And here we go, onto the next one! Everyone knows that jedi are wed to their lightsaber, born through hours of messing, finessing, cursing. But Atton is certainly not a typical jedi, so the manner in which he recieves his lightsaber should be equally a-typical. This one's pretty short, and not exactly romantic, but its sweet. Please enjoy-
Violet
As much as I grumble about spending all this time in the cockpit, there are sometimes when it's nice. If I want it to be it's always dark, relatively quiet and watching the stars go by always puts my in a bit of a trance. According to her it's a force user tendency, to seek out a place to meditate, but I think just anyone needs to have their space to mentally sort things out, as I was right now.
I had a dream last night, about the last jedi, only it wasn't the blonde with green eyes that screamed in agony, it was steel gray eyes framed by auburn that stared so peacefully at me as I began to torture her. I remember that I didn't bother to try and break her, I just went at her until her body and mind just gave up. Only, it seemed to take hours longer, whenever I thought she'd just die so this nightmare could end, she'd scream my name and I'd have to keep going, and going, and going. I wanted to retch as her voice, calling my name in such pain tore through me again, as loud as in the dream. I closed my eyes, trying to fight back the screams with her voice calmly guiding me through a meditation session.
Find your center, reach into yourself and find the center of activity in you, and calm it. Relax it like a muscle, steady it, listen to the pulse of the ship, steady it, steady your breathing, steady your breathing and everything else will follow.
I forced my breathing to a slow, even rhythm, drowning out the screams with my breath entering and leaving my lungs, and it began to work. The clear images of my mind faded into soft colors, screams died away, her voice died away altogether-
"Atton."
I opened my eyes to see her standing next to me, for a second I wondered if I had fallen asleep again.
"I see you've been practicing the meditation cycles, very good. Did it relieve your nightmare?"
I looked up stunned at her, she smiled apologetically.
"Your emotions were so intense, a force user within a parsect could've felt them, and such fear only comes from nightmare."
I looked down at the controls, suddenly feeling embarrassed.
"So Kreia, Visa?"
She shook her head.
"I, created a shield around the cockpit, to keep your feelings from going beyond me, dreams like that are not meant to be felt by everyone."
I looked at her out of the corner of my eye.
"So you know what it was about?"
She nodded, her face was serene, seemingly unaffected by the dream's contents.
"But, that's not why I disrupted you, I have something for you."
I turned to completely face her, I realized she was holding her hands behind her back, hiding something. She gave a small smile as she produced a long, slender metal cylinder and handed it to me.
"Eventually you'll have to construct one of your own, but I thought having this would make you feel more like a jedi."
I took the smooth metal into my hand, I had seen many lightsabers before so I knew this one was beautifully contructed, made by a master's hand. I then slowly turned it over, looking for something resembling a button, after a minute or so she chuckled.
"It's a true jedi lightsaber, it must be initiated by using the force, and once you initiate it, only your force signature can ever initiate it. Here-"
She took her hands in mine and guided my arms into an "attack" posture.
"Now, just push a small amount of the force through it, and the crystals should do the rest."
I nodded, staring determined at the lightsaber, I had taken my first major steps to being a jedi, I was ready to take my second. Closing my eyes, tentatively grasped at the force, thinking of it as a spike, and drove into the base of the lightsaber. My eyes shot open as I heard the familiar sound, and a violet blade of light shone before me…wait, violet?
"Your lightsaber Atton, and only yours."
I looked at her, she was beaming proudly at me.
"You know, when I was knighted, I told everyone I'd never take on a padawan. I couldn't possibly see myself dragging some little kid around with me, but now," she paused, her smile growing even brighter, "I understand why it is such a joy."
I smiled back at her, then looked at the lightsaber.
"I'm honored, but, why violet?"
At this she chuckled, "because it represents where you are. Violet is partway between the red blade of the sith, and blue, the typical color of jedi guardians. When you construct your own lightsaber, you get a clear crystal, and the color reflects you personally. But for now, violet suits you."
And with that, she quietly left the cockpit, leaving me to stare at possibly the most important gift I'd ever received.
"Wait, how the hell do I turn this thing off?"
- Fin.
Bada boom Bada bang! We're in we're out and moving on. Not much else to say, comments and critques welcome as always! Peace.
CN: Anrui Yuy
