A/N: Ok i got this chapter out, it was originally going to be longer but i think the next chapter will include what i was going to stick on to the end of this. Unfortunatly i just wasnt emotionally into it and thats why this seems kind of dry and why i wanted to leave off the very emotional last part of this for the next chapter. Oh, unlike other authors here im fueled by story updates not so much reviews (though i love those too) so if you got a story UPDATE IT, and if your a reader and you have a favorite story REVIEW it. Some say there is nothing sadder than a story untold, while i agree i think a story unfinished is just as sad.
7/16/2008: The new chapter is actually chapter three, since people wanted to know what happened between natsuki and shizuru, chapter three reveals what that is.
Bad one: Sorry, but if you complain enough I actually have the idea planned out for that scene :) lol
EisWulf: I know i felt really bad for her too
Swarm012: She will, eventually...
Keiko-chan2000: Ha well that will be touched upon later on
Bleeding Hopes: lol isnt she always
Naxor: To tell you the truth i dont think shizuru unless extremely inebriated could ever even look at someone else. And yes, you are crazy but thats not a bad thing lol :)
chatterbox-hikaru13: Yeah, i my self was kinda going OUCh when i wrote that. Lol ya im glad you liked that Mai shizuru scene.
Silverstri: Ya Natsuki did it. Ha as i said to bad one, you guys complain enough ill write it. And i am really glad you are enjoying my story
To everyone else a GREAT BIG THANK YOU and one BIG APOLOGY for taking so long to update. Without further ado chapter 3
"Oi, Kuga!" Natsuki vaguely heard someone yell through the din of the crowded college courtyard before she was pulled from her thoughts by a chip bag colliding with her face.
"What the hell do you want!" the blue haired girl yelled angrily throwing the bag back at the red head across from her, who merely leaned to the right as the bag sailed over her shoulder.
"Besides listening to me?" Nao said, an annoyed look on her face. "Stop fucking zoning out!" The red head scoffed leaning back in her chair and propping her leg up on the table. Taking a sip from her coffee she looked over questioningly at her friend.
Absentmindedly scoffing Natsuki turned her own up with her left hand while gazing out into the crowded courtyard. They were currently sitting outside one of the many café's, restaurants and small stores circled a small garden located in the middle of Fuka University's campus. Other students walked back and forth to the different areas each caught up in their own little world and conversations, their own lives.
Natsuki sighed slightly.
She was once again snapped from her thoughts when a rolled up napkin hit her in the face. "Damn it what the fuck!" she yelled again glaring at Nao and receiving odd looks from passerby and others sitting near them.
"That's what I mean!" Nao said raising her arm as if presenting a point. "You zone out at the drop of a hat."
"What the hell does it matter to you!" the blue haired girl barked back.
"Well when I ditch school to come and visit you I expect at least a little bit of conversation."
"I didn't ask you to come…" Natsuki said taking a drink from her cup before once again staring into the throng of students.
Nao hid her scowl and stifled her growl behind her cup. But Mai did damn it… "Yeah well…" she said trying to find some excuse but she needant have bothered; Natsuki was zoned out again.
Nao sighed. This is getting really old really fast. Taking another long drink from her cup she too stared out into the crowd. Silence settled upon their small table but not on the courtyard as students continued to crowd it and carry on their conversations.
After a few moments Nao spoke, "She's only been gone two months you know?"
This brought Natsuki out of her thoughts. She stopped turning the cup and tried very casually to deflect the subject. "Who?"
"Oh shut the hell up, you know damn well who I'm talking about."
And she did.
"You're what?!" Natsuki cried at the top of her lungs.
In front of her stood a sheepish looking Shizuru who was fidgeting slightly. They were standing out side of a karaoke bar where they had just got done with one of Mai's "Hime Parties."
"Trouble in paradise?" Came Nao's aggravating voice from behind Natsuki.
Not bothering to turn around Natsuki quietly said, "You shut the hell up Nao."
Mai and everyone else who were currently walking out of the bar stopped and stared for a moment at Natsuki. Nao merely there with her mouth hanging open. Natsuki had never said anything to Nao in such a low voice and no where close to that tone.
Sensing the danger Mai started pushing Nao down the sidewalk. "Time to go Nao, I need some hel-"
There voices faded into the distance as Natsuki stared Shizuru down accusingly.
"You alright Fujino?" came Haruka's gruff voice.
Leaning to the right a bit so she could look Haruka in the eye Shizuru smiled. "No thank you, I'm fine, have a nice night Suzushiro-san, Kikukawa-san!"
Natsuki waited until the retreating footsteps of the other two girls faded into the distance before she continued. "Why didn't you tell me sooner?" she asked accusingly.
Shizuru returned her gaze to Natsuki her smile never wavering. "I didn't want to ruin the evening for Natsuki." She tilted her head to side and gave her trademark smile.
Clenching her fists Natsuki growled. Don't look at me like that… After a few moments of inner seething she sighed and made a visible effort to relax, unclenching her fists and bowed her head slightly.
"How long will you be gone?"
Shizuru's smile slowly faded and straightened her head. Lowering her eyes and avoiding Natsuki's accusing ones she said, "The college program lasts about six months… They said that if I do well however it can be extended to eight." She raised her eyes questioningly to Natsuki.
The blue haired girl's eyes were closed and her head still tilted down. Her right hand balled into a fist again. Six months! And then it's Shizuru so of course it's going to be eight! Damn it!
Silence overtook the two, periodically being broken by a passing car. Shizuru continued to gaze at the top of Natsuki's head questioningly and with a great deal of guilt.
Finally Natsuki let out a long breath and slowly raised her head and met her friends gaze. "Do you need help packing?"
A huge smile appeared on Shizuru's face. "I would love it!"
With that they started walking in the direction the rest of their friends disappeared in. "You are gonna call and write, right?"
Giggling could be heard down the street followed by a happy reply. "Of course Natsuki; of course."
"See!? There you go again!" said a very frustrated Nao. "Really, I don't see what the problem is, its not like you two are going out or anything."
Natsuki flinched slightly at Nao's statement. She's right, its not like we are… a couple. But… "She hasn't called…" she said to her cup that she was once again turning.
"What?" Nao asked leaning forward.
"She hasn't called in two weeks. She hasn't emailed either."
Nao stared at the other girl a few moments before she burst into laughter.
"What the hell is so funny?!" barked Natsuki.
"You're just too funny Kuga." Fighting the urge to continue laughing and wiping a tear from her eye she took another drink. "Did you ever think about calling her?"
Natsuki returned her gaze to her cup. She had thought about it, in fact she had almost done it a few times but something always held her back. Random thoughts would creep in that kept her from hitting those two buttons on her phone. What if she was busy? What if she was in class? What if- What if she didn't want to talk to her?
Natsuki's eyes darkened and her grip on her cup tightened. What if she found someone… She closed her eyes. It was Shizuru after all, she had no problem meeting or getting people to like her so finding someone wasn't to far out of the question. And- and-
"You know, for someone who claims to care so much about her friend," Nao blatantly emphasized the word, "you don't go very much out of your way to keep your friendship going. Not that I'm an expert or anything, but both sides have to do something have to do something. It cant all be her you know. I'm sure by this point she is hoping that you will call. She's probably telling herself that it's better if you two don't speak but hoping that you will do something."
Easy for you to say. Not when she's probably-
"And before you get into another one of your moods." Natsuki looked up. "She hasn't found someone else damn it!"
"How the hell would you know!?" Natsuki was surprised to hear her own voice.
Nao began laughing again and Natsuki sat there looking dumbfounded. "You really are great for a laugh you know that Kuga?" Settling down she sat back in her chair her expression becoming serious again. "For that girl, and don't ask me why there is no one else. She looks at you like… Well, I'm not going to go into that but you get the point. Basically, short of a clone of you I doubt anyone can make her forget you."
Natsuki's jaw snapped shut with an audible click when she realized it was hanging open.
"Now," Nao said chucking her cup into a nearby trashcan and grabbing her bag. "I gotta get back to school, I have a final and I don't want to have to repeat a year like some losers." And with that she stood up and walked away, disappearing into the crowd.
Natsuki just sat there and let Nao's words wash over her. After a few moments of doing nothing she pulled her phone out of her pocket and stared at the blank screen for a second before pressing two buttons and raising it to her ear.
After half a ring someone picked up. "Hello?"
Natsuki blinked, not expecting such a fast answer.
Barely able to contain the nervousness in her voice she spoke. "Hi Shizuru."
There it is, i know its dry but without a lot of inspritation this is all i got though thanx to someone (Lone Wolf) and her/his great doujinshi (i know ispelled that wrong) i was a bit inspired to get back into writing some of these. Anyways for Abandonment readers, there is a very important poll i NEED answered on my profile, details concerning it are on the latest chapter. Other than that SORRY for taking so long to update, i blame other authors for their lack of updates lately lol. As always thanx for reading.
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