Long chapter coming up as I set up this new arc! the scene changes alot but nothing that needs to be noted...let me know if it was hard to read so I can edit accordingly.
Another week had passed in the Uchiha family home and things hadn't changed much. Sai was still finding himself ignored and lonely, while the rest of the family members avoided each other affectively. It was the 22nd of July and Sasuke sat on his bed with his back against the wall comfortably, staring at his older brother who sat Indian style and watched the television in front of him. Itachi didn't notice Sasuke staring at him because the younger boy was behind him, so when his cell phone went off for the fifth time that evening Itachi turned around quickly only to be a little startled by Sasuke's bold eyes. He ignored them, grabbed the phone off of the bed and cancelled the incoming call.
"Who keeps calling you?" Sasuke asked.
"A friend."
"Why don't you ever answer?"
"I don't want to talk to them." Sasuke nodded behind Itachi, wanting to know more but deciding to move on to another subject.
"Do you think they planned another party?" He asked, clearly pondering the thought for a while now.
"For your birthday?" Itachi asked again turning around to look at Sasuke. "I don't think so. Are you disappointed?"
"No! You know those things are always just open range for everyone in the family to pile in here. I definitely don't want that this year."
"I agree." Sasuke watched his brother, knowing his reasons for not wanting a party were much more important. The two sat in silence while Itachi fiddled with loose strings on Sasuke's pants. Sasuke curled his legs up to his chest and moved over so that he was directly in front of his brother, then let his legs slide down so they made a barrier around Itachi. He smiled and rested the weight of his body on one of Sasuke's knees.
"So what are you getting me for my birthday?"
"Nothing. All the money I had is with my partner, I'll think of something though." Itachi said quietly, sounding somewhat tired.
"A sexual something?" Sasuke smirked as Itachi seemed to come alive again. He scouted up to his younger brother and pecked kisses on his lips.
"That wouldn't be much of a gift, seeing as I give it to you practically everyday now." Itachi jeered.
"Yes but we can always spice it up?"
"How so?" Itachi asked curiously.
"Well." Sasuke hesitated. "I have an idea, but I'm not sure how you'll take it."
"Just try me." Sasuke fumbled with his words unable to speak and express the desire he longed for, ever since Itachi had returned home. He sputtered and offered excuses for his desires before even telling them to his brother who looked on patiently waiting to hear what Sasuke wanted of him. After minutes of build up Sasuke had finally summoned up the courage and asked Itachi the unthinkable.
"I want to fuck you." Itachi chuckled lightly.
"You already do that."
"No. I want to fuck you." Sasuke repeated, emphasizing choice words. Itachi had finally caught on and his face turned blank with the realization. He sat up right and twiddled his fingers clearly thinking over the request. Sasuke never had felt so nervous with his brother and gulped dry lumps in his throat accordingly.
"That's kind of strange." Itachi finally let out.
"You've never been on the bottom?" Sasuke asked. Itachi darted his eyes his brother's directions, slightly disapproving of his new vocabulary that he accredited to Sai.
"Yes I have." He answered anyway. "But it's different with you." Sasuke felt himself getting defensive.
"Why because I'm younger?" He asked, ready to challenge Itachi's logic.
"Not just younger, but my younger brother. It's hard to explain."
"So what you're the man in this then?" Sasuke stated more than he asked. He folded his arms a reproachful way and looked away from Itachi.
"Suke." Itachi said gently, easing even more closely to Sasuke. "Don't mistake my standoffish behavior for a decline. I'm simply saying that it's something that makes me uneasy." Itachi explained as he turned Sasuke's face back his way.
"Why would I want to do it if you don't?" Sasuke asked when just then their mother came into the bedroom door. They hadn't been so serious about locking themselves in to their rooms because of the avoidance game and didn't expect anyone besides Sai to enter unannounced. Mikoto stared at her sons in their suggestive position and frowned accordingly.
"What are you two doing?" She asked sternly with one of her most confused and disapproving faces.
"Sasuke had an eyelash in his eye I was just blowing it out mother." Itachi said, quick on his feet. Mikoto stood in the doorway as her face went though different phases of questioning then back to normal, obviously seeing that the situation was plausible.
"Anyway." She began. "What have you two done to Sai?"
"What?" Sasuke and Itachi asked in unison.
"He's going home early! I've just received a call from my sister saying they'd be down tomorrow to pick him up and give you a happy birthday present." Sasuke fumed, he didn't know why but Sai deciding to leave without even talking to him really pissed him off. He knew that they hadn't been spending a lot of time together, but Sai was supposed to understand the situation with Itachi. Sasuke was angered that he was acting so childish about the virtual ending of their relationship.
"I'll talk to him." He said as he squeezed past Itachi and jolted past his mother. He jogged down the stairs around the bend and down another flight of stairs only to burst open the den door and slam it behind himself.
"I guess you know I'm going home." Sai said lazily.
"What the hell!?" You didn't even say anything to me Sai!"
"What was there to say? I've made up my mind." Sai replied once again looking to the television in front of him.
"Why? Because of Itachi and I? You know the condition! Why even bring me to him if you were only going to take it badly?" Sasuke yelled. Sai sighed loudly and looked at his cousin painfully.
"Because I love you and I want you to be happy." Sai said gloomily. The declaration and the selflessness took all the fight out of Sasuke quickly. He stared at his cousin as he walked towards him to sit beside him.
"I don't want you to leave." Sasuke said softly.
"As much as I am concerned about your happiness, I need to give myself some also." Sai said, taking Sasuke's hand into his own. "And it's not just you. It's this whole family, this situation is depressing and sitting here alone in this jail cell of a den doesn't help much. I think I did what I was meant to do here and it's time to go."
"What were you meant to do here?" Sasuke asked, staring at the floor in front of him.
"Huh? I don't know." Sai said dumbly, forgetting his own words instantly. "Maybe Itachi would have died or something had I not run into him that day when I first came here."
"I meant to ask you, did your parent's see him too?"
"Nope. They were in a store asking for directions. They wanted to find something to buy for your parents before we showed up, didn't want to look rude. We went into the city, got lost in a bad section. I got out of the car out of boredom and there he was. I chatted with him, not as calmly as you could guess and made plans to meet up to talk again. He ducked away before my parents came back out." Sasuke nodded, hearing this story before.
"Sai?"
"Yes?"
"Just think about it." Sasuke said and he kissed his cousin quickly before leaving.
The next day came much faster than Sasuke had liked. He wished he could be more excited about turning seventeen but all the bad things the day was going to bring unfolded themselves ominously before his eyes as their family met together in the same room for the first time in days. Sai and Mikoto were talking in the living room in hushed voices as Fugaku talked loudly to a man on the phone that apparently was going deaf.
"No it's not a wedding cake you moron! It's a birthday cake, vanilla!" He boomed. Sasuke sighed and sat next to his brother who looked to be in a state of emptiness as he stared ahead of himself silently.
"Looks like there's going to be a party today." He said to Itachi who only nodded slowly in response.
"Oh my eggs!" Mikoto screamed as she dashed into the kitchen behind Sasuke and Itachi on their love seat to only moments later call them into the dinning room for breakfast. She laid out platters of food in front of them all. Sasuke wondered how early his mother had woken up to start breakfast because the variety was vast. He knew this was because of his birthday and attempted to have some of everything in front of him. Mikoto sat a plate of bacon on the table from behind Sasuke then wrapped her arms around him from the back happily as she kissed him on the side of his forehead.
"Happy birthday Suke!" She beamed. Sasuke couldn't help but smile. Her happiness radiated to him. His mother had always been a pleasant woman and he enjoyed seeing her enjoying the day, which hadn't been happening much in the past few weeks. Mikoto released Sasuke and moved to Itachi on her left, giving him an identical kiss to not leave him out. Sasuke saw her bend down and heard her whisper into Itachi's ear.
"Please see me after breakfast." He nodded and she dashed off to her side of the table to sit next to Fugaku who was still on the phone trying to find out where Sasuke's birthday cake was.
Breakfast went by rather pleasantly and Fugaku even spoke to Itachi without any contempt in his voice. Sasuke's birthday had been a turning point for their family and the dust finally seemed to start settling. By early afternoon caterers and the Sasuke's cake had already arrived and early comers also. Sasuke and Itachi's grandparents had made their arrival and their grandmother hugged and kissed Sasuke when he opened the door for them, setting down his presents in the sitting room behind the garage that was rarely used. Itachi sat in the living room amongst the commotion and was so silent and still he almost blended in with the furniture. Sasuke had been forced to be busy deciding where he wanted things placed and how he wanted the cooks to cook certain foods that weren't made before hand. No matter how often he'd say he didn't care either way they demanded an answer from him and once it was given he was pulled off into another direction. He almost felt as if he was planning someone else's birthday.
Sasuke and Itachi's grandparents finally noticed their eldest grandson sitting on the sofa in the living room and became visibly tense. They looked at him and when he finally returned their gaze their grandmother gave a warm smiled and waddled over to him.
"Oh my it's nice to see that you're alright, but look how thin you are." She said as she hugged him then pushed him away to examine him. Sasuke noticed Itachi's eyes dart away irritated as he gave an expression of annoyance that only Sasuke could decipher. He also had seen that none of their family members that had continued to arrive seemed surprised that Itachi was there. Word had spread quickly about his leaving, so Sasuke assumed that it had spread just as quickly that he was back. He felt sorry for his older brother who seemed to be trapped in his own tiny hell and forced his way past people to get to him.
"Hey come upstairs." He said and motioned for Itachi to follow him. When they had reached Sasuke's bedroom he closed the door and kissed his older brother forcefully. They enveloped into each other and Sasuke nudged Itachi on to the bed so that he could straddle him. They kissed, invaded each other mouths sucking on each others bottom lips. Sasuke stood up from his brother and immediately tried to unfasten his pants, but Itachi stopped him.
"Sasuke we're in a house that slowly being filled to the brim with people and children who could walk in on us at any moment."
"Itachi I locked the door." Sasuke said not understanding how his brother could have over looked this simple solution.
"Still.." Itachi faded off. Sasuke looked at his face and wondered what was wrong with his brother.
"Are you upset because of all these people? Who cares Itachi we'll stay up here or something."
"No I want you to enjoy your birthday brother."
"I can't unless you are also. Besides, I haven't gotten my birthday present yet." Sasuke smirked. Itachi looked up at him seriously then let a small smile grace his face.
"That's later tonight. I made you something anyway though. Earlier today, Mom was in my way though so I couldn't bring up to you before you woke up. Hold on." Itachi said and he disappeared from the bedroom. He returned a few minutes later with something behind his back.
"Oh that better not be a can of coke." Sasuke teased.
"No, it's better." Itachi produced his present to Sasuke happily and he handed him the biggest cupcake he had ever seen. It had a creamy pale yellow frosted that was caked on in a thick layer that swirled around the top of the cupcake delicately and placed perfectly on top of it were chucks of strawberries and a dollop of whipped cream. Sasuke laughed hard silently until he caught his breath.
"Strawberries and cream." He said amused.
"I know you don't like sweets, but I went to the store a few days ago to see if I could come up with anything with the couple of dollars I had. I seen this ridiculously large cupcake tin and came up with the idea. I bought it and made the icing myself, I hid it in the back of the fridge. Everything else was here." Itachi concluded as he handed the cupcake to Sasuke who looked at it happily and sat on his bed.
"This is probably the best present I'll get today."
"Don't lie Suke."
"Really it is." He said taking his finger to rub off some of the icing and lick it. "I love you brother." Itachi sat next to Sasuke and looked at his cupcake art.
"I wonder if Mom and Dad still do it." He asked.
"Oh gross don't bring it up!" Sasuke exclaimed.
"I wonder." Itachi continued anyway. "If they still use whipped cream and strawberries when they have sex. I'll never lose that image."
"Of a package of strawberries on the bed next to Mom as she was about to blow Dad's whipped cream top organ." Sasuke said staring ahead of him, laughing in a dazed sort of way. "That was horrible. And then dad goes." The brothers spoke in unison.
"How's it taste? And then mom goes like whipped cream and strawberries genius." Sasuke fell back on his bed and laughed as Itachi chuckled and shook his head next to him. Moments passed and Sasuke spoke to his brother after the laughter dyed down.
"Itachi. Let's do it."
"Sasuke, your party's about to start."
"Quickie." Sasuke said. He sat his cupcake on his headboard and turned to Itachi to kiss him, quickly returning to their former position with Sasuke straddling his brother. They hadn't gotten the chance to even remove any clothing when Sai spoke behind them.
"Déjà vu." He said at the doorway. "Come downstairs, please try not to fuck each other on the way down." He added then walked away.
"Itachi do you have some thing against locks?" Sasuke asked, annoyed and amused.
Sasuke's party commenced and to his surprise it turned out nicely. His parent had gone to the trouble of finding and inviting his closest friends and they all showed up to enjoy one of the rare evenings they got to spend with him. Itachi's mood lifted slightly and the rest of the family seemed uninterested in gossiping about him any longer. Sai's parents had shown up and Sasuke's night continue to go by happily even after the singing of Happy Birthday. Sasuke thought the day would come to an end on a good note. Even Sai seemed to be more cheerful as he flirted in the corner with Sakura, which confused Sasuke slightly. Then things for Sasuke started back down hill. He was in the kitchen bagging plastic cups to set aside for the garbage and beginning to clean up from the party as it was ending and people were leaving or about to leave, when he heard Sai's parents talking to him.
"Do you still want to leave?" His mother asked.
"Yes, I'll leave with you tonight." Sai responded. "I'm already packed."
"Fine, go and get your things and bring them to the car so we don't have to wait around once it's time to go." His father demanded. Sai complied and left the room without another word. Sasuke stormed after him and abandoned the plastic cups on the table. Sai hadn't noticed his younger cousin and before he knew it he was shoved into the den violently.
"You still want to leave!? I thought things were fine again." He yelled
"They are fine Sasuke." Sai said lethargically.
"Then explain to me why you are leaving."
"Let's take a walk Suke."
They walked for a good fifteen minutes towards the beach near Sasuke's house and eventually kicked off their sneakers and socks to walk barefoot along the water. Sasuke wondered why they had never come here before, it was so beautiful at night and peaceful.
"I don't understand." He said to his cousin.
"It's simple Sasuke. I need to leave. I understand your relationship with Itachi and that I don't match up to him." Sasuke stopped walking and kicked up sand.
"Why is it always, always a contest with you?" He asked. "It's not that you don't match up to Itachi or he's better than you. Itachi is special to me, unique and now you are also. I can't compare the two of you, it's apples and oranges. I have a bond with you Itachi and I could never have and vice versa."
"But you told me that I couldn't fill that void that he left."
"And you can't! Just like he can't fill the void you'll leave if you go. I liked how we were, but I couldn't forget about Itachi. Not because you weren't doing something for me because it's just wrong if I did. He's my brother and I have more connections to him other than this thing that we do. He's been there for me my whole life and I couldn't live with myself if I just up and forgot all of that. Don't you understand?" Sasuke asked, more like pleaded to be understood.
"I do." Sai nodded. "I understand that completely." They become silent and Sasuke didn't want to speak anymore anyway. He grabbed his cousin's chin and pulled his face to his, kissing him and holding his head in place. Sai pried away a few inches.
"Sasuke we're outside." He reminded him cousin.
"So what? No one can see us from their houses, the slope's too high." Sasuke continued to kiss his cousin fervently, taking his hands away only to slip them up his shirt. Sai followed his actions and dug his hands into Sasuke pants to feel his ass, accidentally pushing them down and revealing his boxers. When Sai apologized and moved away Sasuke pulled him back and yanked off his pants on his own, his boxers along with them.
"Sasuke!?" Sai exclaimed at his half naked cousin. Sasuke ignored him and started to pull off Sai's shirt, pulling over it his head. Sai, nervous though he was at being caught fucking his cousin on the beach, allowed himself to be disrobed and took off Sasuke's shirt in response.
"Sit down." Sasuke commanded and Sai did so without question. He laid his shirt on the sand and sat on it, the water occasionally hitting up to his knees with each passing wave. Sasuke got down on his knees and crawled on top of Sai sitting in his lap. He pushed his cousin's chest forcing him to lie down as he positioned himself on top of him. Sai expected to feel Sasuke sliding into him but on the contrary he felt himself sliding into Sasuke as his younger cousin sat slowly on his dick. Sai looked up and moaned loudly, grabbing on to Sasuke's forearms as Sasuke placed his hands on his Sai's chest for balance. He bounced up and down Sai's dick rather quickly and he huffed and puffed as he sped up even more. Sasuke rode Sai for awhile until Sai couldn't contain himself any longer he thrust himself upwards in motion with Sasuke's bounces to intensify their contact, feeling his cock deep inside Sasuke's ass briefly with each bounce and thrust. Sasuke's gentle moans were music to Sai and panted yes with each tiny one that emitted from his lover. The water came in further now and soon Sai felt it up to waist. The new wetness made it so that even more noise came from their actions as Sasuke would plop down and loud wet noises would emerge that enticed Sai even more. His groans got louder along with Sasuke's and he sat up to become face to face with his younger cousin.
"I really care about you Sai." Sasuke said. "I love you." He groaned out as he came closer to reaching his climax. Sai kissed his cousin and muffled his moans as he placed his hands on Sasuke's hips and guided them, helping him to easier rock back and forth and grind into his crotch. When Sasuke had screamed out that he was going to cum Sai lent back and balanced his weight on his elbow, so he could use his other hand to jerk Sasuke's dick until he came on Sai's chest. He continued to bounce up and down on his cousin, again kissing each other as if for the last time and Sai came in Sasuke, his moans muffled by their kissing.
Sasuke slide off of Sai and sat next to him. Sai immediately stood up and started to dress to Sasuke's amazement.
"You don't want to sit here for awhile?" He asked.
"We shouldn't, we've been gone awhile, someone's bond to come looking for us." Sai explained. The two shared more glances and Sai bent over and kissed Sasuke once more, who was still sitting naked on the sand. "I love you cousin." He said and walked away. Sasuke let the water hit him, it was warm and therapeutic. He half wanted to stay the remainder of the night there, naked, with warm water occasionally splashing him, but he knew he couldn't. He dressed and trekked back to his house to conclude his party. When he returned most of the guests had gone and he noticed his aunt and uncle's car was gone also. He went to his backyard to talk to his mother.
"Auntie and Uncle left huh?" He asked.
"Yes, she replied. They didn't get to say bye, but they left your presents. Sai said that he left yours in your bedroom." Sasuke's eyes widened.
"What?! Sai left too!?"
"Yes." Mikoto responded confused. "You know he was leaving." Sasuke never felt more of a stab in the back. After their conversation after they moments ago fucked on the beach Sai had still left. He ran up to his room to find a note from his older cousin that was scribbled quickly on a ripped piece of paper on a small box on his bed.
"Sasuke, please don't be angry with me for leaving. I made this choice because it's best for both of us. I know you love both Itachi and I but I'm too selfish to share you with him. You need to focus on getting him off the dope and not how you can juggle us. I still love you and I always will. I hope you like your present. See you at Christmas.
P.S. Itachi's been using behind your back."
Sasuke's heart sunk low into his stomach and he couldn't help but feel betrayed in more than one way and not only by Sai. Sai, who often made it a point to drag others in the mud with him, was probably telling the truth and his brother, who's lethargic mood seemed more obvious now was still using. How, Sasuke didn't know. All he did know was that he needed someone to talk to that wasn't using drugs behind his back. He left Sai's unopened gift and ran down the stairs to get Naruto who had been surprisingly quiet and distant during the entire party. Sasuke spotted him in the backyard rummaging through empty soda bottles looking for something left over and ran to him.
"Naruto come with me." Sasuke demanded and he took hold of Naruto's under arm and dragged him to the den. He told Naruto everything he didn't want to know about Itachi and even how he had just previously had sex with Sai on a beach to Naruto's dismay. Sasuke spilled his guts to Naruto who listened quietly and barely interrupted until he had nothing left to say. He looked to Naruto for advice but the blonde remained quiet.
"Naruto, please don't tell me I said all of that for nothing." He said.
"You didn't." Naruto said quietly. "But you know I don't approve of these relationships you have Sasuke. You said you wouldn't involve me." Sasuke sighed with a painful and pitiful moan that hurt Naruto's chest.
"Don't do this to me right now Uzumaki! I need someone to be there for me right now and you're doing a shitty job of it." Sasuke continued to tell Naruto how he was supposed to be his best friend and that he wasn't helping his situation. Naruto looked at the raven haired boy vacantly and his words brushed by in almost whisper form. Naruto could feel his heart racing in his ears and he gripped Sasuke's forearm absent-mindedly.
"What are you doing?" Before Sasuke knew it, Naruto was planting a kiss on him and slipping his tongue into Sasuke's mouth. Stunned he allowed himself to be kissed and eventually kissed Naruto back. Sasuke wondered in the back of his mind while all his stresses kept being solved with making out but he quickly forgot what he was thinking as Naruto crawled on top of him. They made out, like Sasuke never made out before with a fire that came off of Naruto like he had never imagined. The blonde seemed intoxicated with him and it was exciting. Naruto rubbed his hands over Sasuke's chest and back, never parting their lips. It felt like he had wanted to do this to Sasuke for ages but only now could he let his passion loose and the feeling was right. Naruto never felt so alive and exhilarated, but yet at peace at the same time. He loved the way Sasuke's mouth tasted, he loved that small aroma that came from the dark haired boy that he had held on to ever since they had hugged. He let his fingers graze every crevasse of every muscle in Sasuke's abs and treasured every moment of it. They kissed and kissed some more for what felt like hours until Kakashi called for Naruto, looking for him so that they could return home. Naruto pulled away from Sasuke and they stared at each other. He never spoke to him and he eased himself out of the den's door silently. Sasuke watched him leave and stared at the door after he left, unsure of what had just happened and dreading his new obstacle.
A/N Told you it was long:D Did you guys enjoy that? Some of you seen it coming, congrats. :)
