Here's the first chapter. I hope you all like it!
Disclaimer: I don't own.
Warning: Slash (m/m) Swearing More stuff to come up.
In the days that followed our confrontation in the common room, I often wondered why a tiny, one-syllable word could knock my world off its axis and send it spiraling downward into a dark tunnel. A tunnel so long, so dark, so terrifying that it would cause my own emotions to spiral down with them.
But wait, all tunnels have a light at the end right? I knew that was supposedly the rule. What was the light at the end of my tunnel?
I was so engrossed in finding my light; I didn't notice Lily tapping me on the shoulder.
"Come on Sirius, Remus wanted us to meet him in the library so we could work on our potions essay together," Lily said gently. She knew I hated going anywhere outside the common room unless I had to. The stares, glares, and the whispers made me want to walk around in James' invisibility cloak all day.
I stood up. I only did things now a days because Remus asked me to.
In the corridors I walked as close to Lily as possible. Our arms brushed, and I hid my face behind my hair, and only looked at my shoes. I didn't want to make eye contact with anyone. Lily understood, and didn't move away. I was glad for her comfort and support.
I could still hear the whispers, but it wasn't as bad when I couldn't see the hate and disgust in the eyes of the people I used to like.
We meet up with Remus in the library. I gave him a weak but genuine smile. He smiled back, and moved the chair next to his with his foot. I sat down, unrolling my parchment, and pulling out my quill and ink well. Lily gathered her own things together and set them on the table.
They worked for a few hours on their essays before leaving to go to dinner. They sat separate from everyone else. No one would come near them anymore. I ate the food in silence. It hurt me to look down the table and see that between bites people were glaring down the table at us. Remus and Lily soon noticed my distress. I wasn't used to this yet. Not yet. They ate quickly after that, and we left the Great Hall before most people had finished the main course.
When we got to the common room, we said good night to Lily, and trumped up the stairs. We had decided that we should go to bed before they got back from dinner. That way they couldn't tell us to leave.
I was exhausted though, and like usual Remus drew his hangings and began to read, but I feel asleep.
We were hiding in a broom closet, and Moony had his ear pressed against the door. James had both the cloak and the map, while we had run off in a different direction with nothing. Peter, the lucky devil, had turned into a rat and ran. The prank had gone smoothly until Peter had sneezed so loud that Peeves had floated in and screamed for Filch.
It didn't matter though. We had everything set up, and breakfast tomorrow was going to be insane. I started laughing just at the thought of it. In the dark I could see Moony's outline as he waved his hand at me.
"Shhh!" He scolded, but I could tell he was smiling.
I held in my laughter, and finally after a few moments, Remus waved me the all clear. He stepped away from the door, and as I moved forward towards it, my foot caught on a broom. I fell forward, and reached blindly in the dark for something to support me.
I landed with most of my weight on something soft. It took me a moment to realize that what I was using to support myself was Remus. I had my arms locked around his neck. I couldn't really make out the expression on his face.
"Sorry." I whispered. I straightened up. I was about to unwind my arms, but he wrapped his arms around my waist, and pulled me with a force so unlike him I was frozen in shock.
"Don't be because I'm not." He replied softly. The confidence in his voice mingled with something I couldn't comprehend at that moment. I didn't have time to do anything, because he was moving closer. And closer. His lip pressed down on mine. My brain exploded into chaos, but my body reacted without instruction. My hands wound into his hair, and soon I had him pinned to the door. Suddenly the door was flung open, and we tumbled out. James looked incredulously at us and Remus scrambled to his feet.
Suddenly, Remus began laughing: A high-pitched, cold, mocking laugh that wasn't like him at all.
James joined in after that. "I told you. I told you he was a queer."
Remus looked at James, high fived him, and then told him. "You owe me big for helping you prove this. I can't believe I touched it." Remus and James sent a very dark look at me.
"Moony…" I moaned from the floor. "Please. I… I love you. Don't leave me. Please don't." I could feel the tears stinging my eyes.
Remus gave me a look of pure loathing and disgust. Much like the look James and I give Snape.
"Sirius…. Sirius!" Remus jabbed me slightly harder than necessary and I woke up with a jolt. I could feel the tears on my face. Remus was sitting on the edge of my bed. It was dark, and I could hear James and Peter snoring.
Remus pulled out his wand. "Lumos," The sudden light made us both blink.
"Are you ok?" Remus asked, with obvious concern.
I sat up, and hugged him tightly, breathing in the scent of his hair. "Don't leave me! Please don't go."
"I'm not going anywhere." Remus told me, sounding startled. "What ever would give you that idea?"
I just shook my head, face buried in his neck. He pulled away to look at me. "I'm not leaving you." He said firmly. The light from his wand flashed behind his eyes, and it looked like he had a light all his own. My light.
He budged me over as I made the connection. He settled down into the blankets of my bed, and as he drifted to sleep, my mind returned again to the tunnel.
Sure the tunnel was long and dark, but my light was waiting at the end of the tunnel to catch me when I made it to the bottom. So no matter how dark or long the tunnel may be, but I was now positive it was worth the fall.
So, I know it was kind of cheesy and stuff. Just tell me what you think in a review. Critism is as always welcome.
