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To everyone who reviewed, thank you so much, I really appreciate them! And because you reviewed, I've got another chapter! To be honest I've shocked myself by writing 2 chapters in 2 days! Also, I just wondered what you think of me using both Catherine and Sara's POV's. I find it easier to put across what both of them are feeling, but is is confusing?

Again, thanks for the reviews everyone :) And, another quick thanks to Chelsee6 who kind of advised me to keep on writing, which I guess is why i've done this chapter so quickly.


Chapter 5:

Sara's POV:

I wake up later after the best sleep I think I've had in years, which, considering I'm in a hospital injured is quite astounding really. I can't actually begin to explain how happy I am that Catherine came to see me. I mean I did think she just didn't care, and, considering my mid-desert revelation about my feelings towards her, that kinda sucked slightly.

But she did come. And she told me she'd been almost every day, but couldn't come in. I still don't really get why, but I suppose she didn't understand my ramblings about having to tell her lots of things that I couldn't yet or whatever I said. So come to think of it, she's probably more confused than I am.

But we did have a good chat, amongst many tears, and we decided to try and build a friendship, which we both said we'd wanted for many years, but just didn't think the other did.

I wonder if she'll actually still want to try and be friends once she finds out how I really feel about her?... But, I don't know, earlier, during certain parts of our conversation I could have sworn that she said a couple of things that made me wonder how she felt about me, she did kiss me on the cheek, and hold onto my hand, and there was something hidden deep in her eyes that I couldn't quite decipher. I guess there'll be time to try and figure it out. I just can't tell you how happy I am that we can try again, start afresh.

Catherine is still asleep in my bed next to me, how she managed to fall asleep I'll never know, she looks quite uncomfortable, except for the hand draped across my stomach, it seems though she's trying to keep as far away from me as possible. If it wasn't for the said arm draping across me I'd say she didn't want to be here, but I guess she just doesn't want to aggravate any of my injuries. I decide that I don't want to wake her up yet, but she looks a bit awkward, so I carefully move her head so it's rested in my chest, she mumbles something and snuggles into me. It feels wonderful, and I decide that I might try and catch a few more Z's before facing the reality of my life.

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It's in that position that I get woken up some time later to the calling of my name "SaraSara? SARA!" When I finally open my eyes, I see a rather bemused looking Nick standing there giving me an extremely confused look.

Catherine has also woken up at the sound of Nick almost shouting my name. She takes a moment to come around, before just looking at Nick and not saying anything.

I guess she's still upset with him for calling her a cold-hearted bitch. I don't know what drives me to it, but I take her hand underneath the blanket and squeeze it, letting her know everything's ok. She smiles at me, before I turn my attention to Nick. I decide to leave it to him to approach the subject of Catherine being in my bed.

"Hey Nick, sorry, I don't think I've slept that long for a long time. I should have heard you come in." I see Catherine smile out of the corner of my eyes, maybe at my admission at having the best sleep whilst being with her.

Nick still looks a bit shocked, "Catherine?" he asks in an ultra confused and questioning tone.

I don't think Catherine is in the mood to speak to Nick, so I answer for her

"Catherine just came to see how I am Nick, we sorted out a few things, and then she was shattered so I offered her half of my bed."

That sounded totally lame, but I don't really want to tell him I needed her in my bed as comfort, instead of my lover.

He obviously didn't want to start an argument or anything whilst I'm in hospital, I presume he'll speak to Catherine at work tonight, I hope he doesn't upset her, she seems quite fragile at the moment.

He finally answers, quite coldly, "oh ok, I didn't think you two were ever that close," he nods at the bed.

I feel Catherine tensing up; she squeezes my hand before getting up.

"I'm going to go Sara, leave you and Nick to chat a bit." She smiles, before continuing "Plus I think I need a shower and get changed before going back to work. Never know what people will think if I go back in the same clothes as yesterday" she laughs, and she actually made me laugh with that comment too, I think that's the first time I've laughed since this whole ordeal began.

She smiles, and says "I'll give you a call later if I can't pop back in?"

I look at her as if I don't quite believe her, I do, I just don't want her to leave, but that's stupid, I know she has to work and get changed and stop the gang from talking about her having done whatever. I just hope she does come back. Today, even though most of it I was asleep, was perfect.

She obviously catches my thoughts, and smiles again, " I promise." She says before coming back over, squeezing my hand and walking towards the door.

"See you later Sara." And with an afterthought adds, "Nick"

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There is silence in the room once Catherine has left, and I don't know what to say to Nick. He obviously wants to know what was going on. I know he was upset with Catherine for not visiting me sooner, and I guess he wonders how she can come in once and share my bed for the day, and the rest of the guys have been coming since the day I was rescues and brought in here, and they are stuck with the chairs, even, or, maybe especially Grissom, who I've been trying to keep as far away as possible. I know I'm being a bit mean to him, but I just feel horrible when I'm near him at the moment, and shudder when he goes to touch or kiss me. I know that's really awful of me, but I can't help it. And I know it's going to be even worse now that I've actually seen Catherine, who, without knowing it, helped to save my life.

Eventually, Nick starts talking.

"So what was that there? Catherine says 1 word and she's in your bed. Didn't know she was that quick."

I gasp in shock at what he just said. I know he's just angry with her, and doesn't really mean it, but that was beyond harsh. I have to tell myself he's only looking out for me to stop myself from shouting abuse at him.

I count to three, before replying. "Nick, that was low. I know you're not happy with Catherine at the moment, but we had a good chat, and yes, she did apologise, and explained a few things to me. And we've decided to try and be friends."

He contemplates saying something for a minute before changing his mind.

"Nick, I know you're only trying to look out for me, but please, go easy on Cath tonight, please? For me?"

He sighs and says, "OK, and I really am glad she finally came to see you, it took her enough time. But just be careful ok? I've got to get to work." He gives me a small smile before coming over and kissing my forehead before saying bye and leaving.

What the hell did he just mean, be careful? Does he mean about Cath generally? Does he know how I feel? Does he know something I don't? Or maybe, I guess if someone had walked into the room, I guess we'd have looked like lovers, I guess he could mean that, maybe something about Grissom? Oh I don't know. I'll have to ask him later.

I ring the call bell, hoping to get a shower, and finally get around to asking about when I can get out of this place. All the time I can't help but wonder what Nick meant, and I keep wondering how long it'll be until I hear from Cath again. One thing I do know, I can't wait to see her again, I just feel the need to touch her, hold her like today.

I'm screwed, totally and utterly, 100 screwed.


So there we have it. 2 updates in 2 days! A first for me. Please please review :) you never know, you might get 3 in 3 (although I think I'd be totally and utterly surprising myself then too ;) but you never know, I hope to update asap :)