Growing Up
Growing Up
Chapter Five
Five Months Later
Smithy stared at the screen, his eyes transfixed at the wonder that was moving before him; his baby. Every time he accompanied Kerry on her ante-natal visits he felt an overwhelming sense of pride, especially when it was time for her to have a scan. The last five months hadn't been easy for either of them, a lot of growing up had to be dome and there differences put aside for the sake of their baby. Most of all Smithy noticed the difference in Kerry, not the physical difference even thought that had been a somewhat drastic change but the mental difference; she was happy, more than happy. Kerry shot Smithy a warm smile as she looked from the screen to him and he clasped her hand tight, as if to say 'Yep, amazing isn't it'. Both were brought out of their warm bubble by the sound of the sonographer,
"Have you decided whether you want to know the sex of the baby yet?"
Kerry looked back at Smithy for confirmation and smiled as she replied,
"No, we decided we wanted it to be a surprise"
"Ok then, I'll just print off a couple of frames and clean you up"
Once the gel had been cleaned off of Kerry's swollen stomach Smithy let go of his grip allowing her to re-do up her jeans and tidy up. Mobility wasn't as easy as it previously had been for Kerry so swivelling her legs round she slid of the bed with every ounce of care.
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"Erm, do you want dropping off back at your flat or do you need to go anywhere?" Smithy asked Kerry casually. There relationship may now be amicable but it was also strictly platonic, one of the guidelines he had been set by Kerry as way of apology.
"Well I was going to see if you fancied grabbing some lunch, I need to go to town as well finish getting things for the baby, now I know everything's ok."
"Yeah, why not" Smithy smiled as he fastened his seat belt.
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"I've been having a think about how were going to do this parenting thing, and I don't want this baby to feel like its growing up in a broken home, spending most days with me then every other weekend at yours. I know it wont be easy what with your shifts but, I want you to know that you can see the baby whenever you want Smithy you don't have to schedule a day, and that goes without saying when they're older as well."
Acknowledging this Smithy smiled and replied, "Yeah, whatever you want, its fine with me"
"Its not what I want, its not what I want at all, but its what our baby will want. We both know what its like to grow up only really having one parent, do we really want that for our baby?"
" No we don't" Again Smithy smiled, more deeply and sincerely than before. Something inside knew that the old Kerry was back and she sure as hell was taking control over her life again.
"I also think that perhaps my mum and your dad should meet, if they're going to share a grandchild I think they should at least meet!" Kerry said, in that same dry sense of humour that Smithy found so attractive.
"Sounds good to me!" he replied.
"I'm really scared Dale, I knew it was going to be a challenge but I'm really scared"
Smithy took Kerry's tender hand, clasping it between both of his and replied.
"Me too but we're not in this alone. Every step I'm with you, I promise"
Kerry felt comforted by his words and placed her other hand on top of his, she remembered how she had told her dad that Smithy was her 'knight in shining armour' she was right. Deep down, she felt a pain, a yearning for so much more but for the sake of their baby she hid those feelings.
Both of them sat silent, neither needing to say a word, they were content as they were. She was so beautiful and everyday he loved her more but he couldn't tell her, no matter he much he wanted to. There were times when the frustration grew too strong and he wanted to let her know, there and then how he felt but he remembered how hurt Kerry had been when she imposed the rules on him, and because of that love he suppressed those feelings once again.
As you can see I skipped a fair chunk, but I was bored with Kerry hating him and the story had to progress, you might be pleased to hear that it gets fluffier from here!
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