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This chapter might want to make you cry...so be prepared! I almost cryed writing it...it's so sad! All I have to say is Edward is going to have a hard time for awhile!

Don't shed a tear

Chapter 2: Lost Memories

Last Time

There was a shuffle of the bushes and out stepped...

Bpov

Jasper? I was surprised it was Jasper...What I mean is you don't get to close to a person/vampire that attempted to kill you.

"What are you doing here?" I asked.

Clearly my once beautiful voice sounded like someone strangled me. But that's how I feel like my heart is being strangled, threatening to break into two, which is what it did." I came to see if your ok" he admitted.

"Well as you can see i'm NOT ok" I said back with as much venom if my voice that I could muster up. Jasper looked shocked and hurt at the same time. I felt him trying to send a wave of calm at me.

"Don't. I don't want to feel calm!" He looked taken back by my outburst. " Bella I can tell your not gonna talk much but please just listen to what I have to say" I didn't anything because I knew my voice would crack.

So he began his little speech. "Bella I know were not as close as we should be for what you are to me.
To me your my little sister and I don't want to see you hurting. I know you are hurt because he left all those years ago but I think you should forgive him.

He really loves yo--" "LOVES ME! IF HE REALLY

LOVES ME HE WOULD HAVE LEFT IN THE FIRST PLACE! OK I ADMITT IT I STILL LOVE EDWARD! ALWAYS HAVE AND ALWAYS WILL but I just can't do this anymore" that was when I collapse to my knees sobbing.

"I...I.. I just can't" my voice broke. Jasper looked like someone just told him Alice had died.
I knew he could feel my pain.

I knew he never in his life have felt so much pain coming off of one person.
I knew I couldn't stay here anymore on this earth.Well I knew alot of things but I knew quite thought of the obivious. The Volturi. The Volturi could end my misery.

FlashBack

"You don't mess with the Volturi well not unless you want to die"

End of FlashBack

Unless you want to die. Those words rang in my ears. "three days...only three days" Jasper seemed confused.

"I'll stay for 3 days" realization flashed in his eyes and he hugged me. "Then I have to get back to my family" he nodded.

In a way that was the truth because Charlie and Renee died long ago.He was smiling as if there was no tomorrow.

Little did he know that alot more was happening in 3 days and it did not include Amy or Cole but it did include the royal family of Vampires. I still don't believe Edward loves.

I mean how can he love me? He's perfect and I'm...I'm just not. Edward doesn't love me! I screamed at myself.

So if Edward no longer loves me then there is no reason to have a heart and if there is no reason for a heart then there is no reason to have one.

If there is no a need to have a heart then there isn't a reason that I should live.( Sorry if you got confused)
That's just it! I CAN"T LIVE!He screwed me up! I had a good life without Edward well not great but it was good enough but now as he tries to get back in my self I can't help thinking

'Just you wait he'll leave you again.You can't never measure up to his perfection' that thought was the only thing that kept me from running into his arms.

"Bella? Bella? Earth to Bella"Jasper? Meadow?Oh I'm still in the meadow with Jasper and now were headed to the only being that will be the death of me.( I love that quote!) Litrally. Passing. It's like a blur no matter where I go it never stops.

" Jasper" I whispered before I couldn't keep my eyes open. I fainted! WAIT THAT'S NOT SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN!

Jpov ( This is my first time doing Jasper's point of view GO ME! LOL)

"Jasper" Bella whispered causing me to stop and realize Bella was no longer running with me. Her whisper got followed by a soft thud as if something just fell. "Bella?" I called out. "Oh no" I gasped. I ran to where I heard Bella.

And there she was looking so calm with her eyes closed I didn't know what to do so I just grabbed her and ran. If she doesn't wake up Edward is going to KILL me!!

Bpov

Drowning. That's the only word to describe what it feels like. I'm drowning in Black Water. My lungs were sceaming for air.Which is odd considering I'm a vampire. But If I open my mouth I'll drown quicker.
I'm trapped. I'm a prisoner of my own life. Memories are flooding into me. Memories of him.

I so despertly wanted to forget them. But as quickly as I thought it the memories disappeared like they never even happened.It was as if they didn't exsist anymore.I am happy I am finally happy. But was I truely happy? could I have been happy with those memories? As these questions filled my mind I thought about it. Little did I know I was about to find the reason for all my happiness was all because of a greek god.

"Bella?!" someone cried out. I didn't know the voice it sounded like velvet though it sounded like it was being tortured. "Carlise?! why isn't she opening her eyes?!"the velvet voice cried out.

"Edward! CHILL! Bella will open her eyes in 3...2...1" sure enough I opened my eyes. Beside me was a bronze haired Greek God. " Bella are you okay?!"

"I'm okay...Who are you?" I said while pointing to the Greek God. "Bella you don't know who he is"
I just shook my head. What was the big deal if I didn't remember him? "Can you name everyone you know in this room please?" Carlise asked. That was a weird request but ok.I nodded. " Carlise Cullen, Esme Cullen, Alice Cullen, Rosalie Hale, Emmett Cullen,and Jasper Hale."

I said while pointing to everyone."So you don't remember Edward at all?" someone asked. I shook my head once more. So that's the Greek God's name. Hm. It suits him. Edward looked like he would cry if he could.
"What happened to me anyways?" I was curious to why I was in a hospital. Me being a vampire and all.

" You fainted" Jasper and Carlise said at the same time. I just made "o" with my mouth."Bella what was your last memory before you fainted?" hmmm. " I was running in the forest and I guess I was thinking to hard on something and I fainted."

"Any idea of what you were thinking?" He asked. " Ummmmm...I think I was thinking about...someone leaving me for the second time... I think it was Edward but I can't be to sure." ( Ok she only remembers some things but not many!) Everyone looked shocked. Next thing I knew Edward was hugging me saying he'd never leave me not for anything in the world.

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