Some notes and thoughts: ^_^ my exams aren't really over yet. I have a MAJOR one next Monday *sigh*, but I just have to update before it. I'm now on quite a steady schedule, an update about weekly! ^_^ yeah I'm so proud of myself.
Well, I wanted to write that Draco has admitted he had feelings for Hermione, but he DOES NOT love Hermione whatsoever. I think that would be too fast…
Well I thought it would be fun to see how Hermione and Draco's relationship can actually progress and how everybody would react to it. Usually, H/D fics end when one of them admit their feelings, and I wanted to experiment with how their feelings can develop.
I do think Hermione is the blur one in the relationship. ^_^
Oh, and one last note, this fic is about 60% completed. Like yeah yeah yeah! I'm so happy… not to end it, but to actually see it completed. I'm gonna feel so… contented. Well, I really couldn't find a word to describe the feeling ^_^……
After this fic, I will either write another H/D fic *I got this amazing funny idea*, this time Draco is going to be truly evil and horrible. I want to take him to the limits, but still keep his sarcasm intact. I don't like bitter people. ^_^
Or, I will write this kinda cute idea I have about a love triangle. *GROAN* I know love triangles suck, but I thought it would be really interesting as I wanted to experiment with the relationships of Harry, Hermione and Draco. But I hate angst and I will so not go into melodrama. Kill me if I do. I want to try to make it different… cos I think Harry is so sweet, Draco is so evil (yet adorable) and I would love to see Hermione try to choose…
Well that's it! Enough of my blabbering thoughts…
Hope you like this VERY VERY LONG chapter. No cliffhanger ending!!! Just full of FLUFFx100!
Chapter 14: Liar Liar, Pants on fire!!!
"Don't you see?" Draco put his hands on my head and shook it furiously.
"I have fallen for you, stupid mudblood!"
"Are you ok?" Draco frowned slightly.
I tried to reply, but my mouth would not open. I couldn't breathe, somehow my nostrils had closed. I didn't want to look at Draco, but my eyes would not turn away.
Most importantly, I did not want to hear what I was hearing from Draco. But my ears… they wouldn't listen (to me).
"Answer me." Draco said worried, yet somewhat agitated.
"I don't know what to say." I managed to squeak.
Say you like me too.
I looked at Hermione, and I felt a stabbing pain in my heart.
Until those (dreadful) words came out of my mouth, I, myself, didn't even know of my feelings for Hermione.
But now I knew.
And the knowledge was excruciating.
"Forget it." I turned away.
"Just forget what I just said." I said icily.
Hermione pulled me back. Her face was red and irate.
"Don't you dare do that to me! You can't just say you like me, then take it back!" Hermione cried angrily.
"Well, then what do you want me to do?" I cried back furiously. "Beg you to like me too?"
"No!" Hermione shook her head. "I don't want you to like me."
"Ok, fine. I wouldn't."
Hermione sighed. "But you do."
This time, she sighed deeper. "And the worse thing is… I think I do too."
All of a sudden, the stabbing stopped.
"You like me?" I said, somewhat unsure, yet excited at the thought of it.
Hermione winced. "I don't know. But I got jealous… when I thought of you and Coco."
Somehow without my control, the tips of my mouth began to edge up.
"Don't smirk at me!" Hermione gave my left shoulder a punch. "I knew you would react this way! Ugh… I shouldn't have said anything."
"I'm not smirking."
Yet when I said that, I knew I was smirking.
Hermione gave me a "haha, very funny" look, and then she sighed. "What are we going to do?"
"What can we do?" I shrugged.
"Well, maybe because we found out early, we can still stem out all the feelings we have for each other… before it's too late." Hermione said hopefully.
"Well, good luck to you."
Hermione frowned. "What do you mean, good luck to me? Mister!"
I smiled. "Well, it is a known fact that once you fall in love with a Malfoy, you never stop."
Hermione gave me another punch. "How about you? You actually admit to having feelings for me! A mudblood!"
I cringed slightly. "Well, I don't know… but when I look at you, I don't see Hermione, perfect student, mudblood. I just see, Hermione, Hermione, Hermione. Do you get what I mean?"
Hermione gave a small smile. "I can't believe you like me."
I groaned. "Stop rubbing it in. It's probably just a phase."
Hermione laughed. "Well that means I'm going through the famous, fall in love with your sworn enemy phase now… sort of like Juliet."
"Juliet?" I arched my eyebrow.
Hermione nodded. "She's in one the most romantic plays of all time, Romeo and Juliet. It's muggle literature… but definitely better than those weird books you usually read. Maybe I can get Aunt Jane to send me my copy of it and I can lend it to you."
For a moment, I was offended.
"Weird books? Those books are classic literature!" I fumed.
Hermione laughed. "Oh right, 10 ways to world domination is definite classic material."
"That is a good book, ok!" I said indignantly. "It teaches you all the basics to oppressing weak beings."
Hermione rolled her eyes. "Yup, that is one quality every person should have in life."
I sighed. "I can't believe I actually have feelings for you."
Hermione smiled. "That makes two of us."
Draco was silent for awhile.
All he did was stare at me.
It was very disconcerting.
I didn't know whether I should stare back at him, or well… slap him.
Perhaps my lack of action was because… I was just too overwhelmed.
For one, Draco admitted that he had feelings for me.
That reason alone would probably put me in coma for three days.
Then worse, I hit upon the realisation that I actually had feelings for him too.
That reason would ensure I would be beaten up by Harry and Ron, disown and abandoned for the rest of my life.
I guess the whole thing had not really hit me.
Draco likes me! Draco likes me!
That silly thought did echo in my head for awhile.
But still, I had a sinking feeling.
Like, this was not true.
This was not real.
This would definitely not last.
"Draco, stop staring at me." I laughed.
"I was just thinking." Draco said, looking away from me. "That what just happened between us… would probably change everything."
"Well, it does. You don't exactly fall for your enemy everyday."
"Yeah, but I can't help wondering. Is our hearts playing a trick on us? Because I like you, yet I hate you." Draco smiled sardonically.
I nodded. "I feel the exact same way. Nobody annoys me the way you do. Nobody can make me mad the way you do. Yet, nobody makes me laugh the way you do. You are the person I hate the most. You are the person I…"
Draco's smile widened. "Continue…"
"I can't." I shook my head, smiling. "I don't know the answer to that yet."
"So where do we go from here?" Draco asked, arching his head towards me. "Jump off a cliff?"
I grinned. "You wouldn't believe it, but I think that describes the situation we are in exactly."
Draco's eyes widened. "It does? Well, liking each other is a bit like suicide."
"No… what I mean it, perhaps we have been struggling on a cliff for a long time. We could be hanging on to the perch of the cliff, struggling to climb up. But we can't. We want to pretend that we don't like each other, and for awhile it worked. We didn't fall into oblivion, but neither did we manage to climb up from the cliff… to safety. Then now, we decided… what the heck. We let go of the perch. We didn't want to struggle with our feelings anymore… we just let go. And now we are just falling… we don't know where we land… a river? Rocks? Would we die? Would we survive? It's dangerous… yet so exciting." I said in one big gush.
Draco smiled. "Not bad, Granger."
"So where do you think we will land?" Draco asked.
I sighed. "Only god knows."
Then we smiled at each other.
"But let's enjoy the freefall while it lasts."
That night, I slept peacefully.
I didn't dream of Draco.
Thank God.
All I dreamt was me flying freely with a pair of wings.
It didn't matter that I knew that Draco and I was like mixing oil and water.
It didn't matter that I knew Draco could not possibly really like me.
All that mattered, was that I was happy.
And I was, truly.
"Good morning." Draco smiled.
"Yeah, same to you." I yawned.
"Dream of me last night?" Draco grinned.
"Thankfully, no." I smiled. "Dealing with you when I'm awake is bad enough."
Draco arched his eyebrow at me. "I don't know how you manage to lie with a straight face."
"You want to know how?" I smiled sweetly.
"Tell the truth."
Draco and I talked and treated each other like normal.
Which was good – very good.
I don't know how I would react to anymore changes.
So it was as if by secret agreement, that our new relationship would be a secret.
"I wonder what they are doing." I told Draco.
There was a group of students crowding round one of the tables in the Grand Hall.
Draco and I walked towards the table and I was surprised to see Lavendar fidgeting with a metal gadget.
"Hey, Hermione and Draco." Lavendar grinned. "We are playing with this new gadget I got. It's a lie detector and can tell, obviously, whether somebody lies. Come and join us."
I shook my head. "No thanks."
I didn't want Lavendar digging into my head and prying into my deepest secrets.
"Oh come on." Pansy appeared out of nowhere and grabbed my hand.
She pressed my finger on one of the buttons of the gadget. "It turns blue when you are speaking the truth," Pansy smiled wickedly. "And red when you are not."
"Let go of me." I cried and struggled.
But Pansy was surprisingly strong.
I looked at Draco for help.
But all he did was look incredibly happy at my predicament.
Lavendar paused. "Now what should we ask Hermione? Does she cheat on her assignments? How the hell does she get such good grades?"
I rolled my eyes. "Studying, duh!"
"It's blue." Pansy said disappointedly.
"Well good. Let me go now." I said.
"Wait!" A voice suddenly broke out. "Ask her if she's in love with anyone."
My cheeks flushed as Lavendar smiled. "Yeah. Hermione the bookworm, are you in love with anyone."
"No! NO! NOOOO!" I cried heatedly.
Pansy grinned maliciously. "Naughty! The button is flashing BRIGHT RED! You liar!"
I groaned as I glared at the origin of the voice.
He mouthed, "So much for telling the truth."
Who else could it be?
But the demon spawn himself, Draco.
This chapter is the longest chapter so far for this fic!
I wanted to end it earlier, but I decided to add the end cos I liked it. ^_^
I would like to dedicate this chapter to:
Befuzzled- thank you so much! Elluxion – wow! That's such a nice compliment. I try to make Hermione less boring and starchy, because I find her very intelligent. Lana-la-banana – awesome idea!!! ^_^ ooh… love potion… Ezmerelda- no thank you for reading!!! Haha, I was also surprised that Draco would tell her. But I just felt so strongly at that moment that he would, so he did. ^_^ Slytherin 5 – you are always so sweet! Yes, I admit it. I'm truly evil! Chocolat Elf – haha! I always love your funny comments! I'm sorry but Tom is not mine to give, sadly! Ghost of the Robot - ^_^ hey I totally agree! PotterzGirl – thank you so much! You always give such sweet comments! Carmen – thank you! Amy – honestly, you are too kind! Dawniky – luckier than me! ^_^ haha, I wonder how Harry will react. Not good I think. ^_^ RockerFreak – thank you! ^_^ hpdancer92 – thank you so much! That's a really nice compliment. It's my second fave chapter! Pampers – thank you! ^_^ I was hesitant about the last part at first. Snowbear – really you are too too generous. I'm no way near great, but I try to improve!!! ^_^ thank you! Stormy Phoenix – they do kiss!!! I have it all pictured in my head, I hope when you read it you will like it too! Eris wannabe – I'm so sorry! Here's the next chapter! Venuz725 – aww thank you so much! ^_^ I so glad that you don't hate my fic!!! God bless you too. Pookyber – haha! Mean, that's me! Leika Senara – here's the next chapter! Please don't kill me… ^_^ I'm scared of pain… JMS – well I add you now! ^_^ Fire Soul – thank you so much! You have always been supporting my story! ^_^ Hermione Granger – I will check out your story when my exams are over! ^_^ roswellbfan – thank you so much! ^_^ I like Ron. I don't know why… he reminds me of Chandler in Friends. ^_^ hinkypunk – thanks so much! Vegetarianxtc – aww! Your comment is really so sweet, really motivates me to write more. I'm so glad you like it! Kriss – thank you! ^_^ And thank you for always supporting this story! Rei-chan – haha! You are so witty and funny. Thank you for supporting this story for such a long time! Lauz – hey thanks! ^_^ I agree, they deserve each other! Indil Elondili – thanks! I will try to improve! Hope this chapter ties up the loose ends…Wrym – lol! Thanks! MagicalRoses – if you would like, I could send you the statue of the venus chapter. ^_^ Gandella Raye – hey! Thanks! Yeah!! I made you chuckle! FairyFloss – you are totally welcome!firequeen14 – I hope you like this too! Elijahsbaby81 – haha you do not sound cheesy! Starfire – hey thanks so much! But I'm no where the best, but I will constantly try to improve! ^_^ Elle-poohbear – haha! Hermione is not as mature as Draco I guess… Miss Cassi – haha! I named chapter 8 I'm a weed on impulse!! Thanks so much, I'm glad you didn't hate it. Wikid Witch – is this fast enough? ^_^ Agelisa Snape – haha! You are so funny! Hope you like this chapter. Sharon – hope this is fast enough! Magical Soul – hey thanks for the inspiration! God knows how much I need it! Tina – you are too too kind! PassionPolice237 - ^_^ thanks! I'm glad you like it! I was afraid it was too sudden… and sakura08 - ^_^ aww thanks so much!
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