Chapter three

Chapter three

Mike's POV

Mia thinks I never cared about her. It was in her eyes. It was there. She seriously thought I never cared about her. How could I not care about her? I've always cared about her. That is why when she left I went to Jason. I mean I thought the guy would understand and I never should have gone to him. I should have called Haley. She would have told me to stay and think about how I really felt about Mia. I went to Jason and He told me to leave. He told me that she just needed some space. She only needed time to think. I went with my parents. And I've missed her every minute of everyday since I left. But how can I tell her that?

I mean Jason and I did keep in contact but he dated Mia. He took her from me…I can't believe he dated her? He made her promises he would never be able to keep. Jason tried to protect her and all but he never loved her. He never would love her. He cared about her but he could never love her. I was supposed be her everything for life. I was for awhile.

"Where's the paper?" I ask out loud.

I go over to the computer desk and hope it is still there. I grab the paper after moving a notebook. While I am looking for the paper I remember a time when she was dating Jason and he left her crying and she asked me what she did wrong and saying stuff that didn't make sense. After that she pulled me into a kiss then left crying.

I quickly dial the number written on the paper. I've never not known what to do. I've always been able to make things better for her and I will. I just need Haley's help. She always knows what to do.

It's a number I should have remembered days ago. It brings back a memory. A memory I tried so hard to forget. I never told Jason. And Jason never bothered asking what Mia and I talked about. It was their last fight. Or as Jason calls it, the fight that ended the relationship. Jason and Mia just got into a huge fight. They were an on again off again couple. I had no idea what the fight was over. Haley always told me I was jealous. And I hate it when Haley is right. I had to be jealous of Jason. That he gets to kiss her whenever he wants. That he can tell her she's beautiful without getting weird glances shot your way. And he can tell her he loves her without a second glance. He can tell her all of that and I can't because people will start to think that I am in love with her. And maybe I am in love with her…but who's to know other than me?

Flashback

I hear a knock at the door.

"Come in!" I yell.

I know who it is. Its three knocks. It is a slow and cautious knock. I defined it as Mia's knock years ago.

I get up to greet her. I only expect her to be happy. She just got off a date with Jason. I told her to tell me the details. Jason tells me them anyways. He always go on and on about the kisses. HE describes them in such detail. And every single time I get the urge to punch him. I can't place why. Haley once said it was jealously. I told her was being protective of Mia because Mia is my best friend. She only responds with a laugh.

"Mike. Jason and I had a fight." Mia says nearly in tears.

"About?" I asks going over to her.

Flashback

I hear a knock at the door.

"Come in!" I yell.

I know who it is. Its three knocks. It is a slow and cautious knock. I defined it as Mia's knock years ago.

I get up to greet her. I only expect her to be happy. She just got off a date with Jason. I told her to tell me the details. Jason tells me them anyways. He always go on and on about the kisses. He describes them in such detail. And every single time I get the urge to punch him. I can't place why. Haley once said it was jealously. I told her was being protective of Mia because Mia is my best friend. She only responds with a laugh.

"Mike, Jason and I had a fight." Mia says nearly in tears.

"About?" I asks going over to her.

"I got mad at him for never paying any attention to me and never treating me right. Then he called me selfish. I said I wasn't being selfish. All I want do is spend time with my boyfriend, then he says he doesn't need to spend all his time with me. I am not important. Then I asked him why are we even together. He said we were done. After that I left and came here" Mia said crying.

"Oh Mia I am really sorry but you know he can be an ass" I said.

I think how he can say things like that to her. I would never treat her like that if we were together but wait why am I thinking like this I gave up my chance to be with her when I told her my feelings for her had passed last week.

"I know and I think I am finally done with him I can't keep going back to him when he apologizes and gives me speeches that he will change because he doesn't" Mia said still crying

"Well good you need to move on from him, you should have never got involved with him like I told you not to" I said trying to be nice.

"Ya your right" Mia said and slowly stopped crying.

"Were you lying before when you said that your feelings for me passed or were you just trying not to hurt me because you never had any?" Mia asked

Wow here is my chance but do I really want her to think I am lying thinking I am just saying it because she hurt or because she's my friend, I don't know what to say. I quickly make up my choice.

"No I wasn't lying. I had feelings for you and still do but I thought I wouldn't act on them since I was leaving and I knew that it would kill us both not to see each other so ya" I said trying to explain to her and hoping she would catch my drift.

"Oh okay well I got to go thanks for the talk" Mia said absorbing the information.

I can see the wheels turning in her head.

On her way out she turned back and kissed me not a peck on the cheek but a full on lip lock. I was shocked but liked it and thought this is it. Right when I was going to kiss her back she pulled away and left crying.

I went after her calling her name but she was ignoring me. When I finally caught up to her I pulled her into a very passionate kiss that lasted more than two minutes. After that she pulled away and asked me what I was doing, I said I was kissing her and she asked why. I answered because I've always wanted to. Then we went back to my place to talk. She fell asleep on the couch. I went and got here blanket. She grabbed my arm when I went to leave. She asked when I was leaving. Another two days I told her. I see the sadness in her eyes and run to get a teddy bear for her. Then the next morning we started talking and then she started asking me why all of a sudden I feel this way .She starts to get the wrong idea and I try to stop her but it's no use. She leaves with the stupid teddy bear. I sit on the couch and think about anything.

End of Flashback

See it was a simple memory. But I couldn't forget. I kissed her. I liked it. I really did. And I left her. Alone. All by herself. And I told myself I wasn't going to look back. I made my decision.

"Hello…Hello…?" A male voice asked.

"Oh…sorry. Um its Haley's cousin calling. May I speak to her or is she busy?" I ask recognizing the voice as Nathan.

"She's not busy. Just give me a minute." He says.

"Thanks." I say.

"Hello." Haley says happily.

"Haley. I miss her." I say.

"Ha. I knew it. Who?" Haley says excitedly.

"Mia and you made a bet on Mia and me?" I ask her.

"Well yeah. Lucas said you wouldn't miss Mia and he totally owes me fifty bucks now. Not the point. But c'mon you at least told her?" She says.

"No." I say.

"Why?" She asks and I can hear the desperation in her voice.

"Because she is my best friend and I am not supposed be in love with her. And you got to promise not to tell her." I say quickly.

"Fine. I promise. She stills has the teddy bear if that makes you feel any better. Mia named him Todd." Haley says.

"Okay. But do you know how she feels about me?" I asked.

Haley laughed.

"What?" I ask.

"She still feels the same. I can guarantee you that she still feels the same." She says.

"I have to go. Love ya." I say.

"I hate you." Haley says.

"And people wonder why I don't like love." I say.

She hangs up.

I walk around the house. I forget about everything that has happened in the last three days. The fact that my parents once again left me here alone. That probably wouldn't even notice I was away if the school didn't call. I remember them saying that the only way to succeed in this world was to have a good education Michael.

"Where the hell is my phone?" I yell angrily.

I see it on the couch. I go to the couch and grab it. I punch in the numbers written on the paper.

I wonder what I want to say. I know what I want to say. I want her to know I'm in love with her, that I miss her and I need her. But I'm putting my heart on the line and I'm scared. I don't like fear. I want the teddy bear back. She should have brought that with her.

I need to see you, I have to meet me at the coffee house in 2 days

Mike xoxoxoxo

I sit back down on the couch. I put my phone down. I wait for her to text me back.