A/N: Ok here is the chapter i promised. First off this is what happened between Natsuki and shizuru that caused the events in chapter 2... Second off i would just like to ask you guys a favor, i feel that my writing has changed dramatically and not for the better, i hope you guys will be completely honest in letting me know.
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Natsuki fidgeted as she stood outside a familiar door
Natsuki fidgeted as she stood outside a familiar door. Setting down her helmet and moving the package she held from hand to hand she tried to catch a good reflection of herself in the brass light next to the door. "Damn helmet, I should have taken the bus."
Running fingers through her hair in a vain attempt to straighten out the strands of hair that were now standing out at odd angles. Sighing she bowed her head in defeat. AH! Why the hell do I care anyways? This is so stupid, I've never done this before, why the hell am I doing it now.
Looking down at her clothes she began to pull on her black sweater trying to get all the wrinkles out. I can't remember the last time I dressed up. Indeed she had, looking down at herself she was wearing her best pair of jeans and shoes. Not really the best for riding a motorcycle but still Shizuru had told her that she looked good in them once. Knowing her though it probably wouldn't matter. As for her upper half she decided to go simple and wore one of her favorite black sweaters. And to top it all off she spent a great deal of time on her hair trying to get it just right but had only realized the futility of her actions after she had already arrived and taken off her helmet.
Gritting her teeth she knocked on the door before leaning over to pick up her helmet. God I hope she's here, I'm going to look like such an ass. Why the hell do I feel so nervous? This isn't the first time I've come to her place or… She glanced down at the package in her hand. I hope it fits I uh…
She stopped and suddenly stood straight when she heard latches on the door being pulled back. Here goes nothing…
As the door opened she released a breath she didn't know she had been holding.
"Natsuki?"
"H-Hi Shizuru!"
"Ara? What is Natsuki doing here?" Shizuru said as she stepped aside to let Natsuki in.
"Here." Natsuki said gruffly shoving the package in her hands towards Shizuru without looking at her.
Making her way into the kitchen Natsuki set her helmet down on the table before sitting down herself. Once she did her eyes began to bulge from her head as she looked at the enormous pile of letters and small packages on the table. Each had the same name carefully written across them. Shizuru.
"Shizuru, what the hell are these?" Natsuki asked as Shizuru walked into the kitchen her trademark surprised look still on her face.
"Ara? Oh, those? Apparently word got out about my birthday at the university."
"Oh…" Natsuki said slightly deflated.
Looking up she noticed that Shizuru was fingering the package she had given her a curious look on her face. "Oh uh, happy birthday." She said trying to sound dismissive while she looked away, but the way her eyes went back and forth between Shizuru and the package betrayed her nervousness.
"Ara?"
"Just open it already…" Natsuki said her voice coming out harsher than she intended.
Shizuru looked up at her as if she had just suggested an atrocity. Slowly running her fingers over it she spoke, her voice low. "But, Natsuki took such care in wrapping it."
"Not really" she lied.
Shizuru looked up at Natsuki with her usual penetrating gaze. "Thank you Natsuki."
The blue haired girl held her breath as Shizuru carefully began to unwrap the package. Making sure she didn't tear the paper the brunette pulled each piece of tape off and carefully unfolded the paper until finally the box it covered was revealed.
The box was white in color and gave nothing away as to where it came from but it was one of those boxes that lead one to believe an article of clothing lay inside.
"It's not lingerie if that's what you're thinking." Natsuki said with a sheepish smile.
Shizuru merely gave a weak smile before slowly removing the top of the box, her breath catching as what lay within was revealed. "Oh Natsuki," she said pulling up dark red sweater. "You shouldn't have."
Natsuki smiled as she saw genuine shock and happiness spread across her friends face. "I remembered how much you liked it and- Oi! You don't have to put it on now!" she said standing slightly arm outstretched as Shizuru pulled the dark read sweater over her head.
"Thank you Natsuki!" Shizuru nearly squealed as she ran her hands over the soft material. She then took a step forward and opened her arms as if to hug the other girl but hesitated. Natsuki flinched, not at the possibility of the hug but at the other girl's hesitation.
Not really knowing what to say she just opened her arms to Shizuru offering a hug of her own to which Shizuru quickly stepped into.
"Happy Birthday Shizuru." Natsuki said leaning her head into Shizuru's chest, pulling the other girl closer.
"Thank you Natsuki. Thank you." Shizuru leaned her head against the top of Natsuki's and began slowly stroking her hair.
Natsuki leaned her head more into Shizuru, smiling at her friend's apparent happiness. She began to listen to her friends steady heartbeat, inhaling deeply she took in the smell of the sweater and Shizuru.
As soon as Shizuru had made contact warmth erupted in the middle of Natsuki's chest, slowly overwhelming her. This always happened every time she hugged Shizuru, it was always terrifying, and yet at the same time calming. It relaxed her, made her feel safe and…loved?
Lately Natsuki had felt her feelings for Shizuru grow, it had started off slow first with small urges for physical contact than it began to grow quickly to where all she wanted was to be hugged by the other girl. It terrified her, someone having such a strong effect on her and yet she had come to realize that Shizuru had always affected her in this way only in smaller degrees.
Now being tightly embraced by Shizuru she could help but be overtaken by the other girl. Her smell, the feel of her and her warmth. Every time her hand would run through her hair she would almost purr, she began to lean more and more into Shizuru.
God, how I love you Shizuru. She thought, not realizing what she had just admitted as she inhaled deeply.
She was torn from reverie when she felt Shizuru tremble slightly as she released a shuddering breath.
She suddenly pushed Shizuru to arms length and looked up at her. She was shocked to see that tears were streaming down her friends face. "Shizuru! What's wrong!?"
"No-no-thing Natsuki," Shizuru said trying to stop the slow of tears with her hands. "I'm just-so happy. "
"Shizuru," Natsuki stood. "Please don't cry"
"I'm sorry- I just couldn't stop." Shizuru said slightly trembling.
Natsuki pulled her into another hug. "Please," She pulled her closer. "Stop crying Shizuru, what ever I did I'm sorry." Her voice was pleading and she was beginning to feel a familiar burning in her eyes. I came here to make her happy and I made her cry, all I ever do is hurt her.
Shizuru began to shake her head, "It's not Natsuki's fault."
The tears finally broke free from Natsuki's eyes as she heard Shizuru's lie. Please don't lie to me.
Pulling away slightly she tried to look at Shizuru's face but the older girl had her head bowed. Natsuki gently cupped Shizuru's chin and raised the other girl's eyes to meet her own.
I'm so sorry Shizuru, this was supposed to be a happy day for you and naturally I found a way to fuck it up, just like always.
Without realizing it she had begun to stare into Shizuru's eyes. I just wish there was something I could do for you.
Unconsciously she began to lean forward. She watched as Shizuru's eyes widened in surprise. Then she felt their lips touch, and the world shifted.
The heat that she had once thought was so overwhelming before erupted and became something completely incomparable with what she had felt before. She vaguely heard herself moan as she leaned more into Shizuru. Without realizing what was japanning her tongue left her mouth in search of something. When it came into contact with Shizuru's lips, she moaned and eagerly accepted it with her own answering it.
Natsuki began to push Shizuru back on to the table and the older girl sat down, wrapped her arms around Natsuki's neck pulling her closer.
It was at this point that Natsuki began to slowly return to consciousness. With all the emotions and feelings that were coursing through her at this point a new one began to creep in. Slowly at first but then it began to match the warmth that was flowing through her.
Her eyes snapped open and she began to slowly withdraw from Shizuru. She watched as the brunette opened her eyes as if coming out of a trance and the realization of what she had just done hit her. Oh my god! What the hell have I done.
She immediately grabbed her helmet off the table and quickly made her way for the door. "Natsuki?" she heard Shizuru call out behind her, her voice far away as if she hadn't yet come out of her dazed state.
"Natsuki!" This time her voice was slightly more coherent but panic laced it.
The blue haired girl ignored it as she was filled with her own sense of panic and was now racing for the door.
"Natsuki! Please wait! I'm sorry! It was an accident! Please!" Shizuru cried jumping from the table and racing after Natsuki.
Natsuki was already out the door and almost running for her bike when Shizuru called out as she fell to her knees, "I didn't mean to Natsuki! Please! I'm so sorry!"
Natsuki growled to herself as she made it to her bike, she didn't have to see Shizuru to know that she was crying again, the desperation in her voice said it all.
Jumping on her bike and slamming her helmet down on her head she quickly thought about what she had done. What the hell did I just do? I was trying to make her happy, to make her feel better and-and I… All I fucking do is hurt her!
Her scream was drowned out by the roaring of her bike as she burned rubber before riding away.
