"I don't deserve your help Riku
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Warning:This fiction contains mature themes such as sex, violence, language, and hate. If you can't handle these themes, I suggest you leave. Yaoi a.k.a men having sexual relationships with other men, is a main part in this fic once again if this bothers you then please remove yourself.
--The topics addressed and the views portrayed in this story do NOT reflect those of the authoress. She has only set out to portray the views of the hateful people that she views in life. The authoress is sorry if any words or comments offend anyone but she hopes you can see why she felt the need to put them in.
--Note--: This chapter does contain a "lemon" scene.
"I don't deserve your help Riku. I have been a terrible friend to you. I deserve nothing." Sora said into the pillow, trying to muffle the sound of his sobs.
"Well weather you deserve it or not doesn't matter, I am going to give it to you, what ever you need."
Sora slowly rolled onto his back, his eyes searching out Riku's in the moonlit room. The pain was evident in his gaze as he struggled to say what he wanted.
"What ever I need Riku?" Sora asked, his gaze sliding down the curve of Riku's face.
"Anything," Riku whispered afraid to wake Sora from his trance.
"Even if I told you that the only thing I want right now is…you?" Riku cupped the brunet's cheek and traced Sora's lips with his thumb. This was better than he could have ever imagined. Riku had been sure that Sora would never open up to him in this way. He had prepared himself to let that idea fade away and yet here he was leaning over the thin body of the man he loved so much, tracing the outline of the lips he had kissed only once.
"Especially if you told me that Sora," Riku murmured moving his lips towards Sora's slowly.
Pushing You Away: Part III
Sliding his body on top of Sora's Riku pressed his lips against the brunet's. Sora's hands crawled up Riku's back and gripped a handful of the soft, silver hair. Wiggling, the younger man rubbed his groin against Riku's.
"Whoa Sora slow down," Riku said between kisses.
"I can't, I need you! Riku I love you so much! I've wanted you for so long; I've just been too scared to admit it I guess." Sora slid his arms to the hem of Riku's shirt and tugged it up. Riku complied helping the younger man remove the cloth.
"I feel half crazed," Sora exclaimed raking his fingers down Riku's pale flesh. Riku moaned, eyes wild as he stared down at the man under him.
"I can see that." Lips sealed around Sora's neck sucking gently, then harder, harder, Sora cried out pushing Riku back with his hands.
"Sora!" Riku questioned worried he had gone too far.
Sora knocked Riku onto his back and moved above him. Pushing his hips downward as his mouth sipped at the sensitive flesh of Riku's shoulder. Hands caressed the exposed flesh of the older man hungrily; Sora knew that this was right. He knew this was what he had been missing and he wasn't going to let it go easily. Before setting siege on Riku's lips again the brunet pulled away long enough to remove his own shirt and shivered as his warm flesh slid along Riku's.
"I love you," shaky hands popped open the button on Riku's jeans and pulled down the zipper. Watching Riku as he scooted off the bed, Sora removed the other man's last scrap of clothing before slowly removing the last of his own. Holding out his hand, Riku beckoned Sora to him.
"Are you sure about this? Are you sure about me? Things can't go back to the way they were if we have sex you know. I won't be just a friend any more."
"I know you'll be my lover," sliding his hand into Riku's the brunet let himself be pulled on to the bed. Sora pressed his lips against Riku's in reassurance, "this is what I want, now where is what we need?"
Riku motioned towards the nightstand. Leaning back Sora opened the drawer enough so that his hand could fish around for the small bottle. After a moment of searching the brunet found the object. He held it tightly between his palms to aid in warming it as he indulged himself with Riku's lips, tongues sliding together roughly. Reluctantly the smaller man pulled away, kissing lazily down the other's neck before sitting up and scooting back so that Riku's dick sprung up from between his knees. With a quick flick of his thumb, the bottle was open and the slick liquid was poured into his palm. Sora's eyes locked with aqua as his hand closed around Riku's arousal and leisurely applied the lubricant. Once coated the brunet pushed himself up so that his ass would no longer be resting on Riku's knees and poured more of the smooth juice onto his palm. Sora rolled it around in his hand until his fingers were generously coated before pushing one slick digit into his entrance.
"Sora," Riku gasped his erection throbbed as he found the sight before him to be very exciting.
"Ngg…Riku," Sora moaned as he plunged the digit in and out of himself. More, adding another digit, Sora moaned, "yes!" Riku watched hungrily, Sora's half-open eyes, his mouth slack, breath heavy as he readied himself. Another finger was added before Sora finally slowed his assault.
"Now…oh…Riku," answering his lover, the silver haired man gently pushed Sora to his back and pulled slender legs to rest on his muscled shoulders. Placing himself at the younger man's opening, Riku slowly entered, he threw his head back as the feeling of Sora tight around his dick was unbelievable. Sora closed his eyes tight and fought to relax as Riku continued to push inside him. Once sheathed as deep as Sora could take him, Riku stroked the forgotten shaft between them. Mewling with pleasure, Sora gripped the bed sheets, his mind melted as Riku's cock filled him while the same man stroked him roughly.
"Move, Riku go I'm ready. Move," Sora whispered breath heavy with anticipation. Riku released Sora's member using his hands instead to grip slim hips as he slowly dragged himself nearly out of Sora before pushing back in. Riku was moving at a painstakingly slow pace, ever so careful of Sora. The slow push inside him was maddening. Pleasure surged through his body but it wasn't enough, not nearly enough.
"Harder, More, Riku harder!" Sora panted, his eyes stared wildly up at the other man, his breath hitched when Riku obeyed and thrust deep inside him. "Yes," Sora's back bowed as he rose to meet Riku's demanding thrusts.
Riku griped Sora's hips and shifted slightly before diving deeper into that tight heat. Riku moaned as he feverously drove his hips forward riding Sora's ass as the brunet mewled and panted; breath catching each time Riku's hard length stroked that spot within him. The silver haired man was close, his pace quickened as he raced towards climax. Sora seizing his own arousal, stroked trying to match Riku's hurried pace.
Crying out, Riku pumped his hips forward frantically as his orgasm hit like a wall of pleasure. Feeling the scorching heat of his lover's seed spill into him Sora's body tightened, one pump, two pumps, three…overwhelmed by his orgasm the brunet clawed at the soft flesh of his chest. Even feeling the smooth flesh yield to the demands of his nails did not faze him, as he lay euphoric under Riku's half-collapsed body. The two men shivered with pleasure as Riku pulled his now soft member from Sora's body; exhausted Riku lay back, grabbing Sora's hands he pulled the man atop him. Neither cared that they lay with their heads towards the wrong end of the bed, as each of the men were wrapped up in the heady after effects of what had to be the best sex either had ever had.
"Riku," Sora whispered against the other man's chest.
"Yeah?"
"Do you love me enough to be with me forever?" Sora asked shyly. Strong fingers gripped his chin and turned his face up so that Riku could see his expression.
"Of course, why?" Riku asked as he guided Sora until they sat facing each other.
"I love you that much Riku and I want to be with you, but I know that we couldn't live happily here. There are too many people who would make sure of that. I want to run away to a place were we can be happy together 'cause you are the only person who makes me feel whole."
"As long as I'm not running alone I'll be happy." Riku whispered, kissing Sora's forehead gently. "Let's get some sleep now, okay?" Pulling the covers back as well as they could without moving from the bed, the two crawled under the soothing warmth. Sora threw his arm haphazardly over Riku's chest before he allowed himself to fall asleep.
(30 days until…)
Sora rolled over and stretched every muscle in his body as he fought the soreness that was still present. The brunet opened his eyes against the harsh morning light. After a moment, Sora spotted a yellow sticky note on the pillow next to him. Silently he read the smooth script that covered the tiny sheet of paper.
Sora I tried to wake you but you sleep like the dead and besides you looked so peaceful. Feel free to stay as long as you want and help your self to anything. My home is your home, okay. Riku
"Riku," Sora whispered as the memory of the night before cut across his mind. Looking down at the scabbed scratches he had all but forgotten about Sora could hardly believe they had agreed to run away together. By the end of the month, everything would be different.
"Where is Sora?" A shrill voice demanded, her heels clicking on the boards as she approached. Riku didn't even look up at the woman; he just picked up another box and carried it onto the ship. "Riku!" The woman demanded impatiently.
"What is it?" Riku stalked down the bridge from the ship to the dock stopping before the nag.
"Where's Sora? He didn't show up for work and he isn't at home."
"You're not his mother you don't need to know his every move," Riku countered.
"Until you leave, yes I do. You and your devious charms, I can't have you luring him into Hell."
"Riku laughed, "sorry to disappoint you Kairi but I think it's better to be free in Hell than to be captive in Heaven." Kairi's face flushed red with anger.
"Now you listen to me Riku, Sora was one-hundred times better when you weren't here, and I hear tell there are some jobs opening up in some of the surrounding ports. Trust me when I say you aren't going to be getting much work around here. Now tell me where Sora is!" Kairi stepped forward, her chest almost touched Riku's as she tried to be intimidating and failed. Riku just smirked and ran his fingers through his hair.
"You want to know why Sora seemed so much better before I came back Kairi. It is because he didn't know what he was missing. He was content to live in this lie because he didn't have any reason to tell the truth." Riku gripped Kairi's chin in his hand, "I'm his reason Kairi." He released his hold on Kairi and turned to pick up more cargo. "He's at my house Kairi, though I don't think you are going to be welcomed with open arms." Riku pushed passed the red head on his way up into the boat, "excuse me I have work to do."
Sora pushed himself to his feet, stretching again briefly before heading in the direction of the kitchen. It only took him a moment to find the neglected pot of coffee from the night before. He dumped the cold liquid and removed the spent filter before the brunet added a new one. After the prep work was done, Sora started a new pot. There was nothing better than a nice hot cup of sweet coffee in the morning especially if it came after a shower. Eagerly, Sora headed back up the stairs to the bathroom.
The warm water flowed down Sora's lean body as he washed himself, anxious to wrap his lips around the hot coffee that brewed in the kitchen. After rushing through the necessities that go along with a shower, the man took a second to truly savor the flow of the water as it trailed down from his head to his feet. Sora sighed and reluctantly turned off the water. A warm breeze blew through the small window next to him, chilling his damp skin as he stepped from the tub. Sora had just pulled a towel from a shelf over the toilet when a figure stepped into the doorway.
"Sora…What...Why?" Kairi shrieked.
Sora quickly secured the towel around his waist before pushing past the woman hurriedly. "What are you doing here Kairi? How did you get in?"
"The door was open and who cares why I am here, what the hell are you doing here…Naked?"
Sora ignored her last statement and informed her that he indeed cared why she was here. He scooped up the jeans that lay abandoned in a pile from the night before and pulled them up under the towel, Sora didn't care that they were dirty or that he wasn't wearing any underwear he just couldn't be nude in front of the woman for another second. Once the pants were fastened, Sora let the towel fall to his feet.
"You didn't show up for work today, I was worried. I went to your house but you weren't there. So I rushed down to the dock to find Riku, he told me you were here. Now what is going on with you Sora?" Kairi stepped further into the room, holding her hands out helplessly towards the man.
Sora's eyes frantically searched the room for his discarded shirt, he was careful to avoid Kairi's questioning gaze. After a moment, Sora gave up on the distraction that searching for the shirt gave him and instead turned to the pained face of the woman not four feet from him.
"Kai…What do you think is going on? What do you make of the situation? I bet if you think hard enough you can figure it out, after all it is what you have been dreading ever since he came back. I guess your father couldn't come up with a job for him fast enough and now it is too late Kairi." Anger flashed through Sora suddenly, as his body reacted to the disgust that appeared on Kairi's face. "I am not going to live in a lie for you or for anybody any more. When I do I end up pushing myself away, I'm not willing to do that again. Riku and I are going to be happy together, away from here, so you do not ever have to see me or Riku again."
"You are leaving," Kairi asked in disbelief.
"Of course, this town is full of people who would never accept us. I don't want to live the rest of my life in fear!"
Kairi's disgust faded to an anger that rivaled Sora's. "Look what he has done to you Sora. You never used to be like this, you would never have wanted to leave before. You were happy here with me. I wish he had never come back, things would have never changed."
"Do you honestly believe that?" Sora yelled in disbelief. "Kairi, If Riku hadn't have come back we wouldn't be together now but that would not have changed my feelings. I have loved Riku for a very long time, I just was never able to admit and accept it. The feelings would have remained to eat me away eventually. I never loved you like I loved him Kai." A hand suddenly made contact with Sora's right cheek, knocking his head to the left.
"How dare you! How dare you say you love him more! He is a man! That is just sick Sora. You are a perverted fool! I'll pray for you," tears streamed in angry lines down Kairi's face as she screamed at the brunet. "I'll pray that you come to your senses before it is too late."
As the woman stomped angrily out of the room, out of the house, Sora just held his cheek and tried to keep the tears that threatened to fall contained.
If only she knew that it is already too late, He thought. Sora could think of nothing right off that would keep him from Riku's side. He wasn't tied to this horrid town by anything, no reason for him not to leave.
The sting in his cheek faded but the pain in his chest did not. Slowly Sora, fell to his knees. His mind raced as he wondered why it had to end this way. Why did they have to leave? Why couldn't they be allowed the same chance to be happy that everyone else took for granted? Why was it his love that was considered perverted?
The look of sadness on Kairi's face as she left haunted the man as he slipped to the floor and rested his head on the plush carpet. The adrenaline from their confrontation had begun to slip away leaving him exhausted and nearly broken. The sooner they left the better; they would have to get the ball rolling soon. Blue eyes stared fuzzily at the carpet fibers for a few more minutes before they finally slipped closed and Sora slipped into the blissful unconsciousness of sleep.
A/N: Hello to all. Yes I have finally updated and I do hope that the RikuXSora
scene made up for the SoraXKairi scene in Part II. Every time I sit down
with this it surprises me, yet another chapter will be necessary to wrap thispuppy up.
But don't worry Part IV is done so it will be up soon; probably next Wednesday
or Thursday as a graduation present to myself.I have also made
it a point to edit Parts I and II as well.Thank you all for sticking
with me I know I am a lousy up dater.
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