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Warning:This fiction contains mature themes such as sex, violence, language, and hate. If you can't handle these themes, I suggest you leave. Yaoi a.k.a; men having sexual relationships with other men, is a main part in this fic once again if this bothers you then please remove yourself.

--The topics addressed and the views portrayed in this story do NOT reflect those of the authoress. She has only set out to portray the views of the hateful people that she views in life. The authoress is sorry if any words or comments offend anyone but she hopes you can see why she felt the need to put them in.

--Note--: This chapter does include a "lemon" scene.


Pushing You Away: Part IV

(30 days until...)

"Sora," Riku exclaimed seeing the man curled up on the floor. "What the hell are you doing on the ground? Is this Kairi's doing?" Riku pulled Sora into his lap and brushed the hair from his face so that dark blue eyes could meet with the older man's sky blue pair.

"No it isn't really Kairi's fault. I just let my mind wander a little too much." Sora whispered pausing briefly; he continued before Riku could respond. "It is just that you are going to be all I have now. . . if Kai tells anyone it will be you and me against almost everyone on this island. That thought scares me because then, if I were ever to loose you I would loose the whole world; I would loose my whole world."

Riku smiled sadly before kissing Sora's forehead reassuringly. "I will never leave you; okay Sora, so you don't have to worry about that. I," lips brushed over one of the brunet's lidded eyes, "love," those same warm lips ghosted over the other, "you," gently Riku pressed his lips to Sora's in a brief, chaste kiss.

"I love you too." Sora said as he buried his face into Riku's muscular chest.

(27 days until...)

"Sora great news, an old friend from Radiant Garden called today. He found me a job. I guess some major damage occurred there recently and they are looking for all the help they can get. I've asked him to check around town for apartments. He guaranteed that he would find something." Riku collapsed down onto the couch next to Sora. The brunet's grin stretched ear to ear as he climbed into Riku's lap.

"I can hardly believe it, in only three days you've got yourself a job. We're on our way aren't we?"

Sora shifted, turning so that he now straddled his lover's legs. He leaned down and pressed his lips briefly against Riku's. The silver hair man smiled up at Sora; he was glad to see that the sullen cloud that had hovered over the brunet had finally dissipated completely.

"I love you Sora; I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you."

"I can't wait either Riku." Sora said his eyes twinkled with a mischievous glint. The brunet pushed himself closer to Riku's body making sure to draw out the movement as he pushed his groin downwards. Riku's gaze became heated as he stared hungrily into Sora's eyes.

As the brunet leaned forward, Riku traced his fingers up the other man's back until they tangled in the thick brown locks. Pulling Sora that last inch, Riku pressed their lips together harshly. Sora too, curled his fingers into his lover's thick hair. The men's lips parted briefly before connecting again in a deeper kiss. Riku moaned unable to hold the sound any longer. Slipping his fingers from Sora's hair, the silver haired man gripped Sora's hips and eagerly guided the brunet's unconscious grinding. Under Riku's hands the younger man pulsed his hips harder; he made sure his jean caged erection collided with Riku's own thickened member.

"Sora," Riku sighed. "Stop, you have to stop or I'm going to come."

Sora slowed his motions but didn't stop. "I want you to come."

"Not in my jeans I won't."

Sora grinned before he licked a wet line up Riku's jaw and whispered in his ear, "what about in my mouth."

Riku gasped, "please," he whispered.

Sora made one last downward thrust then slipped to his knees in front of the couch. Nimble fingers carefully undid Riku's jeans; Sora shifted higher up on his knees in order to get the best angle. Riku watched Sora grab his cock and slowly moved his lips to the tip. He watched as that pink tongue darted out; it licked his moist tip gently before Sora dipped his head and ran his tongue in a long wet line from the tip to the base of his member. Another lick to the top then Sora suddenly took the dick between his lips. Riku gasped again, as the feeling of Sora's mouth taking him so deep and the sight of it was almost enough to end it right then.

Sensing this Sora drew back, "take off your shirt Riku. I want you naked."

Riku did as he was told; he pulled the shirt up over his head, tossing it as soon as his arms were free. Sora then moved his hands to the top of Riku's denim and pulled them down as far as they could go with his shoes still on. The younger man quickly untied the boots that kept Riku from being nude and tossed them to the side. Sora slid his hands up into the silver haired man's pant legs searching for and finding the top of his socks. In one violent motion those too were removed, all that remained were the cotton jeans pooled at Riku's ankles. Sora kissed his lover's pale thigh as he slowly slipped the jeans off.

"Now where were we?" Sora mused leaning back over Riku's groin, "oh yeah you were about to come weren't you."

Riku nodded as his stomach knotted with anticipation.

"I can't wait." Sora slipped his hot mouth around Riku's cock once again. The brunet slipped downwards trying to take all of the older man but before he could, the reflex at the back of his throat was triggered. Riku moaned loudly; his hands gripped Sora's hair, keeping the brunet's mouth sealed around his dick. After a few deep breaths through his nose Sora again slid Riku down deep within his mouth, this time he managed to avoid gagging.

"Oh Sora," Riku pleaded, Sora rolled his eyes upward. Riku's eyes were closed, his head tilted back ever so slightly; the man looked almost pained by Sora's slow actions.

Sora's thin fingers cupped Riku's balls and stroked between them ever so slightly as he began to move at a quicker pace. Sora slid down, he took as much as he could of Riku's thickness before he slid back up; he grazed his teeth lightly along the other man's shaft as he rose. Sora's tongue swirled 'round as he worked, brining Riku closer and closer every time he dipped his head. Riku's grip on Sora's hair tightened as he urged the man to go faster; mewls and moans poured from Riku's mouth like sweet music. Sora could tell he was close.

"Ugh...mmm...Sora I'm gonna..."

Sora thrust Riku deep into his throat, again the younger man gagged and that was all it took. Riku cried his release as his warm spunk spilled into Sora's mouth. The brunet was rather startled at the amount and tried to swallow it all. Much to his displeasure, some of Riku's ejaculate dripped down his chin. Sora slid Riku's member from his mouth and moved to sit next to his lover on the couch. Riku smiled, he wiped the cum from Sora's face and kissed him hungrily.

"What are we going to do about you?" Riku asked motioning to the bulge in Sora's jeans, when they finally broke their kiss.

"Whatever you want," the brunet answered.

"Whatever I want," Riku paused, "I think it best we continue this in the bed room." Pushing himself to his feet, Riku pulled Sora up with him before leading him off towards the other room.

By the time they were done, both of the men were beyond exhausted and sleep found them easily.

(23 days until...)

"You're home early," Sora said as he carried the ingredients for tonight's dinner into his kitchen. Ever since the two had slept together, they had been alternating nights at each other's houses until the time came when they could move away.

"It was a pretty slow day at the dock so I talked Boss into letting me come home; I got some great news on the answering machine this morning. That friend I was telling you about, the one who found me the job in Radiant Garden, he got us an apartment. Best of all the rent is really cheap, only 200 a month. He said the owner can meet us at the end of the week to close the deal and that we can move in when ever we are ready."

Sora ran from the kitchen to his boyfriends arms. "This is wonderful," he exclaimed.

"I know, Boss says as long as I stay till the end of the summer rush and work on the dock I will get my bonus for completing the job. That is thirteen days Sora! In thirteen days we will be out of here!" The older man kissed Sora's forehead lovingly. "The end is in sight Sora."

"Will Boss let you have the day off so we can go to Radiant Garden and seal the deal?"

"Yep, Boss is probably the only decent man I know on this hell hole of an island besides you. I think I'm going to miss him," Riku mused. He squeezed Sora tighter to him.

"Remind me to give this friend of yours a big kiss."

"None of that," Riku laughed.

"What you think he deserves more?" Sora joked; he pulled away and headed of to the kitchen.

"He definitely deserves more than that but from this vantage point I don't see myself being able to share." Riku raked his gaze down Sora's petite frame; his shorts barely hit him mid-thigh and clung to his leg like a second skin giving anyone who was interested an amazing view of his plump ass.

Sora turned and smiled, "if you keep looking at me like that I won't be able to focus on making dinner."

Riku laughed at the flirty way Sora sashayed around the corner into the kitchen. "I am okay with that."

The signing went smoothly and like Riku had said, the man was happy to let the two move in when ever they were ready. Time passed quickly, every morning Riku would kiss Sora good-bye and head off to work, every evening the two would pack their things, and every night they would make love before falling asleep in each other's arms.

(16 days until...)

Sora worked busily washing the dishes from his small lunch. Riku's house was older than his own was and didn't have a dishwasher installed so all the dishes had to be washed the old-fashioned way. The brunet had just set the last dish in the rack to dry when a knock sounded on the front door. Sora quickly pulled the plug in the sink and grabbed a towel to dry his hands as he headed towards the sound.

"Hello," the man said swinging open the door. Eyes lighter than his own but shades darker than Riku's stared up at him. Kairi's cheeks were pink and stained with tears.

"Sora," she whimpered and threw herself at the other man. Instinctively Sora wrapped his arms around the woman, keeping her on her feet.

"Kairi what is it?" Sora questioned to no avail, Kairi had snapped. Sobs poured from her mouth growing louder and louder with every passing second. "Stand up Kai, come in, come in and calm down." Gently the brunet man pushed Kairi far enough away so he could move to the side, allowing the woman to go past him.

"You…you…" Kairi choked on her sobs, "you weren't at…your house…"

"I know Riku and I have alternating staying at each other's homes, but you found me. I'm here now so tell me what's wrong."

Kairi nodded acknowledging Sora's request but that was about all she could do until she calmed down.

"Let's go sit down," Sora recommended.

"No! I'll tell you, I'm calm…Sora," Kairi paused to search the other man's face. It held only confusion as he waited anxiously for what ever Kairi had to tell him.

He really has no clue, Kairi mused.

"Do you remember several weeks ago…we…I'm pregnant Sora! I am pregnant with your baby. I am so sorry." Again, the woman burst into tears and instead of comforting her Sora just stood not three feet from her and stared.

"No, no, you are lying. You have to be, you can't be pregnant. It is too soon." Sora stuttered wanting nothing more than to wake up from this horrible nightmare.

"No it isn't. As soon as I missed my period, I knew something was wrong. I got a test the next morning. I used every damn test in the box they all said the same thing. This fucks up my life too you know. How will I tell our child that their daddy was a fucking homo who left us? How will I tell my parents that you didn't marry me and take responsibility because you are a fag? This doesn't only screw you over Sora."

"Why? Why come tell me? You have already convinced yourself that I won't take responsibility, so why even bother?" Sora yelled allowing his anger to grow and match Kairi's own rage.

"Why! Because I had hope for you Sora; because I still love you, I still have your best interest at heart. I wanted to give you the chance to do the right thing. If you aren't interested just say so and I will leave." Kairi turned and looked at the door.

"I thought you knew me better than that Kairi. If you are really pregnant then there should be no doubt that I will do what ever you need. I'm not the kind of man who leaves someone else to clean up my mistakes." Sora watched the woman, silently pleading for her to tell the truth.

"I'm really pregnant Sora."

"What now?"

"We have no choice…"

"She is lying Sora can't you see that. I mean have you even slept with her?" Riku yelled, anger compensating for the hurt he felt inside.

"Of course I've slept with her, how do you think it happened? It was about four or five weeks ago I think," Sora said defensively.

"Four weeks? Four weeks Sora? She couldn't possibly have any signs yet. The only way she could have known was if she was looking for it."

"You don't know what you're talking about. She is not lying Riku, you weren't there, and you didn't see how upset she was. I don't understand why you are being like this. I don't have a choice this is who I am. I won't just leave her to deal with a screw up that was partially my fault. She was acting just like you are, I thought you knew me a hell of a lot better than her, I guess I was wrong." Sora's words cut deeper than any ever said before. "Hell maybe Kairi was right after all, she told me you'd be jealous of me getting the family you'll never have."

Riku and Sora were going to be a family until Kairi ran to the brunet with the news of a baby. Sora and he were going to have the fairly tale ending. Sora was supposed to end up with Riku God damn it! He wasn't supposed to be with Kairi, never Kairi and never for such a stupid reason.

"You're right," Riku said his anger fading. The grief was too much to keep locked away. "I'm jealous Sora. I am jealous because it was going to be you and me. I love you and you love me but now none of that matters."

"Riku I can't."

"I know!" The silver haired man shouted, "you're a great guy, so dedicated to your responsibilities. You'll leave me to do what you think is right. You'll leave me for a lie."

"Riku it's not like that," Sora pleaded.

"Yes, yes it is," Riku forced a smile. "What ever Sora I see there is nothing more for me to say. Your mind is made up, and you're just as stubborn as I am when it comes to changing your plans. Just know that I love you Sora and have a great life." With that said the older man left, ignoring Sora's calls for him to wait.

Tears ran down Riku's face, as he walked nowhere in particular. Maybe by the time he finally wandered back home Sora would be gone; the thought of watching the brunet leave tore his heart in two. It would be better in the end if they just had a nice, clean break. In six days, Riku would be able to pack his stuff and move far from here, far from Sora and the lying bitch that stole him away.


A/N: Hey everyone. Part IV as promised. I hope to have

Part V up soon since it is all but done but I don't have

a date planned. Thank you all for reading…

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