Chapter 5- Ghost of You
Eyes remained sorrowfully on the grave, yet there was a fondness. Hisaye would always love her mother; the two had been very close. Hisaye had confided in her mother about everything, and had comforted her mother when the women had gone into a depressed moment. She could've sworn when she turned 14 she had been taking care of her mother instead of vice versa. Hisaye had done a lot of the work, but Good had done her best to help out. The woman just wasn't really up to doing much. Though, the two had only grown closer from these conditions. Hisaye had so many memories of just her and her mother. Then again, that was all such a long time ago...not that she'd ever forget. Her current memories would just be her and Fumito, well, and the kids...and Yin. So many more people now..
Her attention was caught by the sound of movement. Her ears twitched and her head lifted. Eyes scanned about till they stopped dead on L. Her eyes softened slightly, a friendly look coming into them. She nodded in response to his comment about the place. Then she gazed back at the grave and the white rose she had placed upon the ground. She had disposed of the older one, which had withered and died. Hisaye turned her attention back to him after a moment. He was trying to same something, but only one word had escaped his mouth. She gazed curiously at him, but had an idea of what he was trying to say. She gave a soft smile and nodded.
His next words made her go into a thoughtful gaze.
"...It'd be nice if you stuck around for a while...I'd like to understand you better," she murmured softly, eyes shifting towards him. Her hands wanted to stuff in her pocket, but the black clothing she had on didn't have any. Cursed habit.
"...Mom would understand...why you had to disappear for so long. I understand, too. "
Her eyes grew sympathetic as she watched him. A part of her, her mother's part, wanted to reach out to him. She could tell he was depressed. Was he blaming himself for her mom's death? The side of her she obtained from her mom started to reach out. Hisaye felt herself shift and her eyes remained soft and sympathetic. She looked a lot like her mom when this side of her came out. The same innocent, sweet look that her mother could give as she soothed someone.
Moving to where she stood in front of him, Hisaye's mind acted on its own. She was so used to comforting her mother...this was her father. It was pretty much no different. Her arms wrapped gently around him and she pulled him into a soft and comforting embrace. She wasn't sure what he'd think about it...but she didn't care. Hisaye would try and comfort him...and that was that.
She held it for a few moments, but then let go. Her phone...she did have a shirt pocket. It began to vibrate as soon as she had let go. With a blink, Hisaye shook her head and sighed. Count on work to ruin moments...She took it out, and a puzzled look suddenly crossed her face. She answered and spoke slowly and in a confused manor.
"Hello...?"
There was a complete silence, and a look of shock had crossed her face. But then her eyes had narrowed and a dark look spread across her face.
"Why you..." she clenched her teeth as she listened. Hisaye hung up after a few moments, putting the phone away. She looked like she could just murder someone right then. Her eyes looked at L, and they softened again. They were full of apology, too.
"I have to go..." she murmured softly. "You may visit here as long as you like..."
With that, she nodded a goodbye and walked off rather quietly. A depressed look had spread across her face now. But the dark look was still there...and Hisaye still wanted to murder someone.
About 2 hours later
Her footsteps were fast as she raced for his location. Yin was panting heavily as she raced about. She sure hoped she was right about where he was! She needed to find him! Her dark, coal eyes danced about as she ran past her surroundings. Almost there, right? Had to be there soon! Had to tell him...!
"Ryuuzaki!" She called out, slowing and looking around desperately. "Ryuuzaki! Where are you!?"
Yin was breathing rather heavily; the 27 year old had ran all this way to find a man she had never even seen before. But she knew this location well, having taken Hisaye when she had been a child to play. There had been no grave here at that time. Good hadn't always been able to bring Hisaye here, but the young girl had loved this location. She had always found it fun...
"Ryuuzaki!"
Yin brushed some of her jet hair away from her face and she wiped her forehead. She approached the grave and spotted someone. Eyes scanning over him, she confirmed he looked close enough to Hisaye. Black hair and hunched position, yeah...she probably found her man. The woman jogged up until she was a few feet away, then walked the rest of the way. Yin tried to catch her breath, but knew she had to get this out.
"Ryuuzaki...i-it's...Hisaye..." She managed between breaths.
L's eyes went wide when she hugged him; he really had no idea how to respond to that one. He would just stand there, arms at his side not even returning the affection he was being shown. She was one of the very few who had ever done this; it always surprised him when someone would do this. He was going to say something about it when her phone rang, not giving him enough time to speak. L would nod and look at her curiously as she growled at the person on the other end of the phone. Perhaps Kira had struck now? Perhaps he or someone had kidnapped the kids and she was forced to go after them. He would place his finger upon his lips, moving his upper lip up slightly as his teeth would be slightly exposed. He made a note to ask her what was happening when he returned, for now he would visit with Good.
L could finally let his guard down; no one was around to hear it. He would sit down in the dirt as a few tears escaped. He would smile and start talking to Good as if she were responding. "Hello, it's been awhile Good-Chan..." he said slowly as he smiled at the dirt before him. "I'm sorry I couldn't make it sooner, I'm sure you'll understand" he said as he bit his lip and looked up into the sky. Would she ever be able to forgive his absence? He hadn't meant for it to hurt anyone, if anything he wanted to stay alive...just for her. Staying alive to assist in the case was just the official reason; it was not the real drive behind remaining in silence all those years. "I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you two, w-when you needed me the most..." he said as he fought back a wave of tears. All it seemed like he could do here was apologize to Good, for what he had done to keep himself going.
2 Hours later
Loud footsteps could be heard coming from behind him. It seemed that someone was running, and they were running straight towards him. His first instinct was to hide somewhere but he had a sudden paternal instinct, something that just told him something was wrong. He would spin quickly to face the women screaming his name, a curious look on his face. "Hai, I am Ryuuzaki. What's going on!?" he asked as he arched an eyebrow. If Fumito, Kira, had done anything to hurt Hisaye he would kill him. The justice he once felt he had to do long gone, if it came down to it L would use the Death Note, just to avenge the family he really never got to have. "Take me to her!" he would say, he wanted her to talk as they moved.
Her sable eyes scanned him up and down. So, this was Ryuuzaki? Hisaye's father? Yin had heard some about him from Hisaye's mom, but not much. Hisaye had probably heard more then Yin would've ever gotten out of the woman. Though, Yin had been the first one to actually figure out Good was pregnant! She was inwardly amused now at that memory. She had told Good she knew when they were shopping by offering to take her maternity shopping. What a fun reaction she had gotten out of Good. The woman had been completely shocked that Yin was even aware of the two...
She nodded and spun around quickly, hand reaching back and grabbing his wrist, dragging him along. Yin didn't care if he didn't like it, this wasn't the time to whine about it.
"Something happened...I don't truly know. But I got a call from Miss Giichi that Hisaye-chan as been taken to the hospital. Giichi sounded terribly panicked...she told me Fumito and Lawliet were both..." her eyes slightly saddened, "dead. Poor 8 year old...but Fumito was, apparently, Kira. From what I got, Hisaye got shot. I don't know where, and the last I heard they were just reviving her from flat lining on them. So, I'm guessing she's in a rather serious condition."
Yin looked at him, wondering what he was thinking. Her eyes were sympathetic. If Hisaye was flat lining on the medics, then she certainly might die. A heart could stop beating and restart only so many times.
"I'm sure she'll be ok...she's a tough teenager, that's for sure. This place isn't far off from the hospital; we're only about five minutes away or so."
With that she looked ahead again, wondering. Would Miss Hisaye live through today? It was a dreaded day for her family...November 4th. Today was the day Ryuuzaki had allegedly died and also the day Good had been shot, and now Hisaye...
Boy, is this a bad day for them...
Eyes fluttered open as she stared at her surroundings. Where was she? Was she...under water!? Hisaye opened her mouth and gasped slightly, bubbles flowing from her mouth. What was this? Was she dreaming? Yet it all seemed to real, yet literally impossible. The last thing she remembered was being protectively curled up to Giichi as her wound had bled. She had been shot in the abdomen area, right?
'Am...am I... dead?' she thought quietly to herself as she remained unmoving within the water. Up above her was light...air. A sharp pain was throbbing through her lungs as they begged for the air. Hisaye began to try and swim, but her efforts were useless. She wasn't moving...not up nor down. She was caught still in this one place as she struggled to get to the surface.
'I'm drowning...' she thought quietly as her lungs burned. There was a sound that hit her ears...a long and endless beep. Like the kind you heard when...
'When someone dies...a flat line?'
Her eyes began to softly close as she suffocated and her body began to shut down.
'Fumito...Kira...'
Her body finally began to sank as the last of the light faded away as darkness overtook her body. But she felt a pair of hands grab her suffocating body. That was the last she felt before she blacked out.
Her black out didn't last long as her eyes opened and she gasped in air. Her red eyes looked around as she was in an area of pure white. What was this? She was certainly dreaming...Hisaye was confident she was. She continued to look around till she looked ahead of herself...and saw her. Before her stood her dead mother, whom didn't look like she had aged since her death.
"M-mom!" Hisaye called out, stumbling to her feet and reaching out towards her. But the older woman held her hand up to stop Hisaye.
"N-no..." she murmured softly and moved forward slightly. "D-do not c-ome any f-arther. Hisaye...y-you must wake u-p."
"Wake up...?" Hisaye stared at her, puzzled.
"Hisaye...you're d-ying...you h-ave to w-wake up," Good murmured, eyes soft. "I-it's not y-our time y-yet...to j-oin me."
"Mom..." Hisaye frowned, not sure what to say. "Dad...he..."
"Is alive," Good nodded and smiled, "I-I'm glad he's ok."
"But...do you...forgive him?" Hisaye asked, truly wondering.
Good moved forward till she stood in front of her daughter, looking up at her. Then the older woman pulled her into a hug and smiled, whispering.
"O-of course I d-o...I love h-im. It's w-wonderful...t-hat you g-got to meet y-our father...Hisaye."
She pulled away and quickly stepped away from the young woman. "I-I miss h-im...but I w-ill see him a-again one day...I'll be w-waiting t-ill then."
She was far away now and she looked down, closing her eyes softly.
"Run a-away from m-e...Hisaye. You h-ave to wake u-p."
"Mom..."
"Run a-away from m-e! Now."
A confused and pain-filled expression was on her face. She was finally getting to see her mother again. This would probably be the last time for a very long time. But, with a nod, Hisaye turned and took off. She ran as fast as she could away from her mother, just as she wanted her to do. Her eyes closed tightly as she repeated a phrase over and over in her head.
'Wake up...wake up...wake up!'
Red eyes snapped upon and she jerked slightly, gasping in air. A loud beeping noise was only heard for a moment. But then it faded and soon it was smooth, consistent beeps. The teenager looked to her right, staring at the monitor that watched her heart. She was alive...she had woken up. She continued to look around till she spotted Giichi, who was staring with surprised and pained eyes.
"H-Hisaye...?"
"Yes?" She asked softly, smiling a bit at the young girl.
"Hisaye!" Giichi moved forward and embraced the teen as Hisaye tried to sit up a little. "Y-you're alive! The doctors...t-hey tried to r-revive you! B-but you...you wouldn't c-ome back!"
The 8 year old began to sob, "t-they thought y-you were dead!"
"...It's ok, Giichi, I'm right here. There's no need to cry..." Hisaye replied softly, watching the kid. There seemed to be shuffling outside her door or something. Hisaye looked up at the door with a questioning look. Who else was here?
Shi-is she dead!? Yin thought in panic, she had just heard from the doctor's that Hisaye had flat lined again and they hadn't been able to revive her. Was she really dead? The woman now stood at the door, not sure if Ryuuzaki was behind her or not. The woman had let go of him after getting past the doctor's to get to Hisaye's room. She opened the door and peeked in, hearing the monitor that beeped.
"Hisaye...?" She opened the door further, watching the woman...who was alive! "Hisaye! You're alive!"
He could forgive being pulled along by the wrist even though he found it rather annoying. When he had first seen her panic he had also done so himself inwardly. He had just found out about Hisaye, would he really lose her already too? The fact that Kira was dead already made him wonder if it would be this simple, would another Kira suddenly come from no where like the last time he had thought it was going to be over? He had taken Lawliet with him? Perhaps this was an accident, or perhaps it was something aimed to hurt Hisaye for good. His mind was moving in a rapid blur, all the events were almost too much for one man to take in himself. Luckily however this one man was L, someone who could probably out think a computer if he tried, or so many could believe. Flat lining? Had he truly lost her? From what he was being told she didn't seem like she was in stable enough condition to have any hope of her survival. Things were looking pretty grim in his mind, horrible enough to make him feel the type of hate that could drive someone to use the Death Note.
Upon arrival she would lead him towards the proper place in a hurry, it seemed she was rushing him there because she was thinking perhaps the same as he. They would get to an elevator; up it would go towards the ICU ward. Once there the doors would open with a muffled ding sound. As they moved towards the door it seemed that it was closed, a sign that she was perhaps okay for the moment. If it were wide open for doctors and nurses to come in and out then they would have had a real cause to panic over. L would pull his wrist free of her grasp and place his hands in his pockets, he felt a little uncomfortable not knowing how he should act, what he should say. Would he be able to offer her some measure of comfort? Or would his horrible social skills shine through and make her hate him even more then he already figured she did. Even with that hug earlier he could tell she was holding some repressed emotions; she seemed to want to explode towards him.
Slowly he opened the door, peeking in with a sort of timid look before coming in all the way. Slowly he would walk over to one of the chairs and pull it up along side of her bed and sit down in his usual fashion. His eyes would look at hers, not sure of what to say just yet so he would just sit and stare for a bit. Ten minutes passed before he was finally able to ask. "What happened? Why didn't Kira use the Death Note?" L asked, seemingly a little harsh. He inwardly beat himself over the head. He had not even asked her if she was okay first, he had simply jumped right down her throat about business. "One thing at a time." he said slowly as he made amends in his own special way. "Are you going to be alright?" he asked as he removed a lollipop from his pocket and unwrapped it. This time he was slightly more nervous then anything. He would place it upon his tongue gingerly and scratch his foot.
"Giichi, you're laying on where I got shot," Hisaye coughed, "it really hurts, you know."
"S-sorry Hisaye..." Giichi let go of the teenager, retreating back into her seat fully. She gazed down at the ground, frowning. She was pretty depressed over losing her friend...now it would only be she and Hisaye, wouldn't it? She heard the door open and looked that way, seeing Ryuuzaki poke his head in. She watched the man, blinking warily. But she remained in complete silence, wondering what she could learn. Hisaye had never answered if the two were related or not...
Hisaye forced herself to raise to where she was pretty much sitting up. But she was also a bit laid down, too. It was too painful to fully sit up, she realizes. The woman bit her lip as she had risen herself, feeling pain where she had been shot. Wow, did getting shot hurt! She had never been shot before in her 16 years of living. This was something that was new, and she was actually…sorta interested. She never wanted it to happen again...but now she could tell her kids this story! If she had any kids, that was. She had Giichi, but only as an adopted child. Her eyes shifted to the door as L poked his head in. Her eyes grew slightly warm and she smiled a bit. Hopefully she hadn't worried the man to death. Or had he been worried at all? She wondered this, well, he was here now...But she didn't know him. Who knew...?
He took a seat beside her bed, and Hisaye watched him curiously. His question made her blink, and she was about to respond. But he had decided to ask another question first. It was if she was alright, and her smile remained.
"Well...after being confirmed dead by the hospital for about a minute now and suddenly being alive again...I think I'll be ok."
She gave a small and short chuckle, "...I..."
She had begun to tell him about mom, but she stopped herself. The woman shook her head, not right now. In a few moments when she got Giichi to leave.
"He did...sort of. But, not against Lawliet-kun or me. I don't have a name for him to kill me with...but his Death Note was what killed him..."
A soft frown crossed her lips, "Fumito had no intentions of becoming "God" of this world. It was all a game...just to see how far he could take it..."
She gave a soft and slightly depressed sigh, and then her eyes shifted to Giichi. They remained there for a moment, and then flicked back to L.
"I have something I wish to share with you..."
