Dear diary
Dear diary
You would not believe what happened today.
Well this guy was brought in after being run over by a tractor. He was a hobby farmer and used a fertilizer which contained phosphate (although we didn't know that at the time) and Steve was fixing him up and all of a sudden collapsed. I ran straight over to him and my heart stopped cause I didn't know what was wrong and I was thinking the worst.
I never thought that it would worry me as much as it did. Yeah of course I'm going to feel terrible if anything happened to any of my colleagues but I didn't think that it would affect me as much as it did, seeing him unconscious on the ground.
Frank got him into a bed and he opened his eyes. I don't think I've ever been as relieved to see someone awake as I was at that moment.
I think I love him.
Oh stop that Gabi.
Anyway, my first thought was that he was drinking again, all the symptoms were right, and I couldn't trust him.
He was pressuring me to let him get back to work so I let him stand up and try to walk, but he just collapsed again. After that he agreed to stay in the bed. A few minutes later Mike also collapsed and he was treating the same patient.
Turns out the phosphate in the fertilizer were poisoning them, Steve more so than Mike. I was relieved when frank told me that because it ment that Steve hadn't been drinking again.
Later in the day Steve was pretty much 100 so I told him he could go home and take a shower. He sat up, but that fell back down onto the bed again. Then he said, "you know what Gabi, I'm not really 100. A sponge bath would be nice". My instincts kicked in before my brain did so I stupidly replied "yeah, sure" the look on his face was as though he had won a million dollars.
What was I thinking, I had to cover up really quickly so I told him I'd go and get Dan to give him a sponge bath. I can't believe I was stupid enough to speak before thinking. Maybe next time I won't be so lucky to be able to cover it so well. Anyway I'll think about that when it comes.
Confusing day, but I realized a lot of things.
Yourself,
Gabi
