Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts, Square Enix does. I do however; own this particular fan fiction and its plot.
Warning:This fiction contains mature themes such as sex, violence, language, and hate. If you can't handle these themes, I suggest you leave. Yaoi a.k.a men having sexual relationships with other men, is a main part in this fic once again if this bothers you then please remove yourself.
--The topics addressed and the views portrayed in this story do NOT reflect those of the authoress. She has only set out to portray the views of the hateful people that she views in life. The authoress is sorry if any words or comments offend anyone but she hopes you can see why she felt the need to put them in.
--Note--: This chapter does include a "lemon" scene.
Pushing You Away: Part II
"Kairi are you sure you want to be doing this? Your parents are totally against premarital sex you know." Sora muttered as Kairi hastily pulled down his jeans.
"Why are you so conflicted, Sora? One second you look all but offended by the idea of sleeping with me, then you are roaring to go, then you get all sullen and cautious again." She stared curiously up at the man in front of her; he looked very unsure as he stood there with his jeans pooled at his feet, his dick half erect, and his face so lost.
"I'm sorry it is just I don't know what the right thing to do is. You want me, you say we have committed so it is okay but I know how you should feel about the act." He paused and looked down at the woman sitting patiently before him.
If I'm straight this should prove it. Right? I mean if I was gay, I couldn't do it. Sora nodded an acknowledgment of his thought.
"If you want to then lets do it." Sora stepped out of his jeans.
"I want to," Kairi answered. Assured by Sora's words Kairi stood, took Sora's hand into her own and led him off towards the bedroom.
Kairi fell backwards onto the bed and pulled Sora down with her so that his naked body stretched out above her. The brunet leaned down capturing Kairi's mouth. If there was one thing Sora had acquired from the girl it was a talent and a passion for kissing. When they had begun dating the man had no idea what to do or how to do it but, like in most things Sora did he learned quickly and became rather good at it.
Sora slid his tongue into Kairi's mouth slowly licking along the roof of the opening before encircling her tongue leading it into his own mouth. The two sucked and pulled at the muscles relentlessly before Kairi pulled back.
"Take me now Sora," She moaned. Kairi ran her hand down Sora's chest, stopping just before she reached his manhood.
"But I don't have,"
"No now, I want you inside of me Sora. Be with me!" Kairi demanded and so Sora did. He moved his hips in line with the smaller girls and slowly pushed himself in. Kairi gasped, and Sora stopped unsure of what to do.
"No don't stop, Sora keep going." The man nodded and tilted his hips forward pushing more of his member inside her.
Oh my God. He screamed mentally. It is so tight! Forcing himself to keep going Sora finally reached the base of her. He stared down at Kairi; her eyes were squeezed shut, face scrunched up into what looked like pain. Slowly he drew out before plunging himself back in.
Does Riku look like that when he masturbates? Sora thought pumping into Kairi harder as the thought of Riku's pale body crossed his mind.
The air escaped his lungs in one long breath as he slid back out once more, back in, and back out. Sora closed his eyes imagining Riku's slim waist being the one under his hands. Soon he found a rhythm between Kairi's slim legs, moving faster and faster with each stroke. Unable to help it Sora whimpered each time Kairi did. He looked down into Riku's eyes, face contoured by concentration. Sweat beaded across his brow as the pressure built, pumping once more the brunet came with only one name on his mind, Riku.
Sora collapsed, covering Kairi's body with his own. Her heart beat rapidly against his chest as she struggled to breathe. Mustering up his strength Sora crawled up onto his hands and knees and rolled off the girl. Resting next to Kairi, Sora felt guilty. He had been with her physically but in his mind it was Riku his body entered. A hand slid across Sora's chest as Kairi curled up against the side of his body.
"I'm sorry I wasn't good for you." Sora apologized; he reached up brushing a strand of hair from her face.
"You were amazing. We can work on me later, this time all I wanted was you and I got that." Kairi whispered before slipping off into a peaceful sleep. For Sora, sleep wasn't easy but it was inevitable.
What will Riku think when he finds out? He thought before sleep finally took him.
Sora woke to bright light flooding in through the window covering his naked body in pure white sunlight. Sighing contently, Sora rolled out of his empty bed. Kairi must have got up early and went to work
"Work!" Sora exclaimed, practically leaping in to the living room for the jeans he had discarded the night before. The brunet hopped quickly back to his dresser while sliding into his denims. Opening the drawer Sora grabbed the first shirt his fingers touched. Once that was done, he quickly grabbed socks and hobbled back into the living room to retrieve a pair of shoes.
"You are late," Hiroshi remarked bored by the situation. He had never expected Sora to make it on time; Hiro had always believed Sora to be unreliable. The brunet had only proved him right in his accusations.
"I am so sorry sir, I overslept and..." Sora was cut off as Hiroshi turned a cold glare to him.
"I don't want to hear your pitiful excuses; I want to see you turn yourself around. I have my men out there working hard on a new ship, go, and prove you can handle the work." Hiroshi pointed out toward the docks. Sure enough in the distance, you could see a swarm of men working busily.
"Is that the job you have for me? When you said we would discuss it I though it might be something higher up." Sora stated still watching the bodies working slavishly in the distance.
"That may have been the case if you had shown yourself to be a competent, trust worthy individual but, you are late to work so that opportunity has left unless you can prove me wrong today. Now, if you want a job get your scrawny ass over there, I have customers."
Sora nodded, "Yes sir." With that, the brunet left Kairi's fathers presence and headed towards today's work.
Hiroshi came down throughout the day in-between customers and throughout the day, Sora was busy. Nailing and lifting, as the sun pounded down relentlessly. The men got a half-hour break for lunch. Every one of them took this time to rest their abused muscles and prepare for another round of abuse once the short break was finished.
"New?" A young man questioned as he set himself down next to Sora.
"Kind of, I'm auditioning I guess." Sora answered, as he gave the man a once over. He was smaller then Sora, dirty blond hair was longer then most of the men working down at the docks, and like Sora's it seemed to have a mind of its own. Tan skin glistened with sweat, completely exposed to the sun.
"I'm Titus," the man said extending a dirty hand toward Sora.
"So, how long have you worked here?" Sora asked curiously.
"Me, well I have worked in this company for about a year and a half. This is really demanding work you sure your up to it? No offence but you look a little scrawny to me." The blond man smiled and laughed happily.
He sure is easy to amuse. Sora thought before informing Titus that he wasn't scrawny. The blond just laughed more.
Titus composed himself then turned his attention once again to Sora. "Auditioning, what do you mean?"
"Umm...I am well...Hiroshi is my girlfriend's father and he offered to give me a job here with him. I was late though so this is a test to see if I can handle it or something like that." Sora answered sheepishly.
"Ouch! Good luck with that, I wouldn't want to be in your shoes. The boss scares me." Titus wrapped his arms around himself and began to fake shivering. He laughed suddenly at his own joke. Sora didn't get it.
"Seriously though, if he is as strict with his daughter as he is with his business…awe never mind lunch will be over before you know it so you better get to eating." Titus smiled kindly and dug into his lunch. The young blond ate as fast as Sora usually did. Looking down at his food, Sora could feel his appetite slipping away as he questioned the worth of the ordeal he had taken on.
A horn sounded warning the workers that they had only five more minutes to finish their breaks.
"Even if you're not hungry eat. Trust me you will regret it later if you don't." With that piece of advice, Titus headed back to his position, ready to work non-stop for the rest of the day.
Sora managed to avoid Riku for about two weeks, just as he managed to limit his time with Kairi. Ever since they had spent the night together, she had insisted in coming over more often. Exhausted by the work at the dock Sora barely had enough energy to take a shower let alone have sex with the woman.
"A rain check please Kai, the ship's buyer decided he needed it done a week early, your dad is working me to the bone. He still isn't convinced that I can do what ever job he had planned on giving me." Sora said, stretched across his bed barely conscious.
"He is really proud of you I can tell. His clients are just greedy it has nothing to do with him and since you are making such a good impression I am sure he'll give you that job soon" Kairi said sweetly as she discreetly tried to persuade Sora to let her come over.
"Yeah some how I doubt that, anyway, I'm really tired Kairi so I'm going to let you go now. Sorry maybe this weekend, when I get a break." Sora said and pulled the phone away from his ear.
"Love you," she said indignantly before the tone cut her off. She slammed the receiver into the cradle and stomped her foot, angry at Sora's sudden dismissal.
Sora let the phone fall from his limp hand as he finally allowed sleep to consume him; he dreamt.
The sand was rough under his hands as he hunched over on the beach. Tears trailed down his cheeks as he stared out across the ocean.
"You left me God damn you, you left me here alone." He screamed fists digging into the soft earth.
"Who left you Sora? Who left you?" A thin figure knelt in front of the brunet, his pale hands reaching up to cup the crying face of the man before him.
"You left me, Riku."
Leaning in the silver haired man pressed his lips to Sora's all the while Riku's thumb brushed away the tears that still trailed down his friend's face.
"I haven't gone anywhere. I've always been here if only you wanted me." Riku kissed Sora's once more before pulling away towards the ocean. "But you don't want me Sora. You hide from me Sora." As the older man waded into the salty water, his clothing dissolved exposing every pale inch of his skin to Sora.
"Don't leave Riku." The brunet pushed himself to his feet and ran towards the other man. His progress was slowed by the sand, feet sinking impossibly deep before finally being pulled free. Heat rose to Sora's cheeks when he noticed how the waves lap against Riku's pale waist. Sora allowed his eyes to wander over the smooth skin of Riku's torso, arms, neck, and face. He watched as his friend stood in the surf, bathed in the white light of the moon and the words he needed to keep Riku by his side came to him.
"Riku I want you," Sora yelled, "I love you."
Sora's naked body slid along Riku's, the surf playing against his thighs. Lips pressed roughly against his and he opened to that demand. His skin burned with the need to be touched by the silver haired God. This was what he needed. This was who he needed to feel whole. Sora reached up and brushed Riku's hair back from his face as soon as he was able to tear his lips from the other's.
"Riku," Sora whispered shocked as the other man slowly faded. "Don't leave. Don't leave Riku." Sora begged grasping for the other man, but his hands slid through Riku's non-existent form.
"Tell me Sora. Come find me, come find yourself."
The last wisp of Riku's presence disappeared, as did the dream. Sora's sat up; his mind raced. Sora knew very well that dreams are the keys to your subconscious and wondered what exactly he was trying to get across to himself. The brunet glanced at the clock; it was two A.M, no longer tired the brunet climbed out of bed and began to dress.
A full moon that hung high in the sky lit Sora's way even though the light it provided was less than unnecessary; the brunet had traveled this path since he was a child. The two used to take turns sneaking to the other's house in the middle of the night, and then they'd sneak down to the beach to sword fight. Once they were old enough to move out neither Sora nor Riku had moved far from their old houses'. Spying Riku's house, Sora pondered what would be the best way to wake his friend. He fancied the idea of climbing the tall palm next to his friend's bedroom window and tapping gently on the window. He let the idea pass however; that would be awkward and Sora didn't want Riku to get the wrong idea he was just here to...
"Why am I here?" Sora asked as he raised a fist and knocked gently on the door. I'm here because I want to see him.
"Riku," Sora called and rapped once again. He could hear mumbling as the man approached the door.
"Who is it's," the door swung open and Riku looked up shocked. "Sora! What are you doing here? It's late, don't you have to go to work in the morning." Riku ran a pale hand through his luminescent hair, trying to tame the mess that his restless sleep had created.
"Yeah I do. I'm sorry for waking you Riku it's just that I wanted to..." Sora paused trying to find the appropriate words. What is a good excuse for waking your friend, whom you have been avoiding, in the middle of the night? Is there even an acceptable excuse for that?
"Don't worry about it. I wasn't sleeping very well anyway. Why don't you come in." Riku pushed the door the rest of the way open, turned, and went deeper into his home. Sora followed quietly, unsure of where all of this would go.
"Want some coffee?" Riku called as Sora rounded the corner into the kitchen.
"At this hour?" Sora smiled.
"Sure why not? We are both up anyway. So," Riku said and turned towards Sora once the coffee was started, "what is it that brings you here? I noticed that you have gone out of your way to avoid me recently."
"Riku I," Sora exclaimed stepping towards the counter where Riku lounged.
"No, I don't want your excuses. I don't care why you haven't been here. I only care about why you are here now. I thought you had made up your mind about us, Sora." Riku pushed off from the counter and went to the refrigerator just to keep himself busy.
"I…Riku it's just that I…I wanted to see you. I don't know why because I don't know anything. My life is a mess." Sora sobbed as his pent up emotions threatened to take over. "I always ran to you Riku. You were always there and I need that now. I need you right now Riku."
"Sora," the silver haired man closed the door to the icebox and quickly crossed the room reaching his friend just as the brunet's knees gave out.
"Relax Sora, I am here for you okay." Riku swept the smaller man into his arms and slowly moved towards his room. It was a damn good thing the master suite was on the ground floor. Sora was heavier than he looked. Riku laid the limp man gently on the bed before climbing in behind him.
"Sora what is wrong. Why have you let yourself fall into this state, please what can I do to help?" Riku whispered, his lips gently running along Sora's ear.
"I don't deserve your help Riku. I have been a terrible friend to you. I deserve nothing." Sora said into the pillow, trying to muffle the sound of his sobs.
"Well whether you deserve it or not doesn't matter, I am going to give it to you, what ever you need."
Sora slowly rolled onto his back, his eyes searched out Riku's in the moonlit room. The pain was evident in his gaze as he struggled to say what he wanted.
"What ever I need Riku?" Sora asked, his gaze slid down the curve of Riku's face.
"Anything," Riku whispered afraid to wake Sora from his trance.
"Even if I told you that the only thing I want right now is…you?" Riku cupped the brunet's cheek and traced Sora's lips with his thumb. This was better than he could have ever imagined. Riku had been sure that Sora would never open up to him in this way. He had prepared himself to let that idea fade away and yet here he was leaning over the thin body of the man he loved so much, tracing the outline of the lips he had kissed only once.
"Especially if you told me that Sora," Riku murmured and moved his lips towards Sora's slowly.
A/N: I'm cruel I know. This isn't how I had planned to end the chapter but
when I came back to it today, it seemed to fit so nicely.
Part three has barely been started so don't look for it too soon,
but I will do my best. In the mean time, please review, hell flame if you feel the need. Thank you for reading. Lonely
R&R
