Christmas 1985

Lily Rhodes was happy to get over with the debutant's ball. William was not a bad guy, but the clumsy young man really could not dance. Lily couldn't bear his excuses any more. Was he a man or a mouse? The only thing that really mattered for Lily's mother was the fact that the van der Woodsen family was wealthy . CeCe coul not understand why Lily didn't appreciate her efforts. She was taking care of Lily's future and her daughter didn't seem to care. The thing that bothered CeCe even more was Lily's insubordination.

Much to CeCe's regret, Lily had to go to public school until fall. Lily had started dressing inappropriately and seemed to have forgotten her manners; in CeCe's eyes, Rufus was to blame for that. CeCe hardly recognized her daughter and had come to the conclusion that this had to stop. Lily, however, had other plans...

Christmas at the Rodes residence was a stiff and boring affair, like every year. CeCe had invited William and the Bass family (Bart seemed to be jealous of William, he had no idea of his real competion) as well as her friend Rose Waldorf and her daughter Eleanor.
At the beginning, CeCe had feared that Eleanor would be a bad influence, but today, there was a dead calm between the two girls.

CeCe didn't know that Elly was green with envy since Lily had become No 1 at school. Lily hadn't planned to jeopardize their friendship, but she enjoyed her popularity. Why wasn't Elly happy for her? She used to be plain and the students made fun of her, with Rufus by her side she enjoyed life and was able to show her wild side, much to her own surprise.
Elly however, hated anyone who stole the attention from her, the fact that Lily was supposed to be her friend made things only worse. She regretted deeply having taken Lily to the "Lincoln Hawk" concert.

During dinner, Elly was wondering if she should tell CeCe about Lily's plans for the night. On the one hand, she desperately wanted to be more popular than Lily again. On the other hand, she didn't have the heart to give her friend away. She knew their mothers. And she feared Lily's revenge, should she find out.

Time passed slowly for Lily and Elly this Christmas Eve, but it finally came to an end. As Lily expected, her mother accepted the invitation of Bart's father to join him for a drink. William and Bart both courted Lily, who suddenly had a terrible headache and wanted to go to bed – alone!

Lily broke two hearts this evening, but her own heart longed for Rufus. She didn't need Elly's help, she could sneak out of the house one her own.
Rufus would pick her up with his new (used) car and Lily grinned.

"So? It may not have a lot of horse power, but the owner has all the energy this car lacks!"

When Lily blushed, Rufus realized how ambiguous this statement was, since they had plans to spend the night toghether.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to..."

Lily who had become more of a dare devil than all the Gossip Girls in town, just laughed and got in the car. It made a rattling noise and she cold not stop giggling. She could not believe how much Rufus had changed her. A couple of weeks ago, she had been shy. Rufus noticed the change but he knew that Lily had always been a vivacious girl, she had just been hiding it.
They drove to New Jersey, to a small hotel which looked like he could afford it, but didn't seem sleazy.
She loved all the colourful lights and the real Christmas tree in the lounge. No real candles of course, that would have been to risky.

When they stepped into the elevator, Lily started to feel slightly uncomfortable. Was she really ready for this? Could she give up her virginity for this boy she had only known for a short time and whose world was so different from hers? On the other hand, she had never felt so safe before. Rufus tenderly pulled her closer and gently stroke her cheek, trying to calm her.

"Lily, my sweetheart. Don't be scared. I'm not going to do anything you don't want me to. I'm going to respect if you say 'Stop'. You mean more to me than anything else in the world, I could never hurt you. I want you to know that."

A tear rolled down her cheek, she was moved and thankful. Rufus was a gift from god and she knew that she would never meet another man like him. Lily swore to herself that she would not let him go.But life was not fair, as she should find out much later.

Rufus tried so hard to give her a good time. Lily sat down on the bed with him and smiled when she saw the expression of curiousity on his face while she straightened her short skirt. Not yet...

"Lily, I tried everything to get you a present, but I spent all my money on this room."

"Rufus, you're so sweet. THIS is the best present I have ever received. A night with the man of my dreams."

Rufus jumped up and clapped his hands, making Lily laugh again. She had never enjoyed herself so much before. But renting this room was not the only thing this lovable young man had for her. He got his guitar and started playing, a fascinated Lily was watching him.

She started crying. This song was really unique and would always stay that way.

"And, did you like 'Lovely Lily'? Guess who I wrote it..."

Rufus couldn't finish the sentence, as Lily had started to kiss him wildly.
She loved how every touch of him made her skin prickle. She loved his tender but passionate kisses that made her heart melt. She loved the warm and tender way he looked at her intensly, letting her know that he wanted her. But he didn't only want her body, Lily knew that. He had had one relationship so far, it had only lasted a couple of days. The girl had been too shallow and too jealous, although Rufus had been faithful to her. He was still young, but he was responsible and Lily loved him for it.

Only a couple of minutes later, they had become more daring and had started undressing each other. Finally, they were facing each other, only wearing their underwear. They had to laugh as they looked at each other's red face.
"Don't be scared, sweetie!" Rufus wispered while he ran his fingers through her long blond hair which was untamed like a wild horses' mane.
Rufus tenderly drew her closer and she was slightly frightened when she felt his excitement. The next moment he started kissing her again and her fear turned to curiousity. They fell on the soft bed and enjoyed each others tender touch.
Lily loved Rufus' soft skin and he was delighted by her graceful body. It seemed like the gods had created Lily, a fairy who had safed herself just for him. Both of them had a special feeling in their loins and one last look in each other's eyes told them that they couldn't wait anymore.

Lily would have never believed that 'the thing', as Elly called sex disparagingly, would stir up so many emotions. Sure, it hurt a bit at the beginning, and poor Rufus quickly withdrawed when he heard Lily's outcry. But Lily encouraged him to go on.

A little later, they had overcome their shyness and Lily started to enjoy his intimacies.
She let herself go and felt his pofound love with every movement. They surrendered to their feelings. From time to time Rufus had to make sure he wasn't hurting her, but Lily was happy. To be loved by this attractive and lovable boy was a feeling she could not describe.

The two of them did not want it to end, but after Rufus had brought Lily to extasy, they finally let go of each other.

"Lily, my god! I love you so much! I hope you liked it, too."

"Like it? Are you kidding me? I have never experienced anything better. I think I could get used to it. "

The two lovebirds giggled and laughed before Rufus put his arm around her and she fell asleep on his chest. Rufus himself didn't find any sleep that night. He was too happy he could hold her. She had shown him the meaning of true passion and love. He knew he would never love another woman like he loved Lily Rhodes.

Lily herself became a confident young woman that Christmas Eve. She would have countless beautiful nights with her Rufus.
She would soon get the pill – even if Rufus was reasonable enough to use a condom.
They were heading for turbulent but enjoyable times. Lily would blossom into a spaced out young lady, driving her mother crazy.