Chapter 5/

I stared at him for a full ten seconds...

"Bella," he said softly as he took a step closer to me, his eyes dazzling me. He reached out to take my hand in his, but I quickly moved back. "Bella, please," he begged.

I looked at him closely, his eyes were so honest and loving...I shook my head and turned around and ran away. This was wrong...all so wrong...I quickly changed to human form so that no one would question anything.

"Miss Isabella Swan!" Some guy with long brown hair came towards me, wearing this huge smile. "My, you have gotten more beautiful. Remember me? the nice guy who got you started on your career?"

"Um..." I squinted...nope, don't remember a thing. "Uh, yeah! Of course I remember!" I lied. He smiled again and walked away to a group of guys.

There was a slow, beat song on and two-thirds of the celebrities were dancing with some partners. Just watching them made me sick. I turned away and walked towards the bar they had in the corner of the room. I smiled at the bartender and ordered some wine.

I took a small sip and rolled the wine glass in between my fingers. I watched this couple dance to one full song, and I felt something...jealousy, maybe? Who knows...

Then the DJ stopped the music and put on a waaaaay faster beat one. "Now all those celebs out there, let's party to the floor!" Everyone cheered and began to get their grooves on. I watched from the seat I had, just hoping maybe, someone would come and ask me to dance.

The party went on, sometimes slow dancing, sometimes break-out dancing. All throughout the party I watched from afar, never really joining in with my current mood.

"Now, why don't we get some of you guys to show off?" The DJ smiled and took out a mike. "Anyone who wants to show off their voice, come up now!" Two people went up to sing, and they were good. Professionals like me...except, the songs they sang, it didn't have emotions in them. The words were good, and their voices were good, the only thing wrong was that they weren't pouring out their emotions in to the song.

Alice came from nowhere to stand by me, "So, Bella...Enjoying the party?"

"Not really," I answered.

Alice frowned then broke out into a sly grin. "Well, then, we'll just help you enjoy the party!" I looked at her weirdly but she quickly took my hand and pushed me up the stage before I knew it. The DJ looked at me and handed me the mike.

"What song will it be?"

Alice whispered the song into the DJ's ear. The DJ smiled and nodded and did something in the sound systems.

Alice winked at me, "The songs 'If I Ain't Got You,' by Alicia Keys. Do your best, Bella!"

"What? No, I am not singing that song!" I tried to run out of the stage but Alice pushed me to the center and gave me a fierce glare that sent me just frozen on the spot. Then the music started... Well, who gives a shit? It's only a song. It means nothing...I just hope Edward doesn't hear me...

I sighed held the mike up to my lips and started to sing...

"Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people were swaying to the song with their lovers. Their heads on the other's chest, their eyes filled with love...

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

I closed my eyes as I sang, and when I opened them, I could feel the heavy emotions in the air. Practically half of the people were slow dancing to the music with their girlfriends and boyfriend. If they only knew it'd never last...Just like for me.

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

I stepped back and gave it all I got. This song was so beautiful...

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby"

As the song faded away, people clapped politely. I quickly threw the mike at the DJ and ran off the stage, not wanting to even bask in the claps. I took my old wine glass and drank down half of the wine in one gulp.

I sighed, and closed my eyes to clear my head from my thoughts. I opened my eyes after a few minutes, I needed to clear my head a bit. The music was getting to me.

I opened the door and stepped outside. The cold, night air refreshed me and heightened my senses. I smiled and stood there for a moment before stretching and getting ready to go back. I turned around slowly and yawned a little as I felt another wind rustle pass.

A small sigh...a giggle...I squinted into the night...Oh my fucking god...

Edward and some vampire girl was making out...and I mean really making out. Like with the tongue and everything. I placed one hand against the wall and the other was just hanging there, clenching and unclenching. I looked around and saw no humans anywhere.

I turned into a vampire and stalked to the two.

The girl pulled back from the kiss and let out a giggle. She turned around and stared at me, her eyes wide.

Edward turned too, his back was to me but now...oh those gorgeous, lying eyes that stared back at me.

"B-Bella!" He looked at the girl then at me. "It's not...Wait, Bella!"

I had turned around and was marching/running to my car. My eyes were burning with tears, I just wished...

He grabbed at my wrist, "Bella, it's not what you think!"

That just totally blew me up.

"NOT WHAT I THINK?!" I breathed in deeply. "Edward, I had actually felt so happy when you said you still loved me...so happy that I denied it all..." His eyes turned all sad and soft. "You know what, Edward? I think you enjoy breaking people's heart. Is it just a hobby to you? Going off, cheating on people and not giving a damn on their feelings?!?!"

Edward pulled me in towards him while I struggled. "Bella, it's not like that! I still love you! I really do!"

I finally was able to get his grip off of me. "WELL, YOU HAVE A FUNNY WAY OF SHOWING IT!"

"Bella..." I turned around and furiously stalked to my car. He again grabbed at my hand. "Bella..."

I turned back, my fury not yet cooled. I took my hand back and punched him in the face. Not slap, punch. Trust me, it made me feel a whole lot better seeing him fall backwards, his hand on his cheek. It must have hurt...Not that I care. I would never, ever heal him or anything again...never.

"I'm sorry, Bella," he whispered.

I looked down at him, finally the tears spilling over. "So am I, Edward. So am I ...for ever falling in love with you. I am never going to love you again. Never." Then I turned got to my car, and drove off at 122 MPH.

But you know what they say...Never say Never.