Sorry for not updating so soon. Between midterms, football games, and my own laziness…you get the point. Well here you go and after this, there's only one more chapter. You heard me ONE. I'll be trying to concentrate on other stories as well as start a new one after this. I didn't spell check this one so if there are any mistakes then don't worry about it.
*Lemon up ahead, don't read unless you want to* Ch. 8 Never Felt This Way
Ch. 8 Never Felt This Way
A lone figure stood at the balcony of a condo, seven floors up from the busy streets of the city. Normally, he would have a lit cigarette in his hand as he looked down, trying to enjoy the peace that he normally has whenever he observed the glistening lights but now, that peace was gone and he decided to give up smoking. He wouldn't die from it being that he is a demon, it was one of his worse hobbies and he regret ever using them.
'Another reason to hate humans for.'
Well he knew what he was getting himself into when he picked up his first pack, so it wasn't all of the lower race's fault.
He turned back slightly and sighed when he saw the little slip of a woman sleeping peacefully under black sheets of silk. Kagome still haven't woken up, her pulse sounded normal and her wounds were nearly healed thanks to his healing saliva, she was just still sleep. He never felt so worried in his life, the only other time this emotion came to him was when Rin was dieing. Oh how he missed the girl who was like a daughter to him despite her human heritage, she was the only one who he ever had feelings of love, fatherly love, for.
Sesshomaru left his balcony and went back inside, he had enough of standing outside trying to get his thoughts together knowing that it won't happen. He went into the room that housed his black baby grand piano and played a slow, gentle melody.
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The young raven haired woman tried all her might to run but she knew it was futile. Even though her pursuer wasn't as powerful as a full demon, he was still a threat to be taken seriously. Kagome turned back to see glowing red eyes directed at her, she would not live if she was caught, she had to run faster.
Kagome pushed her body as far as she could go only to find that she was getting slower and slower with every step she took. She begged to the gods to be merciful to her and allow her the strength to keep going until she was safe but it seems like her prayers would go unanswered. She fell completely exhausted and stared death in the face, if she was to die, she would fight until the end.
Her stalker slowly approached her like a predator ready to strike it's prey, silver hair gleaming and fangs bared, claws ready to shred her to pieces. Just before he pounced, she heard a beautiful sound of a piano being played and turned to see Sesshomaru's figure only that he looked slightly different. The Sesshomaru she knew had light golden hair and brown eyes, this one was a god. Long silver hair draped over an angelic face. His bangs framed his face and almost hid molten gold eyes. He also had two sets of magenta stripes on his cheeks and a blue crescent moon in the middle of his forehead.
He reached out a clawed hand with those magenta stripes on his wrist while boring his eyes into hers. She turned back to look at the snarling beast that was ready to attack her before turning back to Sesshomaru and taking his hand.
Soon light filled her eyes and Kagome woke up not remembering where she was. She looked around wishing that she had some sort of clue but nothing told her what she wanted to know. There were no pictures, no Id's, not even a cell phone around that she could look at. She started to get scared at being in some stranger's home but hearing that piano from her dream made her pause all thought. She slowly got out the comfortable bed and looked around a bit before heading to the door wanting to find the source of the beautiful music.
Each step that she took, she could feel incredible demonic power but instead of suffocating her, it surrounded her and caressed her. She finally reached the room to see long silver hair covering a broad back.
Sesshomaru sensed her long before she stepped out of his bed but continued to play knowing that she would make her way to him. He turned to look over his shoulder when he knew that she was standing in the door way and made a gesture for her to come in. She was very unsure about coming in so her steps were slow and a bit shaky but she eventually made her way across the room to him.
When she stood on side of him, he took one hand off of the keys and patted the seat before returning that hand to play more of the song. Kagome sat down on the bench and watched as he played. She closed her eyes as she started to remember the words to the song. She hummed the chorus but when he came to the second verse, she opened her mouth to sing.
How it takes my breath
Starts a pounding in my chest
Make me weak, when I think about you
Makes me want to give my all
Life wouldn't mean a thing
Not a happy song to sing
Just emptiness if I had to live without you
When I look into your eyes
Then I realize
That all I need is you in my life
All I need is you in my life
Both her singing and his playing had built up, going back down to the low and soft. Each line of the chorus started off strong and ending softly. Then she finished the whole thing softly.
Cause I've never felt this way about lovin'
Never felt so good
Never felt this way about lovin'
It feels so good
She trailed off knowing that this part was the piano solo but humming a bit to the tune. After he finished the solo, he built the tune up once more just as he had for the chorus before but this time keeping it strong.
Cause I've never felt this way about lovin'
Never felt so good
Never felt this way about lovin'
It feels so good
She sang the chorus once more, the song finishing off softly and once the last note was played, he turned to look at her.
"Have I ever told you that your playing is the most beautiful thing I've ever heard?" She asked looking at the piano and avoiding his gaze.
"Thanks but I believe it is your voice that is the most beautiful" Was all he said then with a sigh she said, "We have a lot to talk about don't we?"
He nodded before replying, "Indeed we do."
There was silence between them, both of them were trying to find questions to ask the other.
"You're a miko, why did you keep it hid?"
Kagome was surprised that he was the first to speak. She still wasn't able to face him as she asked, "You're a demon, why did you keep it hid?"
Sesshomaru looked blankly at her before saying, "I asked first, now answer."
She absentmindedly twiddled her thumbs together before saying, "Well it's nothing that I'm too happy about anyway. My miko powers are…"
"Very powerful from what I can feel right now." Sesshomaru said as he covered a hand over hers to make her stop her thumbs.
"Yes, and that's sort of a problem. My grandfather told me that I have so much energy that it's very unstable. I could have died tonight and not because of Inuyasha. I told myself that I would never use my powers because they could kill me but I took a chance when he came after me." She said as she finally took a chance and looked at him. His eyes displayed concern for her and she felt the heat in her face.
She turned away to hide her red cheeks before saying, "Besides, it's nothing important anyway, now answer my question, why keep your identity a secret? I'm sure you knew I was with your brother."
"Half-brother and would you have allowed me to help you if you knew who I truly was? Kagome, Inuyasha had done some very unforgivable things to you and I would probably scare you more."
"Why go out of the way to help me?"
"It is my job. You also remind me of what happened to my daughter."
Kagome looked up at him in shock, he didn't look like he had a daughter. He chuckled at her knowing what she was thinking and continued with.
"She wasn't really my daughter, she was a little orphaned human girl that I found myself taking in about 500 years ago."
"500 years? But you look no where near thirty."
"I am a demon Kagome, remember. I'm even older than that."
She felt embarrassed that she forgot that quickly but he smiled and continued. He told her how the little girl, named Rin, tried to take care of him when he had gotten hurt from battle even though he told her off. He told her how she always smiled at him even when he wouldn't look at her. He also told her that he saved her life after she was attacked by wild wolves and took her in.
Rin would always follow him no matter what was going on, when he was fighting other demons, she was never far away and was bravely rooting him on, even if those demons were right in front of her threatening her life. It was the first time he saw that humans were stronger creatures than he was led to believe. He never showed her true fatherly love but she somehow knew that he did love her, she was very good at reading him, even when he was at his most emotionless.
Sesshomaru took care of her up until the point that she became a grown woman and fell in love with some human. He didn't trust the man but couldn't break Rin's heart by telling her that she couldn't be with him. In the end, the man ended up abusing her over a course of time after he found out that she had been taken care of by a demon, which she never told Sesshomaru in fear of being hurt again, and almost killed her. Of course, he paid with his life when Sesshomaru found out but unfortunately, Rin was beyond help. He bought her home to the castle as her final resting place, letting her know how much he loved her hoping that would give her enough strength to try and live. She made it three days before she passed on, the entire time, he sat next to her just as she had when she first met him.
"It was only soon after that I started my business to keep this from happening ever again." He finished as he looked at Kagome.
Kagome's eyes were full of tears, his story moved her. She let a few fall, and stopped when she felt the pad of his thumb wipe her tears away. She looked up with a large smile on her face. "I'm sure she's proud of you to be doing this because of her, I'm sure you saved the lives of hundreds of women."
"Yea, she would." He didn't smile but she could hear it in his voice, despite how sad he was at losing the only person he seemed to have ever loved.
"Well Kagome, it's still late, I'm sure you would like to go back to bed." He said as he stood up and started walking to the doorway.
The moment he mentioned bed, she yarned out loud. She was dead tired even though she slept for at least four hours. Kagome stood up from her spot and walked behind him only to pause. He turned back then walked over to her sensing her troubled aura.
"Kagome?"
"I just remembered, I don't have a place to stay and I refuse to go back to Inuyasha. I can't go back to my mom, she lives too far out from my job and I don't want to burden her." She finally said as she felt the stress build up.
She was trying to think of any hotels that she could probably stay at while she looked for a new apartment but she didn't know if she would have enough money to stay while she searched.
"Come with me."
Kagome looked up, her thoughts paused for a second.
"Come with me, you can stay here in my condo, you are welcome to stay for as long as you like."
Finally she was able to get her mind moving again. "No I can't."
He raised his eyebrow again and said, "What, you don't trust me. You think that I might try to take advantage of you?"
Kagome quickly shook her head. Alright, she was a bit nervous about being alone inside of a man's home with said man, especially after what happened to her but she knew that he wouldn't do anything to her.
"I don't want to burden you. I think I could find a cheep but nice hotel…to…to…"
She stopped seeing his intense gaze on her once again. He had that look that said that he would not take any exceptions. Finally she sighed and walked closer to him, defeated.
He bought her back to the room that she woke up in and gave her one of his t-shirts to wear for bed. She went into the bathroom to change then came out to get into bed. As she looked at Sesshomaru, she saw something flash in his eyes before they went back to their impassive state. She just blushed once more before making her way to the bed. Sesshomaru helped her in it and tucked her in.
"Goodnight Kagome, if you need me, I will be down the hall." He said as he moved a strand of hair behind her ear. She shivered and leaned her head into his touch and he stroked her cheek with his thumb before turning to leave. He went to the living room where he set up a makeshift bed on the couch and settled in to go to sleep.
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Kagome found herself in the same dark unfamiliar space that Inuyasha chased her in once again. Hearing a snarl, she turned to see his crimson eyes locked on her. She turned to run only to be blocked by a brick wall that came from nowhere. She tried to call upon her miko powers but it was of no use. He slowly stalked over to her, ready to rip her apart. She tried to open her mouth to yell in hopes that someone would hear her and save her but no sound came out.
'My voice, it's gone!'
She tried yelling again as the hanyou came closer but still no luck. She curled herself into a little ball, only one thought came to her mind.
'Sesshomaru, save me please. SAVE ME!'
Suddenly, Inuyasha pounced on her and grabbed her by her shoulders before shaking her. She started to try and fight him off while still begging for Sesshomaru in her mind to come and rescue her.
"Kagome? Kagome!" It was his voice, but looking around, she could see nothing.
'Sesshomaru, where are you, save me please!' She cried in her mind as she fought even more. Inuyasha started to shake her a little bit harder.
"Kagome, I'm here." She looked around but still couldn't see him. "Wake up."
She was confused, wake up, she already was awake. "Wake up Kagome. You're dreaming."
Sesshomaru continued to gently shake the woman in his arms trying to wake her from her nightmare. He was almost asleep when he heard her screaming out for him. He rushed to her thinking that someone had somehow intruded his home and was attacking Kagome only to find her tossing and turning in her sleep.
Waking her proved to be a difficult task as her arms and legs flailed around trying to hit him. Just what was this woman dreaming? He somehow knew what was going on in her head and knew that his brother would pay dearly for all that he's done. She finally came awake, huffing and puffing as cold sweat ran down her face. When she looked at him, she just threw herself on him and wrapped her arms around his neck before sobbing into his bare chest. It seemed that the reality of things just hit her hard, and all he could do was wrap his arms around her one in her, hair while the other around her waist. When her crying continued, he started purring hoping that it will calm her down.
After sitting still together for what felt like hours but was really minutes, her sobs lessened up and all that was left was stray tears and a few sniffles.
"I know how much pain you're feeling right now, and I know that things will never be the same but believe me when I say that things will be alright."
She slowly sat back to look him in the eyes. "He will never touch you again."
She then leaned into him and hugged him once more, holding him around his waist this time. She never felt so protected in her life.
"Thank you." It was whispered to the point that he almost barely heard even with the silence surrounding them and his sensitive demonic hearing but he heard her.
Sesshomaru laid her back down and made a move to get out of bed but Kagome grabbed his hand. He turned to look at her wondering what was wrong now. He could see the fear in her eyes, no words were needed as he knew what she wanted.
He simply nodded and she scooted over to the other side, allowing him room to crawl under the sheets. She wanted to be closer to him so she pressed her back into him. She almost yelped when she felt his arms go around her and his nose nuzzle her neck but she soon calmed down. She let out a content sigh which came out more as a moan.
His fingers absentmindedly started drawing circles against her. She moaned again, he smiled as he kept going and nuzzled her neck more, brushing his lips against her skin. Her head tilted, giving him more room and he pressed his lips more firmly to her neck. He couldn't help himself, her taste was delicious to him and he was addicted to it. He let his tongue slide out of his mouth to lick his lips grazing her a little. He felt her shiver and it went threw his body. A purr came from him as he continued to kiss her neck, one hand started to stroke her hip sensually while the other tried to pull her closer to him.
Kagome moaned softly at feeling him stroke her skin, she slowly wiggled her rear in circles. Sesshomaru groaned when he felt her rub herself against his groin and he began to harden. He pulled her closer while revenging her neck still, leading a trail up to her jaw line then her cheeks. When Kagome finally registered what was going on, she was about to push him away only to receive his lips over hers, soon any thought that she could possess left her and her eyes drifted closed and she relished in the feelings that only he could bring out from her.
She haven't felt so warm in so long, Inuyasha used to have that ability but it was only for such a short time. Besides, the warmth that she was feeling was different, it was more than just that. She couldn't explain it, in fact, there were no words to describe it other than it felt right. She used a hand to cup the side of his face and started kissing back. As she was doing so one thought came in her mind, was she really ready to move on? She knew that after some woman was attacked by a male the way she was, it would take time, years even to get over something like that. For some, the wounds would never heal and they could never love again, but was she ready? She had no answer for that but she knew that she couldn't stop her body from responding to him.
Sesshomaru purred more at her reaction to him. It was telling him that she was ready to make things better, to move on but he would leave it to her to decide what to do next. Her other arm slowly came up and went around his neck trying to bring him closer to her and he groaned in bliss that she wanted to keep going. He had to wonder how far was she willing to go.
Sesshomaru's kisses became more intense and she matched him as she leaned further into him her fingers tangled in his hair to keep him over her. His claws stated to creep just under the large shirt that swallowed her up. He drew small circles along the skin that he could feel and waited to see what she would do now. Kagome just moaned and arched her body against him, wanting him to feel more of her. He was happy to oblige and he stroked her barely scared skin.
The places he touched made set her flesh on fire and she mewed as her lust grew. She gasped and looked at him with wide eyes as she felt his claws tweak her already harden nipple. Her eyes shut once again as he begun to mold the flesh to his liking. He was surprised that she wasn't wearing a bra thinking that she must have taken it off when she changed or didn't wear one when she went to bed that night but it wouldn't have stopped him, he was grateful. She was soft but firm, plump but not overly gorged, just right and he continued to knead her but he had the desire to see them.
He sat up, breaking the kiss, and looked down at her. She looked back up at him wondering why did he stop. Looking into his eyes, she understood and slowly nodded. He then lifted the shirt off of her and threw it to the side on the floor. She shivered feeling the cold air against her sensitive skin but seeing the look in Sesshomaru's eyes made her feel even more heated. His hand touched her, from her flat stomach to her breast and he licked his lips before leaning down to pull one into his mouth.
He looked up at her while still suckling on her and saw her at her most beautiful, her hands were tangled in his hair, her body was arched, and her head was thrown back as she wined and moaned, wanting him to continue and continue he did as he switched to the other mound of flesh. After giving her breast enough attention, he left a trail of kisses down to her abdomen. Kagome looked up while panting wondering what he was going to do next and she got he answer when she saw him smirk with a devious gleam in his eyes as he removed her panties. She didn't know what to expect, Inuyasha had never done what he was going to do next and she felt a little scared but he gently pushed her legs apart, kissing from her knees down to her thighs wanting her to relax.
When she did relax, she just watched as his head dipped down, she shivered feeling his breath fan over her. Nervousness and excitement had her body squirming as she anticipated his next move which she couldn't tell when it was going to be. He was so agonizingly close to her that he looked as if he was going to taste her but didn't do so. Her eyes rolled in the back of her head and she groaned as she felt the warm roughness of his tongue graze her. Her breathing became more erratic and pleasure swelled inside her. He did it again and her body instinctively thrust forward in hopes that he would do it again. He gave into her wishes and she thanked him with a chorus of moaning.
"Sesshomaru…" She mewed as she felt her climax wash over her.
Her eyes fluttered open, she hadn't even known that she closed them. He had bought her over the edge so quickly and her orgasm was so strong that her body was still tingling, she had to wonder what it would have been like if it was the real thing. The thought of it was making her wet all over again.
A wave of her arousal drifted into his nose and he came up from between her legs after lapping up her juices to claim her lips once more. The kiss was rough but expressed what both was feeling at the moment. They wanted each other and they would have each other no matter what. Whatever situation was going on, would be put on hold, nothing would get in their way.
Sesshomaru growled as he positioned himself between her legs after riding himself of his boxers. This little human miko has done some incredible things to him, things that no other woman has done and he would make sure to let her know of those things but now was not the time for talk. He kissed her gently before looking into her eyes once more, silently asking if she was sure. In her eyes, he saw that she was nervous but he also saw the lust, excitement, love, compassion, trust and his eyes reflected those emotions and more. He made a silent promise that he would do anything and everything to make things right for her and with a swift thrust, he was buried inside of her.
The two groaned at finally being connected, Sesshomaru from being surrounded by her tight, wet, warmth while she of a mixture of pain and pleasure. He was large, she figured that he was but didn't think that he was as large as this. She felt like she was being opened for the first time and she cried a little. Sesshomaru looked down at her while staying as still for her as possible. He rested his forehead against hers, kissing her lips softly in an apologizing manner while purring hoping that she would relax, things would only get much more uncomfortable for them if she didn't. The vibrations from his purring had the effect that he wished and she relaxed under him. He pulled out and her legs automatically wrapped around him as a throaty moan escaped her. He smiled and chuckled a little before slowly thrusting back in.
Kagome met him, thrust for thrust, wanting him to go faster, deeper, and harder. She could feel her climax build up again but it was nowhere near finished. She begged for him threw her cries to bring her to the brink of insanity. Sesshomaru was near his end but there was no way that he would finish without her. He lifted one of her legs and placed it over his shoulder allowing him to dive deeper inside of her. Almost, but not there yet. He lifted up her rear in order to help him move harder then he attached his mouth to one of her neglected breast. Feeling his rough tongue on her and his increase of speed made her snap and with a loud cry of his name, she came once again. He came shortly after, grunting and panting as his body stiffened. He gently laid himself on Kagome, his head resting on her breast to catch his breath and her hands in his hair.
They laid like that for minuets, silence all around them. Sesshomaru closed his eyes for a moment to listen to Kagome's heart beat, it was slow and steady, she was asleep. He smiled as he looked at the woman's peaceful expression. One would never think that she was brutally attacked by her own boyfriend. He looked at her body once more to make sure that none of her wounds had opened only to see that they were closed fully and were barely even noticeable. Her own miko powers must have aided in her healing as well as his youkai, however, that was something to worry about another day. He was dead tired and ready to fall out. He rolled off Kagome and brought her in his arms before falling asleep.
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Sesshomaru woke up stiff to a room full of light. Looking at the clock on his night stand, he was dumbfounded by the time.
'2:53? As in the afternoon?' He thought as he ran a hand threw his hair.
He never slept in so late before, even after all of his conquest. He always woke up before sunrise. He could bet that Ayame called him dozens of times wondering where was he. He had a full schedule today too at the office but he just couldn't find it in him to move…especially with a sexy little vixen sleeping on top of him. The scent in the room still smelled fresh of their little rut and he found himself aroused from it.
Sesshomaru gently stroked Kagome's skin causing her to moan in her sleep. She was the first woman to have ever entered his personal living space and she would be the last to ever do so. She is his. Then he realized something, there was one thing that must be done before this could be so and it involved him getting up out of bed.
He did his best not to wake Kagome as he got up from under the covers but she woke up anyway from the lost of heat.
"Sess…Sesshomaru?" She groaned as her eyes fluttered open. She sat up and stretched before realizing that she wasn't wearing anything and used the blanket to cover herself. She felt even more embarrassed and threw the blanket over her face as she got a perfect view of Sesshomaru's equally necked physique in broad daylight.
'I had that thing inside of me? Shit, no wonder it hurt like hell. How can he walk so gracefully?' She thought feeling a little heated of seeing all of him.
Sesshomaru just shook his head and smiled, she was far from innocent but she still harbored that nature. He just leaned over her and pulled the blanket from her face.
"You better get used to it Kagome, besides, I normally sleep in the nude in my bedroom." He said before giving her a kiss on her forehead. She turned red and he went to get a new pair of boxers.
"You can go back to sleep. I am going to take a quick shower and go out to my office for a little bit. By the time I return, you should be awake and refreshed, then we could get something to eat."
She just sleepily nodded and laid back down. Last night took so much out of her, it was a wonder that she woke up then.
He took out what he would wear and then went inside of the bathroom. After a shower to relax his taut muscles, he went outside and got in his car, cell phone to his ear.
When the person he called picked up, he just said, "Meet me at the sushi bar at the beach now, I'll buy you lunch." After that was said, he hung up and drove on.
He sat at the seat that he and Kagome occupied before and looked out the window, waiting for his company to arrive. He knew he wouldn't have to wait long and twenty minutes after arriving, he felt arms go around him and a kiss on his cheek.
"Sessh baby, hey there. I'm surprised that you called me again." Kagura said as she sat in her seat. The food was already in front of her so she just broke her chopsticks and dug in.
After popping one of the rolls in her mouth and eating it, she just looked at him. He continued to look out the window. She sighed and set down her sticks. She wasn't really hungry being that she ate something an hour ago but she couldn't resist meeting Sesshomaru. She harbored some feelings to him but not enough to love him and she knew that he would never love her either.
"Sesshomaru, what is this about?"
Her voice broke him out of his daze and he turned shocked that she called him by his name and not the silly pet names that she had come accustomed to.
"I'm sure you know Kagura but if you don't then I'll tell you. I'm giving the business up."
Her eyes went wide before looking at him with understanding. "So you really do want this girl, I was afraid that it would happen one of these days. You never were the easiest person to get along with but I'm glad that you are able to find someone who could deal with you."
He raised an eyebrow, amusement in his eyes as he said, "So what, you're not going to fight for me?"
She glared at him before popping another roll in her mouth. After finishing off the bite she said, "Sessh, you're cute to look at and play with but that's all that you're good for to me and you know it."
He smiled a rare smile and she smiled back feeling honored that she ever got to see such a spectacle. He never smiled around her.
She stood up after eating one more bite and said, "Well I guess I'll be seeing you around although it won't be as often as I like. I'll still drop by your office to check up on you just in case you change your mind."
"I doubt that but I'll see you around." He said before receiving a hug from her.
She got the rest of her plate as a take out for Hakudoshi since he was due for lunch as well. She got in her car before pulling out a cigarette to smoke, one of the habits that she picked up from him, and lit it up. Laying back on the seat, she blew out a puff of smoke, a sad smile on her face.
"I will miss our little meetings together, he made the time pass by so quickly. Now what am I going to do for fun?"
Sesshomaru got the food that was in front of him in takeout containers. He was actually hungry for once but he wanted to eat with Kagome. A sly grin shown on his face as that thought somehow changed to him eating sushi off of her. He felt himself twitch, he couldn't wait to get back to her for their special lunch.
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The silver-haired hanyou groaned as he woke up. His entire body felt as if it's been burned, he also felt as if he had been punched in the gut by a wrecking ball, but what hurt most was the back of his head. He touched the back of his head lightly and winced when he felt a bump. He then sat up and found himself on the floor.
'Did I fall out of the bed or something?' He thought as he rolled over from his belly to his back to sit up.
"Kagome?" He said looking around, the room was a mess. He saw broken remnants of a liquor bottle against a wall, the door was hanging on barely to its hinges, tattered sheets on and hanging off the bed and claw marks on the floor.
"What the hell?" He tried to stand up but his head was hurting so badly that the room seemed like it was spinning.
He staggered to the bed in order to lay down but once he did, the smell of blood, Kagome's blood, hit his nose. Suddenly everything came back to him, the spying, the kiss that Kagome shared with Sesshomaru, him drinking, and him going after…
"Shit!" He leapt up out of bed despite the nausea that he was feeling and looked all around the apartment. He paused at the living room when he smelled the scent of Sesshomaru.
He fell to the floor, his back against the wall, she was gone for good, she won't ever forgive him, worst off, she was with his damnable half-brother doing god knows what.
"I have got to be the biggest fuckin' asshole ever."
