Waited
Just like that, reality came crashing down and I remembered everything. I wanted Dave up and I wanted it now. This is getting too intense and I am extremely horny. I tried to wiggle free hoping he would get the hint, but he made no effort to get up.
"Dave, could you get up?" I said.
"I don't know if I want to." He said with that killer smile.
I sighed trying to control myself, "Please." I whispered to him.
He finally got off of me and helped me up as well. I ran my fingers through my hair as I saw Mika snickering and John wearing a goofy smile.
"So, um, what was that?" she asked.
"I was practicing a dance that one of my students wanted to use to seduce her husband." I said going to grab my jacket.
"Well, obviously it works." John said and Mika laughed along with him.
"You two are not funny." I said.
"See what I have to deal with downstairs." Dave said walking towards the office, "You think you two can give us a moment?" he said.
"Sure." They both said in unison.
"No." I said before they could leave, "I have to get to Ricky." I was about to walk past Dave when he grabbed my arm and pulled me into my office, closing the door.
"What's wrong with you?" I asked, looking at him confused.
"What's wrong with me? What about you and what happened out there?"
"I was practicing."
"Oh, so you choreographed me into you dance? You knew I would show up automatically?"
"Not you, her husband. I was thinking if he did join her what she can do." I lied and he raised his eyebrow knowing that I was, "What the hell do you want from me, Dave?"
"I would think it would be pretty damn obvious."
"Well, I would think it would be pretty damn obvious that I am married."
"Oh here we go, every time your back is in the corner now, you hide behind that marriage."
"Because I am married, it's nothing to hide. You know it and I do too."
"You are right I know it. I also know that what happened was more than you just dancing and I also know that you are still jealous because I'm going to that fund raiser with Janet."
"I don't give a damn about you and that cow, so if you want to fuck her, go right ahead and do it, so she can blab about it! Me? I have a husband to go home to." I said pushing past him, swinging the door opened.
I walked past Mika not pausing for anything as I headed to my car. I felt so pissed off that he made me show that much emotion in front of him. I haven't been this mad in years; although, I did feel like I wanted to cry. This shit doesn't happen, I am not supposed to get this frustrated or wound up over him. We said our goodbyes and it's over. Why is he still haunting me?
I got in the car and just sat for a minute with my eyes closed rubbing the back of neck. Don't let him get to you, I kept telling myself. I heard the door opened and looked to see Mika in the car. She smiled at me and grabbed my hand.
"Let's go walking." She said.
"I have to go help Ricky pack."
"He's a big boy and can do it himself. Besides, I'll deal with my nightmare-in-law. Give me your phone and I'll call him."
"Mika, what about dinner?"
"We'll pick up something on the way home, besides, I don't want to chance that he will cook." We got out the car and she grabbed my phone.
We walked around for a while after she told Ricky that I was spending time with her. She didn't even stay on long enough for him to ask her any questions. We just went to the park across the street and sat on the swing set.
"What's going on in that head of yours?" she asked.
"Everything. Mika, I married a man, till death do us part. I shouldn't be thinking about Dave let alone having him touch me."
"You know I've always been a big believer in things happen for a reason. Maybe this is your second chance with him."
"If this was five years, I would agree, but it's not."
"Di, you know deep down somewhere you have feelings for him. I don't know sometimes it seems like you have resentment towards him, what's going on?"
I sighed, "I waited on him. I waited for him to come back after we broke up. I waited on him when I was just dating Ricky. I waited on him even when Ricky proposed the first time. I kept these stupid notions that maybe he will come and get me. After so long, you give up and realize it is really over and he wasn't coming back. Three years he had a chance, why shouldn't I resent him or give him a hard time?"
"Because you know the history between you two. Hell, you two gave me hope for a love like ya'll then I got a sane mind and realized that I like bed hopping." I laughed a little, "Why didn't you come after him?"
"I tried. I tried to find him but every time I got close, he was gone. I couldn't find where he lived or nothing. Then mom introduced me to Ricky."
"So you think this marriage between you two is a shame?"
"Of course not, I love Ricky. He's good and safe."
"Safe? You always had to go the safe route, until you met Dave and he released some passion into you. I know you don't want to be reminded of that but you had a smile on your face that no one could touch, now I hardly see you smile and that hurts me." I looked up at her and turned away, "You are right twin, you did wait three years for him, but you have been waiting five for a husband that could give you what you need. So, when are you going to stop waiting and do something?" she got up and headed to the car.
I'm not waiting. I have my husband; Dave is just going have to learn to respect that. I need to get control of myself and not give any more thought into what he is doing or apparently who he does. Mika and I picked up something on our way home and Ricky was upstairs packing his suitcase. He was having problems closing it. I know he said he would be gone for a week just with minor business. If he didn't have to go then we would have to go to that fundraiser. Well, at least that's one thing he saved me from, so I just donated money to the organization in our name. I went over to the bed and sat on the bag. As he zipped it shut, he smiled at me.
"You don't know how long I was wrestling with that thing." I smiled a little.
"Well, I'm use to wrestling with it for you."
"Are you going to be alright?"
"Yea, I have Mika here so I should be good."
"If she doesn't convince you to burn all my pictures." I laughed. I can't remember the last time I laughed with Ricky. It wasn't a bad feeling just unnatural.
"You know that won't happen." I said touching the side of his face.
He stared at me with his eyebrows drawn together then relaxed. He bent down and kiss me fully on the lips. I blinked a little and didn't respond immediately. He was a little more persistent, pushing his tongue into my mouth. I moaned into his mouth trying to take control of the kiss. Ricky wasn't a bad kisser, just needed a little guidance. I put a little bit of every emotion I felt from today. Frustration, anger, and desire, things I haven't felt in a long time.
"Oh Dave." I moaned as he kissed the side of my neck.
"What you say?" Ricky said looking up at me.
"Dare." I panicked, "I dare you to come back for my birthday party. I'll need you there with the whole masquerade theme." I said with a coy smile trying to hide my embarrassment.
"Oh, okay. You have my word, Mrs. Taylor." He said kissing the back of my hand.
He cleared his throat and straightened up. I wonder if he was going to finish what we started. He just went back to the bathroom and I sighed to myself.
"Why don't we eat dinner, okay?" I said getting up.
"Alright darling. Aren't you going to put on something decent? You know how I feel about pants."
Right, of course I do. I walked past him to grab my blue t-shirt dress and was prepared to take a shower. A long, cold shower.
