Falling
Chapter 4 – Floating And Falling Through A Vast Hollow Of Darkness
And suddenly I'm flying, defying gravity. Darkness is swallowing me up, swallowing up the pain. It hurts at first, but with each pulse of my heartbeat it is slowly washing away. Until it's gone, I'm gone, my pain is gone. The gloom is swirling around me like storm clouds, hushing the sounds, the fear, the depressing emotions that have been tormenting me for the last three years. It's blocking them out, making them no longer. Making me no longer.
I feel the warm damp of the blood covering my clothes. I didn't realise that I had so much of the stuff. I don't try and stem the flow, why would I? What's the point?
I'm dreaming, with a smile on my face, dreaming of an array of colours lighting up the sky in a dancing kaleidoscopic of streaks. It's beautiful, so beautiful, words can not describe.
I think of my Mum, I see her face before me, the face that mean home, happiness, safety. I used to think that she was indestructible, like every child, I thought that she could solve anything. When I grew up I still believed it, until she died, and everything went wrong. But now we're together, forever, and nothing will ever be wrong again.
My Dad, who I hardly knew. Who hurt my Mum so much that I could never forgive him. I feel only hatred for the man that beat her.
It feels like I weigh nothing at all. I am nothing at all. Floating, flying, like a leaf caught in a breeze, soaring high above the graveyard.
And then I fall, gaining velocity quickly. I brace myself before I hit the ground.
