A/N: Wow... These chapters are getting intense, and I apologize for all of the sob. Anyways, I have an important note at the bottom, that I will need votes on. Enjoy, and I cried writing this, hence the title!

Crying

I cried.

I honestly had no idea what else to do. So, to settle my issues with wondering what to do, I cried harshly as I slammed fist after fist into the tree. Hatori had left, most likely going to report this to Akito, while he abandoned me.

He abandoned me again. He abandoned me for Akito. Again.

I muffled another sob, ignoring Haru and Ayame who watched in worry behind me. I let out a scream, falling to my knees, thrusting my fists into the dirt, sobs shaking my body until I was crying and sobbing and choking so hard that I couldn't breath.

Ayame rushed up beside me, but I just shrugged him off.

Why? Why the hell did this have to happen? Why did this have to happen now? Why did it have to happen to me? What did I ever do? I never defied my God... I never outright defied him. I never hurt someone without a right. I did what my zodiac commanded...

So was I really the monster Akito made me out to be? Was that form who I truly was? Was that me? Was I really meant to kill all those precious to me?

Yes.

A dark voice, almost a presence spoke from the corners of my mind. I put my mud and blood-caked hands over my ears, shaking my head.

No.

I never want to hurt them.

I couldn't.

"IM NOT A MONSTER!!" I screamed, standing up swiftly and thrusting my fists again into the tree, ignoring the cracks that appeared in my bone that was now raw, then healed over almsot quick enough before the next hit.

Yes you are. You can't deny it. You still want to kill him.

"Miku-chan... please! Stop it before you kill yourself!" Ayame cried, throwing his arms around my stomach, locking my arms against my sides. I collapsed backwards, turning around to cry into his shirt.

"Ay-Ayame... please... I don't... I'm not... I can't... I didn't mean to... Yuki... Kyo... I'm... monster!" I sobbed into his clothing, trying to say what I wanted, searching for comfort, though I knew I wouldn't get it.

"Miku, you need to calm down." Haru's smooth, comforting voice said. I nodded, shaking as I tried to breath deeply, only to break into sobs and tears again.

An hour later, I was finally calmed down enough, that I was sitting down, comfortably away from Ayame and Haru.

"Aya... does Kyo hate me?" I asked softly, voicing the only fear that had actually plagued my mind so long.

"I... Miku, what brought this up?" Ayame asked. Haru rolled his eyes.

"Don't be an idiot, Ayame. I'll take care of this, go check on your brother." Ayame shot a carefull look to me. I just avoided his eyes, shooing him off with a wave. He sighed, kissing the top of my hair in brotherly affection.

"Just don't scare me like that again." He whispered before sprinting off.

I groaned, my shape changing to a whimpering wolf puppy with silver fur and golden sweet eyes. I whimpered, backing away from Haru in fear, but he reached out, picking me up and holding me in his lap as he stroked his fingers through my long thick fur.

"Miku... What are we going to do with you?" He whispered. I gave a whimperish growl, pushing my paws over my eyes, hiding my shame.

"Miku, I don't know what Akito did to you to make you like this, but I can guess pretty easily." A shiver went down my spine, and he scratched it comfortingly. A rumble came from my chest, close to a purr. "Either way, Kyo could never hurt you. He's shocked for one, all of us are... we never... we never expected you to be... be a..." I whimpered, and voiced it.

"A monster." He narrowed his eyes, cuffing the side of my ears harshly.

"No. Don't you ever get that in that over-inflated head of yours. You are nothing even close, if anything, that damned rat deserved it."

I growled, feeling my fur tinge black just at the thougth of the rat, or Akito.

"Anyways... Miku, Kyo loves you whether you want to face it or not. And it's not some brotherly affection, Kyo is honestly head over heals for you, right now he's just a little angry that you never told him your whole story."

"I couldn't..."

"That's what Momiji told him, but knowing Kyo, Momiji will come back with a bruise." I groaned, whimpering lightly. Just another harm, another injury of someone close to me, of someone in general to add to my ticket. Haru rolled his eyes.

"That is not your fault, so don't even go there."

"Fuck you." I replied.

"Gladly if I wasn't engaged." I shot up then, eyes wide.

"But Akito would never allow that!" I exclaimed... then it hit me... Rin was in the hospital again...

"You mean...?" I ventured. He nodded happily, lifting up the front of his shirt to show the bandaged gash on his chest as if it was a medal. I grinned, nuzzling it hard enough for him to wince, and pick me up by my hind ankles.

"Put me down before I change back!!" I growled out, struggling as he stood up. He shook his head, standing up and carrying me into the beach house.

He dropped me down on my head on the porch. I growled harshly, rubbing my head with paws. I straightened up, watching him walk away in confusion, before I caught a familiar scent. I turned around slowly, cautiously as I watched Kyo sit there, ignoring me completely as he watched the ocean from his place on the porch.

"Kyo... I... I'm..." I started, feeling the wolfish sobs break through. I let out a light whimper/howl of my own emotional agony as I forced it out. "I'm so sorry... And if you... if you... hate me... I'll... I'll understand..." He scoffed, and I looked away, not quite noticing as I poofed back to human, my clothes gone. I blushed, but faced him.

"Idiot." he growled, turning to face me. He smiled slowly, a heartbroken, gutwrenching smile. "How the hell could I ever hate you?!"

I felt my heartbeat increase as he leaned forward, terrified, as if he would hit me...

And our lips met. He kiss me lightly, testing to see if it was allright, and ignoring my state, I kissed him back. He quickly pulled back, blushing and turning away. I blinked, then narrowed my eyes.

"Perevert!" I growled, wacking him on the back of the head. He just handed me a white yukata that was hanging nearby and I tied it around me.

"Well, you got what you bargained for..." A cold voice said. My body went rigid, and Kyo turned around slowly, his eyes wide. I felt tears spring in my eyes, and as much as my mind screamed at me to run, all I could do was turn around and look into those icy black eyes that would haunt me for the rest of my life.

"Akito..." Kyo hissed, the word falling off of his tongue like the acid and poison in it would kill him if it remained to long. I bit my lower lip, my eyes wide with fear.

"The one and only... so what do I see here?" I suddenly had the urge to tell him whatever he wanted to here.

"I was simply clarifying something with Kyo..." I said, trying to find a way to fight out of this.

"Oh, is that who he is...? You see, all I see is a damned Cat that has foolishly fallen for my darling, precious little monster that I always tried to protect."

"Protect, you fucking raped her!" Kyo hissed loudly, getting to his feet, his fists clenched. My eyes dilated in fear of what would happen to him, a tear streaming down my cheek at the image, and I lifted a shaking hand to tug down on his shirt. He completely ignored me.

"Idiotic little creature, do you have any sense? Hasn't anyone ever told you to listen to others? Your little monster of a pet is trying to save your life. Now step down." He said the last part in a dangerously low voice, his eyes shading over as he narrowed them and tipped his head forward, his black kimono swirling around his bare ankles in the ocean spray. It would have been almost beautiful if he hadn't been threatening and the man who loved to torture me...

But I still had the gnawing need to obey him, as if I was dog on a training collar and the end of the leash and rolled up newspaper were in his hands.

"No." Kyo hissed, in an equally dangerous voice. Akito scoffed, stepping forward, he brought his hand back and in one swift, sharp motion, backhanded Kyo off the porch, so that he landed sprawled partially on the steps, his back and head hitting the soft grass. I just closed my eyes, trying to block out everything, willing it all to stop.

Because I wanted to stop him, but I couldn't.

"And what is she to you? A knotch in your bedpost?!" Kyo yelled, struggling onto his feet. I flinched at the crude term, but I wondered if it was true.

"Of course not. That was a punishment." Akito turned, kneeling before me, taking my chin under his hand, I hesitantly opened my eyes to gaze into his curious, cold ones as he tipped his head to the side lightly. "You understand that, don't you? Remember, your evil angel... I would never hurt you... but even the coyote must face punishment from its God."

I looked away, because for some reason, I beleived him. Being the coyote, I did deserve punishment.

"No she didn't. No person, cursed or not, deserves something like that!" Kyo growled. I glared up at him.

"Shut up..." I said sharply. "You don't know what you're talking about. I'm the Coyote, Kyo... I still deserve punishment!" Kyo froze, shaking his head. The look in his eyes was as if I had dropped his heart, just letting go right after he had placed it in my hands.

"That's right, Miku. You see, only a God can really understand this... but you're special, our precious little Kyo is just too naive... right?" I swallomed everything I had, nodding. But something growled in the back of my mind.

"No. Don't listen to him, please, Miku... no. You aren't a monster. It's not your fault. You don't deserve this! No one does!"

"And who are you speaking for, Kyo? Are you speaking for yourself? Are you really trying to prove this to Miku? Or yourself?" Akito asked smoothly, standing up.

"I..." Kyo looked away, and I felt him drop my heart as well.

Crash.

"I don't know..." And it shattered on impact. Then Kyo narrowed his eyes, straightening up.

"All I know is I love her more than I ever thought I could. More than I thought was possibly for a damned Cat." And he brought his fist back, moving to hit Akito, but the light clicking sound froz us both, making another tear stream down the other cheek at what I saw.

Kyo was frozen, his fist aimed for Akito's face, and in Akito's hand was a loaded, and cocked gun. His God complex finally taking over his better judgement. Just then, Hatori rounded the corner.

"Akito!" He cried, freezing. Akito didn't even spare him a glance, keeping a trained eye on Kyo's angry features.

"Akito... please... don't... " I couldn't handle it. If I lost Kyo...

"I apologize, Miku, but it has to be like this." Akito said simply. And he fired. I screamed, covering my ears, keeling forward as tears streamed down my cheeks. I heard Kyo shout in pain, his body hitting the ground harshly, but I also heard him cursing. Akito hadn't killed him. I scrambled to my feet, moving to fall beside Kyo, tears streaming down my cheeks. The bullet blast hole from the close range had exploaded in his right shoulder.

The blood loss would kill him quicker. Hatori moved towards Kyo, but Akito blocked his way.

He cocked the gun again. I looked away, holding myself over Kyo's chest, one of his shaking arms wrapped around me, and shoved me away as Akito fired again, but it only his his hip, Hatori had yanked Akito's arm. The sounds of an ambulance not to far away hit my ears, but I didn't register them as I fell backwards, landing on my back, to prop myself up and see the blood, dribbling down the side of his face as he smiled at me.

"Sugar... I'm goin' down..." He whispered, outstretching a hand. I grasped it, coming up beside him, crying harshly.

In an angry rage, I stood up.

And I threw myself towards Akito, instinct taking over.

Kill Him!

A/N: See? Wow... I'm in tears... lots of them... Thankfully, my friend Kayla is comforting me and helping me write...

Also, I wanted an answer.

Option A) There's a sequel much later in the year, possibly 2009 where she gets back with Kyo.

Option B) Akito dies. I can't tell you much more.

Option C) A songfic for the last chapter. (It'll be something by Carrie Underwood, or Green day, just telling you now.)