Dear diary,
Sorry it's been awhile but I've been so busy but I have to lets someone know about this.
Oh my gosh, you will never believe what I over heard today when walking into Resus! Dan and Jack were talking about Dan's up coming bucks night when mike asked Steve what he thought.
Just then I walked in and heard Steve saying, "The only bucks nights I've ever been excited about was my own" Dan was surprised, and said he didn't know he was married when Steve replied "no, I didn't even get around to proposing, I stuffed things up before that."
Well I was shocked, to say the least. I told them theater was ready for them, and in the process made my presence known to Steve. He looked like he had seen a ghost, well I didn't know whether to smile, or frown, or look surprised or angry, so I settled for an expressionless face.
What should I do? What should I say? Should I forgive him for the errors in the past and make amends? Should I pretend I never heard anything?
I don't know, I want to forgive him and my heart is all for it but my head is telling me to stop before I get hurt again. Who should I follow? My heart or my head?
I've got to go and do my rounds now as I am actually sitting in the tearoom of the ED. I'll write more when I have a chance and have come up with a decision.
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Hi it's me again.
I've decided I'm going to be friends with Steve and give him a second chance at friendship. I yearn for more but it is to soon to forgive him. The pain and heartache would be too much and I never want to go through that all over again.
I know this is short but I have to finish my paper work and stupid admin crap before tomorrow so unfortunately that doesn't leave me much time to pour my heart out to you, my paper-friend.
More soon – I promise
