DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN GAKUEN ALICE
AUTHOR'S NOTES: Hey guys! Hehehe…thanks so much for the reviews! Whew…it was because of your reviews that motivated me to update this chapter! Hehehe…and here you go guys! Chapter 10!
CHAPTER TEN- WHY IT HURTS SO MUCH
"Spin the bottle? What's that game?" I asked confused.
"The game Mikan-chan is when you spin the bottle and it lands on a person then we get to let the person choose whether he will take truth or dare." Ruka explained.
"Oh…I see…" I said getting to catch up.
"But in this game Mikan-chan we won't let the person choose truth or dare." Koko said grinning.
"And why's that?" I asked.
"Because…in this game you have to tell the truth on the questions that we will ask." Yuu explained.
"And how do we know if the person is telling the truth?" Natsume suddenly asked.
"Oh…we'll know…" Hotaru said. "Also, you have to get one piece of paper in here. The piece of paper will be the questions in which you have to answer."
We then begin the game. Hotaru was the one who spin the bottle. It first landed on Yuu. Yuu then nervously get one piece of paper and he read it aloud.
"What is your favorite food?" Yuu read. "Um…it's…the foods that…A-Anna cooks." Yuu said blushingly. I noticed that Anna too was blushing.
"Oh…this must be…love!!!" Nonoko cried giggling. Koko and Ruka were wolf whistling.
"Hey! It's delicious! I really love…Anna's recipes." Yuu said blushing more than ever.
"Th-Thanks Yuu…" Anna said stuttering.
Next, Yuu spins the bottle and it landed on Nonoko. Nonoko get a piece of paper and gulps.
"Ah…who…who in the boys in your class…do you…like most?" Nonoko read and begin to blush. "Can I have another one?" Nonoko asked fidgeting.
"No! That's the one that you chose so that's that." Hotaru said firmly. Nonoko looks as if she's about to cry.
"It's…it's…K-K-Koko!" Nonoko cried and was look down on her lap. Whoa! I never knew that Nonoko likes Koko. I thought that she always think of him as annoying. Koko looked shocked.
"Uyy…Koko!" Anna cried giggling.
"I…I…I…" Koko muttered and turning red as ever. He, like Nonoko also looks down on his lap.
"What is this? Some sort of confession?" Natsume suddenly said.
"Sort of I think." I replied. Come to think of it…it really looks like a confession or something. Nonoko then spins the bottle nervously and it landed on…Hotaru! Hotaru calmly get a piece of paper and read.
"Who do you like to blackmail always?" Hotaru read. "Ruka." She suddenly answered and Ruka was turning scarlet trying to hide his blush. Koko and Yuu were wolf whistling again and Anna, Nonoko and me giggled.
After that, Hotaru spins the bottle and it landed on…me! Nervously, I get a piece of paper and read the question aloud.
"What is the happiest thing that happens in your life?" I read. What was the happiest thing that ever happens in my life? Hmm…I suddenly look at Ruka. Of course!
"Well…the happiest thing that happens in my life was when…the time Ruka treated me. We were having such fun…right Ruka?" I asked. Ruka smiled and nodded. The others were giggling. I guess even if I already move on that was still the happiest thing since I really have fun at that time.
I then spin the bottle and it landed on Natsume. Natsume, although hesitantly, get a piece of paper and read it aloud. We wait in bathed breath.
"Who is your crush?" Natsume said calmly. "No! I won't answer this one!" Natsume said.
"What?! Natsume come on! You have to answer it." Ruka said. Of course! He also has to answer it!
"Hey Natsume answer it! We also answer ours." I said. It'll be unfair!
"No I won't." he said. He's such a kill joy.
BAKA! BAKA! BAKA!
"Hey what gives?" Natsume said rubbing his forehead.
"Okay. Let's change the question. Describe your crush." Hotaru said sternly and they were again giving death glares. Finally, Natsume answered.
"She's…a beautiful person, intelligent and not clumsy, she's not an airhead and she's well-mannered. She's born to a well-to-do family and…she's wearing decent panties unlike someone I know." Natsume said and his words seem to pierce in my heart! Ow!
I don't know why his words seem to pierce on my heart. It really hurts. Is it because the person that Natsume like is so not me? Hey! I don't like Natsume! Why would I be hurt by this?
What's this? Argh…I really hate it! My heart is pumping so fast that it hurts already. I want to get out of here already!
"I…can…I…go home already?" I muttered weakly. My heart is still pumping so fast. It won't slow down and it hurts a lot.
"Are you okay Mikan-chan?" Ruka asked.
"Y-Yeah…I just want to go home. I'm not really feeling well." I said as I stand up. I don't want to even dare look at Natsume. I suddenly went out of the cottage without saying goodbye.
What? Am I really in love with Natsume? Is that why I find it easy to let go of Ruka? Is that because I love Natsume? But…it must be so sad…the time that I realize that I like Natsume is the time that I know that Natsume doesn't like me.
She must be the girl that Natsume said that he likes since 7. OMG! For ten years he have love that girl…she must be so lucky…lucky indeed…
"Um…hello…" somebody called. I look up at her. Whoa! She's so beautiful! She's like a goddess!
"Um…what can I do for you?" I asked stun. She's so beautiful! I think that she's even rich! Wait! Could this be…?
"Do you know Natsume Hyuuga? I want to talk to him…" she said. Ouch! My heart. Wait! Tears started to leak out of my eyes! Wait! Don't! This must be the girl that Natsume like for 10 years!
"I…I…he's there in that small cottage." I said trembling pointing at the small cottage where we have the game.
"Thanks!" she cried. "Oh yeah I'm Hikari Yamada. I'm Natsume's girlfriend. And you are?" she asked. What? Natsume's girlfriend? Natsume never mention her. What's happening in the world?
"I'm…I'm…Mikan Sakura." I said. "Natsume's friend."
"Mikan Sakura? Oh it's Natsume's childhood friend! Natsume told me about you." She cried ecstatically. "Oh I have to go now. Thanks again."
She then went off to the cottage. What's happening? Natsume never mention that girl to me and now that girl knows that I'm his childhood friend? Grr…what's wrong? Argh! I hate you Natsume!
Over the next few days, Natsume and Hikari are always seen together. Natsume seems to really like Hikari from his actions which in turn hurts me a lot if ever I see the two of them together.
I usually spend my time now in the sakura tree. It feels like if ever I'm in there I could escape from all the things that are happening right now. I could even contemplate on my feelings towards Natsume.
One day as I was in the sakura tree and making a new song, Ruka came towards me. It seems that he knows that I'm always in here.
"Hi Mikan-chan!" Ruka said drawing near to me.
"Hi Ruka! What brings you in here?" I asked.
"Nothing. I just thought that I should spend some time with you." Ruka said smiling.
"Okay. Why? Am I really feeling down right now?" I asked.
"Yeah…ever since that Hikari-san came isn't it Mikan-chan?" Ruka asked.
"I…think so…" I muttered weakly.
"What's that you're writing? A new song?" Ruka asked pointing to the paper I'm holding.
"Y-Yeah. You know I always put my feelings to the songs that I make. Hehehe…" I muttered smiling. "How…how come I don't know about Hikari? Natsume never mentions her. I didn't even know that…she is Natsume's girlfriend." I suddenly said tears leaking out of my face.
"Oh…Mikan-chan…it's not like you seems it is…I mean…it'll be over soon and finally you'll be happy again." Ruka said handing me his handkerchief.
"Th-Thanks! I just…I…I think I'm in love with Natsume, Ruka! But I just can't express it! I can't! I tried to forget about the feelings but I just can't! Ruka! Am I a bad person?" I asked expressing all my feelings while I cry over his shoulders.
"No you're not a bad person Mikan-chan. Someday I'll know that it'll end." Ruka said patting me.
"But…but it hurts Ruka! I can't stand it anymore every time I see the two of them together. I just can't…waah! Ruka!!!" I cried really hard. I just want to cry that's all…I want to let the feelings out…
After letting the feelings out, me and Ruka went to the cafeteria. When we arrive there I saw Natsume and Hikari holding hands which really break my heart into pieces.
"Mikan-chan! Ruka!" Hikari called to us. I tried to control my tears.
"Hi!" I muttered weakly.
"Hi Hikari-san! Hi Natsume!" Ruka said smiling. Natsume nodded then he suddenly looks at me. I then look away.
"Blue berries why your eyes are all puffy red?" Natsume asked suddenly. I don't know if it's concern or not.
"Nothing of your concern." I said then I suddenly drag Ruka out without saying goodbye to the two of them. I just can't stand it.
"Ruka…I want to go home now." I muttered.
"Okay Mikan-chan." Ruka said as he accompanies me home. I just want to go home already and contemplate on the things…
Why? Why is this happening to me? I can't really understand why? I have never really felt this way when I have like Ruka but why on Natsume am I like this? Is it because that I now care for another person and seeing him with another girl breaks my heart?
I can't really understand why…and all I know is that Natsume likes no…even though that I hate to admit it but he loves Hikari! I mean…holding hands? And then the other day I saw Natsume giving a locket to Hikari and then they hug? Ouch! It really hurts just thinking about those things…
I hope that this will soon end – this feeling of pain and at the same time longing for his presence – and I hope that I can move on even though I don't know when that time will be because I just realized that I'm so deeply in love with him that I can't bear to be away from him…forever…
Ugh…sorry if it's cheesy and stuff…hehehe…I mean…I haven't experience what Mikan has experience already…I mean…ehem! Hehehehe…anyway…what do you guys think of this chapter? Who is this Hikari? Hehehe…anyway read and review guys! And I'll try to update soon!
