Bleeding Mascara

Chapter 5: Brackish

She is not scared to die…The best things in life drive her to cry. Crucify then learn..(take so much away from inside you, makes no sence, you know he can't guide you, he's your fucking shoulder to lean on, be strong!)Sit and watch me burn…She's led to believe, that it be ok, look at your face, scarred in dismay ,but times have changed, and so have you…I think I'd rather crucify then learn(take so much away from inside you, makes no sence, you know he can't guide you, he's your fucking shoulder to lean on, be strong!)

"Shit Spencer" Haha god this girl is good. Known her for about three months now. God she's so good at this, "Go Spencer, oh god your almost there." Its her first time too at this, and she's already better than me. I was the champion, number one, now Spencer is. That's ok with me though, means more coke for me. I don't know how she's going to use her cash, probably on some books. Hehe god she's such a book worm, so adorable. "Yes!!" I throw my hands up, she jumps up, and we hug. Were kind of doing this little jumping up and down hug, while screaming in happiness.

"Ashley I won, I beat them!" "I know, god your so good." She pulls back and kisses my cheek, I smile and blush a little and look away. "Wanna go again?" She smiles brightly showing her white straight teeth. She's…beautiful, I mean…hot. Damn Ashley, you can't think about her like that. One, she's straight, with a jackass boyfriend. Two, she's your best friend, you can't go and lose her. She's saying something but I cant make out what she's saying, to lost in thought. "Ashley, Ashley" She's wavering her hand in front of my face. "Huh?" She giggles, "Ashley are you even listening to me? Haha man your face was a blank stare." I blush again and laugh lightly, "Whatever Spencer, I was just thinking if we should play another round of online Tekken 5 or go get some coffee." Coffee first? Haha yeah good cover Ashley. "Yeah Yeah coffee, we been playing for hours anyways, my thumbs need a brake." She wiggles her thumbs in the air, and I laugh. "Ok Spencer."

We head down stairs and I grab my keys off the kitchen table. "What time you have to be home?" We walk outside and it's a beautiful summer day out. I look at my phone, five o' clock. Damn we were playing for four hours. "Hey, we were playing for four hours Spencer" She stops walking and looks at me, she looks a little scared. "What?" I ask walking up to her slowly. "What…what time is it?" She looks down at her shoes as if their the most instating thing in the world. "Uh fiveish" "Shit! Ashley I was suppose to meet Adien at four-thirty" oh, damn, this isn't good at all. That guys crazy. I remember the first day we came into contact, same day I met Spencer, same day I knew her secret, same day I became her protector. Fuck that guy is horrible. "Spencer, why you still with him?...you cant go see him now, I won't let you, he could hurt you. I'm not letting you go." "Ashley I have to go, better to be late then not go at all. I know he's mean but he won't hurt me." I know she's lying, she knows I know she is lying. "No" "I have to Ashley, take me home, please!" she looks as though she's going to cry, I have no choice but to give in. "Ok"

We get into the car, and I drive her home. On the way, we don't speak, but she does something so unexpected. She reaches over for my hand and takes it into her, and laces our fingers. I look over at her, see if she's looking at me. She's not. She's looking out the window, I smile to myself looking out onto the road. Try to focusing on the rode but I cant, keep thinking of why she's holding my hand. Scared maybe, I don't know. I would be if I was her, I'm not scared of him, showed him that too, but he don't care bout my threats any more. He doesn't deserve her. She is wonderful, sweet, caring, and beautiful. I keep looking over at her out of the corner of my eye. Looking at her makes me wonder more about why she's holding my hand. She's straight Ashley, don't get your hopes up. She's just holding it because she's you friend, best friend. So she just needs her best friend to comfort her. Yeah yeah that's why, ok stop thinking about it. Ok here's her house.

"Bye Ashley," she lets go of my hand and opens my car door. "Bye Spenser," she steps out and walks up her driveway to her front door. It opens up before she even reaches the steps, Adien is standing there whit his hand on his hip. She gives him a hug, which makes me cringe. He doesn't hug her back just points to his car. She nods her head and walks slowly to his car looking over at me once before looking at the ground. She get in his nice new Mustang. Its nothing compared to my jet black Spider. He gets in looking once over his shoulder in my direction then shuts his door and drives off. Maybe I should follow them, sounds stalkerish. I laugh lightly at myself and make my decision to follow them. I stay car lengths away from them, trying to be like a spy. I always wanted to be one, like in the secret service. Man that'd be so cool...on my to do list.

Sit and watch me burn… I'd like to take you down, and show you deep inside, my life my inner workin so smell and lack of inner pride, to touch upon the surface, is not for what it seems, I take away my problems, but only in my dreams .(take so much away from inside you, makes no sence, you know he can't guide you, he's your fucking shoulder to lean on, be strong!)Crucify the learn.. (take so much away from inside you, makes no sence, you know he can't guide you, he's your fucking shoulder to lean on, be strong!)Crucify then learn… Sit and watch me burn..