Chapter 11 Kyo's Story

What the hell just happened back there? I am never going to listen to that book again! I couldn't help but sit on the roof and think of my past actions. Why would I do that!? What the fuck is wrong with me?!!? The night breeze whizzed passed me and gave me no comfort. I don't regret almost achieving the impossible, but why now? I guess because she only has a short time to be saved and if I don't do something quick, the damned rat will win her over! I will NOT lose to Yuki! I will have Tohru again and protect her till the day I die! Damn it I'm such an idiot! Why didn't I just kiss her?! I mean that would have jogged some memory of our past relationship, wouldn't it? Why must love be so damn hard?
Climbing down the ladder, I enter the house and walk to my room where I lay in bed along with the book Aymer had given me. Returning to page 63, I fell asleep as soon as the girl told the boy her feelings.
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Next Morning

Grabbing a pair of jeans and a t-shirt, I threw myself down the staircase and headed for the backyard to practice some martial arts. It felt like a thousand years since I threw a punch at some stuffed dummy. Taking up a fighting stance, I threw a left hook at the air along with a right cross. Kicking as high as I possibly could, I span around and threw three jabs at my imaginary enemy. Thoughts of last night filled my blood to the point where it was just going to boil. Why damn it why?! Why can't I be like how I used to be and kiss her like this never happened?! Because I know that if I did kiss like nothing ever happened, she'd be so freaked out that I probably be sent to jail. But one harmless kiss isn't gonna- yes it will! A harmless kiss will lead into another and than another until something inside us will happen and all hope will be lost! Tohru, you my dear are a pain to obtain.

Filling the next hour and a half with kicks and jabs, I returned to the house to find Tohru sweeping and singing along to the CD player Shigure had given her yesterday. Damn her voice is so pretty. My heart thumped inside my chest loudly and even more sweat appeared on my forehead. Spinning in a circle, she looked so happy, dancing around like it were a musical number. Swaying her hips with the music, my feet took me over to her as I grabbed the broom and took her hands to start dancing along with her.

Turning to find me as her partner, a blush creped at her skin and her eyes moved to the floor, but never did she stop moving with the music. Her voice lowered a bit as she noticed that I wasn't going to leave her alone. She's probably thinking why am I doing this. Hell, I wonder that same thing, but in the book, the girl confessed to the boy she loved while they were dancing and I should start trying like Ayame says. Twirling her around the room, she let out a laugh and I smiled for what seemed like forever. Tohru really knows how to make me smile like a complete moron. Moving her closer to me, her voice starts to rise to its full beauty just before the song ends. Finishing up the song, slower music began to play. Looking up towards me, I slid my arms around her waist and rocked her back and forth. Hearing the woman on the CD begin to sing, she complete tunes it out and just focuses on me. Reaching the top of my neck, she gripped tightly as we slow danced to the lovely number. Removing one of her headphones, she began to hesitate.

"Kyo-kun," she turned away with a heavy blush across her cheeks." I-I"

My eyes widen as I await to hear words I haven't hear in what seems like a lifetime. My breathing came shorter and my heart pounded even harder against the bone in my chest. Biting down on my lip, she opened her mouth to say something.

"Oh," came a voice by the door. Yuki was dressed for teaching and his eyes were icy as he glared at Tohru and I.

Stepping what seems like a thousand feet away, Tohru dropped my hands and blushed dark red. The music continued loudly as Yuki's stare turned from Tohru to me. What the fuck is his deal? I mean I don't bitch to him when he gets to have Tohru all to his fucking self! But I'm not a bitch like him so that might explain things. Opening the door, he nodded his head once and walked out.

"I'm sorry if I got out of hand," I couldn't help but feel like the world just had it in for me. Whenever I try, it seems like I shouldn't even bother. But the difference between now and before is that Tohru reassured me that everything is still OK. If only she could reassure me now.

Opening her mouth slightly, the telephone rang off the hook. Rushing towards it with a blush, Tohru seemed happy as she spoke to the other person on the line. My body stood frozen as she whispered promises of coming out later in the day. Hanging up, she looked up at me as if shocked that I stood so still.

"A girl named Hana-Chan invited me to a hang out later in the day. I hope that I didn't inconivence you because I could always call her back," she bowed three times and stayed down for a little while.

Folding my arms across my chest, I sighed and looked the other way."Go for it, it's your life. Have some fun and don't think of cleaning for a change"

Tohru laughed lightheartedly and ran up the stairs to change. Why does this feel like we're teenagers again and that I haven't bucked up the courage to tell her my true feelings? Maybe because I honestly haven't. Pacing around the room, Shigure came into view and his brows stitched themselves together.

"What the hell do you want?" I turned my back on him and my voice was frosty with annoiness. God, trying to confess to her the first time was a bitch, but now it's just unbearable!

"You're such a confused young man, Kyo," he signed and his foot fall sounded like they were coming closer to me. Turning around, his eyes were hard are ice and he removed his glasses to start his speech.

"Why are you doing this Kyo? Can't you see that Tohru is obviously more interested in you than Yuki? She cares enough to bring you your meals up to the roof. Why must you make things harder for yourself"

"First of all, I'm not making this harder for myself, ok? Yuki has always beaten me in every single thing until we met Tohru, and now that she has her memory erased, he thinks he'll succeed this time! How can I compete with that?! It's still a wonder why she even chose me! Plus, I can't honestly tell because she could just be confused with two guys breathing down her neck and stuff! Besides, you're probably just saying that"

"Why waste my breath? Its obvious you love Tohru, even if you're acting like a total idiot! It's a miracle she even puts up with you! But love has always been crazy," he stated his opinion coldly and walked off into an unknown part of the house.

Do I honestly have a shot with her under the totally new circumstances?
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