Chapter 3- Aftershock

The way she treated him seemed like begrudging friend or some sort of crush. Perhaps he was just not too great at picking out the type of relationship many people had. It would not come as a surprise to him since he was never very popular with anyone he met. L watched him leave with the list, what it contained he was not so sure so he would make a note to ask later but for now there were more important matters at hand. How he had just blurted all that out, what was he thinking? Was seeing her just too much for him to handle? That had to be it, he was losing his cool and revealing too much too fast but he felt that he had to make up for all the lost time that he could have been a father to the little girl that he had created. She would stand after he left and come closer. Her eyes looking into his as if they would be able to suck the information right from his brain. This made him smirk a little, even under scrutiny he would think of something that amusing to himself.

The next line would probably catch her off guard; most would probably react as she would. However if she knew what L meant to her existence then perhaps it would be something greater. Was everything in this room about to change? Was it for better or for worse? Would she even believe him? These were all thoughts that went through his mind. How could she doubt it though? If she had been told anything then his behavior would most certainly give away whom he was. He would look deep into her eyes for a few minutes; the tension between the two was building so high that he could no longer stand it. In a quick hushed whisper he would eject with slight force, "Watashi...Eru Desu." and like that the secret was out. Her reaction would say it all.

Now that he had dealt the cards it was up to her to decide the appropriate moves to make. She would most likely be skeptic at first but soon she would realize that she could not deny the facts, he could tell that the way he did things had sparked allot of thoughts in her head. This was the real deal, this was his daughter and he would soon try and be there for her like he should have been so long ago when Good-Chan had died.
Hisaye heard nothing but silence in the room. It made tensions begin to rise and a feeling of antsy took her. She kept herself from fidgeting too much. Hisaye looked at Ryuuzaki as his dark eyes held her red ones. This utter silence was really making her want to yell. She wanted to demand to know who he was. She hated this tension, but she didn't show it. For some reason she just so badly wanted the answer. She felt about to demand whom he was, but he had spoken. His words kissed her ears and the world just seemed to spin then stop dead.
"W-what...?" She murmured, staring at him. Memories of her childhood were suddenly spilling into her brain. There was so much she wanted to know, so much to ask! So much information in her brain right now that it hurt. Hisaye shook her head clear of everything and her eyes held disbelief.

Slowly she went over the facts in her head. No matter how much she wanted to deny it, they all proved his words. They all proved him to be L, her father. Other emotions started to be released into her body as the disbelief began to fade. Joy, depression, and anger started to spurt forward to mix with the fading disbelief. The joy was there because this is what she had always wanted, to meet her father. Then there was the depression that her mother couldn't be here to see this. Her depressed mother would've killed just to see him again, hold him again. Then the anger came and it was one of the main emotions she felt. It was one of the strongest in contrast to her joy. It had been sixteen years! He had been alive this whole time...? Why hadn't he told her!? Why hadn't he told her poor mother? Her mother who would've done anything to see him again. Her mother who had always mourned when she thought about him. It was unfair to her...it was completely unfair...

Hisaye tried to say 'L', but she only slightly mouthed it. Her voice box was refusing to work. She was afraid to say anything, really. She was afraid she would scream. This was a lot for her to take in with all these thoughts and emotions biting at her. Her right slowly moved up and touched her closed eyes.
"So.." she finally managed to get out, "my eyes weren't lying to me after all..."
Her hand dropped and her eyes opened, gazing at his face. His name and life span were crystal clear again. So...he was here...and he was alive. L Lawliet was sitting right in front of her.
"Have you ever heard if "Shinigami" eyes?"
She shook her head, no, not that question yet.
"Ok...actually, first I want you to tell me how...how you are alive...?"
Hisaye watched him carefully and was careful to hide the emotions. All the emotions probing to just burst out. She wanted to scream, cry, and jump for joy all at the same time. It was such an overwhelming and strange feeling. But she would keep her calm, and she would make sure she didn't lose it. She couldn't lose it...not now...
Receiving her reaction, it was just as he suspected. She was completely torn within, so many emotions that she really didn't know what to display. L had to sympathize with her though; he had been gone from her life for sixteen years, which was far too long for a girl who probably needed her father. Perhaps he could have come out of hiding when he learned of Lights death but then again he was not so sure that Misa was gone as well, he still was not so sure. This was a mess, he should have planned this one better but he had never met anyone that was at his level of intelligence except Light so he had only done what he thought she would have been able to handle. L stood and slowly guided her to a seat before pulling the chair before her and returning to a sitting position. "I suppose the first thing you would like is an explanation." he said slowly as he placed one finger to his lips and pushed his upper lip up at the right corner. He would take a deep breath and prepare himself.

"I am sure you know all about Yagami, Light. He was the one who defeated me." he said as an obvious annoyed look spread over his face. "That day when he thought he would kill me I had a replacement brought in to fool both him and the Shinigami. There are many who would seek to kill me for things I have done so I used a body double who had the same legal name as myself." he said with a slight devious grin. He didn't know why, this was no time at all to be smiling. "From there I hide out until I was informed by Whammy house that Light had been killed and that Near had become successful in his job, my job." he stated as he took a bite of chocolate.

He would pause for a moment and once more gather his thoughts and allow for her to process the information before he started once again. "I learned that Light had dead almost three years ago, but I had no idea that I was a father until just last year when I decided to look up Good-Chan and come out of hiding." he said as he looked down for a moment and held back the tears that threatened to storm out. "It took me all this time to even find you...this was not a quick easy task." he said with a quiet chuckle. "At several points I almost gave up but I knew Good-Chan would never have forgiven me if I left you alone after knowing about you." he said as he took another bite of chocolate. Now it was out of slight nerve as well that he did this.
The emotions were still strong in her mind whilst being taken to sit down. Her eyes remained on the floor till she reached her seat. Then she sat down in the way she always did, which was the way he sat. He pulled a seat beside her and sat, but her eyes were thoughtfully on the floor. The emotions were ebbing away, growing fainter. Except the anger, it was trying to hold on the best it could. Hisaye felt like she was in a daze and tried to pull herself out of it. She had to snap out of it. He was starting on an explanation and her eyes lifted and watched him. Hisaye knew her eyes probably looked dull right now, lost of all emotion.

She nodded slowly, yes; her mom had been terrified of Light Yagami. Hell, Hisaye had known Light until she was like...maybe 4? She waited until he was finished speaking before she would speak. She saw his grin and boy did she just want to slap him. This was no time for a smile! But, Hisaye wouldn't and couldn't slap him. She wouldn't hit him to save her own life, she figured. He was her father...someone whom she had longed to meet. Someone who she had really wanted learn all about because she adored what she got out of her mom. Hisaye inwardly sighed and listened in complete and utter silence until he finished speaking. Then she nodded very slowly and started to choose her words very carefully. He was taking a bite of chocolate when her mouth opened to reply.
"Yes...I do know Light...I've even seen him. Mom kept me with her 24/7 and wouldn't let me out of her sight. I saw him, since she helped out the task force, till I was about 4 or something...then when anyone on the team was offered to go help Near, mom went there. So, until the case ended when I was 5, I was in North America with Near's team of people. My mom..."
She smiled softly, "was utterly terrified of Light. It was so easy to tell he was just about to enter the room. She would stare at the door as if someone was about to come in and slit her throat. The room always grew so tense and she would avoid him as much as possible. She had eventually refused to work for him and that's when the offer had been placed. We went with..."
Her eyebrows furrowed thoughtfully, "I think his name was...Aizawa...I don't remember."

He had continued and she shut her mouth. He had learned of Light's death a mere 3 years ago? That wasn't too long ago. She nodded slowly in understanding. He had good reason to remain in hiding, but she was still angry. Hisaye felt it ebbing away as well, though. Now she just wanted to understand him. She watched him as he looked down and she frowned sympathetically. She wasn't the only one who had lost Good, he had lost her as well. Both of them had been close to the small, innocent woman. Hisaye was sure that both of them missed her very dearly. When he finished speaking, Hisaye nodded again.
"Yes...that sounds like mom..." Hisaye replied quietly, giving a small smile. "She would kill just to see you right now, you know? It hasn't been too long since she died...no...since she was murdered."
Hisaye frowned softly at the thought, closing her eyes. "Not sure if you know how she died. But, she got shot in the back of the head...by Kira." Her eyes opened and were filled with quiet mourning. "Mom would always tell me a lot about you...when I got her to actually talk. Most of the time she'd just go into a depressed stare and go very quiet..."
Her eyes grew softer towards him suddenly, forgiving. She was glad he was here and the anger was gone. Hisaye wanted him to be here...

Just then the door burst open and tumbled in was two kids. One was a brunette female with hazel eyes and a boy with dark eyes and hair.
"Ow! T-that h-urt!" The female whimpered as she touched her brunette hair.
"Sorry..." the boy replied. "But I still won the race!"
"B-because y-ou were pushing..." the female whimpered softly.

Both kids looked to be about 7-8 years old, definitely too old for them to be Hisaye's. Fumito entered right behind them, scratching the back of his head.
"Are you two intent on killing each other during races?"
"S-see! He w-as pushing! W-wasn't he, Fumito?"
"Ah, Giichi, but he wasn't the only one cheating."
"I was not cheating. Giichi was the one pushing..."

"How expected," Hisaye muttered and shook her head. She stood up and looked down for a moment. Then she looked up and placed her hands on her hips. "Oi oi, you two, please quiet down. You know not to be too loud when you come in here...yet I still tell you...every day."
She sighed and shook her head, kids. Why had she taken them in again? Her eyes shifted to L and she gave a small, sheepish smile.
"Not mine...but there's a small story behind how they ended up with me..."
"Sorry Hisaye..." Both of them frowned and gave a small bow of apology.