The song started to play. It had a nice beat. It even had a piano. Then the vocals came in.
The streets are dark, my pulse is
flat-lined
as I'm running to you
You sit completely unaware of
what I'm about to do
The air is thick with tension much like when
we are together
My fangs are aching as I'm pondering about you and
I forever
As I round your corner
I am nervous that you
won't be my lover
I knock three times and hope that my pale
complexion won't blow my cover
You answer the door with your
innocent face
Would you like to leave this human race, tonight?
Edward was standing in the corner, tears just running down his face as he looked at me.
Eternity will never be enough
for me
and eternally we'll live our infallible love
It sounded like he was saying he wanted me to be a vampire because even if we lived for eternity, that wouldn't be enough for our love.
My brain is pumping an
unusual secretion of lust
Your eyes are softer now
and your
chin, it drips a bloody color of rust
I am raising up the stakes
of this round, I am playing for keeps
Oh, would you like to leave
this human race, tonight?
Eternity will never be enough for
me
and eternally we'll live our infallible love
Follow me
into the sea
We'll drown together and immortalize you and me Leave
behind this lonely town
We're both better
than this, it's not worth being down
(so was he saying that being
vampires was like drowning-never having to worry about death
again?)
Eternity will never be enough for
me
and eternally we'll live our infallible love
Follow me into the sea
We'll
drown together and immortalize you and me
Leave behind this lonely
town (eternally)
We're both better than this, it's not worth being
down (eternally)
I looked at Edward. He was still standing in the corner.
"Edward," I started. I tried to get up, but the pain was unbearable. But the song was numbing my need to scream.
"Bella, love, this is all my fault. If I had never given in and taken you to dinner that night…." He was coming closer to me, and I could see his eyes were like ice. Instead of bloodshot, they just got colder.
"It would have been the biggest mistake of your life." I finished for him, not letting him take the way he had intended.
"Yes, but would it have been the biggest of yours? You would be living a normal life right now, packing for college, saying good byes and really promising to come home for Christmas. You wouldn't be lying here in agony, watching me fall apart because of my mistake." The tears were running again.
I forced myself up. If I was going to be able to control my instincts, controlling my pain might be a step. I walked over to him. "You're only mistake," I whispered in his ear, "was not biting me yourself."
"That's why I had this song picked out. I was going to play it to you the night I turned you. It expresses perfectly how I feel about this Bella. I want you to know, that I don't want you to suffer what the rest of us do, but that I want you to be one of us because," I didn't let him finish.
I stared at him with wide eyes. Slowly I said, "because even if we lived for eternity, that wouldn't be enough for our love."
He started sobbing. I wrapped my arms around him, holding him close. "I'm so selfish. I'm such a bad person."
"No, Edward. You're perfect, because you are giving me exactly what I want."
"No, I'm giving me exactly what I want." I pulled him away from me, and looked deep into his eyes.
"Edward I want whatever you
want."
