Haruhi is right. Kaoru and I are different. I mean his voice is sweeter and calmer than mine. It's like candy is flowing out of his mouth. Cheesy I know, but it's true. Our clients seem to respect him a little more than me as well. He respects people's opinions and listens to their problems thoughtfully. He loves to read, write, and even speak english. Those are just some of the special talents he has. He doesn't even realize them to tell you the truth. He is just so dense sometimes that its well.......cute.
I kinda get jealous of him though to tell you the truth. Its no big deal really. I know that he probably gets the same way too. But.....when I get jealous it's a little different. Kaoru said when I get that way I start to feel irritated. He says a cloud of my emotions fogs over me and I break out into a sort of rage. I guess that's why I suddenly yelled at Haruhi that day. Kaoru was right, he's always right. I do need better control over my feelings. I'm such an idiot.
But I've been puzzled lately. Why....why did Kaoru set me up on that date with her? Its not like I wanted it. Every time I ask him why he just says, "Hikaru it was for your own good, besides even younger brothers have to look after their older ones." It's always the same damn reply. I hate it when Kao makes me think. That's his job.
I'm starting to love the brotherly acts I do with him too. He's really gotten better at his...dare I say it? His uke act. I mean he always says his lines right on cue. Ha Ha, I remember that one of the girls fainted just because of the way he blushed. It looks so real anyone other the the rest of the Host Club could be fooled.
To tell you the truth, I've been ranting like this about my little brother a lot. It's kinda becoming a habit really. The weird thing is that it's not bothering me at all. I actually like talking about him like this. It's fun, and it's gets me in a good mood. I think I'm starting to feel the feeling Kaoru was talking about. He says you only get this emotion once, and you can share it with one special person.
I wonder.....can I maybe share it with you....Kaoru? Can I maybe.....just maybe start falling in love with you? Wait, why the hell am I asking this? Besides, I think I already have. So I guess......I should say thanks..........Thank you, Kaoru.
