Hey Guys!!
Wanna know what's freakishly ironic?
I wrote this when I was on a break at an acting class I was in!0.o
Well on with the story!
Diary POV
Oct 20th 2003 12:57 P.M.
Hi! I guess it's actually October 21st but oh well.
Sorry I haven't written in a while.
I've been really busy because I just started grade 8 science and math.
(I'm home schooled and I'm a couple grades ahead)
So ya not much has happened with me and Shane.
Oh I forgot to write the lyrics for the song Shane,Nate,And Jason wrote!
So here they are it's called:
"You Just Don't Know It"
You just don't know it It's getting hard to say hello You just don't know it I'm on the edge of crossing
the line I don't want to blow it, or show it Before you know you're mine You just don't know it
Oh, you won't see me break Won't make that mistake Oh no I'll just walk away There too much at stake
right now I go on and on Singing this song about you And that's what's wrong with this song
Can you feel it? In the way I look at you Girl, can you hear it? I'm crying out inside I don't want to
see you Be near you You're a million miles too close
Oh, you won't see me break Won't make that mistake Oh no I'll just walk away There too much at stake
right now I go on and on Singing this song about you And that's what's wrong with this song
You don't know the way I feel So I'll stay alone
Oh, you won't see me break Won't make that mistake Oh no I'll just walk away There too much at stake
right now I go on and on Singing this song about you And that's what's wrong with this song
I wonder who it's about?
Anyway I'm really tired to I'll write tomorrow after acting class!!
Goodnight!
Oct 21st 2003 7:32 P.M.
Hi! you guessed it break again!
Well not much has happened so far except I found out about this thing called
Advanced Performance Company or APCo.
It's here at the acting school and it's an advanced class that you have to audition to get into.
The auditions aren't until June so I might audition although I probably wouldn't get in.
well I'm gonna go.
Bye!!
Mitchie's POV
As I looked up from my diary I saw Lily coming towards me with a horrified look on her face
"What's wrong Lily?"
"Miley just told me that Shane said he likes me"
At that very second my heart shattered into a million pieces.
How could he like her??
Well I couldn't let Lily see me cry.
Then she would know I like him and let's just say she's not exactly the best secret keeper in the world.
"I-I'm sorry Lilz I have to uh..go"
I ran away I was running for the girls room when I ran into something.
I looked up..it was Shane.
The very reason my heart was in a million pieces..but I couldn't stop loving him.
Yes LOVED!
I had realized that I loved him when I felt as if I couldn't breathe when Lily told me he liked her.
"Mitchikinz what's wrong?"
The caring look in his eyes just made me cry harder.
I had to get out of there.
But just as I started to walk away he grabbed my wrists.
Not hard mind you but hard enough that I wasn't going anywhere.
"Mitchie what's wrong?" he said this time more firmly.
"Nothing Shane now let go!!"i said as more tears streamed down my face.
"Mitchie look me in the eyes and tell me nothing is wrong"
Crap...he would be able to see right through me.
I had only known him for a few months but somehow he knew me better then I knew myself.
"I-I can't Shane...I can't"
I didn't know if I should fall into his arms or pull away from them.
So I did what my heart told me...
I broke down fell into his arms and cried my eyes out.
After what seemed like hours Kate called us back in.
After class Shane came up to me and asked again what was wrong.
Luckily my mom walked in just as I was trying to think of an excuse.
"Michelle,sweetie! Let's go"GRR I told her not to call me that in public.
"Michelle?" Joe asked well slightly laughing.
"Shut up!"i said as I rolled my eyes. I hit him playfully and he grabbed me and pulled me into a hug.
"Don't be afraid to tell me the truth" he whispered as I pulled away from the hug.
I smiled as i looked in his amazing brown eyes.
"Thanks Shaneizzle" I said and then I left.
I couldn't ruin that friendship by telling him I like him...there was no way
As soon as I got home I started writing in my diary..
Diary POV
Oct. 21st 2004 10:42 P.M.
Hi..
Today I got the worst news ever!
Apparently Shane like Lily :(
It might be a rumor and I really hope it is because Shane means more then anything to me.
And I don't want them to date not only because then I can't go out with him but also he'll be spending all his time with her...i just really hope it's a rumor well I gotta go to bed so goodnight!
Oct 28th 2003 7:17 P.M.
"Don't be afraid to tell the truth"
"Don't be afraid to tell the truth"
Shane's words replayed over and over in my mind.
They meant more to me then he could ever know.
I mean I could tell him how I feel and he might feel the same but if I tell him and he doesn't feel the same it would be really hard to still be friends.
Oh and the second option is the more likely of the two since apparently he likes Lily.
Well I'm gonna go..bye!
Mitchie's POV
After I finished writing in my diary I saw Joe from across the room and decided to set the record straight once and for all but as I started walking towards him I noticed he was also walking... well more like running towards me.
"Mitchie!!"he called to me with a huge smile on his face.
"What's wrong Shane??"
"Nothing!! Lily said yes!! We're going out!!"
Well..there goes my rumor theory.
"T-that's great Shane..." but even though I was smiling on this outside inside my heart had been shattered again...why did that boy have that effect on me??
"I know!!"Shane said before he hugged me and suddenly his words came rushing back into my head.
"Shane...I've gotta tell you something"
"Sure anything Mitchikinz"
"I-I'm...I'm really happy for you and Lilz..." I couldn't do it
Darn my unusually shy personality.
"Thanks Mitchikinz".
Then Kate started calling us again so we went into class.
As soon as we came out from class into the lobby I saw something...and I saw something big.
The second I got home I ran to my diary
Diary POV
Oct 29th 2003 9:38 P.M.
O-M-FREAKING-G(osh)
I saw Lily kissing Nate!!
ok...I'm gonna calm down and start from the very beginning...a very good place to start.(A/N:People who understand get an IMAGINARY MUFFIN!!)
OK Shane and Lily ARE GOING OUT!
And when I came back out of class I saw Lily kissing Nate!!
Shane didn't see them..and I don't know what to do.
((Bling)) OK Shane just signed on to MSN messenger so I'll write later Bye!!
Mitchie's POV
DJDanja Says:Hey Mitchikinz!
Acting Queen Says:hey Shaneizzle
"Don't be afraid to tell the truth"
It's amazing how much that one phrase can mean.
DJDanja Says:Sup?
Acting Queen Says:Um..Shane can you call me?
DJDanja Says:Why?
DJDanja Says:What's Wrong
Acting Queen Says:Just Call
DJDanja Says:OK One Sec...
((You just don't know it it's getting hard to sa-))
(A/N:Bold Shane Underlined/italicizedMitchie)
"Hello?"
(Ya that's right I have a Sons of Jonas Ring tone!!)
"Hey Mitchie..what's wrong?"
"I've gotta tell you something"
"OK...?"
"L-Lily kissed Nate"
"What!? When??"
"Tonight After Class"
"Mitchie don't lie to me! Lily told me you liked me and you would do anything to break us up!"
"WHAT!? HOW DARE YOU ACUSE ME OF THAT??"
Then..i hung up on him.
It's strange how quickly you can go from loving someone with all your heart to hating them with a passion.
But the problem was...i wanted to hate him...but I couldn't!
I liked him so much it was impossible to feel anything except love.
I started crying when I thought about our amazing friendship...and how fast it ended.
I cried myself to sleep.
Let's just hope things get better in the morning..
So there is part 3 I hope you liked it!!
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