myself up.
"No you know what, forget it. I wanted to help you, Ryan. I wanted to be around you but I'm not safe around you. You need professional help or something!" I yelled and walked away. He grabbed me by the arm.
"No, Gabi, wait!" He pleaded. I spun around quickly and slapped him in the face.
"Do… Not… Touch me, Ryan." I sneered and left the room slamming the music door behind me.
I didn't see Ryan again at school. Not that I cared much at the time. I stuck close to Troy for the rest of the afternoon just incase Ryan came back. By the end of the day it had started pouring outside and after school everyone rushed outside to get to their cars and the school bus. I ran to my car and got inside. After I had dried off a bit I realized that I forgot one of my books in my locker.
"Damn it" I said to myself and got out of my car. I ran inside the school and found my locker. On my way to my car again I heard a noise. It sounded like whimpering. I walked around to the side of the building and saw a figure crumpled up in front of the dumpster. "Oh my god, are you alright?" I asked rushing to help the person. The figure looked up and I realized it was Ryan. I gasped in shock. He had cuts on his face and I could see bruises forming already on his light skin.
"Gabi?" He asked squinting to see if it was me. I helped get him up to sit against the dumpster. His jacket had been torn and it was so soaked through it was definitely ruined. His hat was lying a few feet away and there were spots of blood on the ground where he had been lying.
"What happened?" I asked trying to wipe some of the blood off his face. When I touched his face he groaned in pain.
"Chad… and his friends" He said in between moans.
"Oh god" I said to myself. How could he? What an asshole Chad was. "Come on. Let's get you home" I said putting one arm under Ryan and helping him stand. We hobbled slowly back to my car.
"Don't take me home. If Sharpay sees me like this she'll freak" He said quietly. I nodded and helped get him buckled in. I got in my side and drove to my house. My mom was still at work so the coast would be clear. I brought him inside and took him to the washroom. I helped get his jacket off and I brought him a towel.
"Where does it hurt the most?" I asked him. He didn't say anything just looked at me.
"Why are you doing this?" He asked quietly. I hadn't really thought about it. I had been so angry with him earlier but seeing him lying on the ground made me realize how much I cared about him.
"You needed help. End of story. No where does it hurt?" I asked again. He nodded towards his chest and stomach. I poked his ribs and he cringed, "there?" he nodded. I helped him get his dress shirt off so he was only in his t-shirt and pants. I pulled his shirt off so I could see if there were any marks. I winced when I saw the purple and red marks all over his torso. "I can't believe those guys. Why would they do this?" I asked. Ryan looked carefully at me.
"They did it because of what happened with you and Troy today." He said. I knew he was right. I should have thought Chad and his posse would find any reason to beat on Ryan. "God, this whole situation is so messed up." He laughed. I couldn't help but let out a tiny giggle. Ryan smiled at me "At least we can still laugh about it" He said. I slowly leant in and kissed him on the lips. As soon as I did it led to something more than an innocent kiss. Ryan held me tightly and deepened the kiss which of course I obliged. After what felt like year we pulled away. A smirk was playing at Ryan's lips. I grabbed his hand and pulled him into my bedroom. Even though Ryan was still week he led me to the bed and lay me down on it. We continued to kiss for minutes. Slowly I could feel Ryan's hand slip under my shirt and I shivered. He felt it and stopped. "Maybe we shouldn't do…" I cut him off with another kiss. His hands roamed across my body and he lifted my shirt over my head. I quickly glanced at the clock and I knew my mom wouldn't be home for almost 3 more hours. Ryan suddenly started to get rougher as he unclasped my bra and continued to attack my mouth. It's not that I wasn't enjoying it but it was different than it had started. He reached down and unbuckled his belt and slipped off his pants. He roughly shoved me up against the headboard as he worked to undo my own pants. He slipped them off me and then took of my underwear. The only piece of clothing left between us was his boxers, which I reached down and took off for him. For a few more moments we continued to make out when suddenly I felt him thrust into me. I let out a cry. I was not ready for that. Sex wasn't new to me. Even though Troy and I had only been going out for two months we've slept together a few times. Ryan thrust harder and faster and I was moaning for release. I looked into Ryan's face and saw all of the pain, anger, and frustration finally being let go. Unfortunately this was being taken out on me. His thrusts started to become painful and I tried to slow him down.
"Ryan… slow down" I whispered to him but it was useless. He continued at his own pace. The pleasure was slowly turning into pain. I tried to pull away from him. "Ryan slow down!" I yelled in pain as he thrust even harder. I let out a cry of pain and suddenly he stopped. He looked into my eyes that were blurred by tears.
"Oh god, Gabi. I'm so sorry. I did it again. Fuck. I'm sorry." He said starting to cry. I grabbed his face and held it close to mine.
"Don't cry Ryan. It was an accident… Keep going." He looked at me nervously.
"Are you sure?" He asked. I nodded.
"Just slower." I tried to laugh. He held on to me and once again I felt him enter me. This time he went slower. After a few minutes I felt my climax coming. "Ryan." I moaned in pleasure. He kept up his pace and looked deep into my eyes.
"Gabi… I'm… Almost" He choked out as he reached his climax and I felt him burst inside of me, which made me come to mine. We lay in each other's arms for what felt like eternity. I lay beside him and looked at his sweet face. How could such a sweet person have so many problems? "Thank you, Gabi" he whispered. I smiled and cuddled up to him. I felt myself drift of to sleep.
A few hours later I woke up to the sound of my cell phone ringing. I looked beside me and I saw Ryan sleeping peacefully. I smiled and got up to get my phone. It was a text message. I opened it.
To Gabriella:
Hey baby, Just txting 2 see how u are.
Love u,
Troy.
I was suddenly overcome with guilt. I had cheated on Troy.
