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Here's chapter 2 then:
Chapter 2:
Catherine's POV
They say everything happens for a reason. I don't agree at all. Maybe it's just because everything that happens to me sucks. Take today for example, I'm late to work again, Lindsey has the flu and my mother is being a pain in the backside.
I pull into the car park and run into the building, cursing at the fact that I didn't seem to notice how cold it is and I'm in nothing more than a t-shirt, it shows that my head isn't all there at the moment.
I see Warrick and Nick as I'm dashing through the corridors and call to them to wait up.
"Hey guys."
Warrick smiles and asks how I am, Nick doesn't look too happy and just says emotionless:
"Catherine."
Something's up with him, I hope to God that Sara is okay. I can't bring myself to go and talk to her. I'm such an idiot I know. But when she was missing Gil told us all about their relationship, and I felt my heart break into a thousand pieces.
Melodramatic I know, but that's how it felt. I've always had a secret 'crush' on her, and although I knew she always had a crush on Gil, I never thought something would happen between them, and now I'm just heartbroken.
When she was found alive, I wanted to be the one to be in the helicopter with her, whispering sweet nothings into her ear, telling her she was going to be ok. But it wasn't me she wanted, it was him. I've been to the hospital when no-one was there, and just watched her, I've been asking the guys if she's okay, but I had to see for myself. So I've been and watched her, but I can't let them know that, they'll think I'm crazy for not going in and speaking with her.
"You okay Nick? You seem a bit erm down I guess..." I ask him, bringing myself back to the moment. The reply I got wasn't what I was expecting.
"Yeh , Catherine I'm absolutely fantastic, never been better. Unless you were unaware, one of our colleagues, one of our supposed best friends nearly got killed the other week, she's recovering in hospital, putting on a brave face, and you, you don't even care. You haven't even been to see her Catherine! I mean I knew you could be a bitch, and I know you and Sara aren't the best friends in the world, but you haven't even taken her a card Catherine, are you totally cold hearted?!"
That hurt, it really did. He thinks I'm a cold-hearted bitch who doesn't give a damn about Sara. I can't cope with this. I just turn around and run back outside.
Warrick finds me five minutes later sat on the curb shaking uncontrollably, whether from the tears or the cold I'm not sure, but it can't look good.
"Cath, it's ok, he didn't mean it. He's just worried about Sara, she just seems, I don't know, a bit unhappy, like she's hiding something, he's just worried about her that's all, he didn't mean to take it out on you."
Warrick, ever trying to make me feel better. It doesn't work though, I feel awful.
"Does she think I don't care 'Rick? Because I do, I really do!" I burst into another round of tears, and Warrick pulls me to him trying to comfort me.
"Hey Cath, look, it's ok, shhh." That really doesn't help me. Sara thinks I don't care about her.
"'Rick its just, I just can't, I, I, I don't know what to say. I care about her, I really do, and for her to think that I don't, it hurts."
He looks up at me, and his eyes soften more, as he says: "Cath, I get it, I understand, I saw it in your eyes."
OK, I"m confused now.
"When Grissom told us about them, I saw it in your eyes, and I know its not him you want, I get it Cath, the way you look at her sometimes, its just all fitting together now."
I'm totally shocked that Warrick knows, but I'm to upset to care at this point.
"What do I do 'Rick? It hurts so much, I don't think I can see her. I went to the hospital, but I couldn't go in. She must think I hate her. She'll think about our arguments, and the fact I'm not there, and put 2 and 2 together and get 5."
I cry again, I don't think I've cried this much for a long time, but the tears are flowing.
Maybe I should just push aside my broken heart and the fact that the woman who I am secretly in love with will never feel the same, and go and see her, I mean she thinks I hate her.
My mind is made up, I'll go tomorrow before work, after the guys have left and I'll go and talk to her. I doubt she'll want to see me now though, I mean it looks like I've just not bothered for the past two weeks.
Ok, so that's chapter two.
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