Yeah Yeah, I know, that cliffy WAS very cruel…but well yeah. I'm srry it took so long for me to update this, but I had to actually think this chapter through, something I don't do very often. Oh well…
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I knew that it was cruel to do this to them, to lead them on like this. We all knew that I was evil, or at least everyone thought I was. I take that back, I am evil, and I didn't deserve to exist. No matter how much Edward and Damien knew this, their mouths still gaped open as if they had saw their only child get shot. Edward's face was frozen in pure horror, while Damien's was just simply shocked, though it looked strangely smug.
I sighed and looked at the ground, pretending to be ashamed, though I wasn't. I couldn't bring myself to care, I had learned to block out my feelings, and I wasn't about to start now. Edward didn't know what I was about to do, and neither did anyone else. Damien could never know but I would always know in my heart—though it may not beat—that I had done something good in this garbage dumb of a situation.
I looked up again to see that Edward was staring at me, his expression murderous. I sighed again; know that at the moment he must have hated me. It stung me like a knife, his hatred. And no matter how much I didn't want to, I didn't try to explain myself and what I was about to do. It was strange though, that Edward would stay with this human and not me. Then again, he probably actually loved her.
No one spoke for a long time. Damien came over to me and put his arm around my waist, but that was pretty much the only movement for what seemed like hours. I didn't look at Edward's face again, in fear of what I might see, though I already knew what I would find. I sighed again as I smashed my hands together, waiting for someone to say something—anything.
Demetri was the first to speak, "I'll do it." He volunteered for me, knowing it must have been hard to make my decision, though it wasn't really, not at all.
I shook my head in protest and shrugged Damien's arm off of my shoulder while I stepped forward toward Edward and his human mate. I gulped as I looked up again, but instead of looking at Edward, I looked at Isolde. I had to admit she was pretty, though her eyes were cold and dead. I wondered if they had always been like that, or if she was just trying to hide her emotion at the finding of her cause of death. She was going to be murdered by vampires, and she knew it from what I had said.
I racked my brain for something to say, but nothing came to mind. Instead my mouth spoke for me, "I will do it. Come with me Edward…Isolde." I knew that was being too nice to believe, but I was doing well for now. I looked up again to see that Isolde and Edward were following me, both of their bodies shaking. I led them into the forest and when we were still in hearing distance of the other members of the Volturi I had brought with me I heard Demetri say, "Don't worry, they won't feel a thing. Bella is very skilled in this particular area." How easily he could speak of death without any emotion whatsoever. I sighed again remembering that I was like that too. I knew that Demetri saying this to Edward's family didn't really comfort them much; it probably made it worse to know that I had done this often and would do it again and again. It was like an addiction, I wouldn't stop, it was the only thing distracting me from my pain.
Finally we were miles away and I knew that they couldn't hear me. It was just Edward, Isolde, and I alone in the forest, miles from any civilization. Even thought the trees were packed together, making it easy to get lost, it was light inside the forest.
"Why?" I suddenly heard a voice behind me. I whipped my head around to see Isolde staring daggers at me, though behind the glare there was easy to see pain. That reminded me of my encounter with James, and I could tell that she was just as afraid as I had been, though I knew that nothing would happen to them, not after what I was going to do for them.
I sighed and gulped not know how I would do this, but then the word just blurted out of me, "Go." I whispered and both of their faces froze in confusion. I looked down at the ground, I didn't want either of them to see the sadness that was welling up in my eyes.
"What?" My former lover whispered. I looked up at him, a sob building up in my chest. I swallowed it, resolving not to cry.
"I said, go. I don't want to kill you. You both don't deserve it. I am the only one here who deserves to die." I said. It was what I truly believed. I had murdered so many people. What would have happened if I had died that day, the first time I met—if you could call it that—Edward. Well, it would have made it easier on Edward—and me. He wouldn't have had to break up with me and tell me that I wasn't good enough from him.
Edward looked around and then looked at me, his eyes full of thankfulness. He smiled at me and then looked at Isolde with apologetic eyes. "You go." He told her. There must have been some silent agreement between them, because she ran away, faster than I ever could as a human.
I raised my eyebrows at Edward in confusion, "You can go to." I informed him in a whisper. He could go, I just didn't want him to. He shook his head and once again I was confused. Why didn't he want to go with his love? Was he really so heartless that he would live without her? Did he just want to confuse me, or hurt me again—
"No," He said and his expression told me that there was no use protesting.
I opened my mouth anyway to tell him that he could indeed stay with Isolde, but before I could, Edward's lips pressed against mine.
I could have pushed away, I was much stronger than he was now, and it would have been exceptionally easy. But at the same time I couldn't, because when his stone cold mouth met mine I felt whole again.
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