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--------1 year later BPOV ( Bella)

"Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday to you

Happy Birthday dear Tiffany and Caleb

Happy Birthday to you!"

Both Edward ad I leaned towards our darling children's cake to help them blow out there first birthday candles. The year had gone by so quickly even by vampire standards. Tiffany and Caleb are very sweet children I love being around them; being a mother is something I never dreamt possible. Living with infants and watching them grow and learn is thrilling they surprise us with each garbled word.

I will never be able to pay my dear brother Charles back for the gift he has bestowed upon me. Hearing my voice aloud is an oddity after so long with silent conversations, sometimes I forget my ability to verbally communicate and start talking with my mind again. Looking across the table at the happy couple I couldn't be more thrilled that one of my oldest friends and my 'brother' have found happiness together; Angela and Charles are the perfect couple more so than almost any other I have yet to meet human, werewolf, or vampire. They are looking at my angels with such adoration I cant help but slip into my old habit.

You know there are several children in the orphanage that would be thrilled to have you two as parents.

Bella!, we aren't ready for parenthood yet. Angela practically yelled with embarrassment.

Well when you are they will be waiting.

She shook her head snuggling closer to Charles.

"Bella, can I borrow Tiffany for a moment I want to show her one of her new presents."

"Sure, Alice have fun."

I handed my little sweetie over, then Alice danced away. A firm set of arms wrapped securely around me.

"You do know she won't give you Tiffany back until all of the presents are open, don't you love?"

"There is no use fighting her Edward she always wins."

"Who did you give Caleb to?"
"Esme wanted to hold him."

As he finished his sentence my body went limp; emotions surrounded me overpowering my senses.

Jasper…

I'm here Bella lets get you out of here.

OK hurry…

My mind slowly slipped into oblivion if I were human I would be unconscious. Jasper is the only person that can help me when I am in this state; we believe after my emotions being kept in check for such a long time I would experience many overpowering moments like this for a very, very long time. I could feel Jasper attempting to take the edge off of my overcharged emotions. I have two types of 'attacks' the one like I am having now overpowering emotions, and the opposite I lapse back into a state of complete isolation with no feelings. Keeping an even balance is very hard. My diet does not help any, I have to drink human blood every day or I will die. The first time I tried to do my job with my emotions was the most challenging…(flashback)

"Please Dr. Marie I don't want to live with my death date hanging over my head, nor do I want to be a vampire. Please end my life now."

"Are you sure Tim, I can give you a painless year to be with your family."

"When I traveled here I said my goodbyes."

"Are you sure?" I really didn't want to end this mans life when I could dive him more time.

"Yes"

I bowed my head over his fragile neck.

"As you wish.", and bit.

When I was through I became hysterical. Why did I have to end human lives, why cant I be a normal vampire. Jasper manage to calm me down before I lost complete control, and took me home to my children. (End flashback)

After the first incident I learned to slip back into my emotionless state while feeding.

If it weren't for my children husband and family I wouldn't be able to hod onto my emotions and I do believe if I were ever to let them leave again they would die for an eternity.

For my children and my family I hold on for dear life. Once I again regained control I thanked Jasper for his help and returned to the party, my little darlings were getting sleepy so Edward and I put them down for a nap singing them to sleep.

"Go to sleep, go to sleep, go to sleep little darlings…"

Edward tuned to me after there little eyes slowly closed and pulled me into a passionate kiss, so very similar to the one we shared every day.

"Oh, Bella you've made me the happiest vampire in the world."

"Edward you are my world, and I don't think we could get any cornier if we tried." he chuckled softy in my ear.

"I have to agree with you there. How did I get so lucky to have you by my side, helping to raise these wonderful children."

"You stayed by me for everything Edward, and that more than I could ever ask for. I love you. Now lets go enjoy the party while these two nap."

Life though still bumpy is unbelievably sweet.


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