Notes: Yeah, I have updated! I'm now going to do an update at least every week. (I try my best.) Especially, now that's it's the holidays! Cos, I feel with each chapter, we are nearer to the wonderful finale! Yippee!
I can't believe it's chapter 15, can you? This chapter is fluff, fluff and more fluff. Well, to me it's fluff. No cliffhangers. Honestly, this story is getting dull. ^_^ Anyway, I'm writing this chapter in this way as a sort of "prelude" to Draco's feelings. I'm trying my best, so bear with me.
Also, I have decided not to write a Harry, Hermione, Draco love triangle. Too emotionally stressful! I'm just a plain ol Hermione and Draco shipper! ^_^ Thanks to Rei-Chan, for recommending me a good H/H/D fic! I'm so busy, I only managed to read one chapter. It's really good though!
I very curious to see the response to this chapter because I experimented with it a little… I don't really like this chapter much, I like it but less than the previous chapter… at first I wanted to write it TOTALLY in Draco's POV. Sadly, I didn't but I think Chapter 17 will be totally Draco's POV. A total Draco chapter!
Ok, I should stop my ramblings.
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Hope you like this ultra weird chapter…
Chapter 15: The Day
Although she didn't know, slowly, step by step she was tormenting me. Killing me ever so softly, yet ever so effectively.
Her every smile (don't get that a lot though), her every frown, her every laugh, even her every snort......
She was taking over my brain, my heart, my body, my life.
She was made me lose control of myself.
And lose myself in an ocean of her.
She mustered all kinds of feelings in me, mostly extreme.
I liked her. I hated her.
I don't want to live with her. I can't imagine my life without her.
And all these she didn't know.
She looked so happy, so carefree.
I couldn't stand it.
I didn't want her to be happy without me.
She looked so sad, so fragile.
I couldn't bear it.
I didn't want her to be hurt.
I wish I could control her, her every movement, her every thought.
All these scared me.
Because if I could do all these, she would cease to be her.
I realize then, I was the biggest harm to her.
I could make or break her.
Choices, choices……
I look at her now, she's glaring at me – fiercely.
She can't believe I actually dared to ask her if she loved anybody.
She looks at me now, as if I didn't already knew the answer.
She loved me?
The answer was tempting.
I gave her one of my usual smirks.
It's so sad, she would never know.
Know that with her every moment, she was hurting me.
Yet, it was because of all this, all this torment, that made me feel happy.
I'm sick, I'm crazy……
I'm in love.
Now how am I going to get out of it?
"Oh my god, it's Ron isn't it?" Lavendar cooed.
Pansy smiled triumphantly. "I knew it! I knew it!"
I took in a deep breath. "RON IS LIKE MY BROTHER!!! AND HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND!"
Lavendar frowned as she saw the button was blue. "Well, you don't have to shout."
"I have enough of this." I struggled with Pansy.
Seriously, where does the girl gets her strength?
"Oh, don't tell me it's Harry? I heard you two are going to the dance together." Pansy nudged me.
"It's not Harry, Neville, Seamus, Fred, George, David, Arnold, it's not anybody ok!" I fumed as I pinched Pansy.
She let me go. Finally.
Pansy paused for a moment. Then she looked at me strangely. "You mean it's a girl?"
I rolled my eyes. "Pansy! I'm not going to answer that! That's just plain silly."
With that, I struggled my way through the crowd again towards the smirking Draco.
Lavendar and Pansy shared a glance.
"It couldn't be…" Lavendar began, looking at Draco then at Pansy.
"Could it?" Pansy finished.
For a moment, they were silent… even sullen.
Then they laughed. "Ha, that would be the day!"
"Ah, my knight in shining armor." I smiled at Draco sweetly.
"You were so brave and valiant in rescuing me."
Draco laughed. "You mean just because I semi-like you, I'm not allowed to gloat in your misery any longer?"
I shook my head at Draco. "Honestly, you are a very conflicted person."
Draco nodded his head quietly. "Trust me, I know."
I arched my eyebrow at Draco. "Emotional turmoil?"
"Honestly, I hate emotional turmoil, it kills your insides slowly."
Draco paused for a moment. "Not really emotional turmoil, more of a the world sucks kind of feeling. It's fleeting."
I punched Draco lightly on his left shoulder. "Honestly, that was a very dumb thing to do. Not everybody is as dumb as you think."
"Most are dumber." Draco smiled.
"Yeah, but imagine if people find out we actually stop hating each other. So many people would need therapy. And imagine the lives lost due to heart attack." I laughed, and then stopped. "But seriously, not to be arrogant or anything, I think it would impact many people."
"Oh yeah, don't forget my rabid fans." Draco smirked.
He really seems to be enjoying all of these.
"You really are a very conflicted person." I shook my head before leaving for the Gryffindor table.
"Oh, Hermione! Great, you are here, now you can help me decide!" Ron grinned at me gleefully.
"Decide on what? What socks to wear tomorrow?" I said as I sat down.
"No, on Alena's corsage!" Ron frowned.
"Oh, so we finally get to know her name." I smiled and nudged Harry.
Ron blushed. "Come on guys, be serious! I want everything to be perfect."
I nodded. "But how are you going to buy a corsage anyway?"
Ron stared at me, eyes wide open. "You mean you don't know?"
I looked at Harry. "You mean I'm supposed to know something?"
Harry nodded. "Yeah, a supplier is coming to Hogwarts in a day or two, his taking orders for corsages, tuxedos, gowns, you know the works."
"Yeah, and half the profit goes to charity." Ron added helpfully.
I nodded. "Hmm… I don't know, what flower does she likes?"
Ron rolled his eyes at me. "Seriously, Hermione, if I knew, would I be in this fix?"
"Ok." I cried. "I'm just starting, give me a chance. I'm not exactly a corsage expert."
"I mean, when people think corsage, they don't think Hermione!"
"Maybe roses, girls like roses." Harry said as he played with his bacon.
"I like lilies, white lilies." I said to Ron.
Harry looked at me. "You don't expect me to get you a corsage, or do you?"
Oh, right… about the dance thing.
Now, how am I going to tell Harry, I can't go to the dance with him because I have sort of fallen with his mortal enemy?
There was no way to tell him, without getting myself killed.
I shook my head. "Of course not."
Ron waved his hand in front of Harry and me. "Concentrate guys!"
I shrugged. "Ask Alena what's her favourite colour and work from there."
Ron paused for a moment then nodded. "I guess so."
Ron went back to eating his fried eggs.
"Umm… Harry… about the dance…" I nervously began.
"Yeah?" Harry lifted his head.
"Is it just me or does the bacon taste weird?" Harry frowned.
"Umm… Harry maybe we shouldn't go to the dance together. Ooh… yeah I agree, this bacon is weird." I said in one gush, then turned to Ron. "So, you really like Alena don't you?"
Harry frowned. "Wait. What did you just say?"
"Well, I don't think it would be the best idea to go to the dance together." I said looking down at my plate.
"Why?" Harry asked confused.
"Well, I'm still stuck with Draco and I don't think you would like to hang with Draco." I said truthfully.
"But we can't leave you alone with that jerk, while he dances with some airhead!" Harry said indignantly.
Oh, why is Harry such a good friend?
"Well, we made a truce and Draco wouldn't have a date too. So we would be basically just sulking in a corner, and I don't want you to wallow in misery too." I said eagerly.
Hey, I sounded so convincing! If I was Harry, I would probably be nodding my head in agreement by now.
But, nooooo….
I wasn't Harry.
"NO WAY! I can't leave you in the lurch! I shall be with you at the dance at every moment! I can't let you suffer in silence with Draco! It's enough you have to spend all your free time with Draco!" Harry said shaking with anger.
"Umm… Harry, there's really no need…"
Harry put his hand up. "The decision has been made. Honestly, Hermione you are too kind, always putting others before you."
God, that made me feel so remorseful.
Ron lifted his head up suddenly. "So guys, do you think I should rent a tuxedo?"
"Why, aren't you a bundle of sunshine." Draco said wryly as we walked to the torture chamber.
I had spent the whole day trying to convince Harry, it was a horrible idea to go to the dance with me… to obviously, no avail.
I was seriously quite depressed.
For one, I had a wonderful best friend, who would do anything for me, even spend time with his enemy so I wouldn't be alone. And yet, I was hiding a big secret from him.
Like, how Draco wasn't my enemy any longer. Not at all.
Number two, Ron. I didn't know why but Ron depressed me. Perhaps it was because his relationship with Alena was going so smoothly, and I envied him. I wished Draco and I could be normal…
But seriously, I'm really very very happy for Ron and I wish him the best.
Number three, Draco. I didn't know how to tell him our date for the dance is going to be a threesome.
Needless to say, I don't plan on telling him till…
Well, the dance.
I don't want him to go break Harry's leg or anything.
Come on, you never know! This is Draco we are talking about here!
"Yeah, I know I'm always happy. Lalalalalala." I said dully.
"What's the matter? You have been grouchy all day. Grouchier than usual." Draco said as we sat down at the table.
"Nothing, really. Just being a female." I smiled then looked curiously at what Draco was holding.
It was a sort of pamphlet, printed on very high quality ivory paper in violet ink.
"No book today?" I faked disappointment.
"Well, I read all the books already. That's why I'm ordering new ones." Draco said as he spread out the pamphlet.
I looked at the heading, and laughed.
"Excellent Value In Literature Publishing." I smiled. "Hey, I should have known you ordered books from E.V.I.L Publishing."
"They are highly esteemed." Draco looked pointedly at me.
"At first, I thought of letting you order some books too, but seeing your attitude, I have changed my mind." Draco said icily.
I laughed. "Oh come on, let me see."
I got up from my seat and stood behind Draco.
"Oh my god, look at their couple package." I gasped.
"For Her: A guide to poisoning him without leaving a trace. For He: A guide on having affairs without being found out. Divorce lawyer not included." I smiled. "Did your dad order that?"
Draco smiled. "He bought a set for me."
I smiled as I looked at the other side of the pamphlet.
This is going to be fun.
