Bleeding Mascara

Chapter four: Better Man

Waitin', watchin' the clock, it's four o'clock, it's got to stop. Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech. As he opens the door, she rolls over...Pretends to sleep as he looks her over. She lies and says she's in love with him, can't find a better man...She dreams in color, she dreams in red, can't find a better man...Can't find a better man, Can't find a better man. Ohh...

Were heading to Grays tonight, Adien says he needs to dance. To bad he can't dance, he thinks he's tough shit and thinks no one can touch him. He tells me I should be grateful to be with him because any girl would die to be with him. More like die being with him. Swear I almost broke my neck yesterday when he threw me down the stairs. I want to tell him so bad that I don't want this, that this is not what I wanted. I wanted a nice guy, smart, handsome and Adien is all those things. Well so I thought, he's a nice guy in public, perfect even…but when were alone. I think he's bipolar, god I hope he is.

Were walking to Grays for two reasons, one because I don't have a car, and two because Adien says this is the only time I can walk freely. Whatever the fuck that means, I walk freely all the time, I think. We've been walking for about a half hour or so and my legs are killing me. Yet he proceeds to walk a fast pace. "Hurry up Spencer!" he yells from about 12 paces ahead of me. "Ok" I speed up a little, but it starts to hurt my legs even more so I slow back down.

I look up from the ground that I have been staring at the whole time. I can see Gray's big neon sign so I know I only have a little bit longer till I can sit down. "Spencer didn't I say hurry your ass up?" "Well no you just said hurry up, you left my ass outa it." Shit shouldn't have said that, damn it Spencer. "Who the hell do you think your talking to?" he stops walking and walks back to me. Fuck. "Um you baby" "Me? ...that's not a smart thing to say to me" "I'm sorry, I wont do it again" "Damn straight you wont" he shoves me up against a brick building. Oww my shoulders.

"What I tell you about that?!? You will never speak to me like that, you understand that?!?" He's screaming at me, for what? For saying some sarcastic remark? Damn I really need to watch my mouth, he's spiting on me as he speaks…ew. "Spencer are you listening to me" "yes" I try to look in his eyes to see if he has any love in them. I lock eyes with him and all I see is anger and coldness. There so hard and solid, like they can't break.

He puts me back on the ground and I grab my shoulders. "Ass" it's a whisper to myself, so he can't hear me. "What?" he looks at me as he questions. "Um nothing baby" "Bullshit what the fuck you say Spencer?" "Um..." he slams me against the wall again, fuck! I scream softly at the pain. He does it again and again, just keeps slamming me against this cold brick wall. I'm crying now, can help it, it hurts so bad.

"Hey whoa hey, knock it off!!!" it's a strangers voice, I don't know it. Sounds female though. He lets go of me and turns to face the voice. I slide down the wall not caring if the stranger sees me cry. "Who you think you are?" I hear his razor sharp voice and I close my eyes tightly. "Your worst nightmare, walk away now and I won't call the cops" her voice so calm and collected, I put my hand over my ears. "Haha right, you call the cops?" "Yeah" "Hey now put that away" I can't see what's going on, just want it all to go away. Sounds of buttons being pushed is all I hear now, god she actually dialing. Who ever this girl is, she's becoming my hero. "Go now and I wont push send" I hear Adien run off in the direction of Grays, I just sit there not wanting to open my eyes.

Someone's beside me and I can only assume it's her, smells like strawberries, sweet strawberries. "You ok?" I just shake my head yes and stand up. I look at my savior. She's beautiful, dark brown hair, rockin body, her voice is soft and comforting unlike Adien's. She smiles at me, god a perfect smile. She sticks her hand out, "Ashley. Ashley Davies" I shake her hand. "Spencer Carlin."

She loved him, yeah... she don't want to leave this way. She feeds him, yeah... that's why she'll be back again. Can't find a better man. Can't find a better man. Can't find a better man. Can't find a better... man...